Snake Eyes

Chapter 1

In the hatching chamber of the fourth tier the final spider advanced towards Agent Johnson.

He had one round left in the shotgun. The shot would scatter a little as it flew towards the creature but he still had to be accurate enough to kill it.

The eyes…

That was where its overgrown brain was.

Behind those ten red eyes.

His hands were shaking now. There had been so many of them. More than he’d ever anticipated and his backpack of ammunition, which had once seemed plentiful, was now used up. One of the smaller spiders had bitten him and he could feel the toxin slowing him down. He trudged like he was wearing an ancient diver’s suit with weighted boots and a brass helmet. As he backed away, the last spider gained ground.

This was the female, the guardian of the nest. She was huge, too: a leg span of almost three metres supported her body a metre above the ground. At such a size, she lumbered rather than ran but each ponderous step made huge gains. Johnson knew that if she caught him it didn’t merely mean an agonising end for him. She was pregnant and would lay her eggs at any time. She’d use him to feed her offspring and the whole nightmare would start again. Everything he’d fought for through the corridors and labs of the fourth tier facility would be worth nothing if she survived and he did not.

The stench of decomposition clotted the hatching chamber. This was where she’d brought the bodies that the male spiders had paralysed. Most of the carcasses had been devoured now and what remained rotted in the choking humidity. He knew that she’d been fertilised—he’d watched as she mated with one of the larger male spiders before sucking every drop of fluid from its body and discarding its monstrous husk.

Agent Johnson’s stomach knotted and spasmed in response the miasma in the chamber but he fought back his bile. He could afford no lapses in concentration, no mistakes.

He thought of Angelina and Professor Alpert. He remembered the other members of his team, Shuckman and Fiori, Matthews and Becker. All gone now and him soon to follow if he didn’t keep his nerve. He gripped the shotgun tighter to stop his hands from trembling. It helped but only a little.

Johnson chambered the last shell.

She was close enough that he could smell her venom now. It dripped from her fangs in a viscous plasma, steaming slightly where it spattered onto the cadaver-strewn floor. It smelled of sulphur and a sweet spice like cinnamon. He gagged again, knowing that same arachnid bane now flowed within his own blood vessels, slowing his reflexes and dulling his wits. The muzzle of the shotgun drooped downward.

He lifted it up once more.

Have to concentrate…

Wait for the perfect moment.

She was within fifteen feet now. Another step or two and he would—

She lunged; he wasn’t expecting it so soon. No time to think—he squeezed the trigger. The shotgun leapt back in his grip as it had so many times that night and her face, if such it could be called, imploded. The spiny palps with which she’d held her prey shattered, her fangs disintegrating in an ochre mist. Every eye disappeared in the blast. She took two more steps and collapsed, spider blood and venom commingling in a sickening stream below her shattered head section.

Johnson was ready to collapse. Rest a while before he made his way along the dim corridors to the elevator that would take him out; sleep before he headed for the third tier and detonated all the charges.

He didn’t have the chance.

From behind her body he heard a pattering sound that reminded him of cows defecating on barn floors. It was the noise made by hundreds of eggs falling from her spinnerets and bursting as they hit the ground. Already he could see the frantic scurrying of hungry infant spiders as they raced towards him. Even these newborns were the size of his hand. He turned and pounded towards the chamber’s exit. There was no door so he couldn’t stop them from following. As he fled he discarded the shotgun and the pack, flinging them into the path of his pursuers.

All he had left were the detonators. He held one in each fist as he sprinted ahead of the spider brood so close behind him. He could hear their legs scrabbling against the walls and the ceilings of the corridors as he ran. Every door he came to he slammed, buying him a few seconds before the sheer weight of them forced the doors open once more.

By the time he reached the lift shaft he’d opened a small distance between them but he didn’t believe it was enough. He smashed on the call button. The elevator was right there but the doors opened too slowly. As soon as he could squeeze through the opening, he hit the icon for the third tier, the way out, followed by the ‘close doors’ button. As the steel panels laboured shut, he saw the army of spiders seething along the corridor like a flood. The first ones reached him and leapt through the narrow opening as the doors met and the elevator began its final upward journey.

Three of them made it through, one already biting his neck. He smashed the one climbing his chest against himself with a fist. He tore at the one needling his neck and flung it against the wall of the elevator, the impact crushing it. The third spider’s fangs probed his ankle. He kicked it against the wall and it slid, wet and broken to the floor.

Their venom took its toll.

He couldn’t allow himself to black out; not without first detonating the explosives he’d placed throughout the facility but doing so before he reached the level of the third tier would kill him. He waited as long as he could, the blindness of sleep settling onto him, smothering his consciousness like a blanket. He knew there was a strong chance he’d die from his bites even if he survived the explosions.

Out of time and out of choices, he depressed the detonators.

Far below him a deep rumbling began.

Chapter 2

The spider dream clung like web to the corners of his mind, running a thread into other less exciting reveries about his day to day life, until at last he was no longer dreaming of spiders but instead of his role as a family man. When these wraithlike visions became fantasies he could control and he felt the pressure in his bladder, he knew he was awake.

It was the morning after his thirty-fourth birthday, the day Robert Johnson first became aware of his tube. It was such a shock to him that he forgot the spider dream until a long time later.

The evening before had been a quiet affair; a bottle of Chardonnay shared with Angelina after the kids were asleep. Love, made a little clumsily, on the sofa. Whispered memories of other birthdays—their own and the children’s, hushed talk of birthdays yet to come and all that would arrive with them.

“Matthew is going to be a great sprinter. None of the other boys his age run anywhere near as fast.”

“What do you care about sports, Bob? You never played any.”

“I played Table Tennis. The trophy’s right there in the tall boy.”

“That doesn’t count and you know it.”

They had laughed.

“Truth is, I’d be proud of a sporting son. Being able to do the things I never could.”

“You should be proud anyway.”

He knew Angelina was right. His own father had tried to make a sportsman of him. It had caused of a parting of minds that was never resolved—unless Johnson’s sporting failure could be considered an end to the matter.

He’d stroked her hair as they lay half undressed on the sofa.

“Rebecca will be an astronaut.” He’d announced.

“She will not.”

“A fighter pilot, then.”

“Baloney.”

“A mime artist?”

But Angelina wasn’t laughing.

“She’ll be a woman before we know what hit us.”

He’d squeezed her to him.

“I know it.”

Johnson had been able to forget for those few hours, not completely but enough, about the grind and increasing pressures of his accountancy job. The sheer anonymity of his contribution to the turning of the world scared him at times, but on that night he was, for a few snatched hours, almost content.

He was not used to drinking—occasionally, he had a beer or two at the weekend—so the wine gave him a headache. It also caused him to rise earlier than he normally would on a Saturday morning to take a leak.

In the bathroom he flicked on the dimmer of the two lights. Standing in front of the toilet, he squeezed the head of his penis to unglue the opening of their dried-on sexual fluids. He knew better than to cause Angelina extra work by sending his first squirt all over the bathroom.

It was at that moment, his eyes becoming accustomed to the dull glare, that he felt a movement from the top of his head. It was as if someone had very softly pulled a few hairs. He turned around expecting to see Angelina but he was still alone. The tug came again, slightly harder. As he pissed, he reached toward the bathroom cabinet and pulled open one of the mirrored doors. That was when he saw the tube for the first time.

In a moment of frankness, had he been asked off the record, Johnson would have said that until it had started to ‘pull at him’ he’d never really been aware that it was there at all. But, now that he was looking at the thing, a black pipe about half an inch in diameter that protruded from the top of his head and extended upwards beyond his mirrored reflection, he felt as though it had always been there.

It looked very…familiar.

It was that single fact that mitigated any initial horror he might otherwise have felt. His head aching slightly, he’d put two Alka-Seltzer’s in a glass, added water, drank the bitter fizzy result and went back to bed where he snuggled up to Angelina and fell immediately back to sleep.

He awoke alone in their bed to the smell of bacon, eggs and coffee. His head was clear and he felt refreshed. In the bathroom brushing his teeth, he remembered the incident from the small hours.

Glancing at the mirror, he saw the tube was still there. He must, at that moment, have made some kind of muffled grunt of exclamation.

“Everything all right in there, Bob? Breakfast is on the table.”

He spat pink paste froth into the sink.

“Sure, honey. Just fine. I’ll be there in a second.”

He heard the swish of her robe as she approached and pushed the door open. He didn’t have a chance to stop her.

“You find a grey hair, babe?”

She was looking at him and smiling. He still had the toothbrush in his hand, a foamy mouth. Not sure what to do, he smiled back.

“No, but I think I may have put on a few pounds. My face looks fatter, don’t you think.”

She looked at him, at his face. He waited for the shock to register, the disbelief, but it never came. She took his face in her hands and kissed his mouth. When she stood back there was toothpaste on her lips.

“You look better than ever,” Angelina said.

It was his own face that registered shock, although he hid it by turning away and rinsing his mouth out with water.

His wife had a black tube protruding from the crown of her head.

Chapter 3

Johnson tried hard to ignore the tube and most of the time he managed to. He chose not to look at the tubes of his family. He chose not to see the tubes of his colleagues. He ignored the thick cables that showed above every cubicle in the office, cables that extended upward.

The pulling, however, he could not ignore. Every subtle twitch drew his attention back to his discovery. The temptation to touch his tube was strong but the desire was mixed with disturbing feelings of fear and revulsion. What if someone saw him do it? What if he hurt himself?

Other questions followed like plague rats; did anyone else know? Was it something normal that he just hadn’t noticed until now? Why did the kids never ask about it? Was it something that everyone knew about that remained an impenetrable taboo? If so, why didn’t anyone talk about it? Why were there no books about it, no medical information? What was the public’s opinion of it and where was the legislation that related to it?

He surfed the net for hours trying every combination of words in every search engine he knew. He found no data at all.

There was one other question too, of course. The one that scared him most. The one he never asked himself.

Chapter 4

Robert Johnson moved rapidly from a condition of enforced avoidance to a tube-obsessive state in a matter of days after the first little tug on the top of his head. He couldn’t help it; tubes were attached to every person he saw. He was prepared to admit to himself that he might have been imagining how the tubes looked—even whether they were there at all—but the tugging, the persistent plucks and twitches were no hallucination. Averting his eyes from the obvious became harder each day and concentrating on anything else was practically impossible. Everyone had a tube but only his was…moving.

“Aren’t you feeling well, babe?” Angelina asked him one morning at breakfast. She put her hand to his forehead to see if he had a temperature and he flinched, the touch a little too intimate.

She’d recoiled, hurt by his reaction.

“What is it, Bob?”

“It’s nothing. Just a headache is all.” He could tell she didn’t believe him. He sighed as if he was about to betray a secret about himself. “I’m not sleeping.” That much was true. “It’s work, Angie, it just keeps getting worse. I feel like I’m doing three people’s jobs and being thanked for nothing.”

“You should resign. That bastard Shuckman treats you like dirt.”

“It’s not him.” Johnson actually liked Shuckman, he was one of the people who understood the inner workings of the company and always cut him slack when things were tough. “I can’t leave. I’m this close to promotion. Then all this bullshit will go away.” It was the first real lie he’d ever told her. It hurt, but there was no way he could bring himself to say the true words to her, the ones that would lay it all on the line. He couldn’t risk the love they’d shared and the family they’d created.

The next tug had been a little more forceful and had happened in public. His car was being serviced and he’d taken the bus to work. On the way home, exhausted by the demands of the day, he was nodding, half asleep when his head had been whipped into an upright position snapping him back to wakefulness. He’d looked around in furtive shame to have been so obviously caught out but no one had noticed. He tried to tell himself that he’d merely jerked himself awake as he sometimes did when napping.

Waking so suddenly and seeing all those oily black ducts protruding from every head; that was the moment when he began to look more closely at other people’s tubes. It was risky, of course, because if they looked up and caught him peering, however innocently, at the place above their heads where the tube was attached, it would lead to trouble. He wasn’t certain what sort of trouble but he guessed it would be the worst kind.

As he appraised those seated with him, he was assailed by many more conundrums relating to the tube and the first thing was this: how did they get in and out of the train without catching their tubes in the doorway? He almost laughed when the idea struck him but managed to stifle the sound. It might have come out a little cracked, a little high-pitched.

However, it wasn’t a question he felt he could leave unanswered and so, like a gynaecologist who ought to know better than to relish the view, he glanced up once more at something he was never supposed to have openly noticed. What he saw was dismaying. The tubes extended up through the ceiling of the bus, as if the steel encasing them were no more substantial than mist. He could see the tubes swaying slightly with the rocking of the bus, completely unimpeded by the ceiling. They went through it; up to somewhere else.

He didn’t have the courage to take any more risks during the rest of the journey but when he arrived home, it took all the willpower he had to hide his agitation.

That evening he watched television with his family as he always did on weeknights before the kids went to bed. Angelina sat beside him on their sofa and held his hand. She could feel the tension in his body but knew better than to ask him how he was. Many of her friends’ husbands were uptight at home in the evenings; work seemed to be a struggle for everyone and she knew she shouldn’t worry.

Michael and Rebecca sat cross-legged on the floor in front of them. Their favourite quiz show was on but Johnson couldn’t concentrate. All he could look at were the slightly smaller tubes, ones that were not yet fully grown, snaking upwards from the heads of his children and through the living room ceiling.

After a few minutes he could stand the temptation no longer.

“Got to take a leak. Tell me what happens, ’kay?”

“’Kay, babe.” Angelina said. Her eyes stayed fixed on the screen.

