The Summer Queen

TIAMAT: Carbuncle

Sparks Dawntreader hesitated in the doorway to what had been the throne room, when this was the Snow Queen’s palace; suddenly as incapable of motion as if he had fallen under a spell. He stared at the throne, transfixed by its sublime beauty. Its blown-and welded-glass convolutions could have been carved from ice. Light caught in its folds and flowed over its shining surfaces until it seemed to possess an inner radiance.

It had seemed to him to be uncannily alive, the first time he had entered this room and seen her seated there: Arienrhod, the Snow Queen, impossibly wearing the face of Moon, the girl he had loved forever. It still struck him that way, even after all the years he had spent as Arienrhod’s lover … even now, as he found Moon seated there, wearing the face of Arienrhod; sitting silent and still in the vast white space, in the middle of the night, like a sleepwalker who had lost her way.

He took a deep breath, relieving the constriction in his chest, breaking the spell that held him as he forced himself forward into the room. He crossed the expanse of white carpet as silently as a ghost—his own ghost, he thought. “Moon,” he said softly, in warning.

Her body spasmed; she turned on the throne to stare at him. “What are you doing here?” he asked. He heard a knife-edge of anger that he had not intended in the words, and said hastily, “You should be resting, sleeping. … I thought Miroe gave you something to make you sleep.” After meeting with the sibyls this afternoon—after she had stopped the winds—she had come up the stairs from the Hall below ashen-faced with exhaustion. She had let him support her as they climbed; he had felt her shaking with fatigue. She had no reserves of strength these days; the child—or two—growing inside her demanded them all.

He had helped her to their bedroom, and Miroe Ngenet had given her a warm brew of herbs to calm her, forbidding anyone to disturb her—even him. He had not argued. When he had come to bed himself she had been sleeping.

But he had wakened in the middle of the night and found the bed empty beside him, and had come searching. He had not expected to find her here, like this. “Moon …”he said again, tentatively, as if some part of him was still uncertain whether she was the one that he saw on the throne, whether it was not really Anenrhod. “Are you … are you all right?”

Her face eased at the words, as if it were something in his face that had disturbed her. She nodded, her tangled, milk-white hair falling across her shoulders. Suddenly she was his pledged again, and barely more than a girl, the porcelain translucency of her skin bruised with fatigue and her hands pressing her pregnant belly, “I’m all right,” she said faintly. “I woke up. I couldn’t get back to sleep. …” She brushed her hair back from her face. “The babies won’t let me rest.” She smiled, as the thought brought color into her cheeks.

“Two—he whispered, coming closer, stepping up onto the dais beside her. “Gods—Goddess—” barely remembering to use the Summer oath, and not the offworlder one, “we’re doubly blessed, then.” Ngenct had told him the news, after insisting that Moon should not be disturbed from her rest.

“Yes.” She made the triad sign of the Sea Mother with her fingers. Her hand fell away again, almost listlessly, although she still smiled, still shone with wonder. He glanced at the sibyl tattoo at her throat; covered her hands with his own on the swell of her soft, white sleepgown. Once he had believed it was impossible for them ever to have a child together, and so had she. Summer tradition said that it was “death to love a sibyl…” That saying, the fear behind it, had driven them apart, driven him here to the city… into the arms of Arienrhod.

But it was not true, and here beneath his hand lay the proof of it. He felt movement; heard Moon’s soft laugh at his exclamation of surprise. She got up from the throne, in a motion that was graceful for all its ungainliness. He had always been fascinated by her unconscious grace, so much a part of her that she was completely unaware of it. He remembered her running endlessly along the beaches of Neith, their island home; saw her in his mind’s eye climbing the crags in search of birds’ eggs and saltweed, never slipping; or darting along the narrow rock-built walls of the klee pens, never falling. He remembered her dancing, held close in his arms while the musicians played the old songs… She was not tall, and so slender that Gran had always said she barely cast a shadow, but she was as strong physically as any woman he knew. Strength and grace were one in her; she rarely doubted her body’s responses, and it rarely betrayed her.

