Mirror Dance

Chapter Thirty

The Dendarii’s little personnel shuttle kept pace with Baron Fell’s larger drop shuttle; they arrived at the Durona Group’s clinic almost simultaneously. A House Dyne shuttle belonging temporarily to ImpSec was waiting politely across the street from the entrance, by the little park. Just waiting.

As they were circling for a landing, Miles asked Quinn, who was piloting, “Elli—if we were flying along, in a lightflyer or an aircar or something, and I suddenly ordered you to crash it, would you?”

“Now?” asked Quinn, startled. The shuttle lurched.

“No! Not now. I mean theoretically. Obey, instantly, no questions asked.”

“Well, sure, I suppose so. I’d ask questions afterward though. Probably with my hands wrapped around your neck.”

“That’s what I thought.” Miles sat back, satisfied.

They rendezvoused with Baron Fell at the front entrance, where the gate guards prepared to code open a portal in the force screen. Fell frowned at the three Dendarii in their half-armor, Quinn and Bel and Taura, trailing Miles in his grey knits.

“This is my facility,” Fell pointed out. His own pair of green-clad men eyed them without favor.

“These are my bodyguards,” said Miles, “for whom I have a demonstrated need. Your force screen appears to have a malfunction.”

“He was taken care of,” said Fell grimly. “That won’t happen again.”

“Nevertheless.” By way of concession, Miles jerked his thumb at the shuttle by the park. “My other friends can wait outside.”

Fell frowned, thinking it over. “All right,” he said at last. They followed him inside. Hawk met them, bowed to the Baron, and escorted them formally up through the series of lift tubes to Lilly Durona’s penthouse. .

The word for it, Miles thought, rising past the chromium railing, was “tableau.” It was all arranged as perfectly as any stage setting.

Mark was the centerpiece. He sat back comfortably in Lilly Durona’s own chair, his bandaged right foot propped on a silk pillow on the low round tea table. Surrounded by Duronas. Lilly herself, her white hair braided today like a crown wreathing her head, stood at Mark’s right hand, leaning bemusedly on the upholstered chair back, smiling down beneficently upon the top of his head. Hawk took up position on Mark’s left side. Dr. Chrys, Dr. Poppy, and Dr. Rose clustered admiringly around them. Dr. Chrys had a large fire-extinguisher by her knee. Rowan was not here. The window had been repaired.

On the center of the table sat a transparent cold-box. Within it lay a severed hand wearing a big silver ring set with what appeared to be a square black onyx.

Mark’s physical appearance disturbed Miles. He had been braced to witness traumas of unnamed tortures, but Mark was covered neck to ankle in concealing grey knits like his own. Only the bruises on his face and the bandage on his foot hinted at the past five days’ activities. But his face and body were strangely and unhealthily bloated, his stomach shockingly so, more than the stoutly-balanced figure he’d seen here in Dendarii uniform just a few days ago, and far beyond the almost-duplicate of himself he’d tried to rescue from the raid on the clone creche four months ago. In another person, Baron Fell for example, the near-obesity wouldn’t have made him even blink, but Mark … could this be Miles himself, someday, if he slowed down? He had a sudden urge to swear off desserts. Elli was frankly staring, horrified and repelled.

Mark was smiling. A little control box lay under his right hand. His index finger kept pressure on a button.

Baron Fell saw the cold-box containing the hand, and started for it, crying, “Ah!”

“Stop,” said Mark.

The Baron stopped, and cocked his head at him. “Yes?” he said warily.

“The object you are interested in is sitting in that sealed box on top of a small thermal grenade. Controlled,” he lifted his hand with the remote in it, “by this dead-man switch. There is a second, positive-control switch in the hands of another person, outside of this room. Stun me or jump me, and it will go off. Frighten me, and my hand might slip. Tire me out, and my finger might give way. Annoy me enough, and I might just let go for the hell of it.”

“The fact that you have made such an arrangement,” said Fell slowly, “tells me you know the value of what you hold. You wouldn’t. You’re bluffing.” He stared piercingly at Lilly.