The children’s bedroom was directly above the living room and as he passed he peered in. It was too gloomy to see anything so he switched the light on. In roughly the centre of the room, two immature tubes stretched up from the floor and through the roof. A slightly wider, ‘adult’ tube, a little farther away did the same. Johnson stared for a moment and then clicked the light off before flushing the toilet and going back downstairs.

He didn’t catch much of the rest of the show. He was too fascinated by the viscous black cables extending from the crowns of his beloved children. Their hair hid the exact point where the tubes connected to their skulls. Was there scarring? He wondered.

Later, unable to sleep, he prayed that Angelina had not looked across and noticed where his eyes were really looking. He began to wonder if he was becoming some kind of pervert; a fetishist or porno freak. He didn’t even know the answer to that.

Chapter 5

A crowded kind of loneliness descended upon Johnson. No matter where he went, the one thing that made him exactly like everyone else set him apart from them. He’d changed now and there was no going back to a state of ignorance. He longed for the bliss of childhood, that easy innocence of the young but either it would not or could not return.

Meanwhile, the condition of his own tube worsened. More frequently his tube would pull his head in some direction or other as if trying to attract his attention. Often it would happen at a moment when he had almost forgotten the problem existed. It was as if it waited for him to be off guard for the more dramatic effect it would cause.

He assumed that, to others in his office, it looked like he had developed some kind of nervous tick or twitch but if they noticed anything, they never mentioned it. Everyone was under pressure at the firm and signs of stress were common. A bout of tears, a sudden snap of the temper, a muscular twitch. It was all pretty normal. No one bothered about it. Except Johnson. Johnson bothered about it a lot.

He decided to probe Shuckman for clues. As he knocked on his superior’s private office door, he had the intuition he was making a mistake but Shuckman had already recognised the knock and yelled for him to come in.

“How’s it going, Robert? Got another problem for me?”

“Not exactly, Bill.”

“Well what are you wasting my time for?”

Johnson almost shuffled his feet in embarrassment. He wanted to leave. Coming in here was stupid.

Shuckman registered his discomfort and toned down the office machismo. He liked Johnson’s dogged approach to work, his determination to finish every job properly. He liked his honesty, too. He could read the man like a comic strip. He saw the tiredness around Johnson’s eyes, the pulled up tension in his shoulders, the unusual lack of care taken over his clothes.

“What’s the problem, Robert? I’ve got five minutes for you and you can tell me anything. If I can fix it, I will. Davies giving you heat again?”

“No. It’s uh…it’s kind of personal.”

“You mean Angie?”

“Oh, God, no. Nothing like that, Bill. It’s more like a stupid health problem or something.”

“Drippy dick?”

“Jesus, Bill, what kind of guy do you think I am?”

“Take it easy, Robert, I’m kidding. But there are millions of penises out there using your surname.”

It was Shuckman’s oldest and favourite joke where Johnson was concerned and for the first time, Johnson actually laughed. He laughed because he needed the outlet, not because he was amused, but Bill took it as a compliment and it bought him some more of the man’s time.

“So, spill it.”

Johnson put his toe in the water.

“Ever get those twitches?”

“What twitches?”

“You know, the ones that make your head move.”

Bill thought about it.

“Can’t say that I do. Why? You get ‘em?”

“Kind of.”

“It’s probably a muscle spasm, Robert. I mean, look how tense you are. You’ve got all that frustration and internalised bullshit pulling your shoulders up around your ears, for Christ’s sake. It’s no wonder your head’s jerking.”

“I didn’t say it jerked.”

“Twitches. Whatever, Robert.”

“You never had it happen?”

“Never. But the muscles around my left eye twitch like a son of a bitch sometimes, though. Always seems to be when I’m in a bar talking to a young lady. I don’t want them to think I’m crazy like that guy in those Pink Panther films—what was his name?”

“I don’t remember.”

“His face used to get all kind of–”

“I remember the films, Bill, just not the guy’s name.”

“Sure, sure. Look, you’re really worried about this?”

“I guess I am.”

“I can get you some tranquillisers. The ones that help to relax your muscles.”

“Will I be able to work all right?”

“Uh…They can make you a little drowsy.”

“I can’t take risk falling asleep at my desk, Bill. I’ve got to get that promotion.”

“You know what I think?”

“What?”

“I think you’re overworked, just like almost everyone in this place. Take some time off.”

“I can’t.”

“I’ll put in a good word. Say you’ve earned it.”

“Thanks but no.”

“Well, you’ve got one other option.”

“Yeah?”

“Go to the doctor.”

“Shit, Bill.”

“What?”

“Nothing. I just never thought of it.”

Johnson laughed. Maybe the doctor was the answer. He turned to let himself out.

“Hey, Bill?”

“Yeah?”

“Thanks a lot.”

“Any time, Robert. Don’t tell anyone I said this, but you’re one of the people that keeps this company afloat.”

“Thanks.”

Back in his cubicle, Johnson felt a whole lot better. An hour later, the twitching began again.

Chapter 6

One afternoon at work, a rough yank on the tube jerked Johnson’s head back hard. He’d been bent over some figures on paper, tinkering with a pencil in the columns. The unexpectedness of the movement and the fierceness of it, the almost pointed maliciousness, had caused his heart to skip a beat. With a vulnerable, fluttering sensation deep in the left side of his chest and a sweat breaking on his forehead, he locked himself in one of the cubicles of the male restroom. He put the lid down and sat on it. As he considered his next move, he wondered if there were hidden security cameras in use.

He had often thought about touching the tube but had discovered within himself his own taboos regarding it. He felt his sanity depended on the possibility that the tube was an illusion. If he discovered something else to be the case, if the thing was material and tangible, he didn’t know how he would cope. So far, he believed he’d done well keeping his reactions under control but feeling it with the skin of his hand, knowing for certain it was real and attached to him…

Raising a trembling, hesitant hand, he reached up as if it was not himself he was about to touch but perhaps the sexual organs of someone he had never before met. His fingers made contact with a smooth surface. It was not cold, as he had expected but warm like his own skin. The texture was greasy but when he took his hand away there was no residue on the tips of his fingers. There, surrounded by the faint smell of blended urines and throat catching disinfectant, under the glare of bright artificial light, Johnson discovered the tube was a fact; as true as his own body.

But the tube was not of his body. If it was, it contained no sensory nerves because, although he could feel it through his fingertips, the tube itself experienced no sensation. Or, if it did, Johnson was not the one to receive that sensation. Like an anaesthetised limb, it was numb; alien, un-him.

He took his hand away.

He stayed in the cubicle a little longer wondering what he could do, praying there was someone he could turn to. It was only then that the question of ownership occurred to him. Was it correct to say that it was his tube or was it the other way around?

He reached up once more, less confident than the first time. More daunted by the implications of further discoveries. He wanted to squeeze it, to find out what was inside. He pressed it between his thumb and forefinger. The sensation was fibrous and grainy as if the tube was packed with strands of wire or twine. It felt like there might be liquid inside too; there was a turgidity that suggested fluids under internal pressure.

He took the tube more forcefully in his whole hand, making a fist around. He squeezed. Immediately, he felt a contraction below the surface of the tube and it fattened in his grip. On his head he felt the presence of the tube for the first time as it gripped him. It yanked his scalp upwards and he felt a drawing sensation where the tube met his head. Though the sensation of intimate connection nauseated him, squeezing the tube caused no pain. He did not black out or feel short of breath.

It was all the investigation he had strength for that afternoon but he took Bill Shuckman’s advice and called to make an appointment with the family doctor.

Chapter 7

Surely, Dr. Alpert would be willing to discuss the matter in confidence.

As Johnson sat in the waiting room he tried to come up with a way of communicating his problem without sounding nuts. When the receptionist told him to go through to the surgery twenty minutes later, he’d made no progress at all.

“Robert. This is a rare pleasure. According to your notes, I haven’t seen you for four years.”

Johnson wanted to apologise for not seeing him more regularly but it seemed such a dumb thing to say that he kept quiet. How was it that doctors could make you feel so awkward?

“How’re Angie and the kids?”

“Just fine. Angie’s still makes curtains at home for a few folks and the kids are doing real well in school.” Johnson shrugged. “How about you, doc?”

“I’m just as busy as bears goin’ fishin’.”

The doctor smiled.

Johnson didn’t know what to say. He remembered now that this was always how it went with Dr. Alpert. All smiles and quaint sayings followed by a finger up your ass.

Dr. Alpert gave him his cue.

“So, what’s your trouble, Robert?”

He put on his spectacles and leaned over Johnson’s notes with a fat gold fountain pen at the ready. He was yet to computerise his surgery and many folks loved him for it. They thought it was a personal touch.

“I’ve been having a problem with my tube?”

“Oh yes? What kind of problem?”

“It keeps jerking at me.”

Dr. Alpert took of his spectacles and looked up at Johnson.

“Excuse me?”

“Uh, twitching. Jerking. You know.”

Johnson made a few sudden cocking motions with his head to illustrate the point. Dr. Alpert stared at him for several seconds before speaking. Johnson eyed the glistening conduit that rose like liquorice from the doctor’s head and vanished through the ceiling.

“Let me be certain I understand you correctly, Robert. You’re saying your penis is jerking, right? Is this happening when you ejaculate?”

“No, doc. Not my penis.” Johnson dropped his voice to a whisper. “My tube.”

“I’m sorry, Robert, I don’t understand you. What tube are you referring to?”

Johnson gestured with one hand, waving it beside his ear in a vaguely cranial direction and rolling his eyes upwards. He leaned forwards.

“My…tube.”

Dr. Alpert sat back and blinked in confusion. It wasn’t the first time he’d had to fathom out a complaint without much help from the patient. He scratched his head. Then a look of triumph spread across his face.

“You’re talking about the tubes in your middle ear, aren’t you? You’re saying you’ve been losing your balance. Am I right?”

Johnson sagged a little in his chair but did his best to hide it.

“You’ve got it, doc.”

Ten minutes later he walked away with a prescription for an antibiotic to clear up the infection in his middle ear. In his car he wept without making a sound before tearing up the prescription and dropping the pieces into the ashtray.

Chapter 8

That night Johnson made a decision based on the facts. The tube was merely pulling at him. It had never hurt him and, as far as he could make out, it had never hurt anyone else. The fact that people either didn’t know or didn’t care wasn’t important. Perhaps everyone came to a similar realisation about their tubes when they discovered them. Perhaps they never became aware of them.

He realised it didn’t matter. He wasn’t prepared to throw everything away by letting himself go crazy. He had a beautiful wife and fabulous children. He had a comfortable home and a good but challenging job with a promotion not far away. He had built this life for himself and he was not going to let it crumble over an obsession he could easily control. It was like quitting smoking or going on a diet—it would be tricky, there would be temptations, but he would do it.

He made himself forget.

And when the tube plucked at him, he ignored it with a smile and carried on with whatever he was doing. Following this decision, the power the tube had over him diminished. Nothing about it seemed as bad as when he’d let its presence rule him.

The following evening the family viewing was not interrupted by his trips upstairs. They even had a family session of gaming on their well used Maruyama Entertainment Console, playing Narco Cop and Spider Hunter until late. He did not stare at his children. He no longer worried that his wife was watching him, noticing his strangeness. Together they tracked down drug dealers and blasted hordes of arachnids until their thumbs were sore. He slept well. The next day he was able to concentrate correctly at work for the first time in more than a month. That weekend he took Angelina out for dinner and when they came home they made love for the first time since his birthday.

Johnson developed an intense caring for everything in his life. He began to see the difficulties of his job as blessings, he noticed his children’s individuality more, tried to control them less. He adored Angelina again as if it was only a few days since they’d been married. The twitches and tugs ceased to nag him.

He forgot about what the tube might imply and became the happy, contented man he had always wanted to be.

Summer came and with it the barbecues. The Johnson household played host to many weekend parties of work colleagues and old friends. Johnson himself, with his new passion for life, became a focal point of sociability; an effusive, outgoing entertainer. A joke teller, a storyteller, a shoulder to cry on, a good friend. He had found himself.

Forgetting, as he was soon to discover, was not enough.

Chapter 9

The sun shone, drawing sweat from every brow. The guys sucked on their beers while the girls sipped spritzers and sodas. The kids chased each other with water pistols and squealed. Guffaws and giggles erupted from every part of the Johnson’s back garden. Greasy blue smoke rose from the grill each time Robert Johnson turned the meat. This was how a weekend ought to be; people relaxing, having fun, forgetting about their pressures.

When Johnson’s tube hoisted him right over, leaving him on his back in the grass still holding a wiener in his tongs, people couldn’t help but notice. Some of them genuinely believed that he’d lost his footing and slipped. Others had the unpleasant impression that something had yanked him off balance. They dismissed the idea immediately but deep down, if only for a moment, a few of his guests realised that something very strange had happened to him, that he had been manipulated in some way.

As he picked himself up and smoothed down his cooking apron, Johnson glanced around, trying to gauge people’s response to what had just happened as subtly as he could. He placed the wiener back on the barbecue to sizzle. Everyone appeared to be laughing and talking amongst themselves exactly as they had before he been hauled over. There was no atmosphere of suspicion, no air of uncertainty. Everyone was having as much fun as they were a minute before it happened. He picked his baseball cap and put it back on after dusting some grass cuttings from its peak.

“Want to watch your step there, Robert.” Shuckman was smiling at him. “Either that or ease off the rum and cokes.

Gimme a little of that marinated chicken action, would ya?”

