Little Heaven

1 THE LION IN WINTER

MICAH HENRY SHUGHRUE awoke into a darkness so thick it was like all nights folded together.

He sat up in bed with an unspeakable fear crazing through his vitals—a stark wash of terror, bubonic rats scuttling through his veins. He reached for his wife. Ellen’s breaths came unrushed, the bones of her wrist frail and birdlike under the thin stretching of skin.

He plucked his eye from the bowl on the nightstand. He never slept with it in. But he didn’t like Petty to see him without it in—the flesh inside the socket cured like pig leather. He thumbed it into place and said, “I will look in on Pet.”

Ellen would not answer. She never did. Her eyes were open—they almost always were nowadays—but invisible under the two moisturized pads wedged beneath her eyelids.

Micah stood in his sleeping flannels. Their daughter, Petty, slept in a room off the kitchen. The house was silent as he made his way through it. He eased his daughter’s door open. Instantly he felt it. An absence. That clotted, stinging darkness holding nothing at all.

Micah’s breath rasped as his remaining eye adjusted. The blankets had been folded back at one corner, as if his daughter had slid out for a drink of water—she did this sometimes in the summer when the heat lay leaden inside the walls. One evening he’d found her at the pump, the hem of her nightdress wet with water. He had chastised her, not wanting her to make a habit of being out of doors at night. But the water was cooler from the pump, she’d said, so much better than the tepid stuff that ran from the kitchen tap.

“Pet?” he said, sure that he would get no reply. His mind was quickly turning to the solidity of her disappearance.

He had been dreading this moment since the day she was born.

He moved swiftly through the house. She was nowhere inside. The back door was ajar. He stepped outside. The fields rolled away under the moon, flat and endless. The Black Mountain range tilted against the horizon.

“Pet?” he called.

The wind curled around his ankles. He went back inside. He stepped into his boots and donned his duster, then went back out.

He gazed across the moon-silvered field. Beyond it, miles off, rose knuckled hillsides that, come summer, would be clad in flaming pokeweed. The barn door was open—had he forgotten to shut it? He crossed the field and stepped into the barn. He felt his way through the shuddering horseflesh and climbed a ladder to the hayloft.

The trunk was where he’d left it, covered in a horsehair blanket. He had not gazed upon it in years. It held his old life. That was a time best left shut.

The trunk’s innards smelled of gun oil and old blood. He retrieved one pistol, then the next. They felt good in his hands. Like brothers, like sisters, like homecoming.

Both guns were highly modified. Russian Tokarevs bored out to chamber .45 rounds. Their barrels had been filed to four inches. Micah had also ground off the sights—sights were useless at close range, and anyway, they might snag when clearing concealment. One gun had a mother-of-pearl grip; the other, sandalwood. He loaded them and slid them into the pockets of his duster.

Outside, the fields lay spectral in the witching hours. Ground fog ribboned along the earth. Micah marched toward a forest of piñon and ponderosa pines at the edge of his property—past the tree line, the land was still wild.

I should not have closed my eye, he thought. Should not have let my guard down.

Fifteen years. A long time to keep one’s guard up. Hellishly long for even the hardest of men. That man can try to sleep with one eye open, keeping watch over those he loves and fosters… but every man has to sleep sometime.

And he’d felt it coming, hadn’t he? Something gathering toward his family—a feeling not unlike the thunder of hooves as a stampede approaches. He might as well have tried to outrun his own skin. You cannot outfox the devil. You may be able to stay his approach if you’re lucky and a little crazy, but in the end, his black eye will ferret you out.

A tatter of cloth hung from a piñon branch. A pattern of cabbage flowers, faded from washing. Petty’s nightdress.

Micah stepped into the trees, treading on a carpet of brown needles. His body ached. His knees were about cooked and his arms felt heavy. Age makes fools of us all. There was nothing to track—no blood, thank Christ, and his daughter’s bare feet would leave no impression. His heart thumped ponderously in his chest, but he walked with care, his working eye half lidded as though he might fall back asleep. The fear he had felt upon waking, the fear that had spiked when he discovered his daughter’s bed empty, was now gone. He cursed his own inner coolness—the very trait that had distinguished him in his past life.

Do I not care enough for my daughter to feel true panic? What other father would react this way, under these same circumstances?

He came upon a clearing. A shape stood in the fall of moonlight. It was black, as if its body had been carved from the surrounding night. It was unmoving, but Micah could tell that its eyes, so many of them, were focused on him with a commingling of baleful mockery and something that smacked of pity: the flat stare of a cottonmouth as it gazed upon a field mouse.

“Give her back,” Micah said.

The thing shuffled forward. Its body rippled as if in delight. It gave off an odor that reminded Micah of the night, years ago, when he had awoken to hear scratching inside the walls at a hotel in Carson City. There was a hole the size of a thumbnail where two walls met; carpenter ants—the most enormous he’d ever seen—spilled through the hole, numberless in their multitudes, sheeting down the plaster like bristling dark molasses. They carried with them the same dry, festering stink he smelled now—metallic, vinegary, somehow vulgar.