“Don’t try me,” said Mark, still smiling. “After five days of your half-brother’s hospitality, I’m in a real hostile mood. What’s in that box is valuable to you. Not to me. However,” he took a breath, “you do have some things that are valuable to me. Baron, let’s Deal.”

Fell sucked on his lower lip, and stared into Mark’s glittering eyes. “I’ll listen,” he said at last.

Mark nodded. A couple of Duronas hurried to bring chairs for Baron Fell and Miles; the bodyguards arranged themselves standing. Fell’s guards looked like they were thinking hard, watching the box and their master; the Dendarii watched the green-clad guards in turn. Fell settled himself with a formal air, half-smiling, eyes intent.

“Tea?” inquired Lilly.

“Thank you,” said the Baron. The two Durona children hurried out at her nod. The ritual was begun. Miles sat gingerly, and clamped his teeth together, hard. Whatever was going on here, he hadn’t been briefed. It was clearly Mark’s show. But he wasn’t entirely sure Mark was sane, right now. Smart, yes. Sane, no. Baron Fell looked like he might be coming to the same conclusion, staring across the tea table at his self-appointed host.

The two opponents waited in silence for the tea to arrive, sizing each other up the while. The boy brought in the tray, and set it beside the gruesome box. The girl poured just two cups, Lilly’s finest imported Japan Green, for Mark and the Baron, and offered tea cookies with them.

“No,” said Mark to the cookies in a tone of loathing, “thank you.” The Baron took two, and nibbled one. Mark started to lift his tea cup left-handed, but his hand was shaking too badly, and he set it hastily back in its saucer on the arm of Lilly’s chair before it could spill and scald. The girl slipped silently up to him, and lifted it to his lips; he sipped and nodded gratefully, and she settled down with the cup by his left knee to serve again at his word. He’s hurt one hell of a lot worse than he’s managing to look right now, Miles realized, his stomach cold. The Baron looked at Mark’s trembling left hand, and more dubiously at his right, and shifted uneasily.

“Baron Fell,” Mark said, “I think you will agree with me that time is of the essence. Shall I begin?”

“Please do.”

“In that cold-box,” Mark nodded toward the severed hand, “is the key to House Ryoval. Ry Ryoval’s, ah, secret decoder ring.” Mark cackled loudly, bit back the laugh, and nodded to the girl for another sip of tea. He regained control of his voice and continued. “Embedded in the ring’s crystal are all of the late Baron Ryoval’s personal code-keys. Now, House Ryoval has a peculiar administrative structure. To say that Ry Ryoval was a paranoid control freak would be a gross understatement. But Ryoval is dead, leaving his scattered subordinates at scattered locations without their accustomed direction. When the rumors of his death reach them, who knows what they will do? You’ve seen one example.

“And a day or two from now, the vultures will be flying in from all over to tear at the carcass of House Ryoval. Possession is rather more than nine points of the non-existent law around here. House Bharaputra alone has obvious congruent interests in House Ryoval’s wares. I’m sure you can think of others, Baron.”

Fell nodded.

“But a man who had Ryoval’s own code-keys in his hand today could be at a considerable advantage,” Mark went on. “Particularly if he was well-supplied with personnel to provide material back-up. Without the tedious delays of cracking Ryoval’s codes one by one, he could put himself in position to take immediate control of most or all of House Ryoval’s current assets, from the top down instead of piecemeal. Add to that a well-known tie of blood to lend legitimacy to his claims, and I think most of the competition would sheer off without need for any expensive confrontation at all.”

“My half-brother’s code-key ring is not yours to trade,” said Fell coldly.

“Oh, yes it is,” said Mark. “I won it. I control it. I can destroy it. And,” he licked his lips; the girl raised the teacup again, “I paid for it. You would not now be offered this exclusive—and it is still exclusive—opportunity if not for me.”

The Baron gave a very tiny nod of concession. “Go on.”

“What would you say the value of the Durona Group is, compared to the value of House Ryoval’s current assets? Proportionally.”

The Baron frowned. “One-twentieth. One-thirtieth, perhaps. House Ryoval has far more real estate. The, er, intellectual property value is harder to calculate. They specialize in rather different biological tasks.”

