Komarr

CHAPTER THIRTEEN

Ekaterin seated herself at the comconsole in her workroom and began to triage the shambles of her life. It was actually simpler than her first fears had supposed-there was so little of it, after all. How did I grow so small?

She made a list of her resources. At the top, and most vital: medical care for the dependents of a deceased project employee was guaranteed till the end of the quarter, a few weeks away yet. A time window, of sorts. She counted the days in her head. It would be time enough for Nikki, if she didn’t waste any.

A few hundred marks remained in her household account, and a few hundred marks in Tien’s. Her use of this apartment also ran till the end of the quarter, when she must vacate it to make way for the next administrator to be appointed to Tien’s position. That was fine; she didn’t want to stay here longer. No pension, of course. She grimaced. Guaranteed passage back to Barrayar, unavailable while Tien was alive, was due her and Nikki as another death benefit, and thank heavens Tien hadn’t figured out how to cash that in.

The physical objects she owned were more burden than asset, given that she must transport them by jumpship. The free weight limit was not generous. She’d apportion Nikki the bulk of their weight allowance; his little treasures meant more to him than most of her larger ones did to her. It was stupid to let herself feel overwhelmed by a few rooms of things she’d been willing to abandon altogether bare hours ago. She could still abandon them, if she chose. She’d frequented a certain secondhand shop in a seedier part of the dome to clothe herself and Nikki. She could sell Tien’s clothing and ordinary effects there, a chore which need only take a few hours. For herself, she longed to travel light.

On the other side of the ledger, her debts too were simple, if overwhelming. First were the twenty thousand marks Tien had borrowed and not paid back. Then-was she honor-bound, for the sake of Vor pride and Nikki’s family name, to make restitution to the Imperium for the bribe money Tien had accepted? Well, you can’t do it today. Pass on to what you can do.

She had researched the medical resources on Komarr for treating genetic disorders till the information had worn grooves in her brain, fantasized solutions that Tien’s paranoias-and his legal control of his heir-had blocked her from carrying out. Technically, Nikki’s legal guardian now was some male third cousin of Tien’s back on Barrayar whom Ekaterin had never met. Nikki not being heir to a fortune or a Countship, the transfer of his guardianship back to her was probably hers for the asking. She would deal with that legal kink later, too. For now, it took her something under nine minutes to contact the top clinic on Komarr, in Solstice, and browbeat them into setting up Nikki’s first appointment for the day after tomorrow, instead of the five weeks from today they first tried to offer her.

Yes.

So simple. She shook with a spasm of rage, at Tien, and at herself. This could have been done months ago, when they’d first come to Komarr, as easily as this, if only she’d mustered the courage to defy Tien.

Next she must notify Tien’s mother, his closest living relative. Ekaterin could leave it to her to spread the news to Tien’s more distant relatives back on Barrayar. Not feeling up to recording a vid message, she put it in writing, hoping it would not appear too cold. An accident with a breath mask, which Tien had failed to check. Nothing about the Komarrans, nothing about the embezzlement, nothing to which ImpSec could object. Tien’s mother might never need to know of Tien’s dishonor. Ekaterin humbly requested her preferences as to ceremonies and the disposition of the remains. Most likely she would want them returned to Barrayar to bury beside Tien’s brother. Ekaterin could not help imagining her own feelings, in some future scene, if she entrusted Nikki to his bride with all bright promise only to have him returned to her later as a heap of ashes in a box. With a note. No, she would have to see this through in person. All that also must come later. She sent the message on its way.

The physical was easy; she could be finished and packed in a week. The financial was… no, not impossible, just not possible to solve at once. Presumably she must take out a loan on longer terms to pay off the first one-assuming anyone would loan money to a destitute and unemployed widow. Tien’s antilegacy clouded the glimmerings of the new future she ached to claim for herself. She imagined a bird, released from ten years in a cage, told she could at last fly free-as soon as these lead weights were attached to her feet.

This bird’s going to get there if she has to walk every step.

The comconsole chimed, startling her from this determined reverie. A man, soberly dressed in the Komarran style, appeared over the vid-plate at her touch. He wasn’t anyone she knew from Tien’s department.

“How do you do, ma’am,” he said, looking at her uncertainly. “My name is Ser Anafi, and I represent the Rialto Sharemarket Agency. I’m trying to reach Etienne Vorsoisson.”

She recognized the name of the company whose money Tien had lost on the trade fleet shares. “He’s… not available. I’m Madame Vorsoisson. What is your question?”

Anafi’s gaze at her grew more stern. “This is the fourth reminder notice of his outstanding loan balance, now overdue. He must either pay in full, or take immediate action to set up a new repayment schedule.”

“How do you normally set up such a schedule?”