The thing issued a gargling hack. Was it trying to speak? It capered and sloshed; its body teemed with quarrelsome movements. The sense of déjà vu was overwhelming; he was nauseated by it. This had happened before, all of it. Yet it had the feel of a dream, something that had once occurred in a fantasyland—someplace far away and long, long ago.

“Give her back,” he said again.

The thing made a clotted rattle that might have been its attempt at laughter. Its head, or one of its heads, cocked to one side—too far, as if its neck had been snapped and had surrendered to the bulbous weight of its skull…

But Micah knew it wasn’t a head he was looking at—heads were appendages gracing men and beasts, and this thing was neither of those. Micah had not dealt with such creatures in so, so long. Staring at its shuddering shape filled him with exhaustion so dreadful that it was as if the hollows of his bones had been flooded with lead.

The thing shook with what could be mistaken for mirth, the ribbed and fatty texture of its body jiggling. Why was he speaking to it? He knew where Petty was—or would soon be, anyway. He spat on the browned pine needles and reached for his smoke wagons.

“What in hell do I need you for?”

His hands lit up with thunder. Bullets tore into the thing. Parts of its body ripped free and spun into the dark. The creature slumped to the ground and attempted to crawl or flop toward Micah, heaving itself forward in torturous paroxysms. Micah paused, the gunpowder stinging his nose, and took careful aim. He plugged the final four rounds into what he felt to be its skull, or skulls. The thing jerked and bucked. Then it stopped, all told.

Micah slammed fresh clips into his pistols. He holstered one and approached the thing with the other one drawn.

The creature lay prone, its body issuing a queer hum. Putrid fumes carried off it. Meat from many species of animal all crushed together, the bones jutting slantwise and the exposed fatty tissues shining butter-yellow in the moonlight. He spied the crumpled head of a jaguarundi that had been stitched through some horrific process to the shell of an armadillo. There were elements of birds, of fish, of serpents—and a swath of tawny flesh that might have once draped the skull of a luckless hiker. The corrugated canvas of flesh and fur was maggot-ridden and pocked with ichor-filled boils.

The head of a wolf hung off one side; its eyes had been sucked out and added to the muscat bunch that stared woodenly from the middle of the thing’s chest.

Micah had no inkling how these atrocities came to be. He knew them only as the handmaidens of his old nemesis. He couldn’t guess at the wicked animus filling their bodies. The hum intensified. The heap of corrupted meat convulsed. Micah stepped back. One of the thing’s skulls—eyeless, featureless, nothing but a bloated bladder of mismatched organ meats and pelts—swelled and threatened to burst…

And then it did. It ripped raggedly apart. Insects poured out. Weevils and bark beetles and deer ticks, millipedes and sightless moths, ladybugs with blackly diseased wings. The thing deflated as the bugs deserted it in a scuttle of legs and carapaces and wriggling antennae—

From somewhere in the night, distant and dimming:

The trill of a flute.

2 THE HIRED GUN

WHEN YOU WHITTLED right down to the nub of it, killing yourself was a matter of will. You had to find that iron in your spine. The gumption to carry your soul into the dark.

Minerva Atwater sat at the desk in her room at the Beldings Motel in the one-horse town of Ludo, Nevada. She nursed the hope that the man she had come to see would be the one who killed her.

The motel was a cesspool. Appropriately, her room was a dump. At least the place stayed on theme. The orange shag carpet was studded with cigarette burns. An arrogant roach skittered across the popcorn ceiling like an ambulatory scab. Minerva could afford better, but this room suited her present temperament.

On the desk sat a box. Inside the box was an old-style syringe kit. Early 1900s vintage, before companies began manufacturing disposable needles. She’d found it in an antiques store in Sedona, Arizona. It was the sort of thing she could imagine a genteel morphine addict using—a brain surgeon or a bank manager. The initials G.P.G. were stamped on its copper plating. Who the hell bought a monogrammed drug needle?

The syringe was two inches long, polished steel, with a large-bore needle. The antiques store owner had sold it to her for twenty bucks. He said she had a fine eye for this sort of thing.

An eye for what, needles? she had thought. Oh yeah, you betcha.

Seven or eight thermometers also sat on the desk. She’d bought them at a Rite Aid earlier that same day. Inside each was a drop of mercury. She remembered her father telling her a story about the medicine men who used to travel around in the Old West days, selling mercury as a restorative. Laird’s Bloom of Youth, goofy names like that. Those quacks would claim it’d put the apple back in a woman’s cheeks and restore the ruby to her lips. Which was pure horseshit. Painting your face with quicksilver was about as restorative as gargling pony piss—but at least piss wouldn’t kill you.

But then, Minny did want to die. It was just about the only thing she wanted out of life anymore.

