The Mist

VIII. What Happened to the Soldiers. With Amanda. A Conversation with Dan Miller.

I went with Ollie. He was headed for the storage area. As we passed the cooler, he grabbed a beer.

«Ollie, what is it?»

«I want you to see it?»

He pushed through the double doors. They slipped shut behind us with a little backwash of air. It was cold. I didn't like this place, not after what had happened to Norm. A part of my mind insisted on reminding me that there was still a small scrap of dead tentacle lying around someplace.

Ollie led the blouse drop from the lens of his light. He trained it overhead. At first I had an idea that someone had hung a couple of mannequins from one of the heating pipes below the ceiling. That they had hung them on piano wire or something, a kid's Halloween trick.

Then I noticed the feet, dangling about seven inches off the cement floor. There were two piles of kicked-over cartons. I looked up at the faces and a scream began to rise in my throat because they were not the faces of department- store dummies. Both heads were cocked to the side, as if appreciating some horribly funny joke, a joke that had made them laugh until they turned purple.

Their shadows. Their shadows thrown long on the wall behind them. Their tongues. Their protruding tongues.

They were both wearing uniforms. They were the kids I had noticed earlier and had lost track of along the way, The army brats from —

The scream. I could hear it starting in my throat as a moan, rising like a police siren, and then Ollie gripped my arm just above the elbow. «Don't scream, David. No one knows about this but you and me. And that's how I want to keep it.»

Somehow I bit it back.

«Those army kids,» I managed.

«From the Arrowhead Project,» Ollie said. «Sure»

Something cold was thrust into my hand. The beer can. «Drink this. You need it.»

I drained the can completely dry.

Ollie said, «I came back to see if we had any extra cartridges for that gas grill Mr. McVey has been using. I saw these guys. The way I figure, they must have gotten the nooses ready and stood on top of those two piles of cartons. They must have tied their hands for each other and then balanced each other while they stepped through the length of rope between their wrists. So … so that their hands would be behind them, you know. Then-this is the way I figure-they stuck their heads into the nooses and pulled them tight by jerking their heads to one side. Maybe one of them counted to three and they jumped together. I don't know.»

«It couldn't be done,» I said through a dry mouth. But their hands were tied behind them, all right. I couldn't seem to take my eyes away from that.

«It could. If they wanted to bad enough, David, they could.»

«But why?»

«I think you know why. Not any of the tourists, the summer people-like that guy Miller-but there are people from around here who could make a pretty decent guess.

«The Arrowhead Project?»

Ollie said, «I stand by one of those registers all day long and I hear a lot. All this spring I've been hearing things about that damned Arrowhead thing, none of it good. The black ice on the lakes-»

I thought of Bill Giosti leaning in my window, blowing warm alcohol in my face. Not just atoms, but different atoms. Now these bodies hanging from that overhead pipe. The cocked heads. The dangling shoes. The tongues protruding like summer sausages.

I realized with fresh horror that new doors of perception were opening up inside. New? Not so. Old doors of perception. The perception of a child who has not yet learned to protect itself by developing the tunnel vision that keeps out ninety percent of the universe. Children see everything their eyes happen upon, hear everything in their ears' range. But if life is the rise of consciousness (as a crewel-work sampler my wife made in high school proclaims), then it is also the reduction of input.

Terror is the widening of perspective and perception. The horror was in knowing I was swimming down to a place most of us leave when we get out of diapers and into training pants. I could see it on Ollie's face, too. When rationality begins to break down, the circuits of the human brain can overload. Axons grow bright and feverish. Hallucinations turn real: the quicksilver puddle at the point where perspective makes parallel lines seem to intersect is really there; the dead walk and talk; a rose begins to sing.

«I've heard stuff from maybe two dozen people,» Ollie said. «Justine Robards. Nick Tochai. Ben Michaelson. You can't keep secrets in small towns. Things get out. Sometimes it's like a spring — it just bubbles up out of the earth and no one has an idea where it came from. You overhear something at the library and pass it on, or at the marina in Harrison. Christ knows where else, or why. But all spring and summer I've been hearing Arrowhead Project, Arrowhead Project.»

«But these two,» I said. «Christ, Ollie, they're just kids.»

«There were kids in Nam who used to take ears. I was there. I saw it.»

«But-what would drive them to do this?»

«I don't know. Maybe they knew something. Maybe they only suspected. They must have known people in here would start asking them questions eventually. If there is an eventually.»

«If you're right,» I said, «it must be something really bad.»

«That storm,» Ollie said in his soft, level voice. «Maybe it knocked something loose up there. Maybe there was an accident. They could have been fooling around with anything. Some people claim they were messing with high-intensity lasers and masers. Sometimes I hear fusion power. And suppose… suppose they ripped a hole straight through into another dimension?»

