No Way

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[Message file #274-1058 2/7/2049 1437 CAPCOM Ares IV Mission Control to Ares IV “Prairie Rose” Mars Orbit]

Frank got the call ten minutes before. He suited up, and went outside to watch. Watching was all he could do. Was it all the astronauts could do too? Would they fall and have to trust the automatics, or could they pilot themselves down? Even then, there might be nothing they could do to correct their course: if something went wrong, it would happen so very quickly. Whatever happened, Frank was only ever going to be a witness.

He clipped his tablet to his waist, and checked he had the pouch of suit patches. Then one last look around. What shouldn’t be there? The blue surgical glove. That wasn’t necessary any more, was it? And he really didn’t have a good excuse for it sitting there, perched on top of the life support rack. He picked it up, and pulled at the knot in the wrist, but undoing knots was about as difficult as it was making them while wearing the spacesuit gauntlets.

In the end, he stretched the thumb out hard enough to create a tiny hole, and then dug his fingers in to widen it. He didn’t quite know what to do with the broken glove now, so he just pushed it into the pouch at his waist.

The scuba gear could stay where it was. That was explicable. And he was wearing his one-piece, and Brack’s overalls were sitting on a hanger, waiting for him to change into. Slippers too. He’d showered this morning. He’d eaten. He felt OK. He felt he’d done enough.

That didn’t mean he’d done it all. Was there something he’d left in plain sight, something he’d grown so accustomed to seeing that he didn’t really see it any more, but that would immediately attract the attention of a newcomer—who’d pick it up and want to know what it was? And Frank would unravel.

He’d been over this, a dozen, a hundred times. There was nothing. He was anxious, and understandably so. Accept it, move on.

He stepped out of the airlock into the dull light of a Martian morning. Insertion was due shortly after 0800, enough for the shadows to shorten and the frost to boil off. Nothing outside had moved, and even though he touched his bag, he knew that the gun wasn’t there any more, and never would be again. From now on, he could rely on safety in numbers.

He could do this and go home, and the nightmares of blood and decompression would quieten and he could live a normal life again.

He had to stop thinking that, too. That was far in the future, and was too much pressure. He’d been on his own too long, and then threatened with the wrong kind of company.

He needed to concentrate on the mundane, on unplugging the buggy from the power supply and coiling up the stiff, serpentine lead into its container, and kicking the wheels, shaking the frame to make sure nothing dropped off. Changing the wheels—that was a job for two, and now that he had spares, sent or stolen, he was eager to swap out the pitted, leaf-like tires for fresh-from-the-factory ones. Sure, he could have jury-rigged a jack, but so much easier with another pair of hands.

The fuel cell lit up the display, reliable as ever, and he buckled himself into the seat to wait. The time on his tablet showed 0803, and one new message. He tabbed the app open, and it was Luisa.

“Welcome to Phase four, Frank. This is your time, now. It really is all up to you. I know how much you want to come home, and honestly, I’m glad it’s you and not Brack. You’ve become much more than a name on the screen these last few months. I hope I have too. Make it happen, Frank. Come home. Luisa. (I’m going to delete this from the server once I know you’ve seen it, and resend an ‘official’ message. But this is how I feel L x)”

Luisa was starting to take risks on his behalf, and he didn’t know what to think about that. Did he have an ally at XO? And how far might she be prepared to go for him? Could she get messages out, as well as in? That was something to explore, another day. All he knew was that he’d come to rely on her.

Right now, though, he had one very big thing to worry about, and it was going to take his full attention.

0804. Soon. So very soon. He tilted himself back to catch as much of the sky as possible.

There were clouds, high up and thin, like a gathered veil that stretched in folds from east to west, visibly moving as the ephemeral winds chased them away. The far horizons were blocked by Rahe’s rampart walls and the bulk of the volcano, but straight up was where they’d come from.