“Leaving aside—or leaving behind—the real estate. House Ryoval is clearly enormously more valuable. Facilities, techs, slaves. Client list. Surgeons. Geneticists.”

“I would have to say so.”

“All right. Let’s trade. I will give you House Ryoval in exchange for the Durona Group, plus value in a bearer-paid credit chit equal to ten percent of the assets of House Ryoval.”

“Ten percent. An agent’s fee,” said Fell, looking at Lilly. Lilly smiled and said nothing.

“A mere agent’s fee,” Mark agreed. “Cheap at twice the price, which not-coincidentally is at least what you will lose without the advantages of Ry Ryoval’s code-keys.”

“And what would you do with all these ladies if you had them, ah Mark?”

“What I wist. Wist, from wistful. I think I like the verb form better.”

“Thinking of setting up in business here yourself? Baron Mark?”

Miles froze, appalled at this new vision.

“No,” sighed Mark. “I wist to go home, Baron. I wist it real bad. I will give the Durona Group—to themselves. And you will let them go, free and unmolested and without pursuit, to wherever they—wist. Escobar, was it, Lilly?” He looked up at Lilly, who looked down at him and smiled, and nodded slightly.

“How very bizarre,” murmured the Baron. “I think you are mad.”

“Oh, Baron. You have no idea.” A weird chuckle escaped Mark. If he was acting, it was the best acting job Miles had ever seen, not excluding his own wildest flights of scam.

The Baron sat back, and crossed his arms. His face grew stony with thought. Would he decide to try to jump them? Frantically, Miles began trying to calculate the military options of a sudden fire-fight, Dendarii on deck, ImpSec in orbit, himself and Mark at risk, the sudden bright muzzle-flare of a projectile weapon—oh God, what a mess—

“Ten percent,” said the Baron at last, “less the value of the Durona Group.”

“Who calculates the value of that intellectual property, Baron?”

“I do. And they evacuate immediately. All property, notes, files, and experiments in progress to be left intact.”

Mark glanced up at Lilly: she bent and whispered in his ear. “The Durona Group shall have the right to duplicate technical files. And have the right to carry away personal items such as clothing and books.”

The Baron stared thoughtfully at the ceiling. “They may carry away—what each one may carry. No more. They may not duplicate technical files. And their credit account remains, as it has always been, mine.”

Lilly’s brows drew down; another whispered conference behind her hand with Mark. He waved away some objection, and pointed orbit-ward. She finally nodded.

“Baron Fell,” Mark took a deep breath, “it’s a Deal.”

“It’s a Deal,” Fell confirmed, watching him with a slight smile.

“My hand on it,” Mark intoned. He snickered, turned his control box over, and twisted a knob on the underside. He set it back down on his chair-arm, and shook out his trembling fingers.

Fell stretched in his chair, shaking off the tension. The guards relaxed. Miles almost fell into a puddle. Cripes, what have we done? At Lilly’s direction, assorted Duronas scattered in a hurry.

“It’s been very entertaining, doing business with you, Mark.” Fell rose. “I don’t know where home is for you, but if you ever decide you want a job, come see me again. I could use an agent like you, in my galactic affairs. Your sense of timing is … viciously elegant.”

“Thank you, Baron,” Mark nodded. “I’ll keep it in mind, should some of my other options not work out.”

“Your brother, too,” Fell added as an afterthought. “Assuming his full recovery, of course. My troops could use a more active combat commander.”

Miles cleared his throat. “House Fell’s needs are mainly defensive. I prefer the Dendarii’s more aggressive type of assignments,” he said.

“There may be more assault work, upcoming,” said Fell, his eyes going slightly distant.

“Thinking of conquering the world?” Miles inquired. The Fell Empire?

“The acquisition of House Ryoval will put House Fell in an interestingly unbalanced position,” said Fell. “It would not be worthwhile to pursue a policy of unlimited expansion, and cope with all the opposition that must result, for a mere five or so years of rule. But if one were to live for another fifty years, say, one might find some most absorbing work for a military officer of capacity. …” Fell raised an inquiring brow at Miles.

“No. Thank you.” And I wish you all joy of each other.

Mark gave Miles a slit-eyed, feline glance of amusement.