Ngenet had told him that carrying twins was doubly hard on a woman’s body, especially under circumstances like these, when Moon pushed herself endlessly, relentlessly. He had tried to make her listen, but she would not stop and rest, even for him—as she had never stopped pursuing anything she believed in, even for him. He could only hope that her body would not fail her in this, but see her through until their children were born into the new world she had become obsessed with creating. Her strength of will had always been as much a part of her, and as unquestioned in her mind, as the strength of her body. It had not been easy, sometimes, loving her, when her stubbornness had collided with his own quick temper. But their making-up had always been sweet, back in Summer. … “I love you,” he murmured. He put his arms around her, feeling the shadows of lost time fall away as he held her close. She kissed his mouth, her eyes closed; her eyelids were a fragile lavender.

“What were you doing here?” He nodded at the throne as their lips parted; half afraid to ask, but asking anyway.

She shook her head, as if she was not certain either. “I wanted to know … how it felt when she was Queen.” Arienrhod. “Today … today I was truly the Lady, Sparkie.” Unthinkingly, she used his childhood nickname. But there was nothing of childhood in her voice, and suddenly he felt cold.

The Lady is not the Queen. He didn’t say it, afraid of her response. The Summer Queen was traditionally a symbolic ruler, representing the Sea Mother to her people.

But from the first ceremony Moon had led as the Lady, she had broken with ritual and tradition. She had claimed that it was the Goddess’s will, that this Change must begin a real change. He knew that she did not believe in the Goddess anymore; not since she had learned the truth, that sibyls were human computer ports, and not the Sea Mother’s chosen speakers of wisdom. Sibyls existed on all the worlds of the Hegemony, and probably on all the other worlds of the former Empire. They were speakers for the wisdom of an artificial intelligence, not the Sea Mother. But Moon had told him the sibyl mind spoke to her, not simply through her; that it had commanded her to bring Tiamat the technological enlightenment that the Hegemony had denied it for so long. He had found the idea as unbelievable as the idea of the Goddess now seemed to him … until he had watched her today in the Hall of Winds. “How did you do it?” he asked, at last. “What you did today. How did you stop the wind?”

She looked up at him, her eyes stricken and empty. “I had to,” she said, her voice as thin as thread. “I had to, and so I did—” The thread snapped.

“Don’t you know how?” he whispered.

She shook her head, looking down; but her fingers rose to the sibyl sign at her throat. “Something inside me knew. It made me do it, to make them believe me. …”

His hands released her reflexively. She looked up at him, her pale lashes beating, her agate-colored eyes full of sudden pain. He put his arms around her again; but it was not the same. “Come back to bed,” he murmured into her ear. “You should be resting.”

“I can’t. I can’t rest.”

“Let me hold you. I’ll help you… .” He led her down from the dais; she clung to his hand, but her gaze still wandered the room, which was lit as brightly as day. He followed her glance, looking across the snowfield carpet; remembering Arienrhod’s courtiers scattered across it like living jewels in their brilliant, rainbow colored clothing. Gossamer hangings drifted down from the ceiling, decorated with countless tiny bells that still chimed sweetly and intermittently as they were disturbed by random currents of air.

They left the throne room, entering the darkened upper halls that were empty even of servants now. He was relieved to find himself alone with her, jealous of these stolen moments. He had thought when they were reunited at the Change that everything would change for them. And it had … but not the way he had wanted. Not back to what it had been. Moon was no longer his alone, his innocent Summer love. And he would never again be the naive island youth she had pledged her life to; Arienrhod had seen to that.

He tried to lead her toward their room, but she shook her head. “I don’t want to go back to bed. Walk with me. Show me the palace—show me all the parts of it.”

“What, now?” he said. “Why?” She had promised him, after Arienrhod’s death, that they would never set foot in the palace again. He had believed her, believed that she would no more want to be reminded of all that had happened here than he did.

