Werewolf in Alaska

Chapter 21

Even without the rice, the meal was incredible. Rachel gazed at Jake over the rim of her wineglass. “You’re one hell of a cook.”

“Yeah, if you ignore the rice disaster that set off your smoke alarm.”

She waved that aside. “Things happen. It’s hard to concentrate on your rice when long-lost members of the Hunter pack show up. You probably need to call them. I told them you would.”

“I should.” He didn’t look eager to grab his phone.

“They seemed nice enough, Jake. And they were close friends of your parents, right?”

“Yes.”

“It might be really great to talk about your folks with someone who knew them back when. The Hunters probably have some good stories you haven’t heard.”

“Maybe. In fact, I’m sure they do.” He poured himself more wine and started to give her some, too.

“That’s okay.” She placed her hand over her glass. “I’m not as big as you and I don’t want anything to interfere with—” She started to say our last night because she thought it probably would be. But she decided not to put that into words, which would depress both of them. “Our fun and games,” she said, finishing on a positive note.

Jake set down his wineglass. “In that case, maybe I’ll leave this for later.” Heat flared in his eyes. “Afterward.”

“Jake, you need to make that call.”

“Right.” With a sigh, he pushed back his chair and stood. “If you don’t mind, I’ll take my phone out on the deck, in case they want to talk longer than a couple of minutes. There’s nothing more annoying than being subjected to someone’s one-sided phone conversation.”

“True.” She didn’t say what she really felt, that listening to him interact with his own kind would be fascinating. She didn’t want him to think she was a voyeur, peeking into the intimate life of his species.

Yet when he took his phone outside, she felt excluded. She didn’t like being reminded that she wasn’t a part of his world, but in fact, she wasn’t. Not only that—he didn’t want her to be.

Truth time here. She could rave on all day about her willingness to adjust to his culture, but he hadn’t asked her to do that. Instead he constantly emphasized his opposition to bringing her into the werewolf community. If she didn’t shut up about it, she would start to sound pathetic, like a werewolf groupie.

Gathering the dishes, she carried them into the kitchen and loaded them in the dishwasher. She wasn’t much of a cook, but she was an excellent galley slave. Within ten minutes she had the food put away, the kitchen sparkling, and the dishwasher running.

Inching her living room window blind aside, she was able to see Jake pacing her deck while he talked on his phone. He didn’t look particularly relaxed. Having the Hunters show up seemed to have put him on edge.

She got that. Living up here, far from her parents, she was used to being her own person. She’d left California to move to Alaska partly for that reason, to establish herself as an individual.

Jake’s motivations for leaving Idaho seemed very similar to hers. But now Idaho had come to him, and that sense of freedom might be slipping away. She certainly experienced that whenever her parents came to visit, much as she loved them.

With nothing more to do, she walked into her bedroom. His duffel bag sat on the floor in a corner, but Duncan MacDowell’s book, which she’d taken without permission from his bedside table, lay on the bed. She hoped he wasn’t upset that she’d tucked it into the duffel.

Because she’d drawn all the blinds earlier in the day, the room was fairly dim except for the light from her bedside lamp. Nudging off her shoes, she propped pillows against the headboard, picked up Duncan’s book, and settled down to read.

Several pages later, Jake’s voice broke her concentration.

“I can’t let you keep that.” He stood in the doorway, and the scene wasn’t terribly different from the time he’d first caught her reading this book, except they were in her bedroom and not his. His expression, though, was completely different. He looked at her with deep caring and more than a little concern.

“I know I can’t have it,” she said. “But are you upset because I brought it over here?”

“Not upset, exactly. Worried, maybe.”

“Why are you worried?” She wished he’d come over to the bed so they could be closer while having this conversation, but she wasn’t willing to ask him to do that.

He leaned against the doorframe. “I don’t want you to become fascinated with the Were culture.”

That hit her wrong. Who was he to say what should fascinate her and what shouldn’t? “Too late.” She heard the defiant tone of her voice but couldn’t help it. “I’m already fascinated.”

“That’s Duncan’s gift. He has charisma, which is why he has so many female followers. And he makes the life of a werewolf appear to be a glamorous alternative to the ordinary existence of humans.”

“That’s not so difficult to do, Jake. I’ve discovered that urban Weres glide through the city in chauffeured limos and have private jets at their disposal. Duncan describes a world of wealth and privilege. I’m beginning to wonder how many of my clients are werewolves.”

“From what I know, quite a few.”

She stared at him. “What do you mean, from what you know? Have you been keeping tabs on me?”

“I didn’t tell you that?”

“No, you did not.” She was secretly thrilled that he’d been paying such close attention to her and her career.

“You built your reputation on your rendering of a certain wolf who looks quite a lot like me. Don’t think the werewolf community hasn’t noticed.”

“You’re kidding.”

“Nope.”

“Are you telling me they recognized you in my carvings?”

“They did. Most humans think all wolves look alike, except maybe for some different coloring. But we don’t, and a few Weres are convinced that you’re reproducing versions of me.”