What an extraordinary solution Mark had wrought, Miles thought. What a Deal. Did a Jacksonian defy his upbringing by joining the side of the angels, rebel by becoming incorruptible? So it appeared. I think my brother is more Jacksonian than he realizes. A renegade Jacksonian. The mind boggles.

At Fell’s gesture, one of his bodyguards carefully picked up the transparent box. Fell turned to Lilly.

“Well, old sister. You’ve had an interesting life.”

“I still have it,” smiled Lilly.

“For a while.”

“Long enough for me, greedy little boy. So this is the end of the road. The last of our blood-pact. Who would have imagined it, all those years ago, when we were climbing out of Ryoval’s sewers together?”

“Not I,” said Fell. They embraced each other. “Goodbye, Lilly.”

“Goodbye, Georie.”

Fell turned to Mark. “The Deal is the Deal, and for my House. This is for me. For old times’ sake.” He stuck out a thick hand. “May I shake your hand, sir?”

Mark looked bewildered and suspicious; but Lilly nodded to him. He allowed his hand to be engulfed by Fell’s.

“Thank you,” said Georish Stauber sincerely. He jerked his chin at his guards, and vanished down the lift tube in their company.

“Do you think this Deal will hold?” Mark asked Lilly in a thin, worried voice.

“Long enough. For the next few days, Georish will be much too busy assimilating his new acquisition. It will absorb all his resources and then some. And after that, it will be too late. Regret, later, yes. Pursuit and vengeance, no. It’s enough. It’s all we need.”

She stroked his hair fondly. “You just rest now. Have some more tea. We’re going to be very busy for a while.” She turned to gather up the young Duronas, “Robin! Violet! Come along quickly—” She hurried them into the interior of her quarters.

Mark slumped, looking very tired. He grimaced in bemusement at the teacup, switched it to his right hand, and swirled it thoughtfully before drinking.

Elli touched her half-armor helmet, listened, and vented a sudden bitter bark of laughter. “The ImpSec commander at Hargraves-Dyne Station is on the line. He says his reinforcements have arrived, and where should he send them?”

Miles and Mark looked at each other. Miles didn’t know what Mark was thinking, but most of the responses that were leaping to his mind were violently obscene.

“Home,” said Mark at last. “And they can give us a ride while they’re at it.”

“I have to get back to the Dendarii fleet,” said Miles urgently. “Ah … where are they, Elli?”

“On their way from Illyrica to rendezvous off Escobar, but you, sir, are going nowhere near them till ImpSec Medical has cleared you for active duty,” she said firmly. “The fleet is fine. You’re not. Illyan would pin my ears back if I sent you anywhere but home right now. And then there’s your father.”

“What about my father?” Miles asked. Elena had started to say something—icy terror seized his chest. A kaleidoscopic vision of assassinations, mortal illnesses, and political plots all rolled together spun through his mind. Not to mention aircar accidents.

“He had a major coronary failure while I was there,” said Mark. “They had him tied to a bed in ImpMil waiting for a heart transplant at the time I left. Actually, they should be doing the surgery right about now.”

“You were there?” What did you do to him? Miles felt like he’d just had his magnetic poles reversed. “I have to get home!”

“That’s what I just said,” said Mark wearily. “Why d’you think we trooped all the way back here, but to drag you home? It wasn’t for the free holiday at Ry Ryoval’s health spa, let me tell you. Mother thinks I’m the next Vorkosigan heir. I can deal with Barrayar, I think, but I sure as hell can’t deal with that.”

It was all too much, too fast. He sat down and tried to calm himself again, before he triggered another convulsion. That was just the sort of little physical weakness that could win one an immediate medical discharge from the Imperial Service, if one wasn’t careful about who witnessed it. He had assumed the convulsions were a temporary snag in his recovery. What if they were a permanent effect? Oh, God… .

“I am going to lend Lilly my ship,” said Mark, “since Baron Fell so-thoughtfully has stripped her of sufficient funds to buy thirty-six passages to Escobar.”

“What ship?” asked Miles. Not one of mine … !

