Out of Sight, Out of Mind

Chapter Five

AMANDA WAS WATCHING THE clock. For a while now, she'd wondered if maybe, when the final bell rang, her nightmare

would be over. She had no real reason to believe that this would happen. Her transformation hadn't begun with the first bell at school, so why would it end with the last bell?

Still, she harbored a hope. After all, that last bell held a lot of meaning, not only for her but for all the students at Meadowbrook, and maybe for the teachers, too. It was a big deal: it meant the end of the school day, dismissal, escape, freedom from authority. So maybe, just maybe, that bell would signify her own freedom, her escape from the prison of Tracey's wretched body.

But at 3:45 that afternoon, Amanda Beeson walked out of Meadowbrook Middle School in the same condition she'd entered it that morning: as Tracey Devon. So Amanda revised her expectations. She'd woken up that morning as Tracey, and she wouldn't be herself till she woke up the following morning. Somehow she'd have to get through the rest of the day and the night as the number-one nerd of the universe. She planned to go to bed very early.

Meanwhile, there was no place for her to go other than Tracey's house. So she went over to the place where the kids who took the bus were supposed to wait. This time, she recognized one of the travelers- a boy who had been in Tracey's social-studies class. Amanda couldn't remember his name, but she thought he was kind of cute, so she decided to strike up a conversation.

"Hi."

The boy didn't even turn in her direction. She raised her voice. "Hi." He glanced at her. "What?"

Clearly, this boy had no conversation skills. So Amanda plunged in with a safe, sure-fire remark that was bound to get him to talk. "Can you believe how much homework Ms. Dailey gave us?"

She waited for the expected response- wholehearted agreement, a grumble, something like that. Instead, the boy backed away and started up a conversation with another girl.

Well, what did she expect? He thought she was Tracey Devon. If only that boy knew who was really standing right by him, who was actually speaking to him, he'd be thrilled; he'd fall all over himself, showing off, trying to impress her. That knowledge gave her a tiny bit of satisfaction, but she still felt down.

Her bus arrived, and Amanda saw that the driver was the same man who had picked them up that morning. This time, she made sure she was at the front of the group so that she could get on first and grab a front seat. She didn't want to have to go down the aisle, where someone could trip her.

But once again, when the bus doors opened, she was shoved out of the way and pushed to the back of the group. And again the bus doors closed in her face.

She moved to bang on the doors, but this time she got there too late. Someone at a window saw her, but he didn't tell the driver. He just grinned and stuck out his tongue as the bus took off.

Amanda stood there, fuming. Was the man blind or something? What was he doing driving a school bus? Maybe she should tell her mother-no, Tracey's mother-to make a complaint to the school.

And now she'd have to walk to Tracey's house. She tried to recall the route that the bus had taken that morning, and she thought she had a pretty good idea how to get there. But she was unfamiliar with the neighborhood, so of course she made a couple of wrong turns and had to backtrack twice. A trip that took ten minutes by bus took her more than an hour.

As she turned onto Tracey's street, she imagined the scene that would take place when she arrived at the house. Tracey's mother would be worried. When she, Amanda, came home later than expected, she sometimes found her mother on the verge of tears, ready to call the police and report her as a missing person.

Her friends' parents were like this, too, reacting strongly, but sometimes in different ways. She remembered Britney's mother yelling at her, and Katie could even get grounded if she came home late three times in a row.

Maybe Tracey's mother wouldn't be too angry if Amanda pointed out that it wasn't her fault, that the driver just hadn't seen her. In any case, she wasn't looking forward to the confrontation. A few more minutes wouldn't make any difference, so she walked slowly and used the time to examine Tracey's neighborhood.

Amanda lived in an older part of town, where the houses were huge and surrounded by big, leafy trees. This was one of the new neighborhoods, with modern-looking houses-nice, though not as grand as the ones in Amanda's area. It dawned on her that this wasn't where Tracey had lived when they'd been in elementary school together.