0806. Had they already left the transit ship, fired their rockets and started sliding inexorably towards the ground? They’d had nine months in space just getting here. Had they argued? Had they fought? Were they still a team? He hoped so. His own crew, seven entirely mismatched cons, had got on well enough. They hadn’t turned on each other, except at the very end, and even then that was a matter of life and death. His own, mainly. NASA would have picked these people well. They weren’t XO. These were the good guys, right?

They were going to take him home with them.

0807. Come on. His gaze flicked to every aberration in his sight, every floater, every roil of cloud. Nothing. Nothing at all. Maybe he should just close his eyes and pray very hard, but he hadn’t done that since he was a kid and it didn’t seem right to do it now. Selfish. Wanting something, and not prepared to do anything for it in return. And in any event, if there was a God, then Frank had pretty much plowed his own furrow for his entire adult life, not looking for salvation from outside. He hadn’t been turned around or come to any great revelation. He was pretty certain this was it. Zeus would have said otherwise, but he wasn’t here and his body was on its way to the sun.

0809. Seriously, what were they doing up there? What could be keeping them? Maybe something had gone wrong. Something, a problem with any part of the descent vehicle, would mean they’d have to abort. If they could fix it, they could try again. Otherwise, they were stuck up there and he was stuck down here. With only M2 for company. But he still had the MAV. If they were willing to stick around for a few more months, perhaps he could climb on board and join the transit ship in orbit.

0810. That hadn’t occurred to him before. He knew how long the MAV needed to fuel up enough to take them all back up to orbit, but if it was just him? The payload would be one-seventh of what it had been designed for. He might be able to go now. Did it run fully automatic, or did he need a pilot? Would the astronauts having to abort their landing be the best solution for him? Now he was in a quandary. He didn’t know what he wanted any more.

0811. Of course, they’d spent all that time in transit awake, and everything was leading up to this moment. They would have checked and double-checked the ship as part of their routine maintenance. Any problems with it would have been discovered, and fixed, months ago. They were in orbit, and they were coming down. Anything else, and he would have been told. Nothing had been left to chance.

0812. So where were they? Seven minutes, from first contact with the Martian atmosphere to touchdown. That was all. He’d waited months for this moment, and now that it had finally arrived, he was like a child desperate for Christmas. He knew he wanted it. He hadn’t realized quite how much. His heart was banging in his chest like it wanted out.

0813. There? Was that it? Could he even see it at this distance? What if they’d over- or under-shot? Hundreds, maybe a thousand miles out, and no way of getting to them. He blinked and wished he could scrub at his eyes. No. Nothing. It was just the fans blowing in his face, drying him out.

0814. Wait. There was something. A light. A flickering, faint light like a match falling. Pulsing. Was that good? All the other deliveries did that too, so it wasn’t unusual, but he squinted at it, trying to ascertain whether this was a normal descent, or whether parts were burning up and breaking off. The light grew, both in size and in brilliance. Brighter than the sun. Bright enough to hurt. Or was that the tightness in his chest, and his inability to breathe?

0815. Smoke. There was a trail of smoke. Again, normal, but was this sootier? Was it actually on fire? The first rumble of thunder trembled across the amphitheater of the crater, making the sand dance. The smoke thickened, and the glow changed in quality. No longer blazing, but like a charcoal, a red eye.

0816. The parachutes strung out behind, one, two, three long candles. Then, boom. They opened, taking a great gulp of air each, shivering and clawing at Mars’s thin air. The ground, the walls, growled and complained, and the cinder of the heat shield fell away, a black disk tumbling and spinning, sliding and twisting away and downwards, heading towards the plain to the west of the volcano.

0817. It was falling so quickly. He remembered what the MAV looked like, coming down. He remembered the momentary fear that it was going to crash into the base, and it hadn’t, and everything had been fine, and he still felt sick. The parachutes were huge, great saucers of orange and white. Then, unexpectedly, they detached, deflated and wheeled away. The dark speck suspended underneath dropped like a stone.