But she had been drawn back to this place, like metal to a lodestone, as if it were somehow part of the compulsion that had seized her at the Change. She did not seem to enjoy being here, any more than he did; he knew she was intimidated by its vastness, its staff of obsequious Winter servants, the alienness of its offworlder luxuries. She seldom went beyond a small circuit of rooms, as if she were afraid that she might take a wrong turn somewhere in its columned halls and be lost forever in time. Only the Snow Queens had lived here, ruled from here, as secular leaders dealing with the offworlders who controlled Tiamat’s fate, never a Summer Queen; until now. But Moon would not leave, refusing to make her home among their own people, among the watchful, peaceful faces and familiar ways of the Summers who inhabited Carbuncle’s Lower City.

And now, in the stillness of midnight, she wandered the palace’s halls like a restless spirit, searching for questions without answers, answers that were better left ungiven … forcing him to show her the way. “Why?” he said again

She touched her stomach, the promise of new life within her. “This,” she said softly, looking down.

He nodded, resigned but not really understanding. He started on through the halls, the rooms, one by one. level by level; showing her the places she knew, how they fit into the palace she did not know—the ordinary, the common, the empty; the extraordinary, the exquisite, and the perverse. Light followed them from room to room, at his command, revealing the fluted curves of doorways, the shellform trim that decorated ceiling-edges, the arched convolutions of space and the spiraling stairwells that always made him feel as though he were climbing and descending through the heart of a shell.

The imported technology that had once made the palace seem like a wonderland to his newly opened senses now lay everywhere like the husks of dead insects, an ephemeral infestation. Their components had been rendered useless by the offworlders before the Hegemony left Tiamat. But the palace, like the rest of the city of Carbuncle, lived forever, existing on its own terms, on its own power source, as it had since time out of memory. The palace’s nacreous walls were covered with murals, with artwork, tapestries, mirrors. The superficial decorations had been added over the centuries by various Winter rulers, but the palace itself, with its inescapable motifs of the sea, remained unchanged. He had lost count of the times he had wondered who might have built this strange place, and why. Now, moving through these halls that reeked of age, he felt the newness of his life, and Moon’s, with a clarity that was almost frightening.

He showed Moon through what had once been his suite of rooms, still filled with the clutter of high-tech equipment that Arienrhod had allowed him for his amusement. All his life he had burned with curiosity about the technomagic of the offworlders who had been his father’s people. He had come to Carbuncle seeking something that had been missing from his life. But Carbuncle had not filled that void in him; not the city, not its people, not the endless imported devices he had ruined in his need to learn. … He had only learned how well his father’s people kept their secrets from his mother’s.

He showed Moon through the hidden passageway that led directly from his room to Arienrhod’s. Moon looked around the Snow Queen’s bedchamber, with its panoramic view of the sea, its furniture that echoed the pale opalescence of the walls—chairs, tables, cushioned seats made of what seemed to be polished shell. He had never known whether they were only a clever imitation, or whether on some world—even somewhere in Tiamat’s own all-encompassing sea—there were shelled creatures that actually grew so large.

Moon glanced toward the bed, with its fluted headboard made of the same jeweled-and-gilded shellforms. Arienrhod waking had been like a vision of the Sea Mother rising from the waves to him; he had never said so, because he had been afraid she would laugh at him.

Moon looked back at him, her eyes filled with dark curiosity. She turned away again, suddenly searching for the way out.

And stopped, in astonishment, staring at the wall in front of her: at Arienrhod, dressed all in rainbows. A portrait—a painting, not a hologram; but somehow it seemed more real to him than any three-dimensional representation of her, almost more real than she was herself. It was as if the artist had trapped her soul there. Even now it seemed to him as if the eyes of the portrait were watching him, watching Moon, all-knowing, pitying, baleful.

Moon moved forward slowly, stretching out her hand until she touched the hand of the woman in the painting, half-fearfully. She stood that way, touching the portrait’s hand, as if she were hypnotized. Sparks looked from her flushed, transfixed face to Anenrhod’s, which was as pale and coolly prescient as if she had just been told a secret about them, one that even they would never know.

He came forward to stand behind Moon, holding her again as she faced the image that could almost have been a mirror. He felt her tremble, inside the warm circle of his arms that were no protection from Arienrhod’s memory—Arienrhod’s legacy.