She set a plastic spoon on the desk and cracked a thermometer open over it. The glass snapped crisply, depositing a bead of silver into the spoon. She did the same with the rest of the thermometers, then drew all the mercury into the syringe. She looped a bootlace round her arm above her elbow, clamped one end between her teeth and cinched it. Her arms were thin, so it didn’t take much to raise a vein.

Once upon a time she’d heard the whispers. That girl’s so skinny she could take a bath in a shotgun barrel. Or: Like a snake on stilts, that one. But she hadn’t heard those whispers in many a moon. In a weird way, she missed them.

The needle slid into a fat vein. Her skin dimpled, and the tip punched right in. The first time she’d tried swallowing the mercury, but she’d just gone dizzy and thrown up. No, right into the bloodstream seemed best.

She inhaled deeply—she could taste the poison at the back of her mouth: warm, with a metallic edge—and retrieved her pistols from their case. They slid into pancake holsters on either side of her rib cage. She pulled her long duster coat on over them.

Maybe tonight. She hoped to Christ so. Christ or whoever might be up there looking down on her small life, on all humanity, our every sad endeavor.

Please, she thought, show some mercy. Just a little. Haven’t I earned it?

The answer came on the wind that fussed with the drapes edging the open window.

Oh no, my child. You haven’t suffered nearly enough yet.

THE MOTEL BAR was practically empty. A stag-antler chandelier cast its glow over the interior. The sound system was playing “Boogie Oogie Oogie” by A Taste of Honey. A pair of rubby-dubs occupied seats in opposite corners, where they drank with quiet desperation. A third man was shitfaced, smoking a cigar at the end of the bar.

“Whiskey,” she said. The barkeep brought a glass.

Minerva said, “Leave the bottle. Oogie oogie.”

The bartender was heavy, with a walrus mustache and old-timey sleeve garters. He looked like a big fat idiot, and she almost told him so. She could feel him clandestinely taking her measure. What he saw was a tall woman of tubercular slenderness, pale eyes, dark hair shaved nearly to the skull. But if he considered her closely—if he looked directly into her eyes, so different from those of the four-bit whores he doubtlessly trafficked in—he would see… well, something. It spun and capered behind her golden irises, which seemed to tick clockwise, snipping off each second.

But he would not look too closely—no man ever did—because Minerva’s gaze had a withering effect; it seized something precious inside of you, shriveling it like a cellophane wrapper tossed onto an open flame.

Minny drank a shot of whiskey, another, another. Her arm pump-handled the hooch into her mouth. She felt good—more to the point, she felt like day-old owl shit. The mercury was percolating merrily through her system. It hurt quite badly, but she’d withstood much worse. She hoped she could force enough whiskey into herself to dull things further without throwing up.

If I do this right, she thought, any donkey dick with a gopher gun should be able to irrigate me right between the eyes.

Minny had made other attempts to do herself in. The first time had been… Christ, when was that now? A pauper’s cemetery near the Mexican border. She’d killed a man, or maybe it was two or three. They died as they always did, with screwed-up looks on their faces that said they had witnessed a terrible reckoning just before the door slammed shut. Afterward, Minny had perched on a tombstone and socked the barrel of her Colt M1911 under her chin. She cocked the hammer, wanting it so badly but knowing—without even pulling the trigger—it wouldn’t work.

The deal didn’t work like that. It was a compact etched in blood—hers and the Englishman’s and Micah Shughrue’s, too. Their blood, and the blood of the black thing that had tendered the deal.

You can’t walk it back. You can’t welsh on a deal that fills your very veins.

She’d pulled the trigger anyway. What was the harm in trying? Hah! There had come a lifting sensation, her body a sail filling with wind… She came to sometime that night, though it could’ve been the next. The moon shone over the gravestones. Her hair was matted with blood and hardened curds that she instinctively identified as her own brains. But she was fine. Intact. Nothing but a small coin-shaped scar on the top of her head where she used to part her hair before she’d taken to shaving it.

She’d tried other ways, sure. Pills. Hanging. Slitting her wrists with a barber’s straight razor. One night she paid a man eighty dollars to stab her out back of a porno theater. The man had seemed the sort to stab a woman for eighty dollars, though he might have done it for free if she’d proposed it. There was little negotiation or discussion. He’d just smiled and begun to stab her with a bone-handled fillet knife, powerful thrusts to her belly and chest. The pain sizzled through her as the knife sliced sideways, sawing through velvety muscle. The man was a dab hand with a blade; he might have had some butchery training. They were both grunting: she from the pain and the air whoofing from her lungs with each knife thrust, he from plain old exertion. Minny had braced her hands on his shoulders to stay steady and aid him at his task. She’d stared into the man’s bright magpie eyes as her blood splashed the oily cement, until she slipped gratefully into the black…

When she came to, the man was dead, his neck slit so deep that Minny could see the gleam of his severed windpipe. She was fine, of course. A few shallow scratches on her stomach. She had then dragged the man’s body behind a dumpster, leaving him beside a box of sun-bleached porn magazines with titles like Old Farts and Fifty and Nifty.

