Mirror Dance

Chapter Thirty-Two

Miles eyed the old mirror in the antechamber to the library of Vorkosigan House, the one that had been brought into the family by General Count Piotr’s mother as part of her dowry, its frame ornately carved by some Vorrutyer family retainer. He was alone in the room, with no one to observe him. He slipped up to the glass, and stared uneasily at his own reflection.

The scarlet tunic of the Imperial parade red-and-blues did not exactly flatter his too-pale complexion at the best of times. He preferred the more austere elegance of dress greens. The gold-encrusted high collar was not, unfortunately, quite high enough to hide the twin red scars on either side of his neck. The cuts would turn white and recede eventually, but in the meantime they drew the eye. He considered how he was going to explain them. Dueling scars. I lost. Or maybe, Love bites. That was closer. He traced them with a fingertip, turning his head from side to side. Unlike the terrible memory of the needle-grenade, he did not remember acquiring these. That was far more disturbing than the vision of his death, that such important things could happen to him and he didn’t, couldn’t, remember.

Well, he was known to have medical problems, and the scars were almost neat enough to look medical. Maybe people would let them pass without comment. He stepped back from the mirror to take in the general look. His uniform still had a tendency to hang on him, despite his mother’s valiant attempts to make him eat more these last few weeks since they’d arrived home. She’d finally turned the problem over to Mark, as if yielding to superior expertise. Mark had grinned with amusement, and then he had preceded to harass Miles without mercy. Actually, the attentions were working. Miles did feel better. Stronger.

The Winterfair Ball was sufficiently social, without formal governmental or military obligation, that he was able to leave the dual dress sword set at home. Ivan would be wearing his, but Ivan had the altitude to carry it off. At Miles’s height, the long sword of the pair looked damned silly, practically dragging on the ground, not to mention the problem of tripping over it or banging his dance partner in the shins.

Footsteps sounded in the archway; Miles turned quickly, and swung one booted leg up and leaned against a chair-arm, pretending to have been ignoring the narcissistic attractions of his reflection.

“Ah, there you are.” Mark wandered in to join him, pausing to study himself briefly in the mirror, turning to check the fit of his clothing. His clothing fit very well indeed. Mark had acquired the name of Gregor’s tailor, a closely-guarded ImpSec secret, by the simple expedient of calling Gregor and asking him. The boxy loose cut of the jacket and trousers was aggressively civilian, but somehow very sharp. The colors honored Winterfair, sort of; a green so dark as to be almost black was trimmed with a red so dark as to be almost black. The effect was somewhere between festive and sinister, like a small, cheerful bomb.

Miles thought of that very odd moment in Rowan’s lightflyer, when he’d been temporarily convinced he was Mark. How terrifying it had been to be Mark, how utterly isolated. The memory of that desolation made him shiver. Is that how he feels all the time?

Well, no more. Not if I have anything to say about it.

“Looks good,” Miles offered.

“Yeah.” Mark grinned. “You’re not so bad yourself. Not as cadaverous, quite.”

“You’re improving too. Slowly.” Actually, Mark was, Miles thought. The most alarming distortions of whatever horrors Ryoval had inflicted upon Mark, and which he resolutely refused to talk about, had gradually passed off. A solid residue of flesh yet lingered, however. “What weight are you finally going to choose?” Miles asked curiously.

“You’re looking at it. Or I wouldn’t have invested the fortune in the wardrobe.”

“Er. Are you comfortable?” Miles inquired uncomfortably.

Mark’s eyes glinted. “Yes, thank you. The thought that a one-eyed sniper, at a range of two kilometers at midnight in a thunderstorm, could not possibly mistake me for you, is very comfortable indeed.”

“Oh. Well. Yes, there is that, I suppose.”

“Keep exercising,” Mark advised him cordially. “It’s good for you.” Mark sat down and put his feet up.

“Mark?” the Countess’s voice called from the foyer. “Miles?” “In here,” said Miles.