She was stunned. “Are Ann and Bruce Hunter convinced of that?”

“They might be. We didn’t get into that, fortunately. If push came to shove, I could point out that the wolf is actually my dad, not me. They’d probably take a closer look and agree, since they knew him so well. But I have to be careful not to sound defensive, as if I have something to hide.”

“And you didn’t used to, but now you do.”

“It seems so.”

She hated asking the next question, but she had to hear his answer. “Do you regret knowing me, then?”

“No.” His low, urgent response was all she needed. Pushing away from the doorframe, he came over to the bed. “I’ll never regret what we’ve had, Rachel.”

She noticed the past tense but didn’t want to dwell on it. She gazed up at him. “You had a nice long chat, though. You must be happy to reconnect.” She had a hunch about the telephone conversation because his whole manner had changed in subtle ways.

“Yeah.” He shoved his hands in the pockets of his jeans and glanced at her. “The Hunters aren’t on vacation. They were sent by the pack as emissaries because their past ties with my parents made them the werewolves with the best chance of convincing me.”

“To do what?” She scooted over and patted a spot beside her. “Come sit with me. Don’t be a stranger.”

Jake gave her a faint smile and sat down, angling his body to face her. “Keegan Hunter, the pack alpha, has asked to be relieved of his duties. He forced himself to lead the pack because he was next in line, but he’s a werewolf historian who loves his studies more than he loves the daily job of running the pack. He’s done well, but he isn’t happy.”

“And they want you to take over.” Her heart thudded as she saw all hope of a future with Jake disappear. “Jake, that’s a wonderful opportunity!”

“I have to admit it sounds pretty good.”

“It sounds perfect.” She pushed aside her own grief so that she could be happy for him. He might love Alaska, but he loved the idea of his own pack, too, and here was his chance to have that. He wouldn’t have to start from scratch. The pack would be in place, and although Idaho wasn’t Alaska, it had its own rugged beauty.

“Anyway, that’s why Ann and Bruce are here.” Jake met her gaze. “They didn’t like the idea of presenting such a major proposition over the phone, but they . . . well, after meeting you, they had a sense of urgency.”

“Because I might be a threat to their plan?”

He nodded.

“I’m not a threat, Jake. I would never stand in your way. You know I wouldn’t.”

“I told them that, but they’re hardwired to be suspicious of all humans.”

“But as long as they don’t know that I know, we’re good, right?”

“Right. And they’ll never find out that you’re in on the secret.”

Rachel told herself not to buy trouble, but she couldn’t seem to keep herself from asking the question. “Let’s say that they somehow did find out that I know. Would they have me killed?”

“No, of course not.”

“But if they think I might destroy the entire werewolf community, why wouldn’t they?”

“Because, as I keep trying to tell you, we’re peaceful. We don’t kill people. We don’t even kill the traitors within our ranks, and we had one last year.”

She swallowed. So there was a system of punishment. “If you didn’t kill him, what did you do with him?”

“He’ll be imprisoned for a long, long time.”

“So I wouldn’t be killed. I’d just be thrown in a dungeon deep under some castle, chained to the wall, and fed maggot-infested bread once a day.”

“Good Lord.” Jake shook his head. “You and Lionel come up with the most incredible doomsday scenarios. First of all, no one’s going to find out you know anything, but even if they did, you wouldn’t end up in a dungeon.”

“Okay.”

“Look, you’ll be fine, but if someone suspected that you knew about us, I would never let anything happen to you.”

“That’s easy to say, Jake, but if you take this offer, you’ll be in Idaho.”

He gazed at her silently for several seconds. “Doesn’t matter. I would still know if you’re in trouble. I’d sense it.”

She drew in a sharp breath. That meant more to her than he would ever realize. He’d acknowledged the soul-deep link between them.

But soul-deep link aside, he’d still be in Idaho. “Even if you sensed something was wrong, you couldn’t get to me in time. I appreciate the sentiment more than I can say, but I don’t see how you can protect me from Idaho.”

“Of course I can.”

“How? Are you going to send your personal bodyguards? Because that’s not how I live, Jake. I don’t even like the alarms I had installed. Secret agent–type werewolves with sunglasses, buzz haircuts, narrow black ties, and little curly wires hanging behind their ears would freak me out.”

He stroked her hair back from her face and smiled at her. “You are so adorable.”

“Don’t patronize me. I mean it.”

“I’m not sending bodyguards, but even if I did, they wouldn’t look like that. Way too obvious.”

“I don’t care if they look like Betty White. I need my creative space. I realize that makes it harder to keep me safe, which is why I’m wondering how you would do it.”

“You’re assuming any of this will be necessary, which it won’t. But okay, if you want to play worst-case scenario, if it comes out that you have knowledge of us, then I will guarantee to the Were community that you’re completely trustworthy.”

“And the powers that be will just accept that?”

“Yep.”

“Is your word that powerful?”

He shrugged. “It’s pretty powerful, but I’d also put up everything I own as collateral. Well, and they’d have me. So you’d never have to worry.”