“The one Mother gave me. Lilly ought to be able to sell it at Escobar orbit for a tidy profit. I can pay back Mother and get Vorkosigan Surleau out of hock, and still have an impressive amount of pocket-change. I’d like to have my own yacht, someday, but I really couldn’t use this one for a while.”

What? What? What?

“I was just thinking,” Mark went on, “that the Dendarii here could ride along with Lilly. Provide her with a little military protection in exchange for a free and fast ride back to the fleet. Save ImpSec the price of four commercial passages, too.”

Four? Miles glanced at Bel, so very silent throughout, who met his eyes bleakly.

“And get everybody the hell out of here, as fast as possible,” added Mark. “Before something else goes wrong.”

“Amen!” muttered Quinn.

Rowan and Elli, on the same ship? Not to mention Taura. What if they all got together and compared notes? What if they fell into a feud? Worse, what if they struck up an alliance and colluded to partition him by treaty? North Miles and South Miles. … It wasn’t, he swore, that he picked up so many women. Compared to Ivan, he was practically celibate. It was just that he never put any down. The accumulation could become downright embarrassing, over a long enough time-span. He needed … Lady Vorkosigan, to put an end to this nonsense. But even Elli the bold refused to volunteer for that duty.

“Yes,” said Miles, “that works. Home. Captain Quinn, arrange Mark’s and my transport with ImpSec. Sergeant Taura, would you please put yourself at Lilly Durona’s disposal? The sooner we evacuate from here the better, I agree. And, um, Bel … would you stay and talk with me, please.”

Quinn and Taura took the hint, and made themselves scarce. Mark … Mark was in on this, Miles decided. And anyway, he was a little afraid to ask Mark to get up. Afraid of what his movements would reveal. That flip phrase about Ry Ryoval’s health spa was entirely too obvious an attempt to conceal … what?

“Sit, Bel,” Miles nodded to Baron Fell’s vacated chair. It put them in an equilateral triangle, he and Mark and Bel. Bel nodded and settled, its helmet in its lap and its hood pushed back. Miles thought of how he’d perceived Bel as a female in this room five days ago, prior to his memory cascade. His eye had always conveniently interpreted Bel as male, before, for some reason. Strange. There was a brief, uneasy silence.

Miles swallowed, and broke it. “I can’t let you go back to command of the Ariel,” he said.

“I know,” said Bel.

“It would be bad for fleet discipline.”

“I know,” said Bel.

“It’s … not just. If you had been a dishonest herm, and kept your mouth shut, and kept on pretending to have been fooled by Mark, no one would ever have known.”

“I know,” said Bel. It added after a moment, “I had to get my command back, in the emergency. I didn’t think I could let Mark go on giving orders. Too dangerous.”

“To those who’d followed you.”

“Yes. And … I would have known,” added Bel.

“Captain Thorne,” Admiral Naismith sighed, “I must request your resignation.”

“You have it, sir.”

“Thank you.” And that was done. So fast. He thought back over the scattered pictures in his head of Mark’s raid. There were still pieces missing, he was pretty sure. But there had been deaths, too many deaths had made it irredeemable. “Do you know … what happened to Phillipi? She’d had a chance, I thought.”

Mark and Bel exchanged a look. Bel answered. “She didn’t make it.”

“Oh. I’m sorry to hear that.”

“Cryo-revival is a chancy business,” sighed Bel. “We all undertake the risks, when we sign on.”

Mark frowned. “It doesn’t seem fair. Bel loses its career, and I get off free.”

Bel stared a moment at Mark’s beaten, bloated body, huddled down in Lilly’s big chair; its brows rose slightly.

“What do you plan to do, Bel?” asked Miles carefully. “Go home to Beta Colony? You’ve talked about it.”

“I don’t know,” said Bel. “It’s not for lack of thinking. I’ve been thinking for weeks. I’m not sure I’d fit in at home anymore.”

“I’ve been thinking myself,” said Miles. “A prudent thought. It strikes me that certain parties on my side would be less paranoid about the idea of you running around the wormhole nexus with a head full of Barrayaran classified secrets if you were still on Illyan’s payroll. An informant—perhaps an agent?”

“I don’t have Elli Quinn’s talents for scam,” Bel said. “I was a shipmaster.”