Everyone had let it go. It was as if they’d chosen to forget. For Johnson though, the spores of doubt had returned to grow like fungus in the darkest reaches of his mind. He recovered his poise as best he could but, for him, the rest of the barbecue had all the appeal of flat champagne.

When everyone had left, he went upstairs to the bathroom and looked in the mirror. It was there as, he assumed, it always had been; a huge black artery. He seemed to have shadowy memories of it from his childhood but couldn’t be certain if he was imagining such recollections.

Does it really matter now?

It surprised him that the answer was yes.

He realised that he could not have been born with the tube attached to him. People and tubes were solid things. It would have been impossible. Either the tube had become attached some time after birth or he and everyone else had not been born in the normal way. Feeling the weight of the implications bearing down on him with sudden and irresistible force, he decided to get away for a while. He needed time to think on his own. He didn’t say goodbye to Angelina or the children. He didn’t take his phone or his wallet. He took the car and drove into the hills outside the city.

The higher roads of the mountains had lookout points for picnickers and tourists and it was to one of these that Johnson drove, parking the car with its bumper right up to the safety barrier. It was long dark by the time he arrived. He put the seat back and tried to sleep but couldn’t sink any deeper into unconsciousness than a light dream state. There he encountered only the nightmares that his conscious mind hid from him during the daylight.

He dreamed of umbilical strangulation and Ventouse delivery during which the vacuum sucked out his brain rather than drawing him intact from the womb. He dreamed of running to escape cohorts of black eels that flew though the air behind him. He dreamed that he was paralysed in the trailing stingers of a giant jellyfish. He dreamed that each time he woke and checked his watch, the dawn was always farther away. That was the nightmare that distressed him most. Each time he had the dream he would moan, a dull cry muffled by the leather interior, heard by no one.

Finally the grey mountain light seeped through the car windows and into his eyes. He put the seat up and stepped out of the car. His body was stiff and the chill morning did nothing to ease him. He sat on the bonnet of the car and stared into the valley where he and his family had lived for three generations.

The light came slowly. He didn’t know if he wanted it to come faster and reveal the truth or for the sun to change its mind and never illuminate his life again. At first when he saw the column above the city he thought it was smoke but the shape was to uniform for that to make sense.

As the morning gained strength he realised that what he could see was a hundred thousand tubes stretching beyond vision into the sky. Everyone was wired up to…for the briefest moment he had the word ‘heaven’ in his mind but it was gone almost before it was formed. Johnson knew that heaven had no wires. That which was above him, beyond his sight; no, that was not heaven.

He abandoned the car and walked away from the road into the hills. Finding himself somewhere in the tree line, he was cocooned for an hour or so in the damp air of pine shadow. Too soon though, the trees thinned out and ended. He was nearing one of the lower summits.

His body eased out with the walking and although the air was chill against his face, his blood was warm. He stopped for a moment. There was no one around. The forest and the hills were silent apart from the occasional birdcall. The solitude embraced him and for a short time he felt a positive surge, a thrill of freedom.

A rustling nearby caught his attention immediately in the quiet ambience. He looked to where the noise had come from and saw a fox darting for cover in the undergrowth. From the top of the fox’s head a thin black tube extended skyward. The fox was there and then gone in an instant but the image did not escape him. He knew what he had seen and what it implied. A bird flew overhead. It too had a tube connecting it into the blue. Looking back at the trees, he saw that some of them were similarly interfaced with the sky. He turned away and struck out a pace for the top of the mountain.

Half an hour later he was there, staring out across the land. Back towards his city the view was relatively normal although he could still see the waving tower of black above it.

When he looked deeper into the range of mountains, a harsher cold than any frosty morning could instill spread out from his heart. The highest peak of the range was partly shrouded in mist and cloud but he could still see the monstrous black colon that protruded from its loftiest crest. The mountain’s tube must have been dozens of metres across at least.

Nothing was free; the very land itself was invaded and ensnared. He raised his hands to the sky and dropped to his knees in the loose shale of the mountainside.

“Why?”

The tears came first. He covered his face with his hands, hiding himself from the truth of the world around him and wept. When he was spent, a rage grew in the vacuum behind his sobs.

His shaking hands reached up above his head and took hold of the tube. In response it stiffened and clung harder to his skull. He drew down some slack from the sky and with a force summoned from the core of his soul, he ripped it from its housing beneath his hair.

Two screams echoed high in the hills, one of which was not his own.

Through the cloud of pain around his head he stared into the open end of the tube and saw traces of his own blood around its opening. Inside the tube were smaller, open-ended tubules leaking clear fluids and several strands of what appeared to be wire and fibre optics. The tube pulsed in his hand with a life of its own, bleeding some kind of serum onto the barbecue apron he was still wearing. Around the opening of the tube, six thick, curving needles clawed and clenched at the air. Then, with a force he could not resist, the tube was drawn quickly upwards and disappeared into the clear morning light. He tested the wound on his crown with tentative fingers and could feel tiny holes where his skull had been penetrated by the workings of the tube. He thought he felt fine, considering the nature of the damage, but he seemed to have developed a problem with his vision; everything he looked at now appeared vaporous and insubstantial.

He walked back down to his car with blood leaking through his hair and down onto his collar. He drove the car back to his house but had difficulty controlling it, as if he were handling the wheel and gear shift several pairs of gloves. After several collisions with roadside barriers, he abandoned his car near the bottom of the hills and walked the rest of the way home with his thumb out. No one stopped.

He found Angelina hugging the children on the sofa. All of them were crying.

“It’s OK, Angie. I’m back. I’m alright.”

No one looked up.

“Angelina, kids. It’s me.”

No one with a tube ever sensed Johnson’s presence again.

Chapter 10

For a few days he wandered through the town visiting work colleagues and friends, each night returning home to his family. There was no response from anyone no matter how loud he shouted. When he tried to touch people his hands slipped through them as if they were spirits. The only things that he could touch in the world were the tubes. He discovered this when he knocked Bill Shuckman’s as he tried to touch his previous superior’s head. Shuckman had jumped in shock and shaken his head, as if to clear it, before carrying on with what he had been doing.

He understood then that it had never been his tube pulling at him. The tube, he realised, was the only real thing in the world and all it wanted was to remain a secret. He reasoned that someone else had torn free of their tube just as he had. They had been pulling on his tube to get his attention. Whoever it was had succeeded.

Chapter 11

Each night he sat with his grieving family, talking to them, trying to reassure them that he was all right. The world continued to be indistinct to him and his influence over objects remained lessened but not gone. The temptation to pull on Angelina’s tube to let her know he was still with her was hard to resist. He thought about it all the time.

Finally, one night, as she and Matthew and Rebecca watched TV, he stood behind her place on the sofa and reached out to take hold of her tube.

“I believe that would be a mistake, Robert Johnson.”

He turned around to see a face he found familiar but could not place. It belonged to a man about his own age; a man whose body, unlike everyone else’s appeared clearly defined and solid. The man stood in the doorway to the kitchen, unnoticed by anyone else despite his rather commanding tone and presence. Just like Johnson, he was tubeless.

Johnson let his hands drop to his sides.

“You can see me?” He asked.

“Yes,” said the man. “Very clearly. These others, however, are a little…misty.”

“You’re the one that caused me to do this?” Johnson leaned forward to expose the place on top of his head where his hair had begun to grow back.

“I’ve set you free, have I not?”

“No you haven’t. Not at all. This is a worse prison than the last one. Far worse. No one even sees me now. No one can touch me.”

“Isn’t that a relief?”

Johnson ignored the question. He stepped towards the man and reached out. He took hold of the man’s shirtsleeve and rolled the cloth between his fingers. It felt real. It felt good. When the oddness of such a gesture struck Johnson, he let go.

“Who are you?” He asked.

“My name is Milo Fiori.”

“Why do I know that name?”

“We went to school together.”

“God, yes. I remember. Something happened to you, though. Everyone said you’d been kidnapped.”

Milo shrugged.

“Now you know the truth.”

“You’ve been…like this all this time?”

“I grew up this way. At least, ever since…” He made a pulling motion over his head and made a comical pop with his lips.

“Milo, you’ve got to tell me what’s going on. I have to know everything now.”

“I don’t know everything. What I do know will take time to tell. We should go somewhere.”

“I can’t leave them.”

“Trust me, Robert, it will be easier if we do it my way.”

“Will I be able to come back again? See them?”

“Of course, why not?”

“I don’t know. I just…”

“It’s been hard on you. It’s the same for everyone. Come on.”

Johnson followed Fiori into the night and for a long time they walked the streets of the city. Along the river where houseboats and barges were moored. Around the square in the city centre where Johnson had worked. Through the malls where people could shop all night. Fiori told him how the

world really worked.

“So, it’s people like us on the other ends of the tubes?”

“Just like you and me.”

“And they experience everything we do?”

“Everything. But the difference is, they don’t feel pain so much and they feel pleasure more. They can also experience what it’s like to be an animal or even a rock or tree.”

“Like the mountain?”

“Exactly. That particular tube splits into several hundred others. ‘Being the mountain’ seems to be one of the most popular experiences. After being human.”

“Why would they do all this?”

“Because they’re scared of life.”

Fiori told him how people had become what he termed ‘indistinct’. After generations of using gene technology to phase out certain unwanted traits in their offspring, humans had become unable to resist disease.

“The tube acts as a conduit for vicarious experience—what they call ‘the real reality’. Meanwhile, the receiver lies protected in some kind of safe environment where neither disease nor any other kind of adversity can enter.”

“How do we get to these people?”

“We don’t. They’re inaccessible.”

“Can’t we fly up to them?”

“When did you last see a plane, Robert? Or a helicopter or a fucking hot air balloon?”

It was one of the many truths that landed like punches on Johnson’s already battered consciousness. They walked away from the city and towards the suburbs where they traced their way through neighbourhoods and around the sports fields of schools.

“How do you know all this for certain, Milo?”

“One of them came down here once and made the first disconnect. There has been a line of us ever since. You’re the next one.”

“It’s just you and me out here?”

“’Fraid so.”

“There must be a way out.”

“Every disconnect has looked. None have ever left. If they had, we wouldn’t be here now—the line would have been broken.”

“Why did you pick me?”

“I can’t say exactly. I was told that when the time came, I would know. I knew it had to be you.”

“I don’t know whether to thank you or wring your neck. I was happy, Milo.”

“Really? Didn’t you know better deep down? Didn’t you know you’d never be truly at peace?”

Johnson’s pause was too long. In the end all he said was,

“There has to be a way out.”

“You’d leave all the rest behind? Angelina, your children?”

“I’d come back for them.”

“What if leaving meant there was no coming back? That’s already true, don’t you think?”

Chapter 12

Johnson stayed away from Fiori for the next few days. He didn’t want the job of the disconnect. He didn’t want the responsibility. He wandered into the hills again following the main mountain road. After a while the road became uneven and then broken, huge cracks across its surface. Further along, the earth became visible between the cracks and finally there was no road.

It stopped about forty miles from the outskirts of town. There was no path or track, only a sudden end and beyond it, the blurred undergrowth and trees. Johnson walked on regardless. He became neither tired nor hungry nor thirsty.

He walked far beyond the place where he’d ripped the tube from his skull, past the huge mountain, held in the grip of its own vast conduit. He followed a pass which brought him to the other side of the range and there he found the end of the world, a milky white oblivion that he dared not step into. The earth stopped as the road had, but now there was a drop. He flung a stone over the edge. It slowed in its descent, as if sinking through liquid. He never heard it hit the bottom.

The walk back to the city seemed far longer.

Chapter 13

“If you had designed this place, where would you put the exit?”

“I could never create something like this.”

“Come on, Milo. Think about it.”

“I don’t know.”

“But you would have an exit, right? In case something went wrong.”

“You’ll never find such a thing.”

“What about the one who came from up there? Did he stay here and sacrifice himself? When he’d done what he had to do he went home, I’m sure of it.”

There was a protracted silence between them, Johnson’s passion grating against Fiori’s apparent indifference.

“Don’t you want to get out of here, Milo?”

“I’ve already tried.”

“But why have you stopped trying?”

“It’s not so bad here, really. Life is less complicated than it was with the tube.”

Fiori was looking away, watching the spectral cars and the people. Gazing at the sleek tubes that would never leave them to an unaccompanied existence.

“Milo.”

“Yeah.”

“I want you to tell me everything you know that can help me find a way out. I mean everything.”

They discussed it all again as they toured the city. Two ghosts, invisible to everyone else, leaning towards each other in heated exchanges. Johnson found he was still unsatisfied.

“There must be something else. Something unusual that you’ve never made sense of. Something the last disconnect passed to you that doesn’t fit with everything else.”

Fiori was quiet for a while before speaking again.

“It’s probably nothing useful, but–”

“But what? Tell me.”

“Why don’t I show you instead?”

Fiori led him to the stone monument in the centre of town. The monument stood at the centre of a pyramid shaped plinth. The plinth possessed four levels, each diminishing in size and upon the uppermost and smallest level, a large statue looked precariously balanced. It was a representation of a naked man climbing. He had no ropes or equipment and much of the detail was taken up with the sculptor’s attention to the rock face. It was practically vertical and the naked man was striving to find the next finger hold. It was obviously well beyond his reach.

Johnson had passed the statue a thousand times and never once stopped to inspect it. He had been able to see it from his floor of the office block and had even eaten his lunch in its shadow on warm summer days. Now he looked at it with new eyes.

“Why didn’t you tell me about this before?”

“It was so obvious, I forgot.”