Finally Moon tore her gaze from the painting, and let him lead her out of the room. When they stood in the empty hall again, he murmured, “Are you ready to sleep?” asking it so softly that even the echoes did not waken.

But she shook her head; her purple-shadowed eyes looked up into his. “Where is the room where we …” She glanced down at the swell of her stomach. “I want to see it.”

“Moon, this is—” He broke off. “All right,” he said roughly. “I’ll show you where it is. But if you ever go there again, you’ll go alone.”

She nodded, her eyes filled with apology. He took her back through the halls, moving against his will, against the flow of time, until they reached the door of the sealed room. No one had touched it, opened it, entered it, since Arienrhod’s death. He was not even certain how many hands besides his own could make its door respond.

The door slid aside under his touch as if it were avoiding him, and brilliance dazzled their eyes as the lights came up, redoubling from mirrored wall to mirrored wall. The walls and ceiling of the room were filled with mirrors, reflecting back their faces, their bodies from every angle as they entered, multiplying every motion until he stopped, giddy. He had forgotten how entering this room made his thoughts spin.

He looked toward the room’s center, toward the bed that was its only piece of furniture. The bedclothes were still rumpled, untouched since the last time someone had lain in it … since the night during the final Festival of Winter, when Moon had come to the palace and reclaimed him from his living death. He searched for a single shattered mirror-panel, found it, its cracked surface dulled with dried blood. His blood, from the moment when he had struck out at his reflection, at all that he had become. He remembered how the blood had flowed, red and warm, proving to him that he was still alive, vital, young; that he had not grown old and died, behind the soulless mask of his face.

He remembered how he had made love to Moon, there in that bed, in this room; rekindling their life together, planting the seeds of new life within her… .

He looked over at her, in time to see a spasm of pain cross her face. He did not know whether it was physical pain or the pain of memory, but she came with him willingly as he turned back to the door. As he resealed the room behind them, she whispered. “I never want to see it again. I never want anyone to see it… .”

He nodded, hoping that this would be the end of all their night’s agonizing reminiscences. But she glanced toward the spiral staircase that rose into the secret darkness above. “Where does that go?”

“To Arienrhod’s private study.” he said. “She never let anyone else up there…” He started forward, surprised to find that he was the one who was eager, leading the way this time. She followed him slowly, carefully up the narrow steps, up through the level of another floor and into the space beyond it.

His breath caught; he heard Moon’s small gasp of astonishment behind him. The room they stood in now lay at the peak of the palace—at the peak of the city itself. Its transparent dome rose to a starpointed pinnacle, and beyond it the glowing forge of the sky surrounded them, fired by the countless separate suns of the stellar cluster into which this footloose system had wandered eons ago. Tiamat’s single large moon was not visible tonight, but one star stood out among the thousands over their heads: the Summer Star, whose brightening marked their system’s approach to the black hole which had captured the roving Twins and made them its perpetual prisoners.

The black hole was an astronomical object with a gravity well so powerful that not even light could escape it. The offworlders called it the Black Gate, and among the things they had never shared with Tiamat’s people were the starships capable of using such openings on another reality for faster-than-light travel. Through the Gate lay the seven other worlds of the Hegemony, some of them so far away that their distances were almost incomprehensible. They were bound to each other because the Black Gates let starships through into a region where space was twisted like a string, tied into knots so that far became near and time was caught up in the loop.

But as Tiamat’s twin suns approached the aphelion of their orbit, the unnatural stresses created by their approach to the black hole destabilized the Gate, and the passage from Tiamat to the rest of the Hegemony was no longer simple or certain. And so the offworlders had abandoned Tiamat, as they did every time the Summer Star brightened in its sky.

They had taken their technology with them, forcing Tiamat’s people back into ignorance and bare subsistence for another century, ensuring that Tiamat would remain exploitable and eager for their return, when it was finally possible for the Hegemony to come back again. They bound Tiamat to them with chains of need because Tiamat’s seas held the mers, and the mers’ blood held the secret of immortality. They called it the water of life, and it was more precious than gold, than wisdom, even than life itself… .

