Golden State

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This is a novel.

All of the words of it are true.

The extraordinary events detailed herein were either experienced firsthand by the author or, when relayed second- or thirdhand, have been double-checked (triple-, where possible), verified, and certified by the relevant departments, and substantiated through the reading of testimony, examination of material evidence, and review of relevant reality. All of the supporting documents and extant evidence are available upon request in the appropriate offices; physical addresses are included as an appendix.

This is a novel. All of these events occurred as described. It’s all on the Record.

Though the author is a character in the events that follow, he claims no part of the glory it reflects. All glory belongs to the heroic Speculator, Mr. Ratesic, whose perseverance and heroism are on display throughout.

This author is loath to resort to set phrases like “He made the ultimate sacrifice in service to the State,” conscious as he is of the care we all must take not to fumble by cliché into accidental lies. But in this case, there can be no other conclusion. In service to the State, Mr. Ratesic made the ultimate sacrifice.

Willingly, and conscious of mounting dangers to his person, and despite numerous opportunities to save himself, he continued unflinching in his brave pursuit of the wickedness he had discovered, and ultimately was successful in foiling a grave assault upon the State—all at the hazard of his own health and safety.

And so, though the primary purpose of this novel is the same as that of all other novels, to entertain the mind and excite the spirit, in this case there is a deeper truth, one level down: this work is meant to serve as a legacy to Mr. Ratesic, the hero of its pages. It is a testament to him, and I hope it can serve as an inspiration not only to his fellows in Service, but to all our citizenry. Let this novel stand like a statue of Mr. Ratesic, a tribute to as well as a reminder of the lengths that are sometimes necessary to hold up the several bulwarks of the State, and a reminder of what is at stake if they should fall.

1.

Somebody’s telling lies in here, and it’s making it hard to eat.

In a perfect world, a man should be able to sit down at a favorite spot and eat his breakfast without the weight of professional obligation coming down on him, ruining his morning, pulling him right into the thick of it before he can so much as get a good hot sip of coffee.

But the world has never been accused of being perfect, has it, and so here we are and here is what actually happens—here is reality. No sooner has Honey the waitress slid my steaming breakfast plate down in front of me, right next to a piping hot cup of mountain-grown, than I catch a small dissonance in the air—the barest ripple, the softest whisper—but it can’t be ignored. My body won’t let me ignore it. The burble catches in my throat, my eyes prick with tears, and I put down my fork and say “Shit.”

The dissonance is close but not that close. It’s not at the booth directly behind me, where an old man and his old wife are discussing in their old slow voices the quality of their oatmeal: she thinks it’s worse than it used to be, he thinks it’s better, but both are speaking honestly.

They are both talking true, but someone in here is not.

I’m definitely too conscious of it, too aware to just carry on eating my chicken and waffles, which is a real shame, because this is Terry’s we’re talking about, this is fried chicken and waffles, and although there are three chicken-and-waffle chains in the city, Terry’s is in my veteran estimation by far the best, and the Pico-Robertson Terry’s is the best of all the Terry’s locations.

I get up. I push away my plate, lay down today’s copy of Trusted Authority, and heave my weight up out of the banquette and just stand still, very still, in the middle of the restaurant, rummaging for a source. Lot of people talking in here so it’s gonna take me a minute. Terry’s is crowded all the time, but most especially at breakfast time, and it’s breakfast time now, peak of the a.m. rush, every booth and table jammed, maybe forty or forty-five boisterous conversations overlapping, blending in with the tinny tingtang of the silverware, the sizzle of the griddle, a radio playing boisterous piano jazz, even the slow whoosh of the overhead fans, their wide beveled blades slowly pushing the July air around in circles.

I close my eyes, concentrate, try to find the sound among the sounds. Tease through the conversations for the one I’m after: Did you hear what Louis said about Albert… and I am so sick of all this… and You’re kidding me, you are fucking kidding me, you have got to try this. Somewhere in this atmosphere, cluttered with chatter, someone’s dissembling in a steady stream, a steady diffusion of false statements like an open gas line. I step away from my back-corner booth, one step toward the center of the restaurant, steal a sad glance back at my plate. The chicken is good, but it’s really the waffles that have to be tasted to be believed. They are cold now. And soon, so, too, the chicken.