But right now, tonight… yes, it would be different. She couldn’t kill herself, and she couldn’t induce someone else to do it. The deed had to be committed fairly. She had to lose. Well, she wasn’t a sore loser. Tonight she’d get herself good and properly killed.

“Boogie Oogie Oogie” segued into “I’m Your Boogie Man,” by KC and the Sunshine Band. Had she stumbled into some kind of half-assed theme night? Minerva dropped another shot of whiskey down her throat. A woman came out of the men’s bathroom. A jaundiced-looking businessman followed her out, hitching up his slacks.

The woman elbowed up beside Minny.

“How about it, pal—you want a ride?”

Minny turned to face her. The whore leaned back.

“Ah, shit,” she said, pronouncing it as sheeee-it. She was stoned out of her gourd. “I thought you was a dude.”

Her laugh was nasty. Her hands were covered in scabies, and her nose had been busted a few times. “Well, so what?” she said, more to herself than Minerva. “It wouldn’t be my first time with a chick.” She wiggled her hips. “What do you say?”

“Oh, I imagine not,” Minny said breezily. “I’d rather eat cat shit with a pair of chopsticks, to tell you the truth.”

“I will leave you to it, then,” the whore slurred, unfussed, and sidled down the bar toward the drunk smoking the cigar.

Minny heard the growl of a pickup truck. The light of headlamps washed over the bar’s dust-clad windows. She tossed another shot down her throat.

The door squealed open on its rusted hinges. The clopping of boots.

“You the one they sent?”

Minerva turned sluggishly. Dizzy, sick, drunk. Good.

“Yuh,” she said, and burped. “I’m all of it.”

The man looked like they always did. Leathery, rawboned, a face raked by the wind. A hard man made harder by the awfulness he had committed. A man untroubled by his past. She could not tell by looking if he felt any remorse for the things he had done—the things that had put his name on the breeze, put him in the wheelhouse of her employers, put her on a path to this very meeting. She did not rightly care. He probably saw himself as a fox set loose in a sheep pen—how could he be blamed for doing what came naturally to him? And who knows? Maybe he really was that fox. Sadly for him, she was a wolf.

“The lady shootist,” the man said. “I heard of you, but I thought you wasn’t real. Just a spook story.”

Minny said, “You will find that I’m real enough.”

The man’s gaze was cold, but then they always were right up until the end, when they turned fear-struck and childish.

He smiled. “I hear my head’s worth twenty grand.”

Minny shook her head. A heavy lead block had replaced her brain. “You’ll fetch five grand per ear, if I’m lucky.”

“That’s not too shabby,” the man said, proud at the price.

“I’ve done better.”

The man’s smile evaporated. “I’m sure you have. But what about taking me alive—you get any more for that?”

Minny said, “Never bothered to ask.”

The man’s jaw set. “What if I go without a fuss?”

“Do you have a mind to do so?”

The man shook his head.

“Then I saved myself the haggling,” Minny slurred.

The man said: “Look at you! You’re drunk as a tick!”

Minny laughed at the odd turn of phrase. Then she spoke so everyone else in the bar could hear. “You best all clear out. And none of you even think about calling the authorities. This will be done soon enough.”

The patrons obediently departed. Minny’s sight was failing, but she could see shapes behind the bar’s front windows. The parking lot lights glinted off shotgun barrels.

“You brought help.”

“I heard about you, was all,” the man said evenly. “Got the devil’s own luck.”

It isn’t luck when all you want to do is die, son.

“What do you say we part company in good faith?” the man said. “You go your way and we ours. There are other bounties, aren’t there? Other men.”

“The only time I ever shot a man in the back was when he was running away.” She opened her palms to him. “There are things a man can’t run away from, boy. And I am sorry to say that tonight you’ve run clean out of road.”

The man opened his leather bomber jacket. A pistol was tucked into his belt above his Confederate Eagle belt buckle.

“I ain’t your boy, bitch. I’ll kill you,” he said. “Dead as a beaver hat, that’s you.”

This fellow was a fount of old-timey sayings, wasn’t he? Instead of laughing, Minny swooned. Guts heaving, bowels thudding, eyes screwed tight like pissholes in the snow. Dead as a beaver hat? How quaint. I like your spirit, boy.

She made no move for her pistols. Her arms were crossed. The man’s hand twitched above the grips of his own gun.

Be a crack shot, she prayed. Put one slug through my pump house, another through my brain box. That would meet the terms of the pact. All fair, all final.

It happened then—right that very instant—even though she did everything to fight it.

The Sharpening.

That was what she called it. Some natural mechanism snapping on. Her every sense became more attuned. Her view of the world expanded and shrank at the same time—she could see everything, the tiniest detail. The sweat on the man’s forehead, each bead set to pop from his skin. The curve of the men’s jaws beyond the windows, the tension of their fingers on the triggers of their scatterguns. Everything came into perfect focus: it was like staring at things through a huge magnifying glass. And she could operate within this view with total confidence and speed while everyone around her struggled like ants in molasses.