Anafi appeared surprised at this measured response. Had he dealt with Tien before this? He unbent slightly, leaning back in his chair. “Well… we normally calculate a percentage of the customer’s salary, mitigated by any available collateral they may be able to offer.”

I have no salary. I have no possessions. Anafi, she suspected, would not be pleased to learn this. “Tien… died in an accident last night. Things are in some disarray here today.”

Anafi looked taken aback. “Oh. I’m sorry, Madame,” he managed.

“I don’t suppose… was the loan insured?”

“I’ll check, Madame Vorsoisson. Let us hope…” Anafi turned to his comconsole; after a moment, he frowned. “I’m sorry to say, it was not.”

Ah, Tien. “How should I pay it back?”

Anafi was silent a long moment, as if thinking. “If you would be willing to cosign for the loan, I could set up a payment schedule today for you.”

“You can do that?”

At a tentative knock on the door frame of her workroom, she glanced around. Lord Vorkosigan had returned and stood leaning in the opening. How long had he been standing there? He gestured inside, and she nodded. He walked in and eyed Anafi over her shoulder. “Who is this guy?” he murmured.

“His name’s Anafi. He’s from the company Tien owes for the fleet shares loan.”

“Ah. Allow me.” He stepped up to the comconsole and tapped in a code. The view split, and a gray-haired man with colonel’s tabs and Eye-of-Horus pins on his green uniform collar appeared.

“Colonel Gibbs,” said Lord Vorkosigan genially. “I have some more data for you regarding Administrator Vorsoisson’s financial affairs. Ser Anafi, meet Colonel Gibbs. ImpSec. He has a few questions for you. Good day.”

“ImpSec!” said Anafi in startled horror. “ImpSec? What does-” He blipped out at Lord Vorkosigan’s flourishing gesture.

“No more Anafi,” he said, with some satisfaction. “Not for the next several days, anyway.”

“Now, was that nice?” asked Ekaterin, amused in spite of herself. “They loaned that money to Tien in all good faith.”

“Nevertheless, don’t sign anything till you take legal advice. If you knew nothing of the loan, it’s possible Tien’s estate is liable for it, and not you. His creditors must squabble with each other for the pieces, and when it’s gone, it’s gone.”

“But there’s nothing in Tien’s estate but debts.” And dishonor.

“Then the squabble will be short.”

“But is it fair?”

“Death is an ordinary business risk-in some businesses more than others, of course…”He smiled briefly. “Ser Anafi was getting ready to have you sign on the spot. This suggests to me that he was perfectly aware of his risk, and thought he might hustle you into taking over a debt not rightfully yours while you were still in shock. Not fair. In fact, not ethical at all. Yes, I think we can leave him to ImpSec.”

This was all rather high-handed, but… it was hard not to respond to the enthusiastic glint in Vorkosigan’s eye as he’d annihilated her adversary.

“Thank you, Lord Vorkosigan. But I really need to learn how to do these things for myself.”

“Oh, yes,” he agreed without the least hesitation. “I wish Tsipis were here. He’s been my family’s man of business for thirty years. He adores tutoring the uninitiated. If I could turn him loose on you, you’d be up to speed in no time, and he’d be just ecstatic. I’m afraid he found me a frustrating pupil in my youth. I only wanted to learn about the military. He finally managed to smuggle in some economic education by presenting it as logistics and supply problems.” He leaned against the comconsole desk, and crossed his arms, and tilted his head. “Do you think you will be returning to Barrayar anytime soon?”

“Just as soon as I possibly can. I can hardly bear being in this place.”

“I think I understand. Where, ah, would you go, on Barrayar?”

She stared broodingly at the empty vid-plate. “I’m not sure yet. Not to my father’s household.” To be crammed back into the status of a child again… She pictured herself arriving penniless and without resources, to batten upon her father or one of her brothers. They’d let her batten, all right, generously, but they would also act as if her dependence deprived her of rights and dignity and even intelligence. They would then arrange her life for her own good… “I’m sure I’d be welcome, but I’m afraid his solution to my problems would be to try to marry me off again. The idea makes me gag, just now.”

“Oh,” said Lord Vorkosigan.

A brief silence fell.

“What would you do if you could do anything?” he asked suddenly. “No limited resources to juggle, no practical considerations. Anything at all.”

“I don’t… I usually start with the possible, and pare away from there.”

“Try for more scope.” A vague wave of his arm taking in the planet from zenith to horizon indicated his idea of scope.

She thought back, all the way back, to the point in her life where she had made that fatal wrong turn. So many years lost. “Well. I suppose… I would go back to university. But this time, I’d know what I was about. Formal training in horticulture and in art, for garden design; chemistry and biochemistry and botany and genetic manipulation. Real expertise, the kind that means you can’t be intimidated or, or… persuaded to go along with something stupid because you think everyone in the universe knows more than you do.” She frowned ruefully.