“Ah,” she said, sweeping into the antechamber. “There you both are.” She smiled at them with a greedy maternal gloat, looking most satisfied. Miles could not help feeling warmed, as if some last lingering ice chip inside from the cryo-freezing finally thawed, steaming gently. The Countess wore a new dress, more ornate than her usual style, in green and silver, with ruffs and tucks and a train, a celebration of fabric. It did not make her stiff, though—it wouldn’t dare. The Countess was never intimidated by her clothing. Quite the reverse. Her eyes outshone the silver embroidery.

“Father waiting on us?” Miles inquired.

“He’ll be down momentarily. I’m insisting we leave promptly at midnight. You two can stay longer if you wish, of course. He’ll overdo, I predict, proving to the hyenas he’s too tough for them to jump, even when the hyenas aren’t circling any more. A lifetime of reflex. Try and focus his attention on the District, Miles. It will drive poor Prime Minister Racozy to distraction to feel Aral is looking over his shoulder. We really need to get out of the capital, down to Hassadar, after Winterfair.”

Miles, who had a very clear idea just how much recovery chest surgery took, said, “I think you’ll be able to persuade him.”

“Please throw your vote in. I know he can’t fool you, and he knows it too. Ah—just what can I expect tonight, medically speaking?”

“He’ll dance twice, once to prove he can do it, and the second time to prove the first wasn’t a fluke. After that you’ll have no trouble at all persuading him to sit down,” Miles predicted with confidence. “Go ahead and play mother hen, and he can pretend he’s stopping to please you, and not because he’s about to fall over. Hassadar strikes me as a very good plan.”

“Yes. Barrayar does not quite know what to do with retired strong men. Traditionally, they are decently deceased, and not hanging around to pass comments on their successors. Aral may be something of a first. Though Gregor has had the most horrifying idea.”

“Oh?”

“He’s muttering about the Vice-royalty of Sergyar, as a post for Aral, when he is fully recovered. The present viceroy has been begging to come home, it seems. Whining, actually. A more thankless task than colonial governor I cannot imagine. An honest man gets ground to powder, trying to play interface between two sets of conflicting needs, the home government above and the colonists below. Anything you can do to disabuse Gregor of this notion, I would greatly appreciate.”

“Oh, I don’t know,” Miles’s brows rose thoughtfully. “I mean—what a retirement project. A whole planet to play with. Sergyar. And didn’t you discover it yourself, back when you were a Betan Astronomical Survey captain?”

“Indeed. If the Barrayaran military expedition hadn’t been ahead of us, Sergyar would be a Betan daughter-colony right now. And much better managed, believe me. It really needs someone to take it in hand. The ecological issues alone are crying for an injection of intelligence—I mean, take that worm plague. A little Betan-style prudence could have … well. They figured it out eventually, I guess.”

Miles and Mark looked at each other. It wasn’t telepathy. But the thought that perhaps Aral Vorkosigan wasn’t the only over-energetic aging expert Gregor might be glad to export from his capital was surely being shared between them, right this second.

Mark’s brows drew down. “How soon might this be, ma’am?”

“Oh, not for at least a year.”

“Ah.” Mark brightened.

Armsman Pym stuck his head around the archway. “Ready, milady,” he reported.

They all herded into the black-and-white paved hall, to find the Count standing at the foot of the curved stairs. He watched them with delight as they trooped into his view. The Count had lost weight in his medical ordeal too, but it only made him look more fit, in his red-and-blues. He managed uniform and sword-set with unconscious ease. In three hours, he’d be drooping, Miles gauged, but by then he’d have made a lasting first impression on his many observers, on this his first formal outing with his new heart. His color was excellent, his gaze as knife-sharp as ever. But there was no dark at all in his hair anymore. Aside from that, you really might think he could live forever.

