Greywalker

Chapter 13

Sarah lowered her head and stared at the memory. Her words wafted out like a cloud of drug smoke. "I used to see him in some of the clubs and I was just kind of drawn to him. He was beautifully scary, like a perfect knife. He used to say things that frightened me, but I was… fascinated. I guess I was just so low, I had made myself into this despicable thing so well, that it seemed like the right thing for me, like I deserved to be hurt." She was holding on to the ferret with both hands and tears began to roll down her face. Her voice slowed until it barely trickled.

"And one night I saw Cam in one of the clubs with some musicians we used to know and I just wanted to be with him. I wanted to get away from the man I was with and get back to what I really was. I thought, 'What the hell am I doing here? I tried to catch Cam's eye, but he didn't see me. So the next day, I called him and we met and I cried all over him and told him all about it and he said he'd help me get away." She stopped talking and stared at the table. Silent, melancholy thoughts weighted the air between us. I barely breathed. "And Cameron did help you get away?" She shivered back into speech. "Yes. He did. I'm not sure how. I don't know what he did, but one night, the guy just said he didn't want me anymore, that I could go." Chaos turned in Sarah's grip and to lick her face. The young woman sniffed and snuggled the ferret closer to her face, shaking out quiet sobs. Chaos kissed away the tears until they stopped.

"He said that you could go? Were you living with him? It almost sounds like he was keeping you prisoner."

Sarah let Chaos onto the tabletop and picked up her now-cold coffee, keeping her eyes turned from me. Chaos scampered for the milk jug. I grabbed her. Sarah picked up the milk and sugar and carried them to the counter without meeting my gaze.

"Kind of. I guess. I didn't start out living with him—not the first night or two—but then things started to get kind of strange and kinky. You know, it's hard to remember details now." She came back to the table with a saucer of water and a plateful of cookies. She handed the cookies to me and put the saucer on the table for Chaos. Sarah sipped her tepid, sweet coffee, ate a cookie, and offered the crumbs to the ferret.

"Did you ever read The Story of O?" she asked.

"No," I admitted, "but I know about it."

Chaos decided it was nap time and jumped down into Sarah's lap. Sarah stroked her warm, furry body while we talked. Bit by bit, stroking the trusting little creature in her lap, Sarah calmed.

"Sometimes I felt like I was O, but it wasn't quite the same. It's so hard to remember… He used to tie me up and leave me that way all day, he made me sleep in a box… things like that. He had the role of Master, but I wasn't really Slave. I was more like… Plaything, or Toy. It was like living in a Fellini film. I was so relieved to get out, but sometimes, I–I almost miss it. God, am I some kind of sick puppy or what?"

She raised her head and gave me a wavering smile. Any smile was more than I had expected.

I had my notebook out. "What was the man's name?"

"Name? I can't remember his last name. Maybe I never knew it. His first name was Edward. That's all I can remember."

"Did he give you drugs?"

"No. That's one of the funny things about it. He absolutely would not let me take any drugs—not even pot or aspirin—only a little wine or tea once in a while. Maybe he was doctoring the tea? I don't know why the details are so fuzzy. Maybe I just want to forget it, so I do."

"Can you remember any details about Edward himself? Where he lived, what he did for a living? Physical description?"

"I never knew where he worked. He was gone all day and came home at night—if he came home—and that was when things would happen. I slept during the day a lot, too. I stayed in a condo down-town. One of those fancy buildings with a doorman near the Paramount Theater."

"You remember the address?"

She rattled it off. "But I think it's leased by a corporation. I can't remember why I think that… Maybe Edward told me." She shook her head. "It's hard to remember stuff about that time."

"It's all right. I can find out. What does Edward look like?"

"He looks like James Bond."

"Excuse me? He looks like Sean Connery?"

"Not Connery. The new one. Sort of, but not quite. I think his hair is thicker and his face is thinner and he's a lot scarier. But, you know, that dark-haired, movie-star look, only cruel."