The man went for his gun—too slow, too goddamn fuckingly cocksuckingly slow.

Come at me, man! Quickly! Fill your Christing hand!

Her own hands uncrossed and moved toward her weapons with sickening swiftness. The next moment her fingers had wrapped around her Colts—I should have fixed them in the holsters with Krazy Glue, she thought—the barrels coming up smoothly. The guns kicked as bullets leapt from their muzzles, wasping through the air and hitting the young man spang in the heart and head, flinging him backward before his pistol had even cleared his hips.

Minny swiveled, no longer fighting it, giving herself over to the devil in her bloodstream. Perfect holes snapped through the windows—pip! pip!—as bullets drilled through the glass and into the men outside, slugs slamming into their bulging eyes and coring through the obliging softness, then out the backs of their skulls in a gout of sticky pink.

By then the Sharpening was already retreating. Like a sneak thief, it came and did its filthy business and left without a trace.

The young man’s body had been blown clean out the door. His boots stuck straight up in the air. Something between a sob and a scream built in Minny’s throat.

Goddamn you. I’ve had enough. Goddamn you. Let me die.

The answer came in the wind curling between the dead man’s boots.

Suffer. Suffer as you have made me suffer…

She shouldered the door open, stumbling outside. The dead man’s skull shone in the moonlight, the scalp blown apart and a bubbly purple foam emitting from the brain with a pressurized gurgle. His wide-open eyes stared at the sky, the corneas gone milky in death.

…or you may come to me, child, the voice taunted. You still know the place, don’t you? We can face each other as deal makers do. Strike a bargain.

Her marrow went cold. She felt it that way exactly: the brown bone soup crystalizing into ice inside her bones, as cold as hoarfrost in a mountain pass.

Come to me, girl. Why play at this? Let us end these silly games.

She walked in the opposite direction of that voice—which was impossible, as it came from all points of the compass. It whispered inside her head in a voice she dared not name.

3 THE GARDENER

THE MAN the townsfolk knew as Gardener walked into the Glory with a Deathstalker in a glass jar.

The man had gone by other names in other places. Some had known him as English Bill (though his name was not William) or simply the Englishman. Others had known him as the Whispering Death. Still others had known him by no name at all—his presence had been nothing but a shadow darkening their periphery before their lights were snuffed out.

But the people of Old Ditch, a decaying boomtown on the border of California and Arizona, knew him as Gardener. If townsfolk insisted on a proper name—and sometimes they did, as folks in small towns can be suspicious of nameless people—he would answer to Elton, though this was no more his name than William was. The mail that arrived at his house was often addressed to other names, too, none of them his own.

But the people of Old Ditch knew him as Gardener. The fact that he was black helped in this regard—in the South, it was not uncommon for black men to be hailed by their jobs rather than their birth names. It might be Cook or Baker or, yes, Gardener. There was rarely any cruelty to it, despite the fact that it was dehumanizing. It was simply how things were done. Everyone accepted it, more or less. Even Gardener did, now. Years ago he would not have been so obliging—in fact, he might have cut your tongue out if you refused to call him by his Christian name, or whatever name he commanded.

Gardener had earned this name in the common way. He was a gardener. When he’d arrived in Old Ditch, the Rawlston Paperworks was going great guns; the surrounding woods were harvested, pulped, rolled out in sheets of clean white hundred-bond and shipped off to the ivory towers of academia, to Wall Street, to mom-and-pop shops around the country. The women married to the Paperworks executives hired him to tend their flower beds while they fanned themselves on their whitewashed porches and said, “Good work, boy, very good”—calling him boy despite the fact that he was often their elder. He tended the grounds at the Mission Church, making sure the marigolds and snapdragons were in full bloom from spring through early summer, and the orange glories and peonies on into the fall. Come the cooler months he’d sweep the church and do odd jobs for the pastor. It was a good and quiet existence… in the daylight hours, anyway.

The Glory, a bar at the end of Old Ditch’s straggle-ass main street, was deserted when Gardener stepped into it that day. It was not long past noon, an unseemly hour to be seen inside a drinking establishment. Many of the buildings lining Old Ditch’s main thoroughfare lay empty, their doors boarded over. The Paperworks had eaten the woods and shuttered its doors before moving on to another patch of unsullied wilderness, leaving the town to rot into itself.

Gardener limped to the bar and sat down under a poster for Camel unfiltered cigarettes; it featured an overweight police officer smoking against the door of his patrol car, the sun sparkling off his aviator sunglasses. Have a REAL cigarette—have a CAMEL. Gardener could see his own reflection in the fly-spotted mirror behind the bar. His hair, which he had once worn long and straight, was clipped close to his skull and flecked with gray. His skin was ashy dark, as it had been uncommonly warm of late and he washed with carbolic soap, which dried his skin. He set the glass jar with the Deathstalker on the bar.

“Whiskey,” he said.

