TOWARDS MIDNIGHT, THE TRAFFIC outside Gentle's studio dwindled to almost nothing. Anybody who was going to a party tonight had arrived. They were deep in drink, debate, or seduction, determined as they celebrated to have in the coming year what the going had denied them.
Content with his solitude, Gentle sat cross-legged on the floor, a bottle of bourbon between his legs and canvases propped up against the furniture all around him. Most of them were blank, but that suited his meditation. So was the future.
He'd been sitting in this ring of emptiness for about two hours, drinking from the bottle, and now his bladder needed emptying. He got up and went to the bathroom, using the tight from the lounge to go by rather than face his reflection. As he shook the last drops into the bowl, that light went off. He zipped himself up and went back into the studio. The rain lashed against the window, but there was sufficient illumination from the street for him to see that the door out onto the landing stood inches ajar.
"Who's there?" he said.
The room was still for a moment; then he glimpsed a form against the window, and the smell of something burned and cold pricked his nostrils. The whistler! My God, it had found him!
Fear made him fleet. He broke from his frozen posture and raced to the door. He would have been through it and away down the stairs had he not almost tripped on the dog waiting obediently on the other side. It wagged its tail in pleasure at the sight of him and halted his flight. The whistler was no dog lover. So who was here?
Turning back, he reached for the light switch and wasabout to flip it on when the unmistakable voice of Pie 'oh' pah said, "Please don't. I prefer the dark."
Gentle's finger dropped from the switch, his heart hammering for a different reason. "Pie? Is that you?"
"Yes, it's me," came the reply. "I heard you wanted to see me, from a friend of yours."
"I thought you were dead."
"I was with the dead. Theresa and the children."
"Oh, God. Oh, God."
"You lost somebody too," Pie 'oh' pah said.
It was wise, Gentle now understood, to have this exchange in darkness: to talk, in shadow, of the grave and the lambs it had claimed.
"I was with the spirits of my children for a time. Your friend found me in the mourning place, spoke to me, told me you wanted to see me again. This surprises me, Gentle."
"As much as you talking to Taylor surprises me," Gentle replied, though after their conversation it shouldn't have done. "Is he happy?" he asked, knowing the question might be viewed as a banality, but wanting reassurance.
"No spirit is happy," Pie replied. "There's no release for them. Not in this Dominion or any other. They haunt the doors, waiting to leave, but there's nowhere for them to go."
"Why?"
"That's a question that's been asked for many generations, Gentle. And unanswered. As a child I was taught that before the Unbeheld went into the First Dominion there was a place there into which all spirits were received. My people lived in that Dominion then, and watched over that place, but the Unbeheld drove both the spirits and my people out."
"So the spirits have nowhere to go?"
"Exactly. Their numbers swell, and so does their grief."
He thought of Taylor, lying on his deathbed, dreaming
of release, of the final flight into the Absolute. Instead, if
Pie was to be believed, his spirit had entered a place of lost souls, denied both flesh and revelation. What price understanding now, when the end of everything was limbo?
"Who is this Unbeheld?" Gentle said.
"Hapexamendios, the God of the Imajica."
"Is He a God of this world too?"
"He was once. But He went out of the Fifth Dominion, through the other worlds, laying their divinities waste, until He reached the Place of Spirits. Then He drew a veil across that Dominion—"
"And became Unbeheld."
"That's what I was taught."
The formality and plainness of Pie 'oh' pah's account lent the story authority, but for all its elegance it was still a tale of gods and other worlds, very far from this dark room and the cold rain running on the glass.
"How do I know any of this is true?" Gentle said.
"You don't, unless you see it with your own eyes," Pie 'oh' pah replied. His voice when he said this was almost sultry. He spoke like a seducer.
"And how do I do that?"
"You must ask me direct questions, and I'll try to answer them. I can't reply to generalities."
"All right, answer this: Can you take me to the Dominions?"
"That I can do."
"I want to follow in the footsteps of Hapexamendios. Can we do that?"
"We can try."
"I want to see the Unbeheld, Pie 'oh' pah. I want to know why Taylor and your children are in Purgatory. I want to understand why they're suffering."
There was no question in this speech, therefore no reply except the other's quickening breath.
"Can you take us now?" Gentle said.
"If that's what you want."
"It's what I want, Pie. Prove what you've said is true, or leave me alone forever."
It was eighteen minutes to midnight when Jude got into her car to start her journey to Gentle's house. It was an easy drive, with the roads so clear, and she was several times tempted to jump red lights, but the police were especially vigilant on this night, and any infringement might bring them out of hiding. Though she had no alcohol in her system, she was by no means sure it was innocent of alien influences. She therefore drove as cautiously as at noon, and it took fully fifteen minutes to reach the studio. When she did she found the upper windows dark. Had Gentle decided to drown his sorrows in a night of high life, she wondered, or was he already fast asleep? If the latter, she had news worth waking him for.
