CHAPTER
FOUR
Richard Murphy had not had the winds of fortune at his back. Aside from the clothes in his closet and the run-down furniture Jennica had abdicated, the sum total left in his will after paying funeral expenses came to a few hundred dollars. A lifetime of working, and he had never managed to save much of anything. The few stocks he’d bought had gone south, and the life insurance policy he’d held for twenty years had been allowed to lapse six months before. She could see him crinkling his brow and shaking his head in confusion over that one.
“I guess I just got busy,” he’d say. “I didn’t mean to let it go.” Words to die by.
Jennica visited the lawyer’s office on Saturday afternoon to receive the final documents, along with the only substantive thing that she would ever see again from her father. And it hadn’t even been his, really. It was the deed to a house in California. Her aunt Meredith’s place. A couple weeks ago she’d barely known anything about the woman; now she was studying her aunt’s private journal and taking possession (at least on paper) of the woman’s house. Life (and death) moved in strange ways.
At home, Jenn picked up a sheaf of mail from the tiny silver box in the apartment building foyer and hurried up the twisting stairs to the fourth floor. “Kirstin?” she called. “You home?”
Something that vaguely resembled her friend and fellow Holy Name teacher came plodding out of the kitchen holding a package of frozen vegetables to her head with one hand and pressing a terry cloth robe closed with the other.
“Nice ice pack,” Jenn observed. “We have to eat those peas, you know.”
Kirstin flopped heavily on the couch and groaned. “I told you to come to the Tender Trap last night.”
“Mmm-hmmm. And you’re a good example of why I didn’t.”
“You missed a lot of free tequila. The boys were generous.”
Normally, to look at her, you’d think Kirstin was the ultimate sorority girl: blonde and blue-eyed, busty and giddy. In so many ways, Jennica’s opposite. But the two had been best friends for years. Right now, though, with no makeup, hair askew and a pale, drawn face, Kirstin did not maintain her usual allure.
Jenn shook her head. “I don’t think I missed anything at all.” She dropped the pile of mail and papers on the coffee table and fished out a manila envelope. “Anyway, I needed to get this stuff done.” She pulled a sheaf of legal papers from the envelope and held them out for Kirstin to see. “Look! I’m now the proud owner of a house in River’s End, California! Wherever that is.”
“Cool,” Kirstin said. “When are we going?”
“Going?” Jenn echoed. “We’re not going. My dad went out there, cleaned up some of my aunt’s things and found someone to take care of the place. He was trying to have it rented out as a furnished cottage, but so far nobody’s taken the bait. Not in three months. I don’t really want to be a landlord, so I’ll probably just sell it.”
Kirstin grimaced. “Well, I think you should at least go and check the place out before you dump it. You’ve never been, right?”
“No,” Jenn said. “I think the last time I saw Meredith was when Mom died—and she came up here.”
For a second, Kirstin’s face lit up. “I smell a Spring Break trip!” Then a frown appeared, and she pressed the bag of frozen peas and carrots harder to her forehead.
Jennica sighed. “Well, number one, I don’t have money for a vacation right now, and two, I don’t think the place is what you’re thinking. It’s in northern California, so you can get rid of all those thoughts of tanned hunks and surfboards. I don’t think it’s exactly Malibu sun central.”
Kirstin pouted. “California boys,” she said longingly.
Jenn rolled her eyes and laughed, picked up her mail and started toward her bedroom. “You’re incorrigible.”
“Could you bring me the aspirin?” Kirstin called weakly. “And water?”
They stayed in that night, and Jennica went to bed early. Before she slept, though, she pulled out Meredith’s journal and read a few more pages of the old woman’s careful, thin and slanted scrawl. She turned to a page more wrinkled and watermarked than the others in the first part of the book and realized how it had probably gotten so damaged: It was a recipe of some kind. Meredith must have kept it open on the counter as she cooked.
Three sprigs of liverwort
Two gull wings
One dragonfly
Three leaves of spotted sage
One catnip leaf
One thimble bat’s blood
Say the words and stir this concoction over an open flame of Mountain Ash until boiling. Cover the pot and wait ninety seconds. Remove from the flame, open the lid and breathe the steam in deeply.