The tender was a God-fearing man named Clayton Suggs. He had bought the bar and its stock a year ago for a pittance—it took no time at all to discover he had been rooked, but by then, the bar’s old owner was miles clear of Old Ditch and surely laughing like a bastard. Suggs’s only hope of financial gain would be to sell the place for its wood, but there was nobody to buy it, seeing as the Paperworks had fucked off and left.

“Bit early for the hard stuff, wouldn’t you say?” said Suggs.

“I haven’t touched a drop in fifteen years. But time makes liars of us all, Mr. Suggs.” Gardener’s words held a trace of the English accent he’d carried across the Atlantic many years ago. “You need not trifle yourself over it.”

Suggs frowned. It wasn’t that he didn’t care for blacks in his establishment—beggars can’t be choosers, and if the man had folding money, he was welcome to a stool. But he knew Gardener only slightly, having seen him hunched over in yards around town, and the man had never looked entirely healthy. It wasn’t just his pronounced limp, the way he dragged that one gimpy leg behind him like a curse. His body was skeletal inside his overalls, his wrists and ankles birdlike and queerly feminine. Suggs suspected his ill health was a product of those pansy British genes. Englishmen always appeared cadaverous to Suggs. And Gardener looked particularly bloodless at the moment, as if vampire bats had been at him. More than that, he appeared… haunted. His eyes sank far into his sockets, as if they had witnessed an event of such horror that they had retreated into his skull.

Yet Suggs had always sensed a strength in the man, too—dormant, but bubbling just under the surface. A wrath, Suggs suspected, even a dangerous malignancy of character that the man struggled to keep bottled up. Old Ditch was a harder place now, populated by men who’d snatch the pennies off a corpse’s eyes… but nobody ever laid a hand on Gardener. There was this gut instinct that if any man were to do so, that man might draw back a stump.

Suggs set the whiskey bottle on the bar. “I’ll put it within reach, champ, but I am for damn sure not pouring it.”

“Good man. I shall administer the dose personally. Cura te ipsum.”

“Whuh?” Suggs said.

“Physician, heal thyself.”

Gardener poured a heroic measure. Suggs made a mental note to charge him double for it. His eyes fell upon the Deathstalker. The scorpion was eight inches long and dark as midnight. Its claws clicked upon the glass jar.

Suggs said, “I can’t imagine why in hell you’d bring that in here.”

“Well.” Gardener nodded. “It is here now, as I have brought it.”

“And you’ll keep it in the damned jar, too,” Suggs said.

“Fifteen years,” Gardener said, speaking more to himself than to Suggs. “It’s a very long time to go without a drink. And my life has been much improved for it.”

“Let me take the bottle away, then. Let that improvement continue.”

Gardener gave Suggs a look. The spit dried up in Suggs’s mouth—something in his spirit fled from the dark holes that sat at the center of the black man’s eyes.

“I’d be obliged were you to find it in your heart to leave it, Mr. Suggs. It will be a balm to my wounded spirit.”

Gardener took a sip of whiskey. He winced.

“Tell me, Mr. Suggs. Perchance, did you use this swill to strip the old paint off your car?”

“Don’t have a car anymore,” Suggs said woodenly. “Bank took it.”

Gardener unscrewed the jar’s lid. He set the jar on its side. The scorpion crept over the rim and hesitated two inches from Gardener’s hand, which lay palm-down on the bar.

“What the hell’s got into you?” said Suggs.

“Have you ever seen the face of the devil?” Gardener asked quietly.

Quite suddenly, Suggs felt a strong urge to urinate. He no longer wanted to be in this place with this man.

“It is my judgment that people believe they have seen the devil.” Gardener drummed his fingers on the bar. The Deathstalker reared back, poised to strike. “They have seen the devil in the faces of wicked men, and at the sight of murdered women and children. But they have no inkling of the real devil and the horrors he can bring.”

Gardener’s voice had gone breathless and dreamy. His fingers tap-tapped…

The scorpion darted forward and jabbed its stinger in the back of his hand. If Gardener’s features twitched, Suggs did not notice it. The Deathstalker’s body flexed as it pumped in poison. Gardener picked up the whiskey glass with his other hand and drained it at a go.

“Mr. Suggs, the quality of your whiskey is poor, and so truly, I cannot tell you what is worse. Drinking this”—he held up the empty glass—“or enduring this.” He tapped the glass on the scorpion’s exoskeleton. It made a sound like champagne glasses clinking during a toast.

Gardener sloshed more whiskey into his glass, pouring with his free hand. The scorpion gripped his other hand in its pincers. It was beginning to draw blood.

“You have been envenomed,” Suggs said hoarsely.

Gardener closed his eyes. He raised the glass to his lips. The gutrot washed down his throat with a fiery itch. The scorpion’s stinger was embedded in his skin. The creature struggled to pull itself free but could not—Gardener’s flesh was swollen tight, trapping it.

A miscalculation evident in men just as it is in beasts, he reflected. The urge to kill can be so great that a creature overextends itself, and in so doing threatens its own life.