How did she know this? Maybe it was being in Tracey's body that made her remember something that she'd long ago forgotten-going to Tracey's eighth birthday party, when they'd been in the same second-grade class. The Devon family was only three people then, Tracey and her two parents, and they'd lived in a two-bedroom apartment in a garden complex. They must have moved to this neighborhood when the Devon Seven were born and they'd needed more space.

It was hard to believe that she, Amanda Beeson, the queen of Meadowbrook Middle School, had ever really gone to a party for Meadowbrook's number-one nobody, Tracey Devon. Amanda couldn't remember if her mother had forced her to go. What she did remember was an ordinary birthday party, with the usual games, a cake, and candles… But now that she thought about it, she had the same notion she'd had earlier-that Tracey had been a regular, normal person back then. Not one of her friends, but not a hopeless weirdo either. Briefly, Amanda wondered what could have happened to Tracey between then and now. An accident? Some kind of brain injury?

She was at Tracey's door now, and she took a deep breath. Then she turned the handle, walked in, and called out, "I'm home!" That was what Amanda always did when she arrived at her house every day after school.

But apparently, this was not what Tracey did. Mrs. Devon shot out of a room upstairs and appeared on the landing that overlooked the living room.

"Hush!" she hissed. "The girls are napping!" Then she went back into whatever room she'd come out of.

"Sorry," Amanda murmured to no one, and she ambled into the kitchen. Back at her own home, her mother would have now made her a little afterschool snack or, if she was out, the snack would have been waiting for Amanda on the counter. She brightened when she spotted a box of cupcakes on the Devons' kitchen counter, but before she could help herself to one, the teenage mother's helper came into the room.

"Don't touch those-they're for the girls!"

"What's for me?" Amanda asked, but Lizzie had already hurried out of the room.

Amanda spotted a basket of apples on the table. She did a quick count, saw that there were more than seven, and took one. Biting into it, she went back out into the living room and looked around.

Some framed photos hung in a cluster on the wall, and while she ate her apple, she went over to examine them more closely. There was a traditional bride-and-groom picture of a woman she could identify as a younger version of Tracey's nasty mother, and she assumed that the man in the picture was Tracey's father. Then there was another photo of the couple, older, beaming proudly as they stood beside an oversize crib packed with seven tiny babies. The rest of the pictures were group photos of the septuplets on their birthdays and individual shots of each septuplet at each age. One would have been enough, Amanda thought-the little girls looked exactly alike.

And where was Tracey? Amanda finally located another picture, which seemed to be a framed version of the previous year's family Christmas card. There they were, the seven little smiling Devon girls standing in a row in front of their parents. Looking more closely, Amanda was able to make out Tracey, half hidden behind the Christmas tree. Funny-it was a good shot of all the others, but Tracey looked kind of fuzzy.

It was clear to Amanda that Tracey wasn't the star of this family or even a featured player. There was absolutely nothing else about her in the room- nothing like the kind of stuff Amanda could see in her own home and the homes of her friends. There were no awards or citations or blue ribbons, no medals, no statuettes of gymnasts or figure skaters.

Despite her previous total lack of interest in Tracey Devon, Amanda found that she was becoming curious about the girl. She went upstairs to the room she'd woken up in that morning. Surely there she'd be able to find some clues about Tracey's life.

She remembered noting in the morning that there was nothing on the walls, and that was strange. Most girls she knew had posters-rock stars, horses, the stars of a popular TV series, stuff like that. Tracey's walls were bare. Amanda looked on shelves, in drawers, even under the bed, but after 20 minutes of searching, she was completely mystified. She'd found nothing that gave her the tiniest clue as to what Tracey Devon was all about. There were no books, no CDs, no magazines.

But ultimately, her search paid off. At the back of Tracey's cupboard, under the laundry basket, Amanda discovered a pink notebook. Scrawled on the cover, in childish handwriting, were the words Tracey Devon, My Diary. Private, Keep Out!