0818. And lit up. Spears of bright fire pointed downwards, and suddenly the air was roaring, trembling. A shadow moved across the sky, eclipsing the sun and then out again, falling, falling, slowing, and it was there, a physical thing, white and smooth and efficient, slowing down, down, slipping out of sight over the edge of the Heights, on the way to the crater floor. Dust, smoke, and then silence.

Frank gasped, dragging in so much air, so quickly, the suit struggled to respond. He deliberately placed his hands on his chestplate and timed his breathing. Slowly out. Hold. Slowly back in. Hold. OK, he wasn’t going to faint, not this very moment. The fans cleared his faceplate, and he took a drink of water from his sippy tube.

They were here. He was trembling with relief. He’d done it. He’d survived. Despite everything, despite XO, despite Mars. Despite himself.

The dust cloud was slowly collapsing. The grit pattered down, while the finer material kept on going up and thinning as it went. He’d need to sweep the panels clean after one launch and one descent. How prosaic. He waited until he could trust himself to drive, then reached forward to grip the steering controls.

He squeezed the throttle, and the buggy rolled forward. Had he forgotten anything? Surely he had. Perhaps he should take one last look around…

No. He’d already done that. He was good to go. He was Brack now. He was playing that part. Brack was going to drive over to meet the astronauts, cool as you like, and pick them up and bring them back to the base, and he was going to be fine. They’d be good people, and he could finally sleep.

He headed out to the drop-off, passing the fresh scour mark from his own reascending descent ship, black spokes radiating outwards and fading into smudges. He drove across them, and the tires made two cords through the wheel of soot. At the edge of the drop-off, he stopped, ostensibly to judge his route down, but actually to check that the NASA craft had really, genuinely arrived.

It had. It was there, well past the foot of the delta, almost halfway to the western edge of Beverly Hills, with a long scour mark of its own as it tracked across the crater floor before settling down on four fold-out legs. It looked smaller than his own ship, which made some kind of sense, since this was just to transport the crew from orbit to the ground, not all the way from Earth. A one-shot taxi, nothing more: a squat, blunt bullet.

The real deal was up in orbit: a now-silent, slumbering spire of a ship. He’d get there, one day.

Frank turned the control column and the buggy angled downwards, traversing the slope that would normally lead onto Sunset. This time, though, he was going to take a left, an unfamiliar direction, and it occurred to him just how little exploring he’d done. The relentless focus on building the base, gearing up for self-sufficiency, then survival…

But of course. XO hadn’t wanted the pristine landscape scarred by multiple tire tracks. Frank was supposed to be on his own, supervising the phantom robots and definitely not having the time to wander around Mars.

As it was, it looked just how they wanted it. There was so much of the crater, of the Heights, that he’d never seen up close, and yet it had been where he’d lived, worked, and nearly died, for eight months. He’d never even been to the top of the volcano.

That seemed a shame. If he was going to have stories to tell, he wanted at least some of them to be good. Everything changed from today, though. He’d have the chance to build up some memories he’d want to keep. Starting from now.

The buggy drifted slightly on the bottom of the slope—rocket-blown dust, nothing more—and he corrected for it. It gave him a jolt, but he handled it instinctively, knowing which way to turn to get the grip back. No danger at all of rolling it in front of the astronauts. He was going to stay frosty, just like his old crew used to tell each other.

He was down on the crater floor, rolling across the pavement of loose rock and angled slabs, heading towards the NASA ship. He knew it was NASA, because the letters were visible on the side, even at a mile distant. No XO branding, he noted. No sign of anyone climbing out either. He hoped they were all OK inside. The landing had looked flawless. The ship was intact. They were just waiting for him.

Shouldn’t he be hearing something in his headphones by now? Maybe they were on a different frequency to him. Maybe they hadn’t switched over yet. That was it.

Seriously, Frank. Stop inventing problems. They’re here. They’re finally here.

The shape of the descent vehicle resolved across the plain. He skirted a couple of old, eroded craters, and pulled up outside, looking up at the pale, slanting walls and reading the name “Hawthorn” on the outside. The MAV was called Dogwood. Someone in charge liked their plants, apparently.

