From the Corner of His Eye

Chapter 75

The generous expense allowance provided by Simon Magusson paid for a three-room suite at a comfortable hotel. One bedroom for Tom Vanadium, one for Celestina and Angel.

Having booked the suite for three nights, Tom expected that he would spend far fewer late hours in his bed than sitting watch in the shared living room.

At eleven o'clock Saturday morning, having just settled in the hotel after arriving from St. Mary's, they were waiting for the SFPD to deliver suitcases of clothes and toiletries that Rena Moller, Celestina's neighbor, had packed according to her instructions. While waiting, the three of them took an early lunch-or a late breakfast-at a room service table in the living room.

For the next few days, they would eat all their meals in the suite. Most likely, Cain had left San Francisco. And even if the killer hadn't fled, this was a big city, where a chance encounter with him was unlikely. Yet having, assumed the role of guardian, Tom Vanadium had a zero tolerance for risk, because the inimitable Mr. Cain had proved himself to be a master of the unlikely.

Tom didn't attribute supernatural powers to this killer. Enoch Cain was mortal, not all-seeing and all-knowing. Evil and stupidity often go together, however, and arrogance is the offspring of their marriage, as Tom had earlier told Celestina. An arrogant man, not half as smart as he thinks, with no sense of right and wrong, with no capacity for remorse, can sometimes be so breathtakingly reckless that, ironically, his recklessness becomes his greatest strength. Because he is capable of anything, of taking risks that mere madmen wouldn't consider, his adversaries can never predict his actions, and surprise serves him well. If he also possesses animal cunning, a kind of deep intuitional shrewdness, he can react quickly to the negative consequences of his recklessness and can indeed appear to be more than human.

Prudence required that they strategize as though Enoch Cain were Satan himself, as though every fly and beetle and rat provided eyes and ears for the killer, as though ordinary precautions could never foil him.

In addition to mulling over strategy, Tom had spent a lot of time lately brooding about culpability: his own, not Cain's. By seizing on the name that he heard Cain speak in a dream, by making use of it in this psychological warfare, had he been the architect of the killer's Bartholomew obsession, or if not the architect, then at least an assisting draftsman? Having never been nudged in that direction, would Cain have followed a different path that took him far from Celestina and Angel?

The wife killer was evil; and his evil would be expressed one way or another, regardless of the forces that affected his actions. If he'd not killed Naomi on the fire tower, he would have killed her elsewhere, when another opportunity for enrichment presented itself. If Victoria hadn't become a victim, some other woman would have died instead. If Cain hadn't become obsessed with the strange conviction that someone named Bartholomew might be the death of him, he would have filled his hollow heart with an equally strange obsession that might have led him, anyway, to Celestina, but that would surely have brought violence down on someone else if not on her.

Tom had acted with the best intentions-but also with the intelligence and the good judgment that God had given him and that he had spent a lifetime honing. Good intentions alone can be the cobblestones from which the road to Hell is built; however, good intentions formed through much self-doubt and second-guessing, as Tom's always were guided by wisdom acquired from experience, are all that can be asked of us. Unintended consequences that should have been foreseeable are, he knew, the stuff of damnation, but those that we can't foresee, he hoped, are part of some design for which we can't be held responsible.

Yet he brooded even at breakfast, in spite of the consolation of clotted cream and berries, raisin scones and cinnamon butter. In better worlds, wiser Tom Vanadiums chose different tactics that resulted in less misery than this, in a far swifter conveyance of Enoch Cain to the halls of justice. But he was none of those Tom Vanadiums. He was only this Tom, flawed "land struggling, and he couldn't take comfort in the fact that elsewhere he had proved to be a better man.

Perched on a chair with two plump bed pillows to boost her, Angel extracted one crisp strip from her club sandwich and asked Tom, "Where's bacon come from?"

"You know where it comes from," her mother said with a yawn that betrayed her exhaustion after a night with no sleep and too much drama.

"Yeah, but I wanna see if he knows," the girl explained.

Fresh from sedative-assisted sleep, which hadn't ended until they were in the taxi between the hospital and the hotel, Angel had proved as fully resilient as only children could be when they still retained their innocence. She didn't understand how seriously Wally had been hurt, of course, but if the attack by Cain had terrorized her while she'd watched it from beneath her mother's bed, she didn't seem in danger of being permanently traumatized.

"Do you know where bacon comes from?" she asked Tom again.

"From the supermarket," Tom said.

"Where's the supermarket get it?"

"From farmers."

"Where do farmers get it?"

"They grow it on bacon vines."

The girl giggled. "Is that what you think?"

"I've seen them," Tom assured her. "My dear, you've never smelled anything better than a field full of bacon vines."

"Silly," Angel judged.

"Well, where do you think bacon comes from?"

"Pigs!"

"Really? You really think that?" he asked in his flat voice, which he sometimes wished were more musical, but which he knew lent a sober conviction to anything he said. "You think something so delicious could come from a fat, smelly, dirty, snorting old pig?"

Frowning, Angel studied the tasty strip of meat pinched between her fingers, reevaluating everything she thought she knew about the source of bacon.

"Who told you pigs?" he asked.

"Mommy."

"Ah. Well, Mommy never lies."

"Yeah," Angel said, looking suspiciously at her mother, "but she teases."