I take another slow step forward, tuning in the various conversations, one by one. A couple of sharply dressed businessmen, both of them leaning so far forward their heads are almost touching—“There is money to be made here, Paul, real money…”—and then Paul in gruff dissent: “The last time you told me that…” Whatever the details of the deal, neither of them is lying about it. There’s a couple young folk seated across from each other, each of them leafing through a copy of Trusted Authority, not talking at all.

At the big center table, there’s a funny, flirty waitress I know whose name is Ava, and she’s delivering an encomium to today’s special—a three-egg omelet, with jalapeños sliced into it along with red and green peppers—and I don’t know if it’s really good or not, but I can tell you that Ava really thinks it is, because from my position—I’m now standing near the dead center of the main dining room—I can hear every word of her testimony about the special and it doesn’t trouble me, it slides past like warm water. Whether the three-egg omelet is tasty or not, Ava believes it to be so.

So—

—there. There.

My eyes open back up, quick and completely.

At a table along the right-side wall, underneath the TV, are three people in a tense conversation, their voices urgent and streaked with emotion. They’re talking over each other, exchanging accusations, interrupting, apologizing, going round and round. One is a woman of late middle age, a pretty face but exhausted, eyes deep set and dark, freckles on her nose, hair thick and curly, some of it gray. She’s sharing the booth with a pair of broad-shouldered young men, both in ball caps, both sharing the woman’s robust good looks and black eyes. Two sons. A mom and her two grown children right in the middle of some kind of emotional set-to, talking fast, talking over each other, talking at once, and—ah, the air is rolling now, the dissonance is a shimmer on the scene—definitely one of them is lying. At least one.

“I’m not trying to blame anybody. If anything, I blame myself—”

“Mom, stop it. Seriously, stop. That is the last—”

“Eddie, give her a second. Give her a second to talk.”

“You’re interrupting me.”

“You’re interrupting her—”

“Hi. Hello. Excuse me.” I step closer. I jam my hands into my pockets. “The Earth is in orbit around the sun.”

There’s a voice I use in situations like this: cool and calm, firm and definitive, authoritative but not aggressive. It gets the result I want: everybody draws down to a hush. Everybody looks at me at once. It’s like I’ve pulled a curtain around the four of us, here at this table along the wall.

“Hello,” says the woman. “And the Moon is in orbit around the Earth.”

“Always has it been.”

“Always shall it be.”

She takes a deep breath. Keeps her eyes on mine. The sons glance at each other.

“How are you folks doing this morning?”

“We’re okay. We’re just fine.”

That’s one of the two boys. Now all three of them are looking up at me with the same stunned expression, me looming over them like a dark planet blocking the sun.

“I’m sorry to bother you folks, but I overheard your conversation.”

The restaurant has gone quiet. People are looking at us, nudging each other—Look. The old man and his old wife have set down their spoons and are watching, waiting to see what happens. I take out my Day Book, take out my pen, click it open. The mom blinks, and her lips are pursed and there is emotion in her eyes, a little fear and a little confusion. It’s a strange feeling, sometimes, to be seen the way I know that I am seen—the way the world reacts to my presence. But it’s part of the job and it helps. You want to have control of a situation. You want to have people focused on you. You want to know that they know that it’s serious.

“I hate to bother you folks. But I was eating my own breakfast just over there—” I point back over to my booth, but all the while I am keeping my eyes carefully on the table, on the three participants in this conversation, making my quiet assessment of who the liar or liars are among them. “And I found that I was troubled by the presence of dishonesty in the atmosphere.”

“What?” says the mother.

“No…” begins one of the sons; the other is just looking down. “That’s…”

I wait a moment, one eyebrow cocked. That’s what? But nobody finishes the sentence.

It’s the mom, the lady, who speaks next. “How do you—why would you say that?”

“It’s not an accusation, ma’am,” I tell her. “It’s not a matter of opinion. It is part of what is Objectively So.”

My voice remains composed, reasonable. You gotta keep these things calm for as long as possible. That’s important. In a moment or two, someone is going to confess, or someone is going to do something stupid. There aren’t any other ways this thing goes.