I made a note. I couldn't believe I might be looking for a Pierce Brosnan lookalike. Crazy. "You don't know what he does for a living, but what was his lifestyle like? Did he seem to have money? Did he ever say anything about family or where he was from? Did he have an accent? Anything like that?"

"No. He just sounded rich and American. You know that super-lean, no-accent voice? He had that. Always sounded so cold and remote…" Sarah shuddered, then shook herself and resettled.

Her voice was clear and calm when she continued. "I don't think he had a family, though he had a lot of friends who were all as creepy as him. He did seem to have a lot of money and a lot of people who hung around him—I think they were kind of scared of him, or, like, his employees or something. Really subservient. Total pack behavior. Edward is definitely the top dog. I think he's from Seattle, though, because sometimes his friends would talk about stuff that happened around here when I was a little kid or before I was born, like they saw it. Like the World's Fair and stuff like that."

"Well, if he's a local boy and he has connections to a local corporation that leases that condo, I'll find him. What do you think Cameron did to get you away from Edward?"

"I'm not sure. I think it took a while. I think they met a bunch of times before he let me go."

"Edward, you mean?"

She nodded. "Uh-huh. I think, at first, Cameron tried to frighten him, or pressure him somehow, blackmail, sort of. You know, 'Leave my sister alone or I'll sic the cops on you. Or maybe he said he'd have someone break Edward's legs—that's one of Cam's favorite mock threats, because he's so skinny and wimpy-looking. But I think they must have made some kind of deal. Maybe Cam paid him off. Cam lives pretty tight for a rich kid, so he has plenty of spare change, if you know what I mean."

"Why would a rich man take money from your brother?"

Sarah shrugged. "I don't know. It's just a guess. Some people are greedy, no matter how much they've got. Or Cam could have offered him something else. He's a smart guy. He'd have found out what Edward wanted."

"Do you think Edward could have anything to do with Cameron's disappearance?"

Her face became bleak. "He could." She leaned toward me. "Do you think my brother's dead?"

"No, I don't. I think he's alive, but in hiding or unable to let any-one know where he is. Could Edward arrange something like that for Cameron?"

She frowned. "I think he could kill someone. And I know I wasn't the first plaything he had, so he could do that, too, but I can't imagine it happening to Cam. He's very strong-willed. And he's smart, like I said. Not very many people ever put one over on Cam. If he's not sick or locked up in some fashion, he'll find some way to save himself. But it's good someone's looking for him. You'll find a way to help him, won't you? You'll find him?"

"I'll do my best. I think I will find him. Soon."

Now she was fierce. "Good. You know what I said before, about how Cam gets everything? Well, it's not because I hate Cam. I don't think he even wants it. It's what Dad wanted and what Mom wants. That makes me a little pissed, still, and sometimes I really could hate Mom and Dad—if it was worth the energy—but I don't. None of that is worth my time. But Cam… Cam is worth my time because I was worth his. You find my brother. And when you do, let me know. I owe him a lot. And I love him a lot, too. If I can help, you just say so."

"I will." I handed her one of my cards. "If you think of anything, call me."

She looked at my card as if memorizing it before reaching down and placing it between the pages of her book: Divina Commedia by Dante. She reached into her lap and picked up Chaos, raising her to her face for one more nuzzle. Chaos yawned, nipped lightly at Sarah's nose and licked her. Sarah kissed her and offered her to me. I took the ferret and put her into my bag, where she stuck her head out of the top for a good view.

Sarah walked me toward the door. I stopped in the doorway, unable to resist.

"Can I ask you a personal question?"

"Sure," she answered, shrugging and reaching to stroke Chaos's head with a finger.

"What are you doing here? What is this place?"

"This?" she asked, looking around. "This is my place. It was my grandparents' house. I inherited it a couple of years ago when the trust matured. My family's really into trusts. Right now I guess it's some kind of therapy. I'm trying to fix it up a bit. It's a lot better than it was when I came here in March."

"What about the motorcycle parts?"

"Those belong to my sort-of boyfriend. He's in Italy right now, visiting his family, and I kind of like to have the mess around to remind me of him."

"Oh. So that's why Dante in Italian."