Celestina smiled distractedly. Since arriving at the hotel an hour ago, she had been openly debating with herself whether to call her parents in Spruce Hills or to wait until later in the afternoon, when she might be able to report not just that she had a fiancé, and not only that she had a fiancé who'd been shot and nearly killed, but also that his condition had been upgraded from critical to serious. As she'd explained to Tom, in addition to worrying them with the news about Cain, she'd be stunning them with the announcement that she was going to marry a white man twice her age. "My folks don't have one ounce of prejudice between them, but they sure do have firm ideas about what's appropriate and what's not." This would ring the big bell at the top of the White Family Scale of the Inappropriate. Besides, they were preparing for the funeral of a parishioner, and from personal experience, Celestina knew their day would be full. Nevertheless, at ten minutes past eleven, after picking at her breakfast, she finally decided to call them.

As Celestina settled on the sofa with the phone in her lap, hesitating to dial until she worked up a bit more courage, Angel said to Tom, "So what happened to your face?"

"Angel!" her mother admonished from across the room. "That's impolite."

"I know. But how can I find out 'less I ask?"

"You don't have to find out everything."

"I do," Angel objected.

"I was ran over by a rhinoceros," Tom revealed.

Angel blinked at him. "The big ugly animal?"

"That's right."

"Has mean eyes and a horn thing on its nose?"

"Exactly the one."

Angel grimaced. "I don't like rhinosharushes."

"Neither do I."

"Why did it run over you?"

"Because I was in its way."

"Why were you in its way?"

"Because I crossed the street without looking."

"I'm not allowed to cross the street alone."

"Now you see why?" Tom asked.

"Me you sad?"

"Why should I be sad?"

" 'Cause your face looks all mooshed?"

"Oh, Lord," Celestina said exasperatedly.

"It's all right," Tom assured her. To Angel, he said, "No, I'm not sad. And you know why?"

"Why?"

"See this?" He placed the pepper shaker in front of her on the room-service table and held the salt shaker concealed in his hand.

"Pepper," Angel said.

"But let's pretend it's me, okay? So here I am, stepping off the curb without looking both ways-"

He moved the shaker across the tablecloth, rocking it back and forth to convey that he was strolling without a care in the world.

"— and wham! The rhinoceros hits me and never so much as stops to apologize-"

He knocked the pepper shaker on its side, and then with a groan put it upright once more.

"— and when I get up off the street, my clothes are a mess, and I've got this face."

"You should sue."

"I should," Tom agreed, "but the point is this…" With the finesse of a magician, he allowed the salt shaker to slip out of the concealment of his palm, and stood it beside the pepper. "This is also me."

"No, this is you," Angel said, tapping one finger on the pepper shaker.

"Well, you see, that's the funny thing about all the important choices we make. If we make a really big wrong choice, if we do the really awful wrong thing, we're given another chance to continue on the right path. So the very moment I stupidly stepped off the curb without looking, I created another world where I did look both ways and saw the rhinoceros coming. And so-"

Holding a shaker in each hand, Tom walked them forward, causing them to diverge slightly at first, but then moving them along exactly parallel to each other.

"— though this Tom now has a rhinoceros-smacked face, this other Tom, in his own world, has an ordinary face. Poor him, so ordinary."

Leaning close to study the salt shaker, Angel said, "Where's his world?"

"Right here with ours. But we can't see it."

She looked around the room. "He's invisible like the Cheshire cat?" "His whole world is as real as ours, but we can't see it, and people in his world can't see us. There're millions and millions of worlds all here in the same place and invisible to one another, where we keep getting chance after chance to live a good life and do the right thing."

People like Enoch Cain, of course, never choose between the right and the wrong thing, but between two evils. For themselves, they create world after world of despair. For others, they make worlds of pain.

"So," he said, "you see why I'm not sad?"

Angel raised her attention from the salt shaker to Tom's face, studied his scars for a moment, and said, "No."

"I'm not sad," Tom said, "because though I have this face here in this world, I know there's another me-in fact, lots of other Tom Vanadiums-who don't have this face at all. Somewhere I'm doing just fine, thank you."

After thinking it over, the girl said, "I'd be sad. Do you like dogs?"

"Who doesn't like dogs?"

"I want a puppy. Did you ever have a puppy?"

"When I was a little boy."

On the sofa, Celestina finally worked up the courage to dial her parents' number in Spruce Hills.

"Do you think dogs can talk?" Angel asked.

"You know," Tom said, "I've never actually thought about it."

"I saw a horse talk on 'TV."

"Well, if a horse can talk, why not a dog?"

"That's what I think."

Her connection made, Celestina said, "Hi, Mom, it's me."

"What about cats?" Angel asked.

"Mom?" Celestina said.

"If dogs, why not cats?"

"Mom, what's happening?" Celestina asked, sudden worry in her voice.

"That's what I think," Angel said.

Tom pushed his chair back from the table, got to his feet, and moved toward Celestina.

Bolting up from the couch-"Mom, are you there?" — she turned to Tom, her face collapsing in a ghastly expression.

"I want a talking dog," Angel said.

As Tom reached Celestina, she said, "Shots." She said, "Gunshots." She held the receiver in one hand and pulled at her hair with the other, as if with the administration of a little pain, she might wake up from this nightmare. She said, "He's in Oregon."

The inimitable Mr. Cain. The wizard of surprises. Master of the unlikely.