I smile, but I know that even my smile can at times appear less than friendly. I’m over six two and over 260 pounds—how far over 260 varies depending on (for example) how recently I’ve been to Terry’s. I’m in the unofficial uniform of my service, black suit and black tie, black boots, and a battered pinhole with the brim angled slightly down. My hair is thick and red and I wear a big beard, thick and unkempt, not for any visual effect but because I’m too lazy to shave.

“Can I ask your name, please?”

“Kelly.”

“Your full name, ma’am.”

“Kelly Tarjin. Elizabeth. My middle name is Elizabeth.”

“So Kelly Elizabeth Tarjin?”

“Yeah. Right. Do you want to see my identifications?”

“No, Ms. Tarjin. That’s not necessary.”

I don’t need to see her identifications. Even in the general discomfort I’m feeling over here by the liar’s table, her asseveration of her name doesn’t add to the discordance. Maybe she was lying to the others just now, but she’s not lying to me right now. I can tell. When it’s bad, it gets bad. Two days ago I had a guy on a false claim, a guy begging at 4th and Alameda with a hungry and homeless sign, though he was neither, a guy who then clung to his demonstrable untruths even when contrary evidence was presented, stood there proclaiming and reproclaiming his lies, swearing to them until the air was so thick I felt it way down in my throat, like a clot in a drain.

“These are your sons, Ms. Tarjin?”

“Yes. Todd and Eddie. Edward.”

“Hey,” says one of them. Todd. They’re both looking at me, both of them wary, both of them uncertain. I cough once, into my fist.

“And what are you folks discussing this morning?”

The boys glance at each other. Ms. Tarjin taps one hand on the table, next to her plate.

“Well,” she says finally, and then one of the sons interrupts: “It’s personal.”

I smile. “I’m afraid it’s not anymore.”

I want to keep everybody cool for as long as possible. Keep the situation in neutral. I have other voices I use in other situations.

“Yes, sir. Of course.” That’s Mom, that’s Ms. Tarjin, who is afraid. You can tell she’s afraid. I don’t want her to be afraid, I don’t want anyone to be afraid of me, I’m like anyone else, even though it’s not me she’s afraid of, it’s the clothes and the position, it’s the black pinhole with the felt brim, it’s the boots, the outfit metonymic for the whole system of which I am a representative. Still, nobody likes to make other people fearful.

But the atmosphere continues in its roil. It’s here. It’s close. I cough again.

“We were talking about some… some uh…” The woman, the mom, she’s choosing her words carefully. That’s what folks do, with me standing here, all the weight of what I am, me looming like a dark planet. It’s okay. I’m patient. “We were just having a conversation about some medication of mine.”

“Medication.”

“Yes, sir.”

“What kind of medication is that?”

“Dreams—that’s all. For dreams.” She has lowered her voice, as if it were possible for us to speak confidentially. As if everybody in the room weren’t listening by now, customers and waiters gawking, fascinated; as if the place wasn’t bristling, too, with captures—captures in the ceiling fans, captures on the kitchen’s large appliances, the pinhole that constantly captures my own personal POV. The whole world under constant surveillance, everything on the Record, reality in progress. “I take Clarify, that’s all.”

“Oh. Well, that’s all right.”

While I write it in my Day Book, Ms. Tarjin swallows, swallows again. “Dream control, you know. Prescribed. To reduce or—how does it go?—to reduce or eliminate the confusing effects of dreams in my waking life. I have the prescription. Do you—” She glances at her purse, and I shake my head, raise a hand—That’s not necessary. I don’t think she’s lying about being prescribed the dream dampener. The boys, meanwhile, are stock-still, frozen by some combination of protective impulse and fear for their own safety. In another moment, no doubt, I’m gonna know which guy has more of which. Like I said: either someone confesses or someone does something dumb. That’s how it always ends.

“And your supply of Clarify,” I venture, “has it perhaps been coming up a little short?”

“Yes.” She swallows. “That’s right.”

I write in my Day Book.

“And so the conversation you’re having here, that’s you asking the boys if they happen to know where your surplus dream meds might have gotten to?”

She lowers her head.

“Mom, you don’t have to answer all these questions.” That’s Eddie, the smaller of the brothers, giving his voice some spine.

“Well, she does, actually. She does.” He glares at me, his face tight with anger, and I gaze back at him impassively.