“Shipmasters get to some interesting places. They are in position to pick up all kinds of information.”

Bel tilted its head. “I will … seriously consider it.”

“I assume you don’t want to cash out here on Jackson’s Whole?”

Bel laughed outright. “No shit.”

“Think about it, then, on the way back to Escobar. Talk to Quinn. Decide by the time you get there, and let her know.”

Bel nodded, rose, and looked around Lilly Durona’s quiet living room. “I’m not altogether sorry, you know,” it said to Mark. “One way or another, we’ve pulled almost ninety people out of this stinking gravity well. Out of certain death or Jacksonian slavery. Not a bad score, for an aging Betan. You can bet I’ll remember them, too, when I remember this.”

“Thank you,” whispered Mark.

Bel eyed Miles. “Do you remember the first time we ever saw each other?” it asked.

“Yes. I stunned you.”

“You surely did.” It walked over to his chair, and bent, and took his chin in its hand. “Hold still. I’ve been wanting to do this for years.” It kissed him, long and quite thoroughly. Miles thought about appearances, thought about the ambiguity of it, thought about sudden death, thought the hell with it all, and kissed Bel back. Straightening again, Bel smiled.

Voices floated from the lift tube, some Durona directing, “Right upstairs, ma’am.”

Elena Bothari-Jesek rose behind the chromium railing, and swept the room with her gaze. “Hello, Miles, I have to talk with Mark,” she said, all in a breath. Her eyes were dark and worried. “Can we go somewhere?” she asked Mark.

“ ’D rather not get up,” Mark said. His voice was so tired it slurred.

“Quite. Miles, Bel, please go away,” she said straightly.

Puzzled, Miles rose to his feet. He gave her a look of inquiry; her return look said, Not now. Later. He shrugged. “Come on, Bel. Let’s go see if we can lend anyone a hand.” He wanted to find Rowan. He watched them as he descended the lift tube with Bel. Elena pulled a chair around and sat across it backwards, her hands already opening in urgent remonstration. Mark was looking extremely saturnine.

Miles turned Bel over to Dr. Poppy, for liaison duty, and sought Rowan’s suite. As he’d hoped, she was there, packing. Another young Durona sat and watched, looking a little bewildered. Miles recognized her at once.

“Lilly Junior! You made it. Rowan!”

Rowan’s face lit with delight, and she hurried to embrace him. “Miles! Your name is Miles Naismith. I thought so! You’ve cascaded. When?”

“Well,” he cleared his throat, “actually, it was back at Bharaputra’s.”

Her smile went a little flat. “Before I left. And you didn’t tell me.”

“Security,” he offered warily.

“You didn’t trust me.”

This is Jackson’s Whole. You said it yourself. “I was more worried about Vasa Luigi.”

“I can see that, I suppose,” Rowan sighed.

“When did you each get in?”

“I made it yesterday morning. Lilly came in last night. Smooth! I never dreamed you could get her out too!”

“The one escape was lock-and-key to the other. You got yourself out, which enabled Lilly to get herself out.” He flashed a smile at Lilly Junior, who was watching them curiously. “I did nothing. That seems to be the story of my life, lately. But I do believe you’ll all make it off-planet before Vasa Luigi and Lotus figure it out.”

“We’ll all have lifted before dusk. Listen!” She led him to her window. The Dendarii personnel shuttle, with Sergeant Taura piloting and about eight Duronas aboard, was lifting heavily from the courtyard of the walled compound. Point-women, going up to prepare the ship for the others to come.

“Escobar, Miles!” Rowan said enthusiastically. “We’re all going to Escobar. Oh, Lilly, you’re going to love it there!”

“Will you stay in a group when you get there?” Miles asked.

“At first, I think. Till it gets less strange for the others. Lilly will release us at her death. Baron Fell anticipates that, I think. Less competition for him, in the long run. I expect he’ll have the top people stripped from House Ryoval and installed here by tomorrow morning.”

Miles walked around the room, and noticed a familiar little remote box on the sofa-arm. “Ah! It was you who had the other control to the thermal grenade! I might have known. So you were listening in. I wasn’t sure if Mark was bluffing.”