He looked down, over the city’s undulations gleaming in the darkness, out across the sea. He searched the dark mirror of the water for a sign of life, the telltale motion of forms that might be mers swimming. But the ocean surface lay calm and unbroken as far as his eyes could see.

When he could force himself to turn his back on the sea and sky, the room lay waiting. Its rug was made from the hides of pfallas, which were herded by Winter nomads in the harsh mountain reaches inland of the city. Moon moved across the pristine surface hesitantly, her bare feet sinking into the pile as if it were drifted snow.

He began his own slow trajectory through the room, witnessing a side of Arienrhod that he had never seen.

He studied a cluster of dried flowers preserved inside a dome of glass. The blooms were so old that they had lost all color, so old that he could not even tell what kind of blossoms they had once been. He touched a cloth doll, worn and one-eyed from a child’s love, dusty now with neglect. There were other things clustered together on the same small, painted table—fragile remains of a childhood spent at the end of the last High Summer.

Arienrhod had been born into a world much like the one that he and Moon had shared in their youth. But then the offworlders had arrived; she had become the Snow Queen, had taken the water of life. She remained young through Winter’s one hundred and fifty years, changeless but ever-changing, until she became at last the woman he had known. Arienrhod had told him many times that he reminded her of things she had lost, of memories almost forgotten. He had thought the words were lies, like too many other lies she had told him. He stared at the forlorn mementos bearing silent witness on the table; at last he turned away.

Moon was holding up a piece of jewelry, as he looked at her: a silver pendant on a silver chain, with a jewel catching the light in its center. “That’s a solii,” he said, in surprise. He had never seen Arienrhod wear the pendant, although it must have been expensive; he wondered if she hadn’t liked it. He wondered what the necklace was doing in her private study, instead of with the rest of her jewelry. Moon glanced up at him, and laid the pendant back on the desktop.

Sparks drifted on across the room toward the solitary, ornately framed mirror sitting on another table. It could have been a vanity table, where Arienrhod had studied her reflection to make certain it was still unchanged after a hundred years and more of taking the water of life. But he saw the telltale touchplate in the mirror’s base—the offworld electronics that had transformed its silvery surface into something else entirely. He realized, with a shock of recognition, that this silent room was the heart of the spy system that Arienrhod had used to keep her informed of what went on in her city, to keep herself one step ahead of the offworlders who would have taken advantage of her … to amuse herself, spying on the private lives of her enemies, of her own nobles, even of the people closest to her, who were the most vulnerable … as she had spied on him while he made love to Moon, in the mirrored room down below… .

He turned away from his own suddenly grief-stricken reflection. “Moon,” he said hoarsely, “we’ll never be able to forget, to begin again here. We have to get away from all this—memory. It’ll never give us peace. I know we can’t go back to Neith, but why do we have to stay here? Let’s find somewhere else … before the babies come.”

Moon looked up at him. Her mouth opened, but she made no sound. She held something out to him in her hands, and from the look in her eyes he knew that she had not even heard him.

He took the cube, saw a hologram of a child inside it, a small girl with milk-white hair, bundled in the rough woolens and slickers of an islander … a girl he knew. The child moved through a moment’s joyful laughter over and over again, held captive forever, never changing.

“It’s me,” Moon whispered, her voice breaking. “How did she get this? How did it get here?”

He shook his head, staring at the image of the girl he had loved even as a child in Summer.

He looked up again at her sudden sharp cry—not a sound of grief, but of pain. “Moon—’?” He reached out to her as she clutched her stomach, doubling over; her face whitened with another spasm. He moved toward her, catching her in his arms, supporting her as he pulled her onto the bench beside the mirror table. Fluid spilled down her legs, wetting her nightgown and the rug beneath her feet.

“Moon, what’s happening- ?” he cried “Are you all right? Moon?”

She looked up at him, biting her lips, her eyes glassy. “Find Miroe … Sparks— it’s time. …”