Except Miles didn’t think that anymore. It had scared the hell out of him, retroactively, this whole cardiac episode. Not that his father must die someday, perhaps before him—that was the proper order of things, and Miles could not wish it upon the Count for it to be the other way around—but that Miles might not be here when it happened. When he was needed. Might be off indulging himself with the Dendarii Mercenaries, say, and not get the word for weeks. Too late.

Being both in uniform, the Lieutenant saluted his father the Admiral now with the usual tinge of irony with which they commonly exchanged such military courtesies. Miles would rather have embraced him, but it would look odd.

To hell with what it looked like. He walked over and hugged his father.

“Hey, boy, hey,” said the Count, surprised and pleased. “It’s not that bad, really.” He embraced Miles in return. The Count stood back and looked them all over, his elegant wife, his—two, now—sons. Smiling as smugly as any rich man could, he opened his arms as if to embrace them all, briefly and almost shyly. “Are the Vorkosigans ready to storm the Winterfair Ball, then? Dear Captain, I predict they will surrender to you in droves. How’s your foot, Mark?”

Mark stuck out his right shoe, and wriggled it. “Fit to be trod upon by any Vor maiden up a hundred kilos, sir. Steel toe caps, underneath,” he added to Miles, aside. “I’m taking no chances.”

The Countess attached herself to her husband’s arm. “Lead on, love. Vorkosigans Victorious.”

Vorkosigans Convalescent, was more like it, Miles reflected, following. But you should see what the other guys look like.

Not to Miles’s surprise, practically the first person the Vorkosigans’ party met upon entering the Imperial Residence was Simon Illyan. Illyan was dressed as usual for these functions, parade red-and-blues concealing a multitude of comm links.

“Ah, he’s here in person tonight,” the Count murmured, spotting his old Security chief across the vestibule. “There must be no major messes going on elsewhere, then. Good.”

They divested their snow-spangled wraps to Gregor’s household staff. Miles was shivering. He decided his timing had been skewed by this last adventure. Usually, he managed to arrange an off-planet assignment during winter in the capital. Illyan nodded, and came over to them.

“Good evening, Simon,” said the Count.

“Good evening, sir. All calm and quiet, so far tonight.”

“That’s nice.” The Count raised a dryly amused eyebrow at him. “I’m sure Prime Minister Racozy will be delighted to hear it.”

Illyan opened his mouth, and closed it. “Er. Habit,” he said in embarrassment. He stared at Count Vorkosigan with a look almost of frustration. As if the only way he knew how to relate to his commander of thirty years was by making reports; but Admiral Count Vorkosigan was no longer receiving them. “This feels very strange,” he admitted.

“You’ll get used to it, Simon,” Countess Vorkosigan assured him. And towed her husband determinedly out of Illyan’s orbit. The Count gave him a parting half-salute, seconding the Countess’s words.

Illyan’s eye fell on Miles and Mark, instead. “Hm,” he said, in the tone of a man who had just come out second-best in some horse-trade.

Miles stood up straighter. The ImpSec medicos had cleared him to return to duty in two months, pending a final physical exam. He had not bothered mentioning the little problem with the convulsions to them. Perhaps the first one had just been an idiosyncratic effect of the fast-penta. Sure, and the second and third ones, drug flashbacks.

But he hadn’t had any more, after that. Miles smiled diffidently, trying to look very healthy. Illyan just shook his head, looking at him.

“Good evening, sir,” Mark said to Illyan in turn. “Was ImpSec able to deliver my Winterfair gift to my clones all eight?”

Illyan nodded. “Five hundred marks each, individually addressed and on time, yes, my lord.”

“Good.” Mark gave one of his sharper-edged smiles, the sort that made one wonder what he was thinking. The clones had been the pretext Mark had given Illyan for handing over to ImpSec the million Betan dollars he’d sworn he would; the funds were now in escrow for their needs, among other things paying for their place in that exclusive school. Illyan had been so boggled he’d gone absolutely robotic, an effect Miles had watched with great fascination. By the time the clones were out on their own the million would be about used up, Mark had figured. But the Winterfair gifts had been personal and separate.