“Oh.” She let out a breath. “Then I guess it’s a good thing that nobody knows what I know.”

“Yes, it is.”

“But what a nightmare if they found out.” Everything he owned, and even Jake himself, would be held hostage to guarantee that she’d keep her mouth shut. She’d always known the stakes were high, but this laid it out for her in detail. “You don’t have to worry, Jake. I will never let you down.”

“I know that.” He gazed at her tenderly as he combed his fingers through her hair.

“Not even under torture. At least I hope not. I’ve never been tortured, so I might crack right away.”

“Fortunately, I can’t imagine why anyone would torture you, so I think we’re okay there. But wow, you do have quite an imagination.”

“So you say, but it took me several days to figure out you were a werewolf.”

“But you did figure it out. I should have realized you would, with the way your brain works.”

She studied him. “You know how in the cop shows it often turns out that the criminal really wants to be caught?”

“I guess. I don’t watch much TV.”

“Me, either, but I’ve picked up on that common thread. Anyway, my point is that you secretly wanted me to find out about you.”

“No.” He frowned. “No, I definitely didn’t.”

“Are you sure? Search your heart, Jake, and tell me you weren’t hoping, even though you didn’t want to admit it to yourself, that I’d break the code.”

He hesitated, a reluctant smile on his lips. “Okay, maybe. I’ll give you a maybe. That’s not easy to confess, but if I’d really wanted to eliminate the temptation of you, I could have moved away from here three years ago, or anytime since then.”

“Exactly.” She took a deep breath. “So.”

“So.”

“You’ll become the Hunter pack alpha.” She forced herself to say that with enthusiasm. She was feeling a little better about all of it. His gentle touch had soothed the turbulent emotions rolling through her.

“That’s the way it looks. And until you mentioned it, I wasn’t aware that I wanted to lead a pack. The thought hadn’t crossed my mind, even though something made me buy that T-shirt. I didn’t analyze why I liked it so much. That insight came from you.” Warmth glowed in his green eyes. “Thank you for that.”

“So it all falls into place.” She was determined that he wouldn’t know that her heart was breaking. “Maybe that was my role, to make you aware of what you were missing in your life. Then when the opportunity came along, which it has, you can take it because you know it’s the right decision.”

He lightly massaged her scalp. “For me. But what about you, Rachel?”

Laying the book on the bedside table, she leaned forward and placed her hands on his broad shoulders. “I come out smelling like a rose. I have a career because your father posed for a picture and you bought the first carving inspired by that picture. I don’t have a single complaint.”

“But that happened years ago.” He cupped her face in his big hands and stroked her cheeks with his thumbs. “Then I charged into your life uninvited and turned it upside down. I feel as if I’m leaving a mess.”

“No, you aren’t. You saved me from getting mauled by a bear. A bear attack could have ended my career, and maybe my life. So there’s another reason for me to be eternally grateful to you.”

“I just . . . want to make sure you’re going to be okay.”

She squeezed his shoulders. “Of course I’ll be okay. Better than okay.” She soldiered on, because he was damn well not going to feel sorry for her. “Your role wasn’t that different, really. You allowed me to see what I was missing in my life.”

“I did?”

“You bet. Thanks to you, I’m planning to find a worthy partner to share my bed. I deserve that.” And didn’t that sound spunky and proactive? Damn straight. “If it takes a while to come up with someone as wonderful as you, then so be it. At least I’m motivated to search him out.”

He was quiet for a moment as his gaze probed hers. Finally he sighed. “Am I allowed to hate that idea?”

Ah, knowing that he’d be jealous felt so good. “Only if I’m allowed to hate the thought of you hooking up with some perfect little werewolf who will give you purebred werewolf children.”

His smile had a touch of sadness. “Fair enough.”

“I don’t suppose you could bite me and turn me into a werewolf?”

He shook his head. “That’s another myth.”

“I figured. Just thought I’d ask.” Her chest felt tight, as if someone had shoved her into a straitjacket. “So it’s decided. You’ll go to Idaho and become the Hunter alpha,” she said again. Maybe repeating it would make it easier to bear.

“Yeah, I think it’s the right thing to do. They need me.”

She recognized the powerful appeal of that. She needed him, too, but she wasn’t about to compete with an entire werewolf pack. “How soon?”

“They don’t want to take any more time than necessary. I told them to give me until tomorrow to decide. But assuming I agree, which I’m planning to, they’d like me to pack up my truck in the morning and drive in tandem with them back to Idaho.”

The suddenness of that shocked her, but she worked hard to make sure he didn’t notice. “What about your cabin?”

“I’ll contact an agent first thing in the morning and sell it furnished.”

She wanted to cry. She’d sat on that sofa, eaten dinner at his patio table, made love in his bed. She couldn’t imagine strangers moving into his place. Knowing he lived across the lake, even before they’d become lovers, had given her life a little extra shine.

That was about to change, and she wasn’t sure she could deal with it. She would, though. If this was what Jake wanted, then she would send him on his way with a cheerful smile and a joyful heart. That was what you did when you loved someone.