She blushed and looked away. "No. That's why the Italian boyfriend. Can I ask you a question?" "Sure."

She surprised me. "Do you think I would be good with ferrets?"

I smiled at her. "I do." I gave her the name of the shelter where I'd found Chaos and told her to call them. She smiled, looking twelve years old.

As I drove away, I waved. Sarah waved back. I found I kind of liked the girl, but I felt more drained than by any other interview I'd ever been in. Despite my tendency to feel instantly chummy with any other ferret person, leaving was a relief.

By the time I reached my office, it was raining in earnest: big drops that hit with a splat like a thrown water balloon. I bundled Chaos into the bag and tried to run between raindrops. We both got wet.

The answering machine was blinking. I pushed the button as I set down my bag. Chaos jumped out, tumbled onto the floor, and began exploring.

The voice on the single message was familiar. "Hi, Harper. This is Will Novak. I was thinking… well, it's started raining, so I was wondering if I could cash in my rain check for dinner. If you're interested, please call me." He rattled off a phone number.

An impatient suitor. Let's face it, I had a bad case of lust for him, but dating someone connected, even tangentially, to a case can be complicated. I thought about my options as I set down some food and water for the ferret. Chaos fell on the bowls as if starving.

"What do you think, fuzzy? Should I have dinner with Will, or play it safe?"

Chaos crunched down on a mouthful of ferret kibble while I stroked her shoulders.

"You're right. Food is always important. I'll call Will."

He couldn't come to the phone. Michael took a message and my home phone number and assured me he'd tell Will to call me. He chuckled a bit as he did so, which made me smile, for some reason.

I sat at my desk, satisfied, and checked my watch. I could finish up my typing and get home in time for a decent shower. I plunged into my notes. Chaos crawled into my lap while I typed and was dopey-faced and limp when I packed her up to leave.

At home, Chaos was content to settle in for a good sleep, exhausted by five hours of exploring and working her wiles on Sarah.

The ringing phone dragged me out of the shower about an hour later. Dripping and towel-wrapped, I sprinted to catch it. My answering machine started reciting into my ear at head-splitting volume as I picked up the receiver.

"I'm here, I'm here!" I yelled into the phone, slapping the OFF button. "Hi."

"Hi. Um… this is Will."

"Hi, Will."

"Hi. So, you're available for dinner this evening?"

"Yup. Are you?"

"Of course I am. We're just closing up here. Should I pick you up? Would you rather meet somewhere?"

"It would be easier to meet. I'm not presentable at the moment." "Where and when?"

We agreed on Dan's Beach House at seven. I'd never been there before. The original house on the bluffs had been a notorious rendezvous for bootleggers in the 1920s. The shale heights afforded a view of the whole Sound—including the coast guard station at Elliot Bay—while the mudflats below created a difficult approach, which still sank or stranded a few careless boats every season.

I grinned at the phone and slithered to my bedroom to dry off and dress. It took me a while to decide what to wear. At the last minute, I decided that I didn't want the evening to get too serious, so I threw on a good jacket over a cotton sweater and fresh jeans with loafers instead of my usual boots or sneakers. I looked good. Even the bruises weren't too bad. But, still paranoid, I put my pistol in my purse before I left. It didn't feel right to wear it on a date, but I didn't want to go without it.

I had no trouble following Will's directions and arrived ten minutes early. I spotted his pickup truck in the parking lot. Will was just getting out. He stood beside his truck and waited for me to catch up to him, the misty remains of the rain clinging to his hair and clothes in a jeweled nimbus. I parked a couple of cars away and walked over to him. He caught my hand and we jogged for the doors.

Once inside, he said, "I hope you like fish."

I didn't get to answer before a hyper efficient host bustled us to a booth away from the windows. It was a little more intimate than I had expected and a bit darker. My defenses started to rise. I slid around so I was facing into the room while Will was forced to turn his back to the other diners.

I murmured, looking at my menu, "So, what do you recommend?"

"Everything. The cook does a spectacular salmon with ginger and lime, and all the shrimp dishes are wonderful. Did you know that people who eat a lot of shrimp have a higher baseline radioactivity level than people who don't eat shrimp?" Will added.