Mark did not ask how his gift had been received, though Miles was dying to know; but rather, drifted on with another polite nod, as if Illyan were a clerk with whom he had just concluded some minor business. Miles saluted and caught up. Mark was suppressing a deep grin, resulting in a smirk-like look.

“All this time,” Mark confided to Miles in a low voice, “I was worried about never having received a present. It never even crossed my mind to worry about never having given one. Winterfair is an entrancing holiday, y’know?” He sighed. “I wish I’d known those clone-kids well enough to pick something right for each. But at least this way, they have a gift of choice. It’s like giving them two presents in one. How the devil do you folks give anything to, say, Gregor, though?”

“We fall back on tradition. Two hundred liters of Dendarii mountain maple syrup, delivered annually to his household. Takes care of it. If you think Gregor’s bad, think about our father, though. It’s like trying to give a Winterfair gift to Father Frost himself.”

“Yes, I’ve been puzzling over that one.”

“Sometimes you can’t give back. You just have to give on. Did you, ah … sign those credit chits to the clones?”

“Sort of. Actually, I signed them ’Father Frost.’ ” Mark cleared his throat. “That’s the purpose of Winterfair, I think. To teach you how to … give on. Being Father Frost is the end-game, isn’t it?”

“I think so.”

“I’m getting it figured out,” Mark nodded in determination.

They walked on together into the upstairs reception hall, and snagged drinks. They were collecting a lot of attention, Miles noted with amusement, covert stares from the flower of the Vor assembled there. Oh, Barrayar. Do we have a surprise for you.

He sure surprised me.

It was going to be huge fun, having Mark for a brother. An ally at last! I think… . Miles wondered if he could ever draw Mark on to love Barrayar as he did. The thought made him strangely nervous. Best not to love too much. Barrayar could be lethal, to take for one’s lady. Still … a challenge. Enough challenges to go around, no artificial shortages of those here.

Miles would have to be careful about anything Mark might interpret as an attempt to dominate him, though. Mark’s violent allergy to the least hint of control was perfectly understandable, Miles thought, but it made mentoring him a task of some delicacy.

Better not do too good a job, big brother. You’re expendable now, y’know. He ran a hand down the bright uniform cloth of his jacket, coolly conscious of just what expendable meant. Yet being beaten by your student was the ultimate victory, for a teacher. An enchanting paradox. I can’t lose.

Miles grinned. Yeah, Mark. Catch me if you can. If you can.

“Ah,” Mark nodded to a man in a wine-red Vor House uniform, across the room. “Isn’t that Lord Vorsmythe, the industrialist?”

“Yes.”

“I’d love to talk with him. Do you know him? Can you introduce me?”

“Sure. Thinking of more investing, are you?”

“Yes, I’ve decided to diversify. Two-thirds Barrayaran investments, one-third galactic.”

“Galactic?”

“I’m putting some into Escobaran medical technology, if you must know.”

“Lilly?”

“Yep. She needs the set-up capital. I’m going to be a silent partner.” Mark hesitated. “The solution has to be medical, you know. And … do you want to bet she won’t return a profit?”

“Nope. In fact, I’d be very leery of laying any bet against you.”

Mark smiled his sharpest. “Good. You’re learning too.”

Miles led Mark over and performed the requested introduction. Vorsmythe was delighted to find someone who actually wanted to talk about his work here, the bored look pasted on his face evaporating with Mark’s first probing question; Miles turned Mark loose with a wave. Vorsmythe was gesturing expansively. Mark was listening as though he had a recorder whirring in his head. Miles left them to it.

He spied Delia Koudelka across the chamber, and made for her, to claim a dance later, and possibly cut out Ivan. If he was lucky, she might offer him a chance to use that line about the dueling scars, too.