But, what was it a recipe for? And what were the words? There was no explanation or title. Meredith’s book was all like that; her aunt would go on for a few paragraphs and tell a story, and then suddenly would appear a poem, or a recipe, or a spell. There were hand-drawn maps with stars and circles, and geometric patterns woven into a lattice that looked both ornate and fraught with deeper meaning. And there were pages folded, pages ripped out. The whole thing was like a map of her days, a concrete representation of life’s unpredictable left turns and sudden turnabouts. You never knew where the pages would go next.
Something about this diary attracted her as much as its ridiculous talk of “magic” repelled her. It was like being given a free pass to someone’s most secret, if insane, thoughts. You’d never spy without permission, but . . . well, the book was hers now. Wasn’t that permission enough?
Jennica closed the book and turned off the light. In moments, she was asleep.
Or was she? She was in her aunt’s kitchen. Only, it looked brighter, newer than the room she had inherited. But she wasn’t there alone. An old woman stood near the sink and smiled, her lips parting ever so slightly. She shook her head, holding out her hand, palm up. “Not now,” she said to someone unseen.
Turning, the woman picked up a large knife and began chopping something on the counter. Jennica couldn’t see what she was chopping because, suddenly, in a transition that only dreams can have, she now looked through the woman’s eyes, and the woman was looking out her kitchen window at blue skies and broad fields of brown grass. There were no other houses in sight, though nearby a well-kept garden interrupted the wild stretch of prairie grass. Jennica could see red tomatoes hung in thick bunches from staked vines, and just beyond was a pumpkin patch where dozens of orange globes lay on their sides or stood up straight.
On the counter to her left, a pumpkin was split in half, glistening seeds dripping like hard creamy tears into the sink.
The chopping stopped. Jennica looked down and saw blood on the old woman’s gnarled hands. But it wasn’t her blood. On the wooden chopping block lay the quartered remains of a blackbird, its feathers darkened further by the spray of its own blood. The woman lifted pieces of its head, feet and chest and dropped them into a black pot that gasped heavy steam.
Then Jennica was outside the woman again, suddenly staring at her eye to eye, and the old woman reached into the steaming pot with a long wooden spoon and brought out a sample of the pieces. She held out the black and orange gruel for Jennica to taste, grinning and pushing the spoon toward her lips—
“No!” Jennica sat bolt upright in her bed. Her heart pounded as she glanced around and saw the faint gleam of moonlight pushing through the familiar curtains, and the pile of dirty laundry she’d left next to her dresser on the floor. This was her room, not the kitchen of a witch, but somehow that knowledge didn’t give comfort. She felt as if an old woman still lurked in the shadows, waiting to feed her the blood of a raven.
Slowly she lay back, but it was a long time before she slept again.
The next morning, after ignoring the light slanting across her face for a couple hours, Jennica finally rolled out from under the sheets and stepped out of bed. She moved slowly, but there was no reason to hurry. It was Sunday, and she hadn’t set an alarm.
Her feet felt something sticky on the floor, and she stepped quickly to the side—only to come down on something hard and squishy.
“What the . . . ?” she began, and leaped away from the bed. Dropping to a crouch, she found three small orange triangles at the foot of her bed. The sticky thing she’d first stepped on was a strand of slimy pulp that she’d ground into the throw rug with her heel.
Pumpkins. The triangles were pumpkin pieces.
The hair on the back of her neck stood up. She lifted a cold pumpkin wedge and stepped into the hall. “Kirstin?” she called, but her voice echoed and died without answer. “Why are there bits of pumpkin in my room?”
She crept down the narrow hall, but the apartment remained silent. Her roommate had apparently already left. Looking behind every door and in every closet, Jennica walked the apartment until she was sure it was empty. She checked the lock on the front door, which was bolted. They had found pumpkin pieces in her dad’s apartment—that was about all the cops had told her. And, of course, she had found one herself, lodged against a baseboard.
She stared at the orange triangle, rolling it over in her hand. Where did you even get pumpkins in the springtime, she thought. Then she set it on the table and washed her hands. But the warmth of the water couldn’t take away the chill she felt. Someone had been here. In her house. Standing at the foot of her bed. The thought of someone standing there, in her room, staring at her as she slept . . .
“Oh God,” she whispered.
What if the Holy Name parents were right and the killer was coming for her, too?