Shrimp? What did I care about radioactive shrimp? Then I realized that Will was babbling about crustaceans because he was nervous. That was kind of sweet. Most people who get nervous around me have something more to hide than first-date anxiety.

I grinned at him. "Maybe I'll go for the salmon, then. I wouldn't want to glow in the dark."

He laughed and ordered drinks and food, then started in on the serious chatting and flirting. We were interrupted by a musical beeping from Will's waistband. He snatched a pager out of a fold of his clothing and looked at it.

I watched him study the number, then put the pager away. "Is it something important? I can wait if you need to make a call."

"Nothing like that. It's just Mikey's code."

"Your son pages you?"

"Son?" Will began to laugh and I quivered. The sound of his laughter was like a warm touch on my spine. "Michael is my little brother. He pages me with this code when he goes out. Lets me know he arrived safely."

"Oh," I muttered.

He shook his head in amusement. "It's OK. Lots of people make that mistake. I am old enough to be his father, technically. The relationship is kind of somewhere in between, though. He was a late baby and I was already out of the house—in Europe, in fact—by the time he was a real human being, so I missed a lot. When our folks died, I got the responsibility for raising him. So now I'm Father Goose. I keep tabs on him all the time, which is a little paranoid, but I guess I'm afraid I'll misplace him or something. We both carry pagers so we're never out of touch. Overprotective, right?"

I shrugged to cover both my surprise and my chagrin. "Can't ask me—I'm an investigator, not a family counselor. So you always know where he is? Or at least where he should be?"

"Pretty much. He always knows where I am, too. We're like two weights on a rubber band—we always bounce back toward each other."

"I wish more people were like you and Michael. It would be a lot easier to find some of them."

"You mean your clients?"

"No. Their kids and spouses. Most missing persons are routine," I explained. "There's often a strong clue in their past behavior or habits that will lead me right to them, once I've figured out the habits in the first place. Most people don't have any idea how to disappear. Most don't even mean to. They leave tracks like elephants in mud. But I have one of the other kind right now. Kid just broke his routine and habits completely and disappeared."

Will blanched. "Oh, God, I'd go crazy if anything happened to Michael, if he just disappeared someday… If somebody took him, I'd—I'd lose it. Do you think someone took this kid?"

I reached over and touched his arm. "No. I think he went for a reason and I'm getting an idea of where he might be. But I've got to admit, I'd really like to know why. That's what's bothering me. When I know why someone's vanished, I can make a good guess of where, but the why often turns out to be the most important question. I wouldn't want to have to approach someone in, say, a crack house, without knowing what I was getting into first."

He nodded. "I can understand that." He played with his glass. "You've got a dangerous job," he added, trying to steer the conversation back to my lane. I accepted the transfer, for the time being.

"It's not so bad. A lot of what I do is hunting down paperwork, filing forms, and waiting around. But it beats milking cows."

He grinned and raised his eyebrows. "Cows?"

I nodded. "Yeah. When I was little, I went to visit my Mom's family in Montana. They lived on a cattle ranch, but they kept a few milk cows for themselves. One morning—about four thirty—my cousin got me up to help him milk the cows. I think it was supposed to be fun. But I am not a cow person—my favorite cow comes on a bun. I was sleepy and the cows were large, smelly, and scary. And milking is nasty—which is the real reason they invented automatic milking machines."

Will chuckled. We chatted on about inconsequential things. Around the time our dinners were served, I was starting to have a strange, queasy feeling in the pit of my stomach. The feeling was familiar. I looked around out of the corner of my eye as I bent over my fish.

I saw a face flicker in the edge of my vision like one of those persistence-of-vision tricks you can only see when you look away. I pretended to remove a fine bone from my boneless fish, lowering my head and breathing slowly until I could settle the Grey and look without falling in.

A ghost, staring at me with a long and dour face, stood against the wall beside the prosaic RESTROOMS sign. He was thin and weedy, dressed in a suit long out of fashion.

I stared and whispered, "Albert?"