Amanda ignored the warning. Settling down on Tracey's bed, she opened the book to the first page.

"Dear Diary, I'm eight years old today! I had a party with all my friends. We had chocolate cake with pink roses on it. I got lots of presents. But Mommy and Daddy say I have to wait a whole month for my biggest present. They are going to give me real live babies! I hope they are all girls. Boys are icky."

Amanda turned to the next page.

"Dear Diary, I got 100 on my spelling test! Mommy took me out for ice cream. Daddy says I'm the smartest girl in the world."

And on the next page:

"Dear Diary, I went to swimming class today. We are learning how to dive. It's fun."

Tracey definitely sounded like an ordinary person in her diary, Amanda thought. This was all so normal-it was boring. She wasn't going to learn anything interesting here. She closed the notebook and tossed it onto the floor.

Of course, it didn't really matter. Amanda was completely confident that she'd be out of this dismal prison cell in the morning, so it wasn't as if she really needed to know the girl well. She paused in front of the mirror and forced herself to take another look at Tracey.

This mirror can't be very clean, she thought. The reflected image seemed blurry to her. Which was just as well, she supposed, taking into consideration how awful Tracey looked.

Suddenly an idea hit her, and she almost smiled for the first time that day. She'd thought of a way to occupy her time and actually do a good deed while she was here. (Not that good deeds were a habit with her, but she figured she might be rewarded for it by positive forces and get out of Tracey's body even sooner.)

There was something very significant that she could do for this poor girl-she could make Tracey look better! Now, this day, while she had control of Tracey's body, she could get the girl a decent haircut, some cool clothes, lip-gloss, and maybe some bronzer to brighten up her drab complexion. She'd be helping herself, too-if Tracey wasn't so pathetic, Amanda wouldn't have to worry about feeling sorry for her and finding herself in this situation again.

She already knew that Tracey wasn't carrying any money, and she hadn't found any in her search of the room, but from the look of the house Amanda could see that the family wasn't poor. She headed off to find Tracey's mother.

She found her in a room that she hadn't seen earlier-a cozy den with a TV. Mrs. Devon was sitting on the sofa, talking on the phone as she leafed through what looked like a clothing catalog.

"Lila, these things are so cute!" she squealed. "My girls are going to look adorable this winter. I'm going to order the little pink matching hats and mittens

If this had been her own home, Amanda would have just interrupted, but here she waited for a pause in the conversation, tapping her foot impatiently, so she could break in. She had to decide how she was going to address the woman anyway. She had no idea what Tracey called her. Mom? Mommy? Mother?

"Go ahead and answer the door, Lila-I'll hold on," Mrs. Devon said, and Amanda took a chance.

"Mom?"

There was no response as the woman turned the page of the catalog.

"Mommy?" Amanda said. "Mother?"

The woman lifted her head and looked at Amanda blankly. "Did you say something?"

"I was just wondering-could we go shopping?"

"What? Go where?"

"Shopping. Like, we could go to the mall."

Mrs. Devon responded as if Amanda had suggested a trip to the moon. "The mall?"

"Yeah. Not the big one on the highway-the other one, across from Meadowbrook…" Amanda's voice trailed off as Mrs. Devon's expression went from puzzlement to disbelief to something very close to anger.

"Are you insane? Have you lost your mind? Don't be ridiculous! I don't have time to go shopping. I have seven children upstairs!"

It was on the tip of Amanda's tongue to say, "You have eight children," but Mrs. Devon's friend had returned to the phone.

"Yes, Lila, I'm here. I just have to run to the drugstore to pick up the girls' vitamins. Of course we could have coffee. I've got the mother's helper here and the girls are napping. Okay, see you in ten minutes."

Amanda was stunned. As Mrs. Devon hung up the phone, she glared at the woman. "You've got time to meet your friend, but you can't take me shopping?"

But Mrs. Devon walked right past her like she wasn't even there.