"There are some things you should understand before we leave," Pie said, tying their wrists together, left to right, with a belt. "This is no easy journey, Gentle. This Dominion, the Fifth, is unreconciled, which means that getting to the Fourth involves risk. It's not like crossing a bridge. Passing over requires considerable power. And if anything goes wrong, the consequences will be dire."
"Tell me the worst."
"In between the Reconciled Dominions and the Fifth is a state called the In Ovo. It's an ether, in which things that have ventured from their worlds are imprisoned. Some of them are innocent. They're there by accident. Some were dispatched there as a judgment. They're lethal. I'm hoping we'll pass through the In Ovo before any of them even notice we're there. But if we were to become separated—"
"I get the picture. You'd better tighten that knot. It could still work loose."
Pie bent to the task, with Gentle fumbling to help in the darkness.
"Let's assume we get through the In Ovo," Gentle said. "What's on the other side?"
"The Fourth Dominion," Pie replied. "If I'm accurate in my bearings, we'll arrive near the city of Patashoqua."
"And if not?"
"Who knows? The sea. A swamp."
"Shit."
"Don't worry. I've got a good sense of direction. And there's plenty of power between us. I couldn't do this on my own. But together..."
"Is this the only way to cross over?"
"Not at all. There are a number of passing places here in the Fifth: stone circles, hidden away.'But most of them were created to carry travelers to some particular location. We want to go as free agents. Unseen, unsuspected."
"So why have you chosen Patashoqua?"
"It has... sentimental associations," Pie replied. "You'll see for yourself, very soon." The mystif paused. "You do still want to go?"
"Of course."
"This is as tight as I can get the knot without stopping our blood."
"Then why are we delaying?"
Pie's fingers touched Gentle's face. "Close your eyes."
Gentle did so. Pie's fingers sought out Gentle's free hand and raised it between them.
"You have to help me," the mystif said.
"Tell me what to do."
"Make a fist. Lightly. Leave enough room for a breath to pass through. Good. Good. All magic proceeds from breath. Remember that."
He did, from somewhere.
"Now," Pie went on. "Put your hand to your face, with your thumb against your chin. There are very few incantations in our workings. No pretty words. Just pneuma like this, and the will behind them."
"I've got the will, if that's what you're asking," Gentle said.
"Then one solid breath is all we need. Exhale until it hurts. I'll do the rest."
"Can I take another breath afterwards?"
"Not in this Dominion."
With that reply the enormity of what they were undertaking struck Gentle. They were leaving Earth. Stepping off the edge of the only reality he'd ever known into another state entirely. He grinned in the darkness, the hand bound to Pie's taking hold of his deliverer's fingers.
"Shall we?" he said.
In the murk ahead of him Pie's teeth gleamed in a matching smile.
"Why not?"
Gentle drew breath.
Somewhere in the house, he heard a door slamming and footsteps on the stairs leading up to the studio. But it was too late for interruptions. He exhaled through his hand, one solid breath which Pie 'oh' pah seemed to snatch from the air between them. Something ignited in the fist the mystif made, bright enough to burn between its clenched fingers....
At the door, Jude saw Gentle's painting almost made flesh: two figures, almost nose to nose, with their faces illuminated by some unnatural source, swelling like a slow explosion between them. She had time to recognize them both—to see the smiles on their faces as they met each other's gaze—then, to her horror, they seemed to turn inside out. She glimpsed wet red surfaces, which folded upon themselves not once but three times in quick succession, each fold diminishing their bodies, until they were slivers of stuff, still folding, and folding, and finally gone.
She sank back against the doorjamb, shock making her nerves cavort. The dog she'd found waiting at the top of the stairs went fearlessly to the place where they'd stood. There was no further magic there, to snatch him after them. The place was dead. They'd gone, the bastards, wherever such avenues led.
The realization drew a yell of rage from her, sufficient to send the dog scurrying for cover. She dearly hoped Gentle heard her, wherever he was. Hadn't she come here to share her revelations with him, so that they could investigate the great unknown together? And all the time he was preparing for his departure without her. Without her!
"How dare you?" she yelled at the empty space.
The dog whined in fear, and the sight of its terror mellowed her. She went down on her haunches.
"I'm sorry," she said to it. "Come here. I'm not cross with you. It's that little fucker Gentle."
The dog was reluctant at first but came to her after a time, its tail wagging intermittently as'it grew more confident of her sanity. She rubbed its head, the contact soothing. All was not lost. What Gentle could do, she could do. He didn't have the copyright on adventuring. She'd find a way to go where he'd gone, if she had to eat the blue eye grain by grain to do so.
Church bells began to ring as she sat chewing this over, announcing in their ragged peals the arrival of midnight. Their clamor was accompanied by car horns in the street outside and cheers from a party in an adjacent house.
"Whoopee," she said quietly, on her face the distracted look that had obsessed so many of the opposite sex over the years. She'd forgotten most of them. The ones who'd fought over her, the ones who'd lost their wives in their pursuit of her, even those who'd sold their sanity to find her equal: all were forgotten. History had never much engaged her. It was the future that glittered in her mind's eye, now more than ever.
The past had been written by men. But the future— pregnant with possibilities—the future was a woman.