«That's hogwash,» I said.

«Are they?» Ollie asked, and pointed at the bodies.

«No. The question now is: What do we do?»

«I think we ought to cut them down and hide them,» he said promptly. «Put them under a pile of stuff people won't want-dog food, dish detergent, stuff like that. If this gets out, it will only make things worse. That's why I came to you, David. I felt you are the only one I could really trust.

I muttered, «It's like the Nazi war criminals killing themselves in their cells after the war was lost.»

«Yeah. I had the same thought.»

We fell silent, and suddenly those soft shuffling noises began outside the steel loading door again-the sound of the tentacles feeling softly across it. We drew together. My flesh was crawling.

«Okay,» I said.

«We'll make it as quick as we can,» Ollie said. His sapphire ring glowed mutely as he moved his flashlight. «I want to get out of here fast.»

I looked up at the ropes. They had used the same sort of clothesline the man in the golf cap had allowed me to tic around his waist. The nooses had sunk into the puffed flesh of their necks, and I wondered again what it could have been to make both of them go through with it. I knew what Ollie meant by saying that if the news of the double suicide got out, it would make things worse. For me it already had-and I wouldn't have believed that possible.

There was a snicking sound. Ollie had opened his knife, a good heavy job made for slitting open cartons. And, of course, cutting rope.

«You or me?» he asked.

I swallowed. «One each.»

We did it.

When I got back, Amanda was gone and Mrs. Turman was with Billy. They were both sleeping. I walked down one of the aisles and a voice said: «Mr. Drayton. David.» It was Amanda, standing by the stairs to the manager's office, her eyes like emeralds. «What was it?»

«Nothing,» I said.

She came over to me. I could smell faint perfume. And oh how I wanted her. «You liar,» she said.

«It was nothing. A false alarm.»

«If that's bow you want it.» She took my hand. «I've just been up to the office. It's empty and there's a lock on the door.» Her face was perfectly calm, but her eyes were lambent, almost feral, and a pulse beat steadily in her throat.

«I don't-»

«I saw the way you looked at me,» she said. «If we need to talk about it, it's no good. The Turman woman is with your son.

«Yes.» It came to me that this was a way — maybe not the best one, but a way, nevertheless-to take the curse off what Ollie and I had just done. Not the best way, just the only way.

We went up the narrow flight of stairs and into the office. It was empty, as she had said. And there was a lock on the door. I turned it. In the darkness she was nothing but a shape. I put my arms out, touched her, and pulled her to me. She was trembling. We went down on the floor, first kneeling, kissing, and I cupped one firm breast and could feel the quick thudding of her heart through her sweatshirt. I thought of Steffy telling Billy not to touch the live wires. I thought of the bruise that had been on her hip when she took off the brown dress on our wedding night. I thought of the first time I had seen her, biking across the mall of the University of Maine at Orono, me bound for one of Vincent Hartgen's classes with my portfolio under my arm. And my erection was enormous.

We lay down then, and she said, «Love me, David. Make me warm.» When she came, she dug into my back with her nails and called me by a name that wasn't mine. I didn't mind. It made us about even.

When we came down, some sort of creeping dawn had begun. The blackness outside the loopholes went reluctantly to dull gray, then to chrome, then to the bright, featureless, and unsparkling white of a drive-in movie screen. Mike Hatlen was asleep in a folding chair he had scrounged somewhere. Dan Miller sat on the floor a little distance away, eating a Hostess donut. The kind that's powdered with white sugar.

«Sit down, Mr. Drayton,» he invited.

I looked around for Amanda, but she was already halfway up the aisle. She didn't look back. Our act of love in the dark already seemed something out of a fantasy, impossible to believe even in this weird daylight. I sat down.

«Have a donut.» He held the box out.

I shook my head. «All that white sugar is death. Worse than cigarettes.»

That made him laugh a little bit. «in that case, have two.»

I was surprised to find a little laughter left inside me-he had surprised it out, and I liked him for it. I did take two of his donuts. They tasted pretty good. I chased them with a cigarette, although it is not normally my habit to smoke in the mornings.

«I ought to get back to my kid,» I said. «He'll be waking up.»

Miller nodded. «Those pink bugs,» he said. «They're all gone. So are the birds. Hank Vannerman said the last one hit the windows around four. Apparently the … the wildlife … is a lot more active when it's dark.»

«You don't want to tell Brent Norton that,» I said. «Or Norm.»

He nodded again and didn't say anything for a long time. Then he lit a cigarette of his own and looked at me. «We can't stay here, Drayton,» he said.

