Awry

31

Scarlet stared over Gabriel’s shoulder at the tree picture for the hundredth time. He was sitting at the desk in his bedroom, Scarlet standing behind him.

Laura had called earlier to let Scarlet know she was going to be stuck in a meeting all night—what kind of work meetings took place at nighttime?—so Scarlet had decided to stay at the cabin a little longer.

Heather had already left, flying out of the dirt driveway so fast the trees that lined the road rustled after her.

Scarlet bit her lip. “Why would my mother keep an old drawing hidden in her brooch?”

Gabriel sighed. “I have no idea. Unless it wasn’t your mother’s at all.” He looked at Scarlet. “Maybe you found this drawing in your last life and hid it in the brooch then.”

Scarlet nodded, feeling like an idiot for not knowing what she’d done in the past. “Maybe. But that makes it even more strange. Why would I hide it? Why wouldn’t I tell you about it?”

Gabriel gave a sympathetic smile.

Scarlet sighed. “Because I was secretive in my last life. I know, I know.” She flopped down on Gabriel’s big bed and groaned into a pillow. “It sounds like I was a psycho in my last life.”

Gabriel laughed. “You weren’t psycho. You were just…frustrated. You wanted to find the fountain more than ever before and you were impatient and…and….”

“Psycho?” Scarlet sat up and frowned.

Gabriel stood up from his desk chair and walked to the bed. Taking Scarlet’s hands, he gently pulled her up. “No. You were desperate.” He kissed her cheek. “And I don’t blame you.”

“I hate being desperate,” Scarlet muttered. “And I hate my flashy eyes and my amnesia and the fact that Heather is trying to talk me into going to the Avalon Fair.”

Breathing out a laugh, Gabriel said, “The fair can’t be that bad.”

“Oh, but it is,” Scarlet said. “The only thing worse than the fair is the Kissing Festival.” She gave a fake shudder.

Gabriel smiled and kissed her lips. “The Kissing Festival wasn’t that bad.” He kissed her again, pulling her into his arms and setting his hands against her hips.

“Did you forget about the sidewalk dentist?” Scarlet said in between kisses. His lips were soft and full and warm. “It was pretty bad.”

“Mmm.” Gabriel’s mouth slid up her jaw slowly. “I try not to remember any dentists.”

Scarlet laughed as Gabriel’s lips tickled her ear before gliding down to her neck. Her laughter was quickly replaced with a hushed breath as she wrapped her arms around Gabriel and let his mouth trail down to her shoulder before meeting her lips again.

Sinking into the kiss, Scarlet thought back to Kristy’s words in chemistry.

See, Kristy? Here I am, making out with my gorgeous boyfriend in his bedroom because we’re hot. We’re on fire.

Scarlet eagerly kissed Gabriel back, heat rushing through her core as she parted her lips and felt his tongue against her own.

His hands slid beneath the hem of her shirt and his fingers padded along the bare skin of her back and hips.

Scarlet shivered with desire and pressed herself against him as she ran a hand down his back. He was so big and strong and he smelled so good and tasted so delicious.

Their mouths became a tangle of heat and wetness as Scarlet’s breaths grew heavy. She tilted her head against Gabriel’s. His hands slid up her ribcage and desire curled around her body, wrapping around her legs and stomach with tight warmth.

And then she felt it.

Jealousy.

No.

Ignore it. Just ignore it.

Scarlet arched her body into Gabriel’s and willed Tristan’s emotion away. She was trying to prove to Kristy—and to herself, of course—that she and Gabriel had heat. This was no time for Tristan to interfere.

But Tristan was there. Or, at least, his soul was. Floating inside Scarlet, absorbing what she felt. Hating what she felt.

The jealousy turned to sadness and Scarlet’s chest felt tight. She was breaking Tristan’s heart.

Gabriel’s hands were on her, his mouth was on her….

Gabriel was turned on.

But Tristan was sad.

And now…Scarlet was sad, too.

Tristan paced the small bedroom of the shack and kept rolling his shoulders. He could feel Scarlet’s desire for Gabriel crawling into his veins, tormenting him with heat.

Taking a long, deep breath, he tried to ignore Scarlet’s emotions.

He thrust his hands in his hair and squeezed his eyes shut.

But she was still there.

He turned on the radio and cranked the volume up.

But he could still feel her.

He paced. He cursed. He clenched his fists.

Scarlet was there, inside him. Everywhere.

Wanting Gabriel.

Breaking Tristan.

Enraged and helpless, Tristan grabbed the nearest object—a heavy book from the top of a short stack on the dresser—and threw it against the far wall with a grunt.

Go away.

Tristan had been connected to Scarlet for centuries, but he’d never been able to feel this. Their connection had never been so strong. So real. So…explicit.

He would almost rather die than experience one more moment of her passion for Gabriel.

He threw another book, the hardcover thudding against the wall as he sank to the floor and shoved the heels of his palms into his eyes.

Go away…go away….