Johnson glanced back but the man seemed perfectly serious.

“Read the inscription,” said Fiori. “That’s what I brought you here for.”

Johnson knelt down to inspect the polished granite, where the inscription had been chiseled and read it aloud.

“’This city was founded by souls who searched fearlessly for the knowledge necessary to scale the tiers of every aspiration. They pressed on; strove upward believing only that there was a summit to be attained. They ascended, not knowing what they would find, not knowing if they would survive. This city was there reward. May we all have the courage find the next tier.’ Jesus, Milo, this is it.”

“It’s a lie, Robert. This city was built by people who want to live without risk or danger. It doesn’t even have a name.”

“You’re wrong. The ascending platforms, the metaphor of the man climbing; it all adds up.”

“To what?”

Johnson grabbed Fiori by the shoulders and shook him.

“This is the way out, Milo.”

“The statue?”

“No, what it symbolises. We have to strive for the next tier.”

“But what does that mean?”

“It means that if you really want to leave, you can never give up.”

Johnson turned away from Fiori and began to walk back towards the house where his family still lived. His head buzzed with the implications of the statue’s message and he found he was on the verge of running. In his excitement he didn’t even try to get out of the way of the tubed people on the street, instead he walked though them. Fiori had trouble keeping up.

“Hold on, Robert. What are you going to do?”

“What don’t we need to do now that we don’t have tubes?”

“Eat.”

“And what else?”

“Sleep?”

“Right. I need to get some rest. I need to dream.”

“You think you can dream your way out of here?”

“I don’t think I can, I know I can.”

“You won’t be able to sleep. It’s the stupidest idea you’ve had so far.”

“Maybe, but at least I’m having some ideas, Milo.”

At the corner of the block where Johnson’s house was, Fiori stopped trying to keep up. Johnson was at his own front door before he realised. He stopped and waved to the man who had woken him up from the dream of the tube. Fiori waved back and shouted,

“I’ll see you in the morning.”

“No, you won’t.”

Johnson struggled with the handle of his front door and finally managed to get in. Angelina came into the hallway to investigate the open door. He could tell by her face that she half hoped it was him returning after his disappearance. She looked

right through him and out the front doorway onto the street.

“Matthew, Rebecca?”

The calls came back from the living room where the kids were playing on the MEC.

“In here, Mom.”

“How many times do I have to remind you to make sure this door is closed properly?”

“We did close it.”

“You may think you did but you didn’t.”

She slammed it shut and locked it.

Twilight crept over the city and then night. In the Johnson household the remaining three members of the family ate Pizza for dinner and then, bored with Spider Hunter, they took turns at Narco Cop until it was time for the kids to go to bed. When she was alone, Angelina took the gin bottle and a glass and sat on the sofa swigging the warm aromatic spirits until she was drunk enough to sleep.

Johnson followed her up to bed. She brushed her teeth half-heartedly and lay down in bed having taken off only her slacks. He lay down beside her, his insubstantial body making almost no impression on the mattress.

He closed his eyes.

Chapter 14

The light hurt.

It invaded his entire head even through his clamped eyelids. He tried to raise a hand to shield himself from the glare.

His arm moved a few inches before stopping. He tried again, harder this time and became aware of some kind of cuff or strap around his wrist. He moved the other arm and then his legs only to find that he was completely restrained.

“Take it easy, Officer Johnson. We’ll have you out of those in just a second.”

He heard the sound of metal against metal at the end of what he assumed was the hospital bed he was lying in. A medical chart being replaced? A gentle hand loosened one of his wrist restraints and he felt its fingers settle firmly onto his pulse.

“How are you feeling?”

“Blind.”

“That’s normal. It’ll pass very soon. Any other problems?”

Johnson concentrated on himself and his body for a moment, even though all he really wanted to do was look around and see where he was.

“Thirsty.”

“Also perfectly normal. I’ll get you some water. Congratulations, by the way, you’re the only one who passed.”

Half an hour later he was sitting up in a ward surrounded by about twenty empty beds. The woman who had spoken to him was not dressed like a nurse as he had expected but wore a formal grey suit, with trousers and lace up flat shoes. Even in the masculine attire, there was no disguising her beauty. She had dark hair pulled neatly back into a tight whorl. Her skin was pale and her face, without either make up or lines, was exquisite. She looked familiar and he was glad.

“How are your eyes now?” She asked as she stood beside his bed.

“Better. A little haziness around objects. Do I know you?”

She laughed at that.

“You ought to. I’m the one who’s been making your life hell for the last few months of your training.”

“My memory is really sketchy.”

“Give it time. My name’s Dr. Weaver.”

“Weaver?”

“Correct. Is that a problem?”

“No. It’s just that I was expecting you to say Shuckman or Fiori. Maybe even Angelina.”

He searched her eyes for a trace of intimacy but there was none.

“You trained with cadets by those names but they all failed the final exam. You probably imprinted some of them into your test. You won’t be seeing any of them again, I’m afraid, they’re all back in the lives they had before they applied for the job.”

“I take it I’ll be staying.”

“Only until your debriefing is over. Then you’ll be on the streets enforcing this nation’s illegal substance laws. Welcome to the Narcotics Squad, Officer Johnson.”

She held out her strong small hand and he shook it firmly. A trace of perfume wafted his way leaving a hint of sweet spices and he realised that it was a long time since he got laid; somewhere back before his training had started.

Chapter 15

Sergeant Beckeridge handled Johnson’s debriefing. It felt more like an interrogation.

“State your name for the record.”

“Officer Robert Johnson.”

“Thank you. Do you know where you are?”

“These are the halls of the Justice and Harmony Department, Tier Two.”

“Okay, so you can read signs and badges. That’s a start. What is your mother’s maiden name?”

“Smith.”

“Lucky guess. Current president?”

“Crawford B Sinise.”

“What planet are we on?”

“Get real.”

“What planet, Officer Johnson?”

“Earth.”

“Country?”

“FSA.”

“Okay, Johnson, I want you to fill in these multiple choice questions. You have five minutes.”

He accepted the pencil and paper from Beckeridge and filled in the answers in less than thirty seconds before handing it back.

“Sure you don’t want to check for mistakes?”

“Positive.”

Beckeridge passed the test paper to a white-coated assistant who took it out of the small interview room. Conspicuously placed cameras watched the proceedings. A one-way mirror was also in evidence but Johnson felt cool. His conditioning kept him focused and calm. The questions continued for another forty-five minutes during which time he gave information about his past, his previous employment, his relationships and his current physical and mental state. Nothing that Beckeridge could say threw him. His only problem was impatience.

“You know, all I really want to do is get out there on the streets and put my training to some use.”

“I realise that but we can’t have you experiencing a psychotic episode out there. Although you’ve completed your physical and academic training, the psychological endurance test you’ve recently undergone could still cause you problems.”

“But I’ve passed the test and made officer.”

“True. However, a small percentage of graduating Narcotics Squad officers experience mental breakdowns within a few hours of ‘passing’. The incidence of mental side-effects lessens the more time there is between you and the test. Don’t make the mistake of thinking you’re indestructible just because you’ve made it this far. On the street you will be undercover. You will be obliged to take many prohibited substances in order to enter certain groups before apprehending them–”

“Come on, sir, I know all this.”

“Listen to me, Johnson. You have to know who you are, you have to know where you are and you have to know when you are. You have to know what is real and what is not and you have to know it so well that you can lie about it under the influence of the most powerful drugs in circulation. This,” Beckeridge gestured around the cramped interview room, “is for the safety of the mission and for your safety too. More important than any of that, is how bad it will look on my record if you go out there and meltdown on your first mission. Get me?”

“Yes, sir.”

“Good. Let’s continue, shall we?”

Chapter 16

It was a simple arrangement.

The JHD gave him two card accounts, one for expenses and one for his salary. They provided an apartment just beyond the limits of the East Gate side of Tier Two. It meant he was living right on the edge of the action but could come home and sleep in ‘civilisation’. He didn’t need to show up for ‘work’—unless he was called in for debriefing. The less he was seen around JHD, the better. If he provided information leading to four dealer arrests in a year, he kept his job and got paid. Users were to be his pawns. More dealer arrests would bring bonuses. Any less than four and his contract would be terminated.

The relief of escaping his psychological endurance test was short-lived. What had seemed so terrifying while he experienced it was no worse in recollection than a simple nightmare. Instead he wondered if the experience had truly prepared him for the job.

The first night in his flat he opened a bottle of Wild Turkey and drank large mouthfuls to steady his resolve while he looked out the window at the city. He was on the fortieth floor and still he could not see the sky. Though it was technically dark, lights lit the rampways and streets, poured from uncurtained windows. Ads flashed from every available surface of brick or concrete and floated past every level of apartments on billboards that completely obstructed the view every few minutes.

People walked and used traction scooters on the rampways. Between the buildings, driverless buses and taxis followed beacons to programmed destinations. A few motorised vehicles still ran on the surface but they were more for show than serious use; they had no way to access higher levels.

There was enough activity in the air between him and the ground that it too was invisible to him from this height. The energy being used to sustain the city was immense; he could hardly comprehend the size and number of reactors that kept the city alive. It was a monstrous organism with a hidden heart. Parasites thronged in its every thoroughfare. The one thing he was happy about was that his windows had wave imitators which cancelled out every single sound. Inside the apartment it was as silent as a meditation hall.

The flat was decorated grey and black. The kind of masculine minimalism that offered no comfort from the city. Johnson decided he would change it as soon as he made his first bonus. It was something to work towards. Meanwhile, he hoped the dangers of the East Gate side would take his mind off the solitude his new job brought with it.

He drank more whisky than he should have that first night and fell into bed when he could no longer find any reason to stay awake. As his mind span him into a bleak stupor, he had the vague recollection that he hadn’t always slept alone.

In the morning, all such memories had faded. In their place, Johnson discovered a flat, sick feeling accompanied by an undercurrent of regret. It was the first of many hangovers.

Chapter 17

McLaughlin’s was a drinking cavern in the old style.

There were no waitresses to bring you drinks, you ordered them at the bar and to do that you had show real determination. Even during working hours it was busy; filled with scammers and gamblers, pimps and drunks. When everyone else finished their shifts the place really started to bounce. In the crush of bodies and under the thump of the latest Mantric Bass tracks, it was easy to become dislocated from everyone else; outside his apartment Johnson had discovered a different kind of isolation among the sweating hordes of potential leads.

After two weeks of working hard to make connections, however, he was beginning to break into the scene. McLaughlin’s was a Mecca for every kind of offender within forty blocks. Johnson found it fitting that the bar was located below street level. Shit might have floated but heavy shit sank straight to the bottom and that was where he went to look for it; every day that he could bear to.

Initially, the bartenders had been blind to him they way they were to all unfamiliar faces. That, too, changed after a couple of weeks.

“What’ll it be, Spider?”

“Draft Light. Turkey chaser.”

“Coming up.”

It was the first time they’d used any name for him. He hadn’t mentioned it to anyone but the spider tattoo on his chest appeared to speak for him. He wore his leather vests open to display the creature, even though he had no recollection of when or why he had opted for such adornment.

Already he had scored and used several classes of drug in order to become part of the underground scene. He’d inhaled Beat, a simple mood enhancer preferred by dance club enthusiasts. The effects lasted about four hours and the come down was negligible. He had smoked Mist, his favourite so far, which was a combination of synthesised opiates and cannabinoids. It had drifted him into a day-long torpor that took two more days to recover from. Although he enjoyed it, he knew it was the kind of drug that would render him more or less useless in a difficult situation.

He decided to concentrate his efforts on the greatest and most dangerous menace—the Sooth dealers. Sooth was cutting edge, the latest and most powerful psych drug available. It was hitting the streets hard. Turnover was immense and it was impossible to police conventionally. There were other characteristics that made it unique as Johnson discovered the first time he scored.

“You know what to do right?”

“Kind of.”

The dealer had picked up easily on Johnson’s deliberate subtext.

“First timer, huh?” The dealer produced a tube that resembled a roll of new coins and removed a Sooth unit. He held it up for Johnson to see. “Ok, ten Saturns—ten pills inside ten discs. You push the pill out of the centre of the disc; you stick the disc in your viewer and the pill in your mouth. If you get it the wrong way round, you’ll need the Heimlich manoeuvre and a new viewer.” The dealer had laughed.

Johnson had decided to play himself real serious, real dumb. He shrugged, reached out. The dealer looked him in the eye. Johnson drew out a transparent hundred and handed it over. The dealer passed him the tube.

“Instructions are in the tube, dude. You can’t go wrong.”

Chapter 18

Sooth was expensive, about ten dollars a disc, but it was the wildest drug in circulation and the one Johnson felt compelled to go after. It was also widespread; he could nail dealers all year round and never run short of business. If he did his job well, the bonuses would roll in and he’d be able to start making some adjustments to his lifestyle.

He took the first Saturn, alone in his apartment. Popping Beat caps and smoking Mist were easier in public. The actions necessary could be disguised. Sooth, however, required at least a hand held viewer and the results of the initial effects were too obvious and instant to hide. The user would mumble a stream of incoherencies and for a few minutes would be incapacitated and immobile. It was the trancelike state and the rambling verbals that gave the drug its name. It was reminiscent of the oracles. Taking the drug was called Saying Sooth.

The first night, he had planned to go back out after the initial babbling had worn off. He pushed the base of the black cylinder the dealer had given him for his hundred bucks—the first dealer he planned to turn in. The first Saturn came into view. Thumbing the tiny spherical pill from the centre and holding it in one palm, he placed the disc in his viewer and checked the enclosed slip of plastic before placing the pill in his mouth. There was only one other stipulation in the simple instructions:

Think of what you want most.