Gardener had served the citizenry of Old Ditch faithfully for many years. He had served it in clandestine ways, too. Four years ago, a pair of petty drifters and brothers named Horace and Eldred Bilks had raped a prostitute at the old Fairfax motel. They had been hell-raising around town a few days by then. Evidently the girl had made some offhand remark about Eldred Bilks’s harelip, about which he was sensitive. The younger and more sadistic of the two brothers, Eldred had lashed the woman to the hitch of his pickup and dragged her five hundred yards down a gravel road, busting her elbows and one kneecap. She was twenty-two and considered a looker before the incident.

Gardener had been planting pansies at a house a block or so from the Fairfax when the screams broke out. A few minutes later came the screech of tires as the brothers laid tracks. Next, an ambulance screamed past. What Gardener didn’t see, and knew he would not see, was a police car. Not anytime soon. The sheriff, a sniveling wretch named Gorse Ellson, had no taste for the kind of violence those brothers could bring. It’s just some whore, Ellson would tell himself. No use getting hurt over it.

Knowing this, Gardener fell to grim musings. The woman worshipped regularly at the Mission Church. Her soul was clean, if not her body.

Gardener walked to his small home and lifted a loose floorboard under his bed. Underneath were three pistols: two German Mausers in a beechwood box, plus a smaller Paterson model. He had arrived in Old Ditch with these and little else years ago. The sole tether to his old life. He would take them out to clean and oil them every year, only to rest them back beneath the boards. But that day he holstered one of the Mausers and hung the Paterson on a length of wire descending from his left armpit. He pulled on his felt coat and set off.

He did not own a car. But he was adept at hot-wiring them—a trick learned in the sad old, bad old days. He found an unlocked Dodge Dart behind the coin laundromat. Easy as pie, as the Yanks say.

That evening he found the Bilks brothers along the creek ten miles outside Old Ditch. Their car was parked at the end of a rutted wash under the sweeping limbs of an oak tree. Gardener waited until nightfall before creeping up on them. By the light of a harvest moon he could make out a body curled by a guttering fire. He tensed, reaching for his pistol—

He caught a noise in his blind spot—the clicking sound a rider makes to urge a stubborn horse forward. Gardener turned to spy Eldred Bilks sitting in the crotch of a tree with a revolver trained on his chest.

“Lookee, lookee,” he said. “If it isn’t Hopalong Nigger.”

Gardener cursed himself; as a younger man he would not have been so easily ambushed. The second brother awoke and joined his sibling. Their eyes shone with bright avidity, two cruel boys who had come across a crippled bird.

“I seen you around town,” said Horace, the more observant of the two. “Mowing lawns for nickels, huh?”

“I do that, yes,” Gardener said in his smooth British lilt, which took the brothers by surprise. “But I do not come to you under that guise.”

“What the hell—what guys?” said Eldred.

“Hush,” Horace told his brother. His gaze was sharper now. “What guise do we entertain you under, pray tell?”

“I come as a death angel, Horace Bilks. Yes,” he went on, seeing their startled looks, “I know your names. But they will be unattached to you soon enough. I’ve come to kill you, Horace. You and Eldred both.”

The Bilks brothers laughed… until something in Gardener’s eyes rendered their mirth stillborn. They thought they had been dealing with a middle-aged gimp. But it was dawning that they were in the presence of something else—something that had learned to hide its true face.

“You are poor representatives of our species,” Gardener went on. “I do not know how you came to be as such. A man cares not if the mad dog was once a good dog. He cares only that the dog has gone mad and that it must be dispatched.”

Dispatched. This was how Gardener had once viewed his bloody work. Dispassionately, as a mailman viewed his job. The mailman delivered letters into mailboxes. Gardener had once delivered men into coffins.

“You do us a grave disfavor,” said Horace mockingly.

Gardener opened his coat to show them the Mauser holstered on his right side. Horace Bilks angled his head to that same side, the cartilage cracking in his neck, eyes wolfishly set.

“Tell me, nigger,” Eldred said with casual venom, “do you stick up Texaco stations with that lump of pig iron? A-cause we ain’t no Texaco.”

“You joke to cover your fear,” Gardener said. “But I can smell it.”

Eldred’s pistol hand came up, pinning Gardener between the eyes. “I will kill you,” he said bluntly.

“Ah. But will you act honorably?” Gardener asked. “Shall you be sporting, as your forefathers were? The great men who first colonized these empty lands?”

“Wait, are you… are you challenging me to draw?” Eldred barked laughter. “What year do you think this is, y’old fart?”

“How old-fashioned,” said Horace. “But you have to understand, my brother and me, we do everything together.”

“Including raping and mutilating women,” said Gardener.

“Oh hell yeah, especially that,” Horace said. “So what I’m saying is, you’d have to be faster than both Eldred ’n’ me.”

Gardener kept his peace.

“Okeydokey.” Horace cracked his knuckles, enjoying this game.