«There's food. Plenty to drink.»

«The supplies don't have anything to do with it, and you know it. What do we do if one of the big beasties out there decides to break in instead of just going bump in the night? Do we try to drive it off with broom handles and charcoal lighter fluid?»

Of course he was right. Perhaps the mist was protecting us in a way. Hiding us. But maybe it wouldn't hide us for long, and there was more to it than that. We had been in the Federal for eighteen hours, more or less, and I could feel a kind of lethargy spreading over me, not much different from the lethargy I've felt on one or two occasions when I've tried to swim too far. There was an urge to play it safe, to just stay put, to take care of Billy (and maybe to bang Amanda Dumfries in the middle of the night, a voice murmured), to see if the mist wouldn't just lift, leaving everything as it had been.

I could see it on the other faces as well, and it suddenly occurred to me that there were people now in the Federal who probably wouldn't leave under any circumstance. The very thought of going out the door after all that had happened would freeze them.

Miller had been watching these thoughts cross my face, maybe. He said, «There were about eighty people in here when that damn fog came. From that number you subtract the bag-boy, Norton, and the four people that went out with him, and that man Smalley. That leaves seventythree.»

And subtracting the two soldiers, now resting under a stack of Purina Puppy Chow bags, it made seventy-one.

«Then you subtract the people who have just opted out,» he went on. «There are ten or twelve of those. Say ten. That leaves about sixty-three. But-» He raised one sugar-powdered finger. «Of those sixty-three, we've got twenty or so that just won't leave. You'd have to drag them out kicking and screaming.»

«Which all goes to prove what?»

«That we've got to get out, that's all. And I'm going. Around noon, I think. I'm planning to take as many people as will come. I'd like you and your boy to come along.»

«After what happened to Norton?»

«Norton went like a lamb to the slaughter. That doesn't mean I have to, or the people who come with me.»

«How can you prevent it? We have exactly one gun.»

«And lucky to have that. But if we could make it across the intersection, maybe we could get down to the Sportsman's Exchange on Main Street. They've got more guns there than you could shake a stick at.»

«That's one 'if' and one 'maybe' too many.»

«Drayton,» he said, «it's an iffy situation.»

That rolled very smoothly off his tongue, but he didn't have a little boy to watch out for.

«Look, let it pass for now, okay? I didn't get much sleep last night, but I got a chance to think over a few things. Want to hear them?»

«Sure.»

He stood up and stretched. «Take a walk over to the window with me.»

We went through the checkout lane nearest the bread racks and stood at one of the loopholes. The man who was keeping watch there said, «The bugs are gone.»

Miller slapped him on the back. «Go get yourself a coffee — and, fella. I'll keep an eye out.»

«Okay. Thanks.»

He walked away, and Miller and I stepped up to his loophole. «So tell me what you see out there,» he said.

I looked. The litter barrel had been knocked over in the night, probably by one of the swooping bird-things, spilling a trash of papers, cans, and paper shake cups from the Dairy Queen down the road all over the hottop. Beyond that I could see the rank of cars closest to the market fading into whiteness. That was all I could see, and I told him so.

«That blue Chevy pickup is mine,» he said. He pointed and I could see just a hint of blue in the mist. «But if you think back to when you pulled in yesterday, you'll remember that the parking lot was pretty jammed, right?»

I glanced back at my Scout and remembered I had only gotten the space close to the market because someone else had been pulling out. I nodded.

Miller said, «Now couple something else with that fact, Drayton. Norton and his four … what did you call them?»

«Flat-Earthers.»

«Yeah, that's good just what they were. They go out, right? Almost the full length of that clothesline. Then we heard those roaring noises, like there was a goddam herd of elephants out there. Right?»

«It didn't sound like elephants,» I said. «It sounded like-» Like something from the primordial ooze was the phrase that came to mind, but I didn't want to say that to Miller, not after he had clapped that guy On the back and told him to go get a coffee-and like the coach jerking a player from the big game. I might have said it to Ollie, but not to Miller. «I don't know what it sounded like,» I finished lamely.

«But it sounded big.»

«Yeah.» It had sounded pretty goddam big.

«So how come we didn't hear cars getting bashed around? Screeching metal? Breaking glass?»

«Well, because-» I stopped. He had me. «I don't know.»

Miller said, «No way they were out of the parking lot when whatever-it-was hit them. I'll tell you what I think. I think we didn't hear any cars getting around because a lot of them might be gone, just … gone. Fallen into the earth, vaporized, you name it. Strong enough to splinter these beams and twist them out of shape and knock stuff off the shelves. And the town whistle stopped at the same time.»