He beckoned to me with an impatient gesture.

I looked up at Will, who was frowning down at me. "Excuse me. I've just remembered a client I needed to call. I'll only be a minute."

Curiosity quirked the corner of his mouth, but he didn't ask. "OK. I'll wait right here."

I smiled and slid out of the booth, grabbing my purse, and headed for the restrooms.

As I walked down the hallway across the back of the building, I looked for Albert.

What was the Danzigers' ghostly housemate doing here? My stomach was flipping and roiling as if the fish I'd eaten had come back to life, but I forced my concentration toward looking for Albert without being sucked into the Grey completely.

I spotted him stopped ahead in a doorway of dragon smoke. I didn't want to go in there, but he motioned me forward. I gritted my teeth and caught myself hyperventilating. Then I stepped across into the cold and the smell of the Grey.

I staggered and Albert flickered solid, then rain-thin, beckoning impatiently. I felt the fluttering edge of the Grey nearby. The world seemed darker and overlaid with a wavering silver projection on fog. I groped after Albert, pushing through smoke doors and down stair-cases built of dry-cold mist, holding myself as close to the normal world as I could. Albert was a flickering match light in the down-drawing darkness ahead.

I must have left the restaurant, because the space sounded like a tunnel now—wet and dank and lit only by ghost lights that came and went. There was noise ahead of me, a distant, raucous clamor and a roar of music.

Reality wavered and pitched. I hesitated and my concentration stumbled. Couldn't panic now. I had to keep going, had to keep chasing Albert, concentrating only on Albert, because it was the only thing

I could think of to do. I didn't know what would happen if I jolted out of the Grey into some unknown place: the middle of a wall or three inches from a speeding truck. And I hoped that the presence of a ghost—a creature who belonged here—would keep that dark beast away. I held on to the idea of Albert and kept going, quivering inside and wet with ice-water sweat.

I followed a flight of twisted steps down a dim shaft to a heavy door and along a short, narrow tunnel. I trudged on, tight with fear.

The dim flicker ahead winked out. The sounds died.

"Albert? Where are you?" My ears throbbed in the silence.

"Albert!" I howled, whipping around. I lost my balance in the shifting world and yelled, falling…

And crashed into a solid wall. I tumbled and sat down hard. I huddled on the cold ground and panted and held back tears of relief and exhaustion, and a desire to throw up.

Finally I looked up and around. I was in a basement storage area. There was a sound now, one I had been ignoring for a while: a burglar alarm going off.

I swore and promised under my breath, "Albert, I'm going to get you for this."

I crashed around in the dark for a minute or two before someone opened the exterior door to the basement. I breathed a thankful sigh and moved toward the shaft of streetlight illumination striping the floor. A body cut off most of the light and I slowed my steps.

"Police. Stop where you are and leave your hands in plain sight."

My relief soured to resignation and I raised my hands to shoulder level, open and empty.

The arresting officers were quite polite until they found my gun. Then the chill came on. They drove me to the downtown police station for processing, without a word beyond Miranda. The booking officers weren't happy, either, but they did concede that I had all the proper paperwork. They still put the gun in an evidence bag before they would let me use the phone, though.

It took only moments for the restaurant to find Will, who was still sitting at the table.

"Hi, Will, it's Harper. Look, I'm sorry. Something work related came up and I had to go. I didn't mean to leave you in the lurch like that."

"Something work related," he repeated.

"Yes. What? Do you think I just ran out on you? It was something I couldn't control."

"All right," he said, but it didn't sound all right.

"Will. Don't be angry. My job is like this. Weird stuff comes out of nowhere and I have to chase it down when the opportunity arises. If I hadn't wanted to have dinner with you, I wouldn't have called you back." There was a lot of silence at the other end of the line. "Will, I'm at the police station, so I can't stay on the phone. I don't know how much longer this is going to take. I'll have to call you later. OK?"

"All right," he said again. "If you call me later, we can talk about it." Then he hung up.

Great. Well, there went that romance. This was not turning into the sort of evening I'd had in mind.