The MAV had a box tied to one of its legs, that lowered a ladder to the surface. This one did too. Perhaps that was what they were waiting for. No, they could do that for themselves, from the inside.

Did they even know he was outside? Had he actually said anything, the whole time? Had he forgotten how to speak? He’d talked to the other XO astronaut a few weeks ago. He clearly remembered how, but he suddenly felt mute.

He coughed. He drank some water. He cleared his throat.

“Hello? Anyone listening?”

“Good morning, Lance. We were all wondering where you’d got to. This is Pilot Commander Lucy Davison, and the rest of the team are just as eager to meet you as I am. I appreciate that this could be a little overwhelming for you, so we’ll do the personal introductions in stages. I’ll come down with Jim, and we’ll take it from there.”

Another human voice. In his ear. In real time. Someone who didn’t actively want him dead.

“Sure. OK.” Everything that he wanted to say, that he imagined himself saying, even just playing it cool, had gone. Goddammit, even Dee would have been more articulate. He was still strapped into his seat like an idiot. He punched the buckle, got it at the second attempt, and shrugged his way out of the harness.

The ladder was dropping out of the ship, and the rungs clicking into place. The outer door was opening. There was someone standing there, in the airlock. Two people, one standing behind the other.

Frank climbed unsteadily out of his seat, concentrating hard on his hand- and footholds, but almost slipping nevertheless, having to grip tight as he slewed across the lattice frame of the buggy and banging his back against a strut.

Whereas they were climbing down, hand over hand, effortlessly, practiced, efficient.

He lowered himself to the ground, and turned. The first astronaut paused before they took that last step backwards off the end of the ladder.

Give them this moment. They won’t get another like it. They don’t need me shooting my mouth off.

“Mom. Dad. This is for you.” She placed her foot down firmly, pressing her boot into the red dust of another planet. She held on to the ladder for a little while longer, then put her other foot down and slowly shuffled to her left.

He remembered his first encounter with Martian gravity. It had screwed with him, coming straight from sleep, with his body remembering only its Earth-weight. He couldn’t walk without feeling like he was going to jump into space. And he’d never trained for it either. XO had deemed that, along with a whole stack of other things, unnecessary.

The second astronaut didn’t hesitate. He let go and let himself fall, bending his knees for the minimal impact. “Boom,” he said. Then he bounced up, throwing his arms to turn himself around as if he were a gymnast or a figure skater—diver, that was it—and on the half-turn, planted down again.

“Jim, cut it out.”

“Yes, ma’am.” The man extended his arm again, gesturing towards Frank. “Let’s go meet our host.”

Pilot Commander Lucy Davison—“Davison” on her left breast, U.S. flag underneath—was pocket-sized and compact next to Jim—“Zamudio” on his—who was long-limbed and lupine.

Was Frank expected to salute? Go through some sort of formal ceremony? Hand the base over using a set form of words? He didn’t know. He scarcely remembered his own name, let alone the fact that he was supposed to be using someone else’s.

The distance between ship and buggy was barely anything, yet time seemed elastic, stretching out so that the closer they got to Frank, the further they had to go.

Then it all snapped back, including everything that Luisa had told him about this part. It was OK. He knew what to do.

The pilot held out her hand, brisk, business-like. “Lance. Thank you for coming to get us, and letting us share your home.”

Frank looked down at his own gauntlet, empty and open. He moved it forward, and she grasped it. Not a dap. A firm, positive handshake. She wasn’t a con. She’d never known the inside of a jail cell. It felt… wrong.

“Welcome to Mars,” he managed. He could already feel the blood draining from his head, and he knew he was going to faint for real this time. His stomach was cold and his face was hot. His vision tunneled until all he could see was the top of her faceplate, through which he could make out the junction of her beanie cap against her forehead. She was frowning.

“Jim,” she said. “Catch him.”