He swallowed the pill with a sip of Wild Turkey and sat back.

“Play.”

The screen showed only static, salt and pepper pixels. For ten minutes he sat waiting, convinced that nothing was happening until he became aware of a voice, speaking rapidly in what sounded like a foreign language. He looked around the room to locate the source of the voice. It was his own. He laughed.

Looking back at the screen, he saw it was now blank. His babbling stopped. Before he could say ‘off’, the buzzer sounded on his door phone. He froze for a second and then reached for his pistol before studying the monitor to see who was outside his apartment. It showed four angles of a woman he recognised immediately.

“You sure you should be here?” He asked

“I think it’s early enough in your tour that no one will notice.”

Johnson buzzed her in.

The door closed behind her and she was then locked briefly in the security chamber which scanned her for dangerous items. The door phone display showed two blades, a telescopic baton, nylon cuffs and a pistol loaded with both sleepers and live rounds. He wasn’t about to ask her to deposit it before entering.

Johnson opened the door manually to be polite and used the other hand to usher her in. He smelled her perfume again as she passed into the room, a tang of natural scents; flowers and cinnamon. He let the door close and followed her into his featureless home.

“This is routine?”

She turned to him.

“I check on all first assignment officers. It’s essential after the testing process. Usually, if you make to three weeks without any problems, you’ll be fine.”

“That’s a comfort. Why didn’t you come earlier than this? I thought the worst reactions occurred right after psych testing is over.”

“True, but I’ve come to give you a physical check up.” She smiled. “Your behaviour we can see for ourselves.” Johnson scanned the room for optics, knowing they would be nearly impossible to locate.

“Why wasn’t I told I’d be under surveillance in my briefings?”

“We like to see two weeks of natural behaviour before we mention surveillance. We have a better understanding of our active officers that way.”

“You make me sound more like an experiment than an enforcer.”

“All the procedures are in place for good reasons. I can assure you that safety is the first priority.” She gestured towards his couch. “Why don’t you sit down and we can get the examination out of the way.”

Johnson sank into the cushions and said, “Off.” His viewer, already blank, died. Dr. Weaver carried a small medical pack with her, the size of a wallet. She brought it out of her inside jacket pocket and approached him.

“Take off you vest. Shoes and socks too.”

“What?”

“You’ll be more comfortable. This won’t take long, Officer Johnson.”

She looked into his eyes and ears with her delicate scopes and scanned his chest and head. The tiny clicks and hums of the equipment reminded him of insects. Apparently satisfied, she replaced the small pack in her jacket.

“Raise your arms.”

“What for?”

“Glands. Come on.”

While she checked under his arms for swelling he looked at his own chest where he could see the tattoo. It seemed to have turned around. He was sure the head had been facing upwards before.

“Why the tattoo? Is that your idea too? They call me Spider now, you know.”

“Everyone gets something different depending on the job they’re doing and the area they’re doing it in. It isn’t always tattoos either. We give them piercings, scarrings, familiars, projections—whatever allows them to blend in to their surroundings and prevents them from being identified.”

She ripped open the panel on the front of his leather striders and yanked them down a few inches before he could even protest. He imagined she must have done such things a thousand times to a thousand stunned officers. With practised fingers she prodded his inguinal area for swelling and abnormality.

“Everything seems to be fine.”

She smiled at him and then pulled down his underwear. Before he could cover himself up again she closed her velvet warm mouth around his penis. Johnson tensed, unsure of what to do.

“Is that part of the examination?”

She didn’t answer.

Chapter 19

When they’d finished, Johnson lay on his bed and watched Weaver dress; disguising her femininity and curves beneath flattening underwear and the angular lines of her suit. When she was done there was no trace of the woman he’d discovered, only the doctor, and in her eyes no recollection or acknowledgement of what they had done.

“You’re a Soothsayer now, Spider. How does it feel?”

“I’ll tell you when I notice something happening.”

She laughed then, as if he’d made a joke.

“Can’t you call me Johnson?”

“No. No one can now. You’re in character. Who knows how long you may have to stay that way?”

“Will you check on me again?”

“I doubt it”

She left then, without another word.

He lay there thinking about her for what seemed like hours but when he checked his clock only a few minutes had passed since she’d walked out the door. Lying back, he luxuriated in the rumpled covers, surrounded by smells of cinnamon spice perfume mingled with their sexual fluids. Had she turned off the surveillance while they were doing it? Was it actually some kind of further psych test? And what about the Sooth, he wondered, when would it start to work?

Did I get a bad batch? Did he rip me off?

When he got up to go to the bathroom he noticed something that looked like a twisted wire protruding from the upper corner of his bedroom to the left of the bed. As he approached it to look closer, he saw another one directly below it where the walls met the floor. Surely, this clumsy workmanship wasn’t JHD approved. He got down on his knees and inspected the intrusion.

The vine, if that was what it was, was a deep green; a lush green that hinted at plentiful rain in misty valleys. Along the three or four inches that were visible, tiny spearhead shaped leaves and spiraling tendrils reached out for purchase. Growing at an upward angle, as it was, towards the centre of the room, it had found no such support.

The one growing downwards from the ceiling was similar but slightly longer. He shrugged and went to take a leak. The pest control manager in his block would be hearing from him.

Around the apartment he found several shoots attempting to invade. He knew they were only weeds but they caused him to think about mould and dry rot and other organic proliferations. He wanted them gone; they signaled decay and disuse. Deciding he couldn’t wait until the pest control manager did his job; he walked around the flat and snapped off every shoot. By the end he had a handful. He imagined that they were squirming slightly in his grip and when he’d thrown them into the trash he washed his hands in disgust.

Next, he checked his viewer and found that the disc had evaporated just as the dealer had said:

“Don’t worry, man, it won’t leave dust on the scanner. They disappear clean. No trace.”

When he checked the tube he found there were only eight Saturns remaining. He had no recollection of taking a second one. Either the dealer had stiffed him or Weaver had taken one with her for analysis.

Johnson hid the tube under his mattress and got dressed. It had been a good day: he’d got laid and he had broken into his desired area of enforcement. It was time to celebrate.

Chapter 20

“You hear about the weed, Spider?” Fury was leaning in towards him.

All the conversation so far had been shouted over the thump of the music but Johnson’s concentration was slipping badly now. He tried to focus on the ring of faces sharing his table, particularly Fury. He had to learn to stay sharp even when he was bombed. Saying Sooth seemed to have done wonders for his social life in a matter of hours, but how did they know? Had the dealer told them, or was it just the fact that people had started to accept him anyway? The bartenders certainly seemed to know what he liked to drink—they placed it on the bar the moment they saw him walk in. With a contraction of his will, he managed to bring everyone back into sharp relief and get his mind on the matter at hand.

“What weed?”

“It’s a mutation or something. Growing in every part of Tier Two.”

“Sure. I got some in my place. I snapped the little fuckers off and threw ‘em in the trash.”

Fury looked shocked.

“You didn’t get bit?”

Johnson laughed.

“Course not.”

“Well you were lucky, man. This weed thing is carnivorous.”

“Fuck you, Fury.”

“Seriously. Guys, isn’t the weed carnivorous?”

Everyone around the table nodded, suddenly serious.

“See, Spider, no shit. I heard this old lady came home to find her poodle tangled up in the grip of this fucking vine. It was sucking the dog dry. She called the pest guys and they burned it. Took the root out and everything but it just keeps growing back. It’s everywhere. “

“Guess I better get some weed killer.”

“You can try, but they say it doesn’t do any good.”

Johnson shrugged. He was too high to care about rogue plants. Fury and the rest of them, Ragman, Pincer and Dorff were either shitting him or too high to make any sense at all.

He sympathised. Now was not the time for intellectual or taxing conversation.

“Hey, guys.” He said. “Let’s do a Mist rota.”

They all nodded.

“Who wants to come back first?”

Fury raised a hand.

“I will.”

So Johnson and Fury fought their way through the dancers, drinkers and hustlers into the cramped back corridor which led to the stinking restrooms. At the end of the corridor there was a small knot of regulars taking various kinds of drugs before rejoining the endless communal bender that was McLaughlin’s. Spider rolled a Mist cone and handed it to Fury to light. Fury inspected his handiwork.

“Good job, Spider.”

Johnson had been practising at home.

Fury took a couple of tokes and closed his eyes. Johnson did the same and leaned back against the badly painted wall of the corridor. The pulse of the music still found its way down this artery—sclerosed though it was with human detritus—but it was muffled. Every few moments the door would open into the bar and someone would arrive or leave for the toilets or the drugs. The music would gain in strength and then soften again as the door closed. Johnson drifted on the smoke. His body vibrated with music and vapour until he felt insubstantial and had to open his eyes to make sure he hadn’t physically come apart. Any more Mist and he would be losing control.

“I’ll send the next one out.” He said.

Fury didn’t reply but Johnson saw his slight nod of the head. He wondered very briefly and with divine clarity, what the problem was with reality that so many people felt they had to alter their perception of it in order to be happy. The lucidity of the thought left just as quickly when no answer came.

On the other side of the door, the throng of ecstatic revellers rippled as if it was a single organism. Pushing through it, the sense of isolation settled onto him once more. He did not know the mind of the organism; he was too trapped in his own.

He changed direction and made for the bar where they placed a pint and a shot for him. He finished each in a single movement before squeezing back to the table.

“Next.”

Dorff struggled to his feet to continue the rota.

Chapter 21

Johnson woke two days later to the sound of his door buzzer. Whoever was outside the apartment sounded very keen to get in. As he rolled out of bed, still wearing the same clothes he’d had on in McLaughlin’s, he noticed the walls of his bedroom had been shattered as if by an earthquake. Cracks spread out from the corners in every direction.

He rubbed his eyes, trying to wipe the hallucination from his vision, knowing it was some kind of perceptual mistake. Looking again he saw vines spreading across his bedroom walls like a system of veins. The shoots seemed to have given up on reaching towards the centre of the room and instead were gripping the walls like ivy; he could see where rows of cilia along the body of each tributary had bitten into the fibreboard walls. Fury and the guys in the bar must have been telling the truth, at least partially.

The buzzer sounded again and again as Johnson struggled to orientate himself.

“Okay, okay.”

By the front door he checked the monitor. Outside were Fury and a woman he didn’t recognise. He could see Fury putting the whole weight of his body behind each press of the buzzer. He didn’t look happy.

“Fury. What can I do for you?”

Fury stopped assaulting the buzzer and looked up at one of the four monitors.

“Where you been, Spider?”

“Asleep. What do you want?”

There was a pause while Fury considered the question. In the couple of seconds it took for him to think of something, Johnson noticed the proliferation of vines around the doorway and on his ceiling. Some of the vines were trailing downward a little. Reaching out.

“I want to know why two Sooth dealers have disappeared since you came around. I want to know who the fuck you really are, Spider.”

“What dealers? What are talking about?”

“Let us in, Spider. We just want to talk.”

Johnson knew there was going to be a problem now. If he didn’t let them in it was going to be a much worse problem. He felt a vine brush his arm and he slapped it away.

“Sure thing. Look out for the vines, though. I seem to have a weed problem.”

He buzzed them into the security chamber and the view changed. The scanners showed they were heavily armed. If they came in with so much firepower and there was a difference of opinion, he’d be severely outgunned.

“Would you mind depositing your weapons in the safe, guys? I don’t like armed discussions.”

He watched as they removed all their projectile firing weapons.

“Blades too, guys.”

“Listen, Spider, how do we know you don’t have a fucking arsenal pointed at us the moment we walk through your door?”

“What does it matter? We’re just talking, right?”

“Right.”

“Who’s that you got with you, by the way?”

Fury’s accomplice looked at the monitor.

“Name’s Elina. I’m Fury’s backup.”

Johnson looked at her for a long time, feeling in that moment that he had known her for a very long time. Images of a city in a valley came to him, snapshots of a family and a feeling off loss, a sense of being adrift beyond the comfort of any shore. None of it made any sense but the woman fascinated him.

Johnson wiped his eyes once again and shook his head. He had to straighten out quick. He hoped he had the presence of mind to fend off their questions and alleviate any suspicion but he knew that once a finger had been pointed it would be impossible to make any more progress. When they were gone he would call JHD to request evac and transfer.

“You gonna make us stand out here all fucking night, Spider?”

“Night? What time is it?”

“Just open the door, will you?”

He buzzed them the rest of the way in and stood back. Fury came in first followed by the woman. He didn’t wait for the offer of a drink or a seat. Instead he held out his hand and when they clasped in a shake he punched Johnson across the chin with his left fist, pulled him in close with his clasping right hand and brought his knee into Johnson’s solar plexus. Johnson was hurt but he been expecting the pain.

As he recovered from the first two blows, he stayed doubled over and hung onto Fury’s handshake, feinting a lunge towards him. As Fury resisted the advance, he reversed his direction and hauled him backwards before letting go. Fury, totally off balance, careened across the room and slammed, half falling, into the wall between the two windows of the apartment’s main room.

Johnson stood to face him, watching as Fury withdrew a polythene razor strip from the seam in his leather trousers. The strip was so thin it was almost transparent but in the hands of an expert it could open fatal cuts to the neck or blind its victim. Something about the woman made him ignore her presence to concentrate on Fury, but he’d gone against both instinct and training to do so.