“You mowed your last blade of grass, jig,” said Eldred.

“Are you square with your creator?” Gardener asked them both. “I can give you some time to make that peace.”

“No need,” said Horace. “It’s you who’s gonna stop breathing.”

Gardener nodded evenly. “Shall we settle on a count of three?”

Eldred holstered his gun. The brothers stood side by side, fingers twitching near the butts of their pistols. The sweat shone on their foreheads like diamond dust.

Gardener’s right hand hovered over his Mauser…

…while his left slipped slyly through a vent on the opposite side of his coat for his hidden gun.

“Who will count?” Gardener said.

“You do the honors there, old man,” Eldred said. “Can you count that high?”

Gardener began. “One…”

He fired the Paterson twice. The slugs ripped through his coat and slammed into the brothers a split second apart. The men staggered and fell into each other, their skulls knocking together. Gardener unholstered the Mauser swiftly and emptied its clip, for he was lethal with either hand. One bullet tore Eldred Bilks’s jaw off, spinning it across the dirt. The man toppled and fell with his tongue hanging out of the fresh hole in his face, purple-rooted and unsettlingly long, like a skinned snake. His brother died with a little more dignity, but he died.

Gardener had used this trick in his old life. It wasn’t sporting, but then neither was dragging young girls down gravel roads by a trailer hitch.

It was this night—the night he’d killed the Bilks brothers—that Gardener mused upon as he sat in Clayton Suggs’s bar with a scorpion’s stinger buried in his hand. He had killed many men in his lifetime, both deserving and less so. The fact rested uneasily within him, yet he could do nothing to dislodge those acts from his past.

“There is a sect of monks who make an art of the act of self-flagellation.” Gardener squinted at Suggs, the venom and liquor blurring his sight. “Do you know this word, Mr. Suggs? Flagellation?”

Suggs swallowed with great effort. “I do not.”

Gardener poured himself another drink. He gripped the glass with his scorpioned hand this time, raising that hand to his mouth. The Deathstalker thrashed, pincers snapping. Gardener drank. His hand did not shake.

“They thrash themselves, yes?” he said. “Using short, many-tongued whips tipped with metal spurs. They walk the streets, uttering psalms and rending their flesh. The gutters run red with blood. It’s penance, Mr. Suggs. They do so to alleviate the stain of sin from their corporeal body, letting those sins escape through the flesh.”

“Your neck, man,” Suggs said queasily. “It is plainly bloated. I’m thinking it’ll make breathing a chore.”

“Penance is a very human need, Mr. Suggs. Yet I fear it is useless. A man does things in his life. Things he cannot repay or outrun. That man can spend the rest of his life paying and running, but he can never quite find the required distance. The toll is too high, because that man set it that way.”

Gardener reached over the bar and coiled his fingers around Suggs’s wrist. Suggs stared down at the man’s fingers, hard as obsidian, digging into him. It was all he could do not to cry out.

“Do you understand, Mr. Suggs? Do you share my view on this matter?”

When Gardener released him, Clayton Suggs fled the Glory. Gardener let him go. Perhaps he would run to the pharmacy and return with antivenom. But the sting of a scorpion wasn’t nearly enough to kill Gardener. There were some things, terrible things, that preferred to kill you slowly—over a lifetime, or perhaps even longer.

He wished Suggs had not left. He wanted to tell him of the dream he’d had just last night. It was the same one he had dreamed every night for the past fifteen years. He awoke each morning with his skin screaming as the terror fled from his veins.

In this dream, he saw the face of God. For this had been his wish—the deal he’d made with that thing that lurked in the black rock.

Show me the face of God.

And Gardener saw it. Every time he closed his goddamn eyes.

God’s face was vile. The first few times, Gardener had suspected trickery—the black thing invading his head and twisting his thoughts. But in time, his soul moved against this proposition. He had been granted his wish fairly. And now he had to live with it.

God’s face was that of an idiot. The moronic, drooling, palsied face of an enormous infant. A face covered in seeping boils and a-crawl with insects not to be found anywhere in nature. God’s eyes stared with malicious cruelty—and there was vast power in that gaze, yes, although it was witlessly applied. That gaze took aim at anyone, disregarding goodness or worth. It ruined people chaotically, without wisdom or just cause. This was the purest terror Gardener felt each time he shut his eyes: at the fact that the universe was lorded over by an infant of incalculable wrath and directionless evil who had not the slightest sense of right or wrong, guilt or innocence, or the hope of a better life.

And all of humanity worshipped that mindless, gibbering thing.

When he awoke this very morning, Gardener had found the scorpion sunning itself on the front steps of his home. As if it had been waiting for him. And Gardener had known, with a certainty that lived someplace outside his flesh, that his old friend was coming. With that, he understood that the days marking his existence could perhaps be counted on the fingers of two hands. Perhaps only one.

Pinching with his fingers, he finally released the scorpion’s stinger from his flesh.

“Go on, now,” he said to it, setting it on the floor. “You have had an eventful day.”