“Mark wasn’t bluffing about anything,” she stated with certainty.

“Were you here, when he came in?”

“Yes. It was a little before dawn this morning. He came staggering in from a lightflyer wearing the most peculiar costume, and demanding to speak with Lilly.”

Miles raised his brows at the image. “What did the gate guards say?”

“They said Yes, sir. He had an aura … I don’t know how to describe it. Except … I could picture large thugs in dark alleyways scrambling to get out of his way. Your clone-twin is a formidable young man.”

Miles blinked.

“Lilly and Chrys took him off to the clinic on a float-pallet, and I didn’t see him after that. Then the orders started flying.” She paused. “So. Will you be going back to your Dendarii Mercenaries, then?”

“Yes. After some R&R, I guess.”

“Not … settling down. After that close call.”

“I confess, the sight of projectile-weapons gives me a new and unpleasant twitch, but—I hope I won’t be cashing out of the Dendarii for a long time yet. Um … these convulsions I’ve been having. Will they go away?”

“They should. Cryo-revival is always chancy. So, you … don’t picture yourself retiring. To Escobar, say.”

“We visit Escobar now and then, for fleet repairs. And personnel repairs. It’s a major nexus intersection. We may cross paths again.”

“Not the same way we first met, I trust.” Rowan smiled.

“Let me tell you, if I ever do need cryo-revival again, I’ll leave orders to look you up.” He hesitated. I need my Lady Vorkosigan, to put an end to this wandering… . Could Rowan be it? The thirty-five sisters-in-law would be a distant drawback, safely far away on Escobar. “What would you think of the planet Barrayar, as a place to live and work?” he inquired cautiously.

Her nose wrinkled. “That backward pit? Why?”

“I … have some interests there. In fact, it’s where I’m planning to retire. It’s a very beautiful place, really. And underpopulated. They encourage, um … children.” He was skirting dangerously close to breaking his cover, the strained identity he’d risked so much lately to retain. “And there’d be lots of work for a galactic-trained physician.”

“I’ll bet. But I’ve been a slave all my life. \Vhy would I choose to be a subject, when I could choose to be a citizen?” She smiled wryly, and came to him, and twined her arms around his shoulders. “Those five days we were locked up together at Vasa Luigi’s—that wasn’t an effect of the imprisonment, was it. That’s the way you really are, when you’re well.”

“Pretty much,” he admitted.

“I’d always wondered what adult hyperactives did for a living. Running several thousand troops would just about absorb your energies, wouldn’t it?”

“Yes,” he sighed.

“I think I’ll always love you, some. But living with you full-time would drive me crazy. You are the most incredibly domineering person I think I’ve ever met.”

“You’re supposed to fight back,” he explained. “I rely on—” he couldn’t say Elli, or worse, all my women, “my partner fighting back. Otherwise, I couldn’t relax and be myself.”

Right. Too much togetherness had destroyed their love, or at least her illusions. The Barrayaran system of using go-betweens to make marital arrangements was beginning to look better all the time. Maybe it would be best to get safely married first, and then get to know each other. By the time his bride figured him out, it would be too late for her to back out. He sighed, and smiled, and gave Rowan an exaggerated, courtly bow. “I shall be pleased to visit you on Escobar, milady.”

“That would be joust perfect, sir,” she returned, deadpan.

“Ow!” Dammit, she could be the one, she underestimated herself—

Lilly Junior, sitting on the sofa watching all this with fascination, coughed. Miles glanced at her, and thought about her account of her time with the Dendarii.

“Does Mark know you’re here, Lilly?” he asked.

“I don’t know. I’ve been with Rowan.”

“The last time Mark saw you, you were going back with Vasa Luigi. I … think he’d like to know you changed your mind.”

“He tried to talk me into staying on the ship. He didn’t talk so well as you,” she admitted.

“He made this all happen. He bought your passage out of here.” And Miles wasn’t sure he wanted to think about the coin. “I just trailed along. Come on. At least say hello, goodbye, and thank you. It will cost you nothing, and I suspect it would mean something to him.”

Reluctantly, she rose, and allowed him to tow her out. Rowan gave them a nod of approval, and returned to her hasty packing.