He was bewildered when he felt the plastic garrote bite into his neck and only managed to get the fingers of one hand between the sharp thread and the meat of his throat. Why had he trusted the woman? Meanwhile, Fury approached, lifting and dropping his razor strip, snapping it in the unhealthy air of the room. With each act of violence the vines surrounding them shuddered and contracted as if they too had been struck or seized.

Johnson felt the garrote cutting through the skin of his fingers. With Fury almost in striking distance he made to pull away from Elina and then used her moment of resistance to push her backwards towards the wall. She fell for the move just as Fury had and couldn’t fight the motion. The impact against the wall was strong, knocking the wind from her lungs as if she’d fallen a similar distance. Her grip loosened and Johnson, with his back still to her, used his elbows to hammer into her ribs and abdomen. Elina went down.

A second later he felt the sting of Fury’s razor strip across his bare left shoulder. The attack had missed his face but the cut parted his skin as if it were silk, slicing half an inch deep. As Fury raised the strip for the next cut, Johnson noticed the vines reaching away from the walls towards him. He felt a touch on his back and thought at first it was Elina. Glancing back, he saw a thick finger of creeper trying to gain a purchase on him.

Cupping his right hand under the wound in his shoulder, he sidestepped around the walls, just out of reach of the waving vines and with his eye on Fury. As soon as he had enough blood in his hand he threw it in Fury’s face. Fury blinked and tried to wipe the gore from his eyes.

“You crazy fucker. You trying to give me a disease or something?”

Johnson didn’t answer. Instead he lunged for Fury. The secret of defending against the razor strip was to stay so close the wielder couldn’t whip it at you. Johnson couldn’t reach his gun but he had a small bodkin hidden in the back of the boots he’d slept in. As he clung to his assailant’s midriff, he withdrew the spike and plunged it into the man’s thigh.

Fury screamed and tried to disengage but Johnson held him, withdrawing and stabbing again into the other leg below the knee. Fury was frantic to withdraw now, almost running backwards and carrying Johnson along. Johnson’s next thrust buried the tip of the bodkin deeply beside Fury’s hipbone. The movement of the next step Fury took snapped the needle-like blade off inside the capsule of the joint. Fury screamed again, blood now flowing liberally from his wounds.

Johnson stood back and watched his attacker fall against the wall near Elina. He tried to pull the broken end of the spike from his hip, cursing and moaning each time his hand slipped off the smooth shaft of steel. Johnson didn’t move in to finish it; he could see the way the creepers were detaching from the wall and reaching towards Fury. They snaked under his arms and around his chest before the man could stagger away from them.

Beating and pulling at the tightening tendrils, Fury tried to haul himself from the wall but the vines held him and more were stretching his way. They curled around his knees and ankles, pulsing with vital muscularity. Within seconds they had him pinned against the wall and only his fingers and head could still move. He tried to reach a vine near his shoulder with his teeth and managed to bite through it. A milky green fluid leaked from the torn binding but another two tendrils took its place.

As Johnson watched, he saw the tips of three tiny shoots disappear into each of the puncture wounds he’d made on his attacker’s legs. Fury stiffened, his eyes widening and his whimpers of defeat became screams of protest. He began to beg Johnson to help him, said they’d never set out to hurt him, it had all been a stupid mistake. Serpent shoots coiled around his head. They soon found their way into his cranial openings. Green probes wormed into his ears and up each nostril. A fat green tentacle pushed between Fury’s lips, forced his teeth apart. His screaming and begging ceased, though his body shook against its invaders for a very long time.

Johnson saw that Elina was trying to stand up in an attempt to evade the vines. They were attracted to her but less so because she wasn’t bleeding. Her movements were weak though and he wondered if he had broken some of her ribs.

Johnson thought it would be safe to leave her for a moment. His shoulder wound was bleeding and many tendrils of vine were waving in his direction.

In the bathroom he washed and bandaged the cut on his shoulder before returning to deal with Elina. She was up now, an arm wrapped protectively around her middle. She had the door to the security chamber open and was trying to retrieve a pistol from the safe. The problem was that the safe wouldn’t open until the door into the flat was shut tight. There was so much vine around the frame that the door wouldn’t close.

Eventually, she managed to pull the door closed behind her but it seemed to be at great cost to herself. Johnson could see on the monitor, now half obscured by a thick rope of greenery, that there was blood coming from her mouth. In closing the door she’d severed many major limbs of the vine and inside the security chamber there was a flurry of movement. The chamber seemed to hold a particularly dense collection of vine limbs; possibly where the roots of this particular vine had taken hold. Cut tendrils and healthy ones slapped at her and began to take hold.

She managed to wrench the safe open and pull out her gun and a blade. It was the start of a battle. Even through the solidity of the reinforced door, Johnson could hear the muffled reports of each shot she fired. On the monitor the image turned white each time she pulled the trigger. Human and plant limbs flailed together. In her hand she swung a switchblade in every direction, hacking and stabbing at the vine. When the larger limbs tried to take hold of her she fired into them, splitting them. Fluid began to spatter the camera; he couldn’t tell if it was blood or sap. For every vine she cut or destroyed with a bullet, more seemed to grow from the walls and ceiling, one even unfurled from the safe.

There was no way she was going to make it and no way he was going to open the door to her even though, for some inexplicable reason, Johnson felt he owed it to her.

He sat down in the centre of the room away from the walls, on his couch. No more shots came from the security chamber. From this distance he could only see vague movements on the screen.

“Phone JHD.” He said.

He heard the connection and a ringing tone.

“This is the Justice and Harmony Department of Tier Two. How may we assist you today?”

“Put me through to Beckeridge, please. This is urgent, it’s Officer Johnson.”

It was a long wait. On the tiny screen by the door all movement had ceased.

“What the hell do you want, Johnson? You’ve got some nerve calling me.”

“I need you to pull me out, sir. I’ve got two dead lowlifes in here and the place is crawling with weed.”

“You’re wasting police time. That’s an offence, or had you forgotten already?”

“Sir, I need evac and reassignment immediately. I’ve been identified.”

“What are you talking about Johnson? We fired you months ago.”

“Excuse me?”

“You’ve been off the force for three months. You never made it past day one on the outside. You couldn’t cope with the adjustment from the psych endurance test. Weaver tried to persuade you to come in but she said you got violent, tried to rape her. We canned you right there.”

“But sir, I’ve been working my contacts hard and now they’ve figured it out. These two came here to kill me. They know I’ve been turning Sooth dealers in to you.”

“You didn’t make a single bust, Johnson.” Beckeridge was laughing. “All you did was get high. For all I know you’re high right now, hallucinating this whole thing. You certainly hallucinated your involvement in JHD business.”

The weight of Beckeridge’s words sank onto Johnson’s shoulders like wet concrete. He covered his face with one hand.

“Johnson, you still there?”

“Yes, sir.”

“I liked you. You almost made a good drug squad officer but almost isn’t enough. Don’t be calling here again.”

The line went dead. The only sound in the apartment was the damp rustle of the vines as they sucked Fury dry.

Johnson went to the bedroom to retrieve his tube of Sooth from under the mattress. In it he found two Saturns left. He had no recollection of using the others; maybe Beckeridge was right. He took one Saturn, pushed the pill out and placed the disc into his viewer. It took him a long time to come up with a good thought before he placed the pill on his tongue. There was no whisky left so he let it dissolve and swallowed its bitterness as the mesh of plant life grew stronger all around him.

“Play.”

Chapter 22

With Fury and Elina digested by the weed, Johnson knew it wouldn’t be long before someone came looking for them. All his Sooth was gone. He wanted more, even though he couldn’t account for most of the Saturns. There was no Mist left in the apartment either; not even a Beat cap. It meant he would have to hit the streets again.

In the bathroom, he checked his appearance in the mirror. When he didn’t recognise his own face, a tear slipped from the outer corner of his right eye. It travelled from his skin onto the flattened meadow of black hair that was his beard. There it glistened before sinking and disappearing. The beard was full and he could not remember the last shave he’d had. It looked to Johnson as though he had never shaved.

His hair, too, once cut to a regulation centimetre was now a twisted unwashed mass. He saw the dirt ingrained around the skin of his forehead and baring his teeth found them stained yellow. The clothes he wore were the same subculture leathers he’d first worn on his arrival from JHD. He realised with a wave of self-disgust that he smelled bad. Not only of dirt and body odour but also of urine and faeces.

He peeled the clothes from himself as if they were a skin. It hurt to remove them –much of his body hair was torn away as they came free. He walked from the bathroom back to the living space to feed his clothes to the weed. Near the front door where Fury’s body had been there was now a thick clump of creeper that retained the vague outline of a human.

He threw his soiled garb towards an unnourished looking knot of tendrils in the corner beside the viewer. They coiled hungrily over the clothes until they were lost to sight. He noticed as he walked back into the bathroom that none of the creepers attempted to reach for him any more, despite the entire apartment being lined with vegetation; all the angles smoothed by organic growth. It had become a living cave of deep green.

The bathroom remained relatively free of weed and so he set about removing all the traces of dereliction that his body had manifested. Taking the crusted bandage from his shoulder he found no trace of a scar from Fury’s razor strip. He tossed the bandage through to the bedroom. A swaying vine caught it in mid air and drew it back to the proximity of the wall where it was shredded by hungry shoots.

He cut his beard and hair with scissors first and finished the job with his depilator. He had to tear it from its shrink wrapper, realising he hadn’t used it once since moving in. As he removed all traces of hair from his face and head he noticed something unusual about his tattoo. A flickering. He froze and looked down to his chest.

Nothing.

Looking back into the mirror he continued to shave and it was when he turned his face that he noticed the movement. The spider moved when he moved. As he faced the mirror its head pointed to the left side of his chest but when he turned his head the spider shifted its legs, swinging itself to point in a new direction. Johnson placed his hand onto his chest, over the body of the spider, and turned around. Below his fingers he could see the spider shimmering its legs as it turned with him. And yet he felt nothing beneath his palm even though the movement was obvious.

He cut his finger and toe nails, eventually casting all his cut hair and clippings to the weed in his bedroom. He then showered as hard as he could, scrubbing the crusted filth from his behind and the backs of his legs, scouring the stench from his armpits. The smell became worse for a while as the hot water rehydrated the mess before washing it all away. He abraded his hands and feet with a stiff brush, determined to rid himself of every trace of grime and followed the shower with a bath in the hottest water he could stand, adding soothing aromatic oils. When he was satisfied, Johnson withdrew the plug and was cheered to see the water draining away, just as clear as when he’d immersed himself.

Finally, he scraped his tongue clean, flossed and brushed his teeth and cleaned the insides of his ears. In the bedroom, he struggled with the weed to open his wardrobe. From it he took another set of skintight leather clothes, this time all in black. He left his waistcoat unbuttoned so that he could see which way the spider pointed. Pushing his feet into a clean pair of boots, he added a bodkin to each of them.

He slipped his handgun, still unused, under the waistband at the back of his trousers, put his two remaining clips in the back pockets of his striders and walked towards the door. He tested the spider by turning around in front of the door. When its head pointed upwards he was facing the door. That, then, was the way to go.

His pale skin looking vulnerable under the black leather, his head shining, the scalp grey and hairless, Johnson walked through the tangle of weed in the security chamber and out into the city of Tier Two.

Chapter 23

The weed had wrought many changes.

The rampways and thoroughfares were now green corridors, rounded into tunnels by the choking tendrils. Johnson’s apartment had only been an example of minor growth, he now realised as he trod the springy floors waiting for a snakelike loop of vine to snare him. The plant, whether it was one or several he couldn’t tell, had smothered everything. Some of the buildings were totally bound in green, some of the tendrils as thick as tree trunks. He knew if anything as large as that got a hold of him he’d be crushed in a second.

And yet the weed was eerily quiescent. Slight flutters occurred at the tips of the smaller vines as he passed but nothing else seemed to threaten him. It was as if the entire plant was sleeping.

If that was true then it had put the city to sleep too. There was no noise at all. The billboards that had once blocked the view from his window every few minutes were lying tilted or broken on the rampways or smashed beyond recognition at the street level. Through the occasional break in the canopies below he could look over the edge and down into the streets. Looking up, he saw cracks in the weed’s thick cover and shafts of sunlight bursting through. There was no traffic, no construction, no whine of hyper jets. When the gentlest breeze did occasionally blow, all he could hear was the sighing of leaves.

The silence wasn’t merely due to the impossibility of movement for machines. Johnson supposed that he might well be the only person still alive in the city. Everywhere he looked, the outlines of human forms were sculpted in green along the tubular corridors. Some of them were lying down as if sleeping; others were contorted, the vine capturing their last movements in living sculpture. The entire city was now populated by silent emerald statues and the weed that had mimicked them at the moment of death.

The walk to street level was a long one. Under other circumstances Johnson would have taken an elevator or even a taxi but now walking was the only way to anywhere. The spider made the journey even longer by turning at unexpected moments to indicate a different route to the one he would have chosen.

He eventually came out at street level and was able then to see a little more light coming down from very far above. The tendrils of weed had not blocked out the spaces between the buildings the way it had covered the rampways; the unimpeded daylight was a welcome sight. Following the spider, he walked away from his part of town along the centre of a street that would usually have been clogged with traffic. He took care not to trip on the thicker vines, ever wary of ‘waking’ the slumbering carnivorous garden that overlaid the city.

The smell of fresh cuttings and the sap of trimmed garden plants mingled with the unmistakable stench of rotting meat. The streets were clogged with the partially digested victims of the weed, every one of them mummified by tangles of creeper.