I was trying to visualize half the parking lot gone. Trying to visualize walking out there and just coming to a brand-new drop in the land where the hottop with its neat yellow-lined parking slots left off. A drop, a slope … or maybe an out-and-out precipice falling away into the featureless white mist …

After a couple of seconds I said, «If you're right, how far do you think you're going to get in your pickup?»

«I wasn't thinking of my truck. I was thinking of your four-wheel- drive.»

That was something to chew over, but not now. «What else is on your mind?»

Miller was eager to go on. «The pharmacy next door, that's on my mind. What about that?»

I opened my mouth to say I didn't have the slightest idea what he was talking about, and then shut it with a snap. The Bridgton Pharmacy had been doing business when we drove in yesterday. Not the laundromat, but the drugstore had been wide open, the doors chocked with rubber doorstops to let in a little cool air-the power outage had killed their air conditioning, of course. The door to the pharmacy could be no more than twenty feet from the door to the Federal market. So why

«Why haven't any of those people turned up over here?» Miller asked for me. «It's been eighteen hours. Aren't they hungry? They're sure not over there eating Dristan and Stayfree Mini-pads.»

«There's food,» I said. «They're always selling food items on special. Sometimes it's animal crackers, sometimes it's those toaster pastries, all sorts of things. Plus the candy rack.»

«I just don't believe they'd stick with stuff like that when there's all kinds of stuff over here.»

«What are you getting at?»

«What I'm getting at is that I want to get out but I don't want to be dinner for some refugee from a grade-B horror picture. Four or five of us could go next door and check out the situation in the drugstore. As sort of a trial balloon.»

«That's everything?»

«No, there's one other thing.»

«What's that?»

«Her,» Miller said simply, and jerked his thumb toward one of the middle aisles. «That crazy cunt. That witch.»

It was Mrs. Carmody he had jerked his thumb at. She was no longer alone; two women had joined her. From their bright clothes I guessed they were probably tourists or summer people, ladies who had maybe left their families to «just run into town and get a few things» and were now eaten up with worry over their husbands and kids. Ladies eager to grasp at almost any straw. Maybe even the black comfort of a Mrs. Carmody.

Her pantsuit shone out with its same baleful resplendence. She was talking, gesturing, her face hard and grim. The two ladies in their bright clothes (but not as bright as Mrs. Carmody's pantsuit, no, and her gigantic satchel of a purse was still tucked firmly under one doughy arm) were listening raptly.

«She's another reason I want to get out, Drayton. By night she'll have six people sitting with her. If those pink bugs and the birds come back tonight, she'll have a whole congregation sitting with her by tomorrow morning. Then we can start worrying about who she'll tell them to sacrifice to make it all better. Maybe me, or you, or that guy Hatlen. Maybe your kid.»

«That's idiocy,» I said. But was it? The cold chill crawling up my back said not necessarily. Mrs. Carmody's mouth moved and moved. The eyes of the tourist ladies were fixed on her wrinkled lips. Was it idiocy? I thought of the dusty stuffed animals drinking at their looking-glass stream. Mrs. Carmody had power. Even Steff, normally hardheaded and straight-from-the-shoulder, invoked the old lady's name with unease.

That crazy cunt, Miller had called her. That witch.

«The people in this market are going through a section-eight experience for sure,» Miller said. He gestured at the red-painted beams framing the show-window segments … twisted and splintered and buckled out of shape. «Their minds probably feel like those beams look. Mine sure as shit does. I spent half of last night thinking I must have flipped out of my gourd, that I was probably in a straitjacket in Danvers, raving my head off about bugs and dinosaur birds and tentacles and that it would all go away just as soon as the nice orderly came along and shot a wad of Thorazine into my arm.» His small face wass trained and white. He looked at Mrs. Carmody and then back at me, tell you it might happen. As people get flakier she's going to look better and better to some of them. And I don't want to be around if that happens.»

Mrs. Carmody's lips, moving and moving. Her tongue dancing around her old lady's snaggle teeth. She did look like a witch. Put her in a pointy black hat and she would be perfect. What was she saying to her two captured birds in their bright summer plumage?

Arrowhead Project? Black Spring the Abominations from cellars of the earth? Human sacrifice?

Bullshit.

All the same

So what do you say.

«I'll go this far,» I answered him. «We,ll try going over to the drug. You, me, Ollie if he wants to go, one or two others, Then we'll talk it over again.» Even that gave me the feeling of walking out over an impossible drop on a narrow beam. I wasn't going to help Billy by killing myself on the other hand, I wasn't going to help him by just sitting on my ass, either. Twenty feet to the drugstore. That wasn't so bad. «When?» he asked. «Give me an hour.» «Sure,» he said.