“So you could design gardens for pay?”

“More than that.” Her eyes narrowed, as she struggled for her inner vision.

“Planets? Terraforming?”

“Oh, good heavens. That training takes ten years, and another ten years of internship beyond it, before you can even begin to grasp the complexities.”

“So? They have to hire someone. Good God, they hired Tien.”

“He was only an administrator.” She shook her head, daunted.

“All right,” he said cheerfully. “Bigger than a garden, smaller than a planet. That still leaves sufficient scope, I’d say. A Barrayaran District could be a good start. One with incomplete terraforming, say, and, and forestry projects, and, oh, damaged land reclamation, and a crying need for a touch of beauty. And,” he went on, “you could work up to planets.”

She had to laugh. “What is this obsession with planets? Will nothing smaller do, for you?”

“Elli Qu-a friend of mine used to say, ‘Aim high. You may still miss the target but at least you won’t shoot your foot off.’” His grin winked at her. He hesitated, then said more slowly, “You know… your father and brothers aren’t your only relatives. The Professor and the Professora are boundless in their enthusiasm for education. You can’t convince me they wouldn’t be pleased to shelter you and Nikki in their home while you got your new start. And you’d be right there in Vorbarr Sultana, practically next door to the University and, um, everything. Good schools for Nikki.”

She sighed. “It would be such a lovely change for him to stay in one place for a while. He could finally cultivate friends he wouldn’t have to abandon. But… I’ve come to despise dependency.”

He eyed her shrewdly. “Because it betrayed you?”

“Or lured me into betraying myself.”

“Mm. But surely there is a qualitative difference between, um, a greenhouse and a cryo-chamber. Both provide shelter, but the first promotes growth, while the second merely, um…” He seemed to have become a little tangled in his metaphor.

“Retards decay?” Ekaterin politely tried to help unwind him.

“Just so.” His brief grin again. “Anyway, I’m pretty sure the Professors are a human greenhouse. All those students-they’re used to people growing up and moving on. They regard it as normal. I’d think you’d like it there.” He wandered to her window and glanced out.

“I did like it there,” she admitted wistfully.

“Then it all sounds perfectly possible to me. Good, that’s settled. Have you had lunch?”

“What?” She laughed, and clutched her hair.

“Lunch,” he repeated, deadpan. “Many people eat it at about this time of day.”

“You’re mad,” she said with conviction, ignoring this willful piece of misdirection. “Do you always dispose of people’s futures in that offhand fashion?”

“Only when I’m hungry.”

She gave up. “I suppose I have something I can fix-”

“Certainly not!” he said indignantly. “I sent a minion. I just spotted him returning across the park, with a very promising large bag. The guards have to eat too, you see.”

She contemplated, briefly, the spectacle of a man who casually sent ImpSec for carry-out. There probably were security concerns about meals on duty, at that. She let Vorkosigan shepherd her into her own kitchen, where they selected from a dozen containers. Ekaterin snitched a flaky apricot tart to set aside for Nikki, and they sent the remainder to the living room for the guards to picnic off. The only thing Vorkosigan permitted her to do was supply fresh tea.

“Did you find out anything new this morning?” she asked him, when they were settled at the table. She tried not to think about her last conversation here with Tien. Oh, yes, I want to go home. “Any word on Soudha and Foscol?”

“Not yet. Part of me expects ImpSec to catch up with them at any moment. Part of me… is not so optimistic. I keep wondering just how long they had to plan their departure.”

“Well… I don’t think they were expecting Imperial Auditors to arrive in Serifosa. That, at least, came as a surprise to them.”

“Hm. Ah! I know why this whole thing feels so odd. It’s as though my entire brain is suffering a time lag, and it’s not just the bloody seizures. I’m on the wrong side. I’m on the damned defense, not the offense. One step behind all the time, reacting not acting-and I’m horribly afraid it may be an intrinsic condition of my new job.” He downed a bite of sandwich. “Unless I can sell Gregor on the idea of an Auditor Provocateur… Well, anyway, I did have one idea, which I propose to spring on your uncle when he gets downside.” He paused; silence fell. After a moment he added, “If you make an encouraging noise, I’ll go on.”

He’d caught her with her mouth full. “Hmm?”

“Lovely, yes. You see, suppose… suppose this thing of Soudha’s is more than a mere embezzlement scheme. Maybe they were diverting all those Imperial funds to support a real research and development project, although nothing to do with Waste Heat Management. It may be a prejudice of my military background, but I keep thinking they might have been building a weapon. Some new variation on the gravitic imploder lance, I don’t know.” He gulped tea.

“I never had the impression that Soudha or any of the other Komarrans in the Terraforming Project were very military-minded. Quite the opposite.”

“They needn’t be, for an act of sabotage. Some grand stupid vile gesture-I keep worrying about Gregor’s wedding coming up.”