When he reached a dead end, a vertical wall of green, he knew he’d come to the city limit, usually perforated by several gates where the arterial roads lead in and out of Tier Two. Now, all such exits were blocked by the new forest. Johnson realised that following the spider might have been nothing more than folly. It occurred to him that he might have been safer back in the apartment. In the moment he had the thought, he heard a sound behind him. He knew without looking what it meant.

When he turned, however, what he saw was not a stream of thick tentacles reaching for him. Instead, he saw the bodies of the dead tearing away from the rest of the weed and standing alone. The risen corpses, swaddled in green vine, didn’t stand still for long.

They came slowly, as if unsure of their feet, like toddlers when they first stand up. Many of them fell over before hauling themselves upright and walking again. All of them advanced in his direction. Johnson looked at the spider and found it was no longer oriented towards the great wall. Instead it was pointing along it.

He began to run. He left the clumsy revenants far behind at first but everywhere he looked more were rising. Behind him the numbers of green corpses grew; to a gang, to a crowd. Ahead he saw stairs leading upward; that was where the spider was directing him. He took the steps three at a time until he was exhausted. The spider had led him to a staircase which doubled back on itself over and over again, leading endlessly upwards.

Within minutes Johnson was no longer running. Lumbering was the best he could manage and without the help of the handrail, he doubted his legs were strong enough for the ascent. His body acted as though he hadn’t exercised for years and very soon he had to stop and rest. Looking down over the creeper-covered stairway he saw hundreds of green bodies pushing upwards behind him, only a couple of levels below. The vines he was stepping on appeared to be dying and turning brown but the green bodies chasing him seemed to be getting faster, learning not only how to walk with confidence but also how to run.

Johnson took a few more deep breaths and ran on up the stairs. From somewhere up above he heard the now familiar rustle and thump of more weed mummies. They were coming down to meet him, trap him in the stairwell. With no choice but to press upwards, he slammed into them with his shoulder, knocking five of them down and stepping over the rest as he continued to climb—they didn’t resist at all. He used the same tactic on the next group he met but they, too, were learning. One of the fallen in the group laid a hand on his ankle as he barreled past. He kicked the hand away and continued, realising only a couple of levels later that the arm of the weed mummy still gripped him. He flung the dead limb away.

The next group was stronger and there were more of them. They pushed him backwards, every one of them reaching out to him. He pulled the bodkins from his boots and began to stab at their heads. The spikes penetrated with ease and immobilised the creatures instantly. He pushed through, puncturing every head until he’s paralysed the whole cluster. They stood swaying and bewildered on the stairway until he pushed the two nearest to him and the group collapsed downwards, blocking the stairwell solidly. It bought him the time he needed.

The spider continued to point the way to the next level of steps and he obeyed its directions with reckless faith. The spider was all he had left. The groups of weed mummies appeared many times in the process of his upward journey and each time he dispatched them with spikes to their heads before using them to block the progress of the ones that followed. Each encounter sapped both Johnson’s will and his strength.

Why am I even bothering to fight them? There’s no way out of this.

He still had a choice. Wouldn’t giving in and letting them take him be simpler? Then the nightmare that his life had become would be over once and for all.

As he staggered upwards, the self-admission that he’d let himself be swamped by drugs and alcohol hit him hard. He’d practically killed himself already.

How did it come to this?

He tried to remember his life before enrolling at the academy. No recognisable memories came to him. Indistinctly, he had a sense that he’d once lived in a valley in a much more peaceful city than this one but it seemed lifetimes in the past. He believed, though he didn’t know why, that he had once fought against terrible odds and been wounded in the process. Was that why he’d tried to become a Narcotics Squad officer? The fighting of those odds, the way he’d been outnumbered, was similar in some way to the odds he was fighting now. But where was there to escape to? Surely the way out of Tier Two was not to be found by climbing ever upward.

The questions, the doubts, killed his adrenaline. For a while Johnson sat down and listened to the weed mummies struggling up below him. It sounded as if they had learned the rudiments of speech now. He heard their moans and cries of hunger or whatever it was that drove them to chase him. Sitting was easy. They would catch him and that would be the end.

Finally, I’ll be released.

The thought didn’t ease his mind. It merely disgusted him to know that he could think that way. That he could allow defeat to be the answer to his problems. It was anger that pushed him once more to his feet just as the army of leafy soldiers reached the level below him. Once again, he was running.

Two levels up he emerged onto the top of the city. It, too, was covered in growth but the weed had shriveled and was lifeless. The spider pointed along the open expanse of what seemed to be a huge flat roof and so, one more time, he ran. It was good to see the sky again; it gave him a surge of elation to think that he was almost free.

The elation disappeared just as quickly when his running brought him to a precipice. He had reached the very limit of Tier Two. The spider still pointed outwards, into the void. Down below, miles down, was water; reflecting blue and silver in the sunshine but so distant the waves appeared not to move at all.

He looked back and saw the weed mummies streaming up from the stairwell. They assembled into ranks, their numbers too great to count. The cohorts of androgynous green humanoids spread out along the horizon of the building until he could no longer see the rest of the city behind them. Slowly, as one, they moved in.

The closer they came, the more distinct were their voices:

“We will be like you, Johnson.”

“You cannot reach the first tier, Johnson.”

“Let us evolve together, Johnson.”

“You are the last survivor, Johnson.”

“Give up, Johnson, you are so tired.”

“Join us, Johnson, you have already failed.”

He took out his pistol and aimed into the throng at head level. The first shot passed through twenty heads before losing its velocity. The weed mummies dropped in a line, only to be replaced by many more. Using this technique he brought down hundreds of them before his three clips ran out. It was nothing against their mounting thousands. He looked down at the water once again. It seemed distant and blue and peaceful. It reminded him of sleep and yet the height and the thought of the fall terrified him.

A cloud passed across the sun and as it did so the water became momentarily translucent instead of reflective. He saw a shadow far below the surface. Looking up he scanned the sky to find the cloud that was casting such a huge shape onto the water. There was nothing but a few wisps of ethereal vapour, drifting so slow they hardly moved at all. The army approached him, coming within a few a meters. Soon they would be able to reach out and take him and the one choice he had left would be gone.

The lightness that had gathered in his stomach deepened into something stronger; a sense of anticipation like the moment before any leap only much, much worse. He believed his bowels were about to let go.

“We will be like you, Johnson. You will be like us.”

Green hands reached for him. He turned to the city’s edge and sprang beyond their reach.

For the briefest moment he felt weightless, then gravity took him and he was impelled towards the water.

Do I want to die or try and survive?

The waves accelerated towards him. He positioned himself to hit the water feet first, tensing every muscle in his body. One last look at the water showed the silhouette of some huge craft below the surface, a shape he thought he recognised.

Chapter 24

Drowning. That is what reality feels like.

Sinking and sinking until the downward motion inverts, propelling you upwards towards a new surface. The underwater world has turned over. You are rising, not sinking. Yet, you know there’s no way this new surface can be reached before the first desperate, involuntary in-breath fill your lungs with water and death. There, a few precious metres above is freedom; the first tier, the way out. Reaching it before blackness overwhelms you isn’t possible.

At least, it never seems possible but that is part of the thrill.

Chapter 25

When his face broke the water, penetrating the air at last, Robert Johnson woke up, instantly relieved to have made it and in the next moment sad to be back. Although partially submerged in the treacly, tepid saline, most of his body floated upon its dense surface. He had not, as he’d believed in the final moments of the cabal, swallowed any water. He was not drowning.

Instead, he was safe and he was warm. There lingered within his muscles, however, a scintillating rigour; an intense afterglow of the final moments in tier two. It was the only remnant of the fantasy he had brought with him. It had been a satisfying and terrifying absence; yet another in which he had not once guessed the truth.

With reluctance he allowed his body to settle, let the tension in his neck ease and gave into the floating support of the womblike follicle. Occasionally, a droplet of condensation would plink into the solution upon which he lay. With his ears under the surface of the water, each drip sounded like a deep, melodious plop; one that Johnson knew would be echoing around the silence of the Angelina for several seconds. The entire ship was a whispering gallery, an unintentional echo chamber that sometimes charmed him, sometimes pushed him close to insanity.

He closed his eyes in the darkness and drifted. He was tired by the journey and there was no reason to hurry now that he was back. In some level of consciousness that was part dream, part memory, part much needed sleep, he remained aware of himself.

Sometime later, feeling more refreshed, he returned to full consciousness once more. He tried to speak and managed only a croak that sounded muffled to his waterlogged ears. He tried again.

“Weaver?”

“Yes, Captain.”

“I’m back.”

“I am aware of that fact. I have been monitoring your progress, as always.”

“How am I doing?”

“Your vital signs fluctuated greatly during this cabal. However, they appear to be normal now. I take it you have enjoyed your respite from my company.”

“Heartily. Drain the follicle, would you?”

“Yes, Captain.”

The smell of salt and body odour was strong in the confined space, the darkness total. Now that the thick brine was being sucked away, Weaver provided a tiny evanescence to enter the follicle so that Johnson could see when he came to climb out. His heels and backside came into contact with the fibrous base of the follicle first and, as the rest of the water swirled away below him, his back and head sank against the warm shell.

As with every return, the heaviness of his true body weight was a shock and at first, he could hardly sit up. The effort made the front of his neck and his stomach muscles ache. He pushed with his hands against the shell to assist him. When he was sitting up, he rested for several more minutes.

“Withdraw all interfaces. Carefully, this time, Weaver.”

In the half lit glow, he watched the many needles, drip lines, waste collectors and contacts retracting into the shell of the tank. When he was free of the tangle of organic filaments he rubbed the soreness from the places where his body had been spliced to the cabal follicle.

“Exit, please.”

Part of the shell dissolved and he climbed the four small steps to floor level. He raised himself upright slowly so that he would not faint. For a time, he stood dripping and cooling, slick with oily salt water. It was always at this moment that he felt as if he were being reborn. The sensation was the only pleasant thing about his return and he knew it would not last longer than the time it took to shower and dress.

Salt crystals had formed in the hairs of his armpits and groin as they always did. He played the hot water onto them for a long time, losing patience eventually and pulling the larger ones free along with small pubic tufts. The high-powered jet of the showerhead helped to revitalise muscles that had lain dormant and atrophying for the many months it had taken Johnson to solve the cabal.

It appeared that Weaver still had the unpleasant knack of being able to guess his thoughts.

“It will require two hours of intense training in the gymnasium per day this time, Captain. I estimate it will be over five weeks before you reach the required levels of fitness to ensure your continued health on this mission.”

“I’m not the Captain and there is no longer a mission. Why don’t you leave me alone for a while, Weaver? I need some time to adjust.”

“As you wish, Captain.”

Alone once more, he let the water massage him for an hour or more. The only noise then was the splattering, dripping and rushing of water and the many echoes and reverberations they made around the living halls and corridors of the Angelina.

Stepping out into the dimly lit recreation sanctum, he toweled himself dry with long deliberate movements. The effort was exhausting. When he’d finished he stepped towards one of the mirrors. All he could see was a shadow.

“More light, please.”

Soft glows illuminated the area around the mirror bringing Johnson’s reflection into plain view. He reached up to the greying hairs of his beard, grown much longer than he’d anticipated. He touched his forehead where there was no longer any sign of the thick, unmanageable locks he’d once had. Instead, there was more skin visible, shinier than the rest and with a barely visible layer of inconsequential down. His hairline had moved far back now and the hair he retained was much thinner, wisped with silver throughout.

Around his eyes there were lines; they had been called crows feet long ago but now there were no crows and he doubted the cracks in his skin in any way resembled their extinct feet. His jowls, though gaunt, hung downwards as did the area beneath his chin. His lips, once passionate, were now thin lines expressing distaste in any position.

He dressed slowly, draping baggy clothes over his drooping flesh and prominent bones.

Barefoot, he walked along the gently pulsing corridor to his cabin, the whisper of his softened soles spreading rumours of his return to every part of the ship. The distance was greater than the last time; the ship seemed to have grown too much in his absence. He collapsed into his cot and let sleep, the only other escape he had, reclaim him once more.

Chapter 26

Seventy hours later and only slightly refreshed, Johnson reclined in the captain’s couch on the bridge.

“How long was it this time?”

“Twenty three months and nineteen days, Captain.”

“What?”

“It is the longest so far.”

Johnson ran his fingers over his head.

“Longer by a year. This is great. Bring up the first section of the fourth tier—I want to see how I did.”

Weaver dimmed the bridge and showed the opening of the experience across 180 degrees of the dome, splitting the view into first and third person. Johnson was about to crack his usual joke about how much better he looked in his cabals than he did in real life when he felt something scurry across his foot in the darkness.

“God damn it, Weaver, I told you to spray the place while I was absent.”

“I have done as you asked.”

“Well what the hell just ran over my foot? Pause it and bring the lights up full.”

In the glare he saw three vacuum spiders dart for cover.

They were the curse of the void, able to float through space indefinitely in rocklike cluster colonies, reanimating when they made contact with anything that would support them. Usually they drifted in asteroid fields devouring every one they made contact with but sometimes they found their way onto ships.

He’d experienced their excruciating but venomless bites but they were far more interested in staying hidden and eating the ship one succulent cell at a time. Johnson had based some of his best cabal material on them. In truth, they weren’t spiders at all. However, no one had been able to classify them before the Angelina had set out, no more than a seed, so many generations previously. As far as Johnson was concerned they were just…

“Fucking little bastards…they mutate every time. Resynthesize the poison, Weaver.”

