If you have ever awakened in a strange place in the middle of the night, you’ll know that just to be alone in the dark can be frightening enough; now try to imagine waking in a secret passage, looking through concealed eyeholes into the room where you saw your own father murdered!
Thomas shrieked. No one heard him (unless the dogs below did, and I doubt that-they were old, deaf, and making too much noise themselves).
Now, there was an idea about sleepwalking in Detain-one that has also been commonly held as the truth in our world. This idea is that if a sleepwalker wakes up before returning to his or her bed, he or she will go mad.
Thomas might have heard this tale. If so, he could attest that it wasn’t true at all. He’d had a bad scare, and he had screamed, but he did not come even close to going mad.
In fact, his initial fright passed rather quickly-more quickly than some of you might think-and he looked back into the peepholes again. This may strike some of you as strange, but you have to remember that, before the terrible night when Flagg had come with his own glass of wine after Peter left, Thomas had spent some pleasant times in this dark passageway. The pleasantness had a sour undertone of guilt, but he had also felt close to his father. Now, being back here, he felt a queer sense of nostalgia.
He saw that the room had hardly changed at all. The stuffed heads were still there-Bonsey the elk, Craker the lynx, Snapper the great white bear from the north. And, of course, Niner the dragon, which he now looked through, with Roland’s bow and the arrow Foe-Hammer mounted above it.
Bonsey… Craker… Snapper… Niner.
I remember all their names, Thomas thought with some wonder. And I remember you, Dad. I wish you were alive now and that Peter was free, even if it meant no one even knew I was alive. At least I could sleep at night.
Some of the furniture had been covered with white dust-sheets, but most had not. The fireplace was cold and dark, but a fire had been laid. Thomas saw with mounting wonder that even his father’s old robe was still there, hung in its accustomed place on the hook by the bathroom door. The fireplace was cold, but it wanted only a match struck and held to the kindling to bring it alive, roaring and warm; the room wanted only his father to do the same for it.
Suddenly Thomas became aware of a strange, almost eerie desire in himself; he wanted to go into that room. He wanted to light the fire. He wanted to put on his father’s robe. He wanted to drink a glass of his father’s mead. He would drink it even if it had gone bad and bitter. He thought… he thought he might be able to sleep in there.
A wan, tired smile dawned on the boy’s face, and he decided to do it. He wasn’t even afraid of his father’s ghost. He almost hoped it would come. If it did, he could tell his father something.
He could tell his father he was sorry.