“Soudha isn’t grandiose,” said Ekaterin slowly. “Nor vile, particularly.” She didn’t doubt that Tien’s death had been unintended.

“Nor stupid.” Vorkosigan sighed regretfully. “I merely suggest that timetable to make myself nervous. Keeps me awake. But suppose it was a weapon. Did they perhaps attack that ore ship, as a test? Vile enough. Did their smoke test go very wrong? Was the subsequent damage to the mirror accidental, or deliberate? Or was it the other way around? The condition of Radovas’s body suggests something backfired. A falling-out among thieves? Anyway, to anchor this spate of speculation to some sort of physical fact, I plan to get a list of every piece of equipment Soudha bought for his department, subtract from it everything they left there, and produce a parts list for their secret weapon. At this point my brilliance fails, and I plan to dump it on your uncle.”

“Oh!” said Ekaterin. “He’ll like that. He’ll growl at you.”

“Is that a good sign?”

“Yes.”

“Hm. So, positing a secret-weapon sabotage-attack… how close are they to success? I keep coming back-sorry-to Foscol’s odd behavior in providing that data packet of evidence against Tien. It seems to proclaim: it doesn’t matter if the Komarrans are incriminated, because-fill in the blank. Because why? Because they will not be here to suffer the consequences? That suggests flight, which runs counter to the weapon hypothesis, which requires that they linger to use it.”

“Or that they believed you would not be here to inflict the consequences,” said Ekaterin. Had they meant Vorkosigan to die, too? Or… what?

“Oh, nice. That’s reassuring.” He bit rather aggressively into the last of his sandwich.

She rested her chin on her hand and regarded him with wry curiosity. “Does ImpSec know you babble like this?”

“Only when I’m very tired. Besides, I like to think out loud. It slows it down so I can get a good look at it. It gives you some idea of what living in my head is like. I admit, very few people can stand to listen at length.” He shot her an odd sideways look. Indeed, whenever his animation slowed-which was not often-a gray weariness flashed underneath. “Anyway, you encouraged me. You sang Hmm.”

She stared in amused indignation and refused to rise to the bait.

“Sorry,” he said in a smaller voice. “I think I’m a little disoriented just now.” He gave her an apologetic grimace. “I actually came back here to rest. Is that not sensible of me? I must be getting old.”

Both their lives were out of phase with their chronological ages, Ekaterin realized bemusedly. She now possessed the education of a child and the status of a dowager. Vorkosigan… was young for his post, to be sure. But this whole posthumous second life of his was surely as old as you could be at any age. “Time is out of joint,” she murmured; he looked up sharply, and seemed about to speak.

Voices from the vestibule interrupted whatever he’d been about to say. Ekaterin’s head turned. “Tuomonen, so soon?”

“Do you want to put this off?” Vorkosigan asked her.

She shook her head. “No. I want to get it over with. I want to go get Nikki.”

“Ah.” He drained his tea mug and rose, and they both went out to her living room. It was indeed Captain Tuomonen. He nodded to Vorkosigan, and greeted her politely. He had brought a female medtech with him, in the uniform of the Barrayaran military medical auxiliary, whom he also introduced. She carried a medkit, which she placed on the round table and opened. Ampoules and hyposprays glittered in their gel slots. Other first-aid supplies hinted at more sinister possibilities.

Tuomonen indicated Ekaterin should sit on the circular couch. “Are you ready, Madame Vorsoisson?”

“I suppose so.” Ekaterin watched with concealed fear and some loathing as the medtech loaded her hypospray and showed it to Tuomonen to cross-check.

The medtech laid a second hypospray out at the ready, and pulled a small, burr-like patch off a plastic strip. “Would you hold out your wrist, Madame?”

Ekaterin did so; the woman pressed the allergy test patch firmly against her skin, then peeled it up again. She continued to hold Ekaterin’s wrist while she marked time on her chrono. Her fingers were dry and cold.

Tuomonen dispatched the two guards to the perimeter, namely the hallway and the balcony, and set up a vid recorder on a tripod. He then turned to Vorkosigan, and with a rather odd emphasis, said, “May I remind you, Lord Vorkosigan, that more than one questioner can create unnecessary confusion in a fast-penta interrogation.”

Vorkosigan gave him an acknowledging hand wave. “Quite. I know the drill. Go ahead, Captain.”

Tuomonen glanced at the medtech, who stared closely at Ekaterin’s wrist, then released it. “She’s clear,” the woman reported.

“Proceed, please.”

At the medtech’s direction, Ekaterin rolled up her sleeve. The hypospray hissed against her skin with a cold bite.

Count backwards slowly from ten,” Tuomonen told her.

“Ten,” Ekaterin said obediently. “Nine… eight… seven…”