I'd been booked and fingerprinted and had gone through a carefully edited version of my story once. The owners of the property weren't home when the alarm went off, and when they arrived to press charges, they wanted to hear what they'd missed.

I lied. I told them, as I had the cops, that I had been tailing an insurance fraud suspect from the restaurant and had stumbled through the remains of an old bootlegger's run into their basement. The owners of the house—now a bed-and-breakfast—were kind of charmed by the idea that their house might have a secret past as a speakeasy. The cops, on the other hand, were not charmed by the discovery of a rotting tunnel behind a bit of broken plaster, but that thin evidence was a lot more comfortable than explaining that I'd somehow managed to get into a basement which was still locked from the outside.

It was after eleven p.m. when they decided they couldn't hold me.

The cops returned my stuff, including the pistol, and I went downstairs to call a cab and get my car back.

When I paid off the cab, I was relieved to see that Will's truck was gone from Dan's parking lot, and then I got angry with myself for feeling relieved. I damned Albert with catholic breadth as I slammed the truck door behind myself. I sat still for a good two minutes, calming down before starting the drive home.

I pounded up the back stairs to burn off my lingering fury. I slammed out of the stairwell onto my floor to see my front door standing open. I stopped and gaped, then bent down and snatched up the ferret as she tried to scamper past me.

I stared into my living room. Chaos dove out of my arms and raced across the floor in wild, ferret delight. She danced across the face of disaster. The burglar alarm was off and the living room was a wreck. The ferret's cage was tilted on its side, the door hanging open. The surgeons' cabinet had been knocked over and the chair was dribbling stuffing from the underside of the cushion. Books and paperwork drifted around like autumn leaves.

I caught the ferret one more time and stuffed her into my jacket before going to knock on my neighbors' door. I left the place just as it was. It couldn't get much worse, after all.

"May I use your phone?"

He let me in and I called the police, asking for a detective I knew, but was told he was off duty. I'd have to take potluck.

I slammed the phone down and waited for the cops while watching my neighbor's half-breed pit bull sniff and whine in the direction of the lump of ferret moving around under my jacket. Once they showed up, my neighbor Rick let me wait in his living room eating cold pizza while the evidence crew found nothing. Once they were gone, I thanked Rick and his dog and went straight back to my place. I slammed the door, locked up, and headed to bed. And threw my damned, silly loafers against the bedroom door hard enough to dent it.

In the morning, I called Mara, my mood very little improved.

She answered the phone herself.

I started straight in. "Mara, I don't know what's going on, but Albert popped in to see me last night and I got arrested following him. What the hell was he doing?"

"You were following Albert… through the Grey?"

"Yes! And I ended up in someone's basement with their alarm going off like a teenage girl at a Hanson concert."

I heard her smother a giggle. "As bad as that?"

"Not funny. I got arrested, got dumped by my date, and had an interesting time fending off the blandishments of a beer-and-pizza-addled neighbor."

"I shouldn't laugh, it's just the image… But there is a problem and I'm afraid Albert has made a bags of the situation."

"What situation? A 'bags'?"

"A mess. I'd rather discuss it in person. Can you drop by? I've a geology lecture to give at one, so if you can come before eleven…."

"Geology?"

Mara sounded harried. "Yes. I also teach at the U. Can you come up?"

I growled. "All right."

I rushed my routine and drove up to Queen Anne. I was barely through the Danzigers' front door when Albert showed his shadowy face in a swirl of snow-threat Grey.

I jabbed a finger at him, too furious to consider how utterly stupid it was. "You! You are so lucky you're dead."

Mara blinked surprise at me as Albert blinked out. "It does no good to be threatening a ghost."

"It's not a threat. It's a fact. If I hadn't been following his incorporeal ass, I wouldn't have gotten arrested. Normally I'd take that sort of thing out of his hide. If he had one."

"Then it's me you should be angry with. Not Albert. It's my fault he showed up and acted badly."

"Is it? Why? What did you do?"

"I sent him looking for the source of the problem, but he came up with you!"

I threw my hands into the air in frustration. "What problem?" "There's something wrong with magic."