It’s dead quiet in here now. No waitresses are taking orders. No one is chitchatting in their own booth. Somebody has killed the jazz radio in the kitchen. Everybody is staring at us, at the big man in his blacks, towering over the three-top by the front window. And, you know, this is my nineteenth year doing this job and there’s something I’ve learned, which is that you can talk however calmly and reassuringly you want to, but people are gonna hear your words colored by their own feelings, by their own anxiety or fear or impatience.

“Tell me the rest,” I say to Ms. Tarjin.

“Mom—”

“No, Eddie,” I say. “You keep quiet, son. I’m gonna talk to your mom a minute. Don’t obfuscate.” I shift on my feet, turn out, so I’m talking as much to Ms. Tarjin as to the boys. “A lie hidden in a shell of truth is a lie just the same, and I will know it.”

“I was afraid that my son Eddie was stealing my pills.”

“Mom!”

“But—but—” She looks at the boys, and Eddie is looking at me, coldly furious, and Todd is inspecting the backs of his hands. “But Todd says it wasn’t Eddie. Todd says it was him.”

“It was, Mom. It was me.” Todd looks up, presses a hand to his chest. “It was, okay?”

She gives him a look I can only half see because the air is bending, the air is bent, and she says, “I thought it was Eddie because Eddie had been at the house but Todd told me that I had it wrong. So we’re getting it straightened out. That’s all. It’s not a matter for, for”—she meets my eye, very briefly—“for your department.”

“Oh,” I say, “I see,” and I look at the family looking back and I am feeling it now, and I know right where it is, and Todd knows that I know and he jumps, grabs the back of the booth in a pivot, and runs for it.

I huff once, like a bull, and go after him.

He slams open the door and I catch it before it closes, hollering “Stand back, friends” as I charge out onto Pico Boulevard just behind him, slamming into a small flock of businessmen that Todd has just managed to dance around, scattering them in their lightweight summer suits like blue-breasted birds.

“Sorry, fellas,” I say over my shoulder, grabbing on to my hat with one hand and steaming after Todd, four or five feet behind him, head down, body like a truck, my black boots slamming onto the sidewalk.

I like this part. It’s not the part of the job that people talk about, but it’s the part I like: pure law enforcement, my feet in the boots and the boots on the ground, me breathing heavy and charging after a liar.

He’s got no chance because I will catch him, and even if I can’t—and I will catch him, because giving chase is part of the job and I am competent and confident in all aspects of my employment—but even if by some miracle he gives me the slip, the captures are on: captures on every corner, captures in every doorway, forging history, putting us on the Record. Reality in progress.

I’ll catch him or we’ll requisition the stretches, scour the Record, trace him to where he’s gone. Plus, the thing is, I know these streets, I know this block of Pico and every block of Mid-City all the way till it hits downtown, and I know what’s coming up. There’s an alley mouth three more doors down, between the strip club and the hardware store, and it’s going to sing out to this desperate kid like his own true love, like a sure-thing escape hatch, which I know damn well it is not.

Todd, dancing around a lady and her dog, bounces off a parking meter, loses his balance for half a second, and I grab the scruff of his T-shirt, shout “Come on, man!,” but he wriggles free of my ham of a hand and—sure as shooting—flings his narrow body up the little alley next to the topless bar, and I race after him, breathing hard, slowing down a little, slipping on the uneven ground, the pavement slick with garbage juice and discarded sheets of Authority.

“Train’s coming, Todd,” I say between heavy breaths, just loud enough for him to hear me.

“What?” he says, but he can see it now—the yellow flash of the warning light at the end of the alley, where it lets out onto the light-rail tracks. He turns, cursing, staring at me, shaking as the gate arm lowers behind him. He raises his left hand and it’s got a gun in it—oh, this fucking kid. A gun? What has he got a gun for? His brother is the drug thief.

Everybody’s got their secrets, I suppose. He points the gun at me but I keep coming. I have a gun of my own, of course. We all carry heat. But I leave it in my pocket. Closing the distance between us. The alley is short, noxious with the stink of trash and the midsummer city. Just bricks on one side, just the blacked-out windows of the strip club on the other.

“I’ll kill you, man,” says Todd, loud over the rattle and rush of