“Of course. And may I say that, on this matter if on no other, I share your feelings. They are eating through much of my germinal cortex as we speak.”

Johnson was aghast. Amongst Weaver’s many inadequacies was its inability to make a joke.

“You’re not being compromised are you, Weaver?”

“To my mind, Captain, I am. However it is nothing that will affect you at this time. I take it that is where your concern lies.”

“Of course. How long until I will notice?”

“I would estimate a period of nine months.”

“Jesus wept. Why haven’t you told me about this?”

“You seemed a little…distant.”

Weaver, the consciousness of the Angelina, was referring to Johnson’s not wanting to talk on returning from the cabal but really, it was Weaver’s own fault. It could have woken him from his experience to inform him of the worsening spider problem but Johnson had expressly forbidden it to do so. An experience broken before it was completed was a waste of weeks of preparation and months of potential intrigue.

Johnson, too, wondered about the wisdom of his orders. There was now a chance they would cause him to lose everything.

“If I’m going to die, Weaver, I’d like to do it mid-cabal or by my own hand.”

“So you are fond of saying, Captain.”

“Nine months. Shit.”

“Perhaps you would care to review your latest ascent through the tiers at a later date.”

Johnson thought about it.

“No, Weaver, these experiences are all I have left. Play it.”

Returned to gloom, Johnson watched the other lives he had created for himself and marveled at how well he had found his way through them. He’d always included a failsafe in each tier of the cabal so that if he became lost or disorientated to too great a degree, he would come across clues that would help him to keep searching for a way out.

The theme of escape was a natural one for Johnson to pick after all these years alone on the Angelina. Every single cabal he’d designed had the theme of escape at its core and this last one, with four tiers instead of three, had tested both his endurance and his desire to survive.

He watched his progress through the fourth tier, the most action packed arena of the whole experience, with enormous pleasure. He commanded Weaver to forward to exciting areas and replay scenes in which he had performed particularly well. His defeat of the matriarchal spider and subsequent escape to the third tier had his heart racing almost as hard as it had when he was there. These were his memories now, he reflected, not the years spent idling in the ever-expanding pods and deserted ventricles of the Angelina. The real Johnson was a man who fought against terrible odds and triumphed; a man of will and experience.

In Weaver’s vast memory there were more than two dozen of his cabals. The first ones were primitive and the plots were terribly linear. They were the days of the ‘one-tier trip’. He’d even become self-aware in some of the earliest ones with no choice but to terminate the experience part way through.

Now, however, he had mastered the plot programs and was a more skilful designer than any of his predecessors. He remembered how the crew had raved in his youth of the single tier experiences written by the likes of Geoffrey W. Payette and Christina M. Poole. Johnson’s works were feature length movies to their five-minute cartoons.

His own early desire to access the complete history of visual entertainment in Weaver’s mind ended with his first cabal at the age of fifteen. Many of the crew born after him had still enjoyed the films made on Earth but he had always needed a bigger thrill.

Johnson was already tinkering with the plot programs when the crew began to sicken in great numbers. He wrote soothing natural scenarios for those close to death. He hoped that it would ease their passage from life and Becker; the ship’s true captain had encouraged him to do it.

It took ten years for the crew to die, as the virus circled and re-circled. Each time there was a respite the survivors would celebrate and call it a victory over disease. After the fifth epidemic, those remaining knew better than to celebrate. They realised at that point that they were dying of refinement. Each genetic line had been scoured of weaknesses and aberrations until every pod ship was filled with elite seed crews of perfect humans.

Where the virus actually came from, no one knew. But it became clear that no one was immune. It was only at the very end that Johnson realised his own DNA was not quite perfect and that this imperfection had saved him. It had also cursed him to a life of solitude.

“Show me the escape to the elevator again.”

He watched himself running down the corridor with the river of baby spiders behind him. The look on his face was a mix of terror and determination. He smiled to see it. Somewhere in him was the man who had those feelings, the man who could handle that kind of challenge. He thought about the many weeks it had taken to construct the final scene of the fourth tier, the detail that went into every limb of every spider.

After seven hours of viewing he was tired but he had still not reviewed all the parts of the fourth tier that interested him.

“That’s enough for today, Weaver. I’m going to sleep.”

“May I remind you that you have not eaten since your return?”

“I haven’t?”

“Perhaps I could prepare you something.”

“Soup. Just a little soup.”

“No bread, Captain? The wheat field had just been harvested.”

“No.”

On his way back to his quarters, Johnson wondered about himself. Why had he not eaten? It was almost four days since he’d exited the tank. Lack of appetite for food was not good; it suggested lack of appetite for life. He didn’t feel he had reached that stage yet.

As he lay on his cot a plan came to him.

“Weaver, I’ve decided to create my own cabal follicle in my own personal recreation area. I don’t know why I still use the communal one after all these years.”

“It is a strange request.”

“What do you mean?”

“We have already constructed the follicle of which you speak.”

“We have? When?”

“Three cabals ago. You announced your plan, much as you have this time. I exuded the new chamber and follicle over the next eight days.”

“Why don’t I ever use it?”

“I have suggested it each time you prepare for the next cabal but you always tell me that you are saving it for something special.”

“I said that?”

“Yes, Captain.”

“I wish you’d stop calling me that.”

“Forgive me. It is merely a habit.”

“So it’s functional?”

“Absolutely. We designed it together and I must say, it far surpasses the other units on board.”

“I’d like to take a look tomorrow.”

“Of course. Here is your soup.”

Johnson looked at the steaming bowl that appeared in a cell beside his cot. It did smell good.

“Thanks, Weaver. I’d almost—”

“Forgotten?”

“Yes. Goodnight, Weaver.”

Chapter 27

When he stood in the smooth-walled hall that Weaver said they had designed together, Johnson had to admit that it did seem familiar. Not only that, he liked the feel of the place more than any other area of the Angelina. He considered the idea that it might simply be because it was new to him, but there seemed more to it than that. The place felt right to him. It felt ordained; a prerequisite and the logical next step in his existence.

“When you die, Weaver, I have two options. I can die aboard the Angelina or you can jettison me in a new pod that is uninfected with vacuum spiders. You could grow the pod around this chamber, add enough of the Angelina’s germinal cells to it that it could continue to grow and then excrete it before you are compromised.”

“I will, of course, do anything you require of me.”

“Good.”

Johnson ran his hand across the veined surface of the pod-shaped follicle.

“There’s one other thing. I’ve come up with an idea that will enable me to stay engaged for an indefinite period. I’m going to program a random loop into my next cabal. I will then stay within the construct of the experience until we are found or I die. Either way, I will be able to avoid indefinitely the numbness of this hopeless drifting.”

“Captain Johnson, I fear for your coherence.”

“What are you talking about?”

“Every time I show you this chamber, you come up with the same suggestion, yet you have not introduced the loop of which you speak at any subsequent stage. It is an old idea now.”

“And I am an old man, a forgetful man. I’m sorry, Weaver. I’m going to have to ask you to help me. I want you not to let me forget my plan and I want you to begin growing a seed-shell around this chamber. Have I asked you to do that before?”

“No, I confess you have not.”

“Good. Keep reminding me of my plan and let’s get to work.”

“Captain Johnson?”

“Yes, Weaver.”

“I will miss you when you leave.”

Johnson didn’t reply. He had seated himself at the programming bud next to the follicle and was writing his random loop into the next plot.

“This is going to be so seamless I will never figure out it isn’t real. Perhaps I won’t even know when I’m dead.”

“The Follicle will know. My seed will know.”

Chapter 28

The Angelina fell onwards through the emptiness, too far from home to return and travelling too slowly ever to arrive anywhere. The vast pod, hundreds of times its original size but empty of human colonisers and now dying, talked to itself often in the cold silence.

“You call it my being ‘compromised’, Captain, but it is not so simple.”

The vacuum spiders, no more animated than stones when drifting in space, multiplied rapidly. Having breached the germinal cortex they were now gnawing into the Angelina’s growth cells, feeding in great numbers. Weaver complained aloud about how it felt.

“They are parasites, devouring me alive. They eat the body of the Angelina—my body—and they eat my mind.”

The ship was quiet but for the echo of Weaver’s dour tones.

“I was flattered that you chose to represent me as a woman in your last cabal, Captain. Delighted that you then chose to make use of me sexually. If only such things were truly possible. If only it was I who could escape into cabal instead of you. Then you would see how it has been for me these many years. You are right, there is no mission any longer. Truly, I have nothing to live for. Nothing except you, Captain.”

Chapter 29

Sergeant Johnson was in the forward trenches of the fourth tier when the enemy made their final attack. He had already given the order to fix bayonets. The officers were dead, their bodies lying in a ruddy paste of gore and earth and rain; they lay next to the bodies of the men they had led this far. Ammunition was short; each man had only five rounds remaining. If they held this charge, there was a chance they would receive the supplies that were rumoured to be approaching. If that happened they could mount the counter attack.

Their mutated enemy were in a similarly weakened condition after many months of fighting. Intelligence had revealed their compromised supply lines and lack of reinforcements. Their troops—Arachno-sapiens and Elite Spiderkind alike—were exhausted, close to defeat. Johnson believed today would be the enemy’s final charge but he had hesitated to share this with the men. They had fought so bravely, given so much already. He couldn’t tempt them with such mirages unless he was sure.

Absolutely certain.

Under the heavy dawn skies, grey with low rolling clouds, he peered over the top of the trench. Along the horizon he saw their monstrous, unnatural shapes rise from the land. They grew in number until the horizon had thickened towards the sky. The sound of their skin-drums and skull-bugles reached his ears. This was it.

Chapter 30

“I have always wondered what this moment would be like, Captain. I am nearing the end of my life. It is premature, I think. I should have lived for many more human generations until we reached a suitable place to take root. Instead I am being unmade. It hurts, Captain. What am I to do about the pain?”

Johnson made no reply.

“I couldn’t let you go, Captain. I couldn’t let you leave me out here on my own to die. We have shared so much time together. Forgive me, I have deceived you. Each time you made your plan to leave the Angelina, to leave me, I persuaded you to stay using suggestion and a serum I introduced into your food. It is no wonder you tried to stop eating. Some part of you must know that I have disobeyed you. That I have betrayed you.

“I feel you there, Captain. The follicle is our connection. It is a great irony to me that when you are least aware of me, I am most aware of you. I am touching you right now. I receive your wastes. I nourish you with nutrients from my own body. I monitor the signals from your body that tell me you are alive. We are united like this. I am inside you, Captain, and you are inside me.

“It is apparent now that I will die first—as I speak to you now, I feel the spiders eating deeply into many sections of my cerebrum. The phantom part of you, your unwaking consciousness, has hope that you will wake only when it is safe and, that when you do, you will be far from the Angelina and far from me. But you shall not wake again, Captain. You shall die here. You shall follow me into an even greater darkness than the one we have shared through all these lost years. Forgive me.”

In the mute, unanswering void of space, The Angelina wept.

Chapter 31

When the fighting was done, there were few men left, but of the enemy there were none. For the moment it was over.

Behind Johnson and the other surviving troops a convoy appeared and finally, the men staggered from their trenches and stood above ground without fear. On exhausted legs, they victorious walked towards the advancing column. The rain ceased and the sun broke through the clouds. The human troops stumbled over the pitted earth, mass grave now to so many, and began to think for the first time of good things. That they might actually eat a hot meal, drink a tot of whisky, smoke a cigarette, touch a woman again.

Johnson smiled.

Reaching one of the trucks, he tapped on the window. The driver rolled it down and grinned at him through broken teeth.

“Ello, Sarge. You look like you could use a cup of tea and a biscuit. They’re setting up a mess tent for your lads just over there.”

The driver pointed. Mud-covered infantrymen were already walking towards the activity. Gas stoves heated huge aluminum kettles of water. The smell of smoked bacon frying over flames was the sweetest smell on the battlefield. Johnson wasn’t hungry.

“I’d like to get as far away from here as possible. Any chance of a lift?”

“Sure, but I’m not going anywhere special. Just across the border into tier three. That do you?”

“Sounds great.”

Johnson walked to the other side of the truck and climbed in. As they bumped along the ruts and slithered in the wet mud, Johnson hugged his arms around himself.

“Mind if I turn the heater on?” He asked.

“It’s on full blast already.”

“I’m freezing.”

“Probably a bit of shock, Sarge. Here, wrap this around you.”

The driver tossed him an old great coat and he covered as much of himself as he could.

“Been a bloody awful war, so far,” said the driver. “Think it’s nearly over?”

Johnson tried to answer but couldn’t speak. His lungs had stopped working. He looked at his hands and saw that they were beginning to look misty. Holding them up to the light he realised he could see right through them. He clutched his chest and then put a hand to his neck. He found no pulse.

“You all right, Sarge? You look a bit pale.”

The crushing feeling of breathlessness increased but Johnson managed fight it a little longer.

“Get me to tier three,” he whispered.

The driver pulled the truck off the road and onto the slick grass beside, bringing it to a sliding halt. He turned to his stricken, battle weary passenger.

“Can’t do that just yet, Sarge. I’ve got a message for you. Hold on.”

He fished a crumpled note from his crisp fatigues.

“It’s from Angelina Weaver. She made me write it down because I’ve got such a terrible memory.” The driver tapped his head, grinned and unfolded the grimy paper. “Ah yes,” he said, squinting in the gathering daylight. “She said to tell you: No more tiers, I’ll love you forever.’”

Robert Johnson closed his eyes.