Scarlet couldn’t take it anymore. She abruptly pulled back from Gabriel and dropped her eyes to the floor, confusion and sadness washing over her.

Breathing heavily, she kept her face downcast, heat staining her cheeks as she thought of Tristan knowing she had been turned on by Gabriel.

Why was she blushing? Why did she care?

Gabriel’s voice was breathy. “What’s wrong?”

Scarlet swallowed and looked up at him, unsure what to say. She stepped away from him, untangling herself from his arms, and ran a hand through her hair. “Uh….” She smoothed her hands down her shirt, which was wrinkled in the back from Gabriel’s hands.

How in the world was she supposed to explain what had just happened?

“Are you okay?” Gabriel looked concerned and frustrated at the same time.

“Yeah,” Scarlet said. “I’m fine. It’s just…I could feel….” Scarlet searched for the right words. There were none.

“You could feel what?” Gabriel waited a moment. Then looked at her darkly. “You could feel…Tristan?”

Scarlet blushed again.

Crap.

Crap, crap, crap.

“Uh…yes?” Scarlet twisted her fingers together.

Gabriel’s jaw squared as his heavy breathing slowed. “Could he feel you?”

Scarlet didn’t answer, but her cheeks were still hot.

Gabriel muttered a curse and ran his thumb and forefinger down the side of his mouth. “And that’s why you pulled away?”

Scarlet nodded.

“Is that why you’ve been awkward about kissing lately?”

She nodded again, placing her hands on her stained cheeks.

He looked at the floor for a moment, his shoulders tense. Scarlet opened her mouth, but no words came.

What was she supposed to say?

Nothing. There was nothing she could say.

Gabriel turned away from her, fisting and flexing his hands as he paced to the other side of his room.

Suddenly, he gave a humorless laugh. “I can’t win.” He turned around and the smile on his face was an eerie contrast to the heaviness in the room. “Tristan is always right here.”

Scarlet was quick to shake her head. “Tristan’s not right here.”

Even as she said it, she felt Tristan’s heart settle in her chest. He was no longer in distress.

Lucky him.

“But he is!” Gabriel thrust his arms out. “Even when he’s far away he’s still right here. In between us.”

“He’s not in between us. He’s just…he’s just….” Come on, Scarlet. Think of something brilliant.

“He’s just what?” Gabriel shrugged, his body language sharp and edgy. “He’s just…feeling everything you feel? And you’re just feeling everything he feels? And it’s just one big happy feel fest?” Gabriel’s voice rose.

Scarlet jutted her chin and raised her voice as well. “What do you want me to do, Gabriel? It’s not like I can delete him from my life.” Not that she would even if she could.

Just the idea made her stomach hurt.

Gabriel shook his head. “I don’t want him deleted, Scarlet, I just don’t want him in the background when I’m kissing you. God!” He fisted his hands and paced back to the wall again. Shoving his hands into his hair, he said, “I can’t ever have you to myself, can I? Not ever.”

Scarlet felt helpless. And guilty. And kinda angry. “You have no right to be mad at me.”

Gabriel blinked. “I’m not mad at you. I’m not even mad at Tristan.” He thrust his hands out again. “I’m mad at the circumstance. Because I can’t change it. I can’t control it. And all—” He clenched his jaw.

A long moment passed before he quieted his tone and continued, “All I want is to be with you.”

Scarlet scrunched her face. “Are you sure?”

“What’s that’s supposed to mean?” Gabriel looked scolded.

Scarlet shrugged. “I mean, are you sure that’s why we’re together? Are you sure you want me?”

“Of course. Why wouldn’t I?”

“For starters, because you’re cursed.” Scarlet sighed in frustration. “You don’t have a choice, right? So, even if you really wanted me, you wouldn’t really know if you wanted me.” Did that make sense?

She continued, “Doesn’t it feel like there’s all this…pressure on us? All the time?”

“What do you mean?”

“I mean…” Scarlet searched for the right words. “Don’t you feel like we have to be this perfect, in-love couple? Like, we’re destined to be hopelessly in love, except nothing ever runs smoothly because of the curse?”

“Yes, all the time.” Gabriel shrugged. “But that doesn’t mean I don’t want you.”

Scarlet blinked. What was she doing? Was she just fighting to fight? Or was she fighting for a reason? Her head hurt.

Scarlet sighed.

Gabriel shifted his weight.

“I know,” Scarlet said.

She licked her lips. Tasting Gabriel. Feeling Tristan.

The three of them made a tragic triangle.

Scarlet swallowed. “I’m sorry this is such a mess. I’ll…I’ll try harder to ignore Tristan.”

Maybe.

Scarlet was pretty sure ignoring Tristan wasn’t an option.

Gabriel let out a long sigh. “No, I’m sorry. I just don’t know how to handle this new connection you have with him.” He took a moment to compose himself before sighing in frustration. “It’ll be fine.”

It would not be fine. She knew it. Gabriel knew it.

Scarlet’s heart started to pound in fear. She was losing Gabriel.

Gabriel walked to his bedroom door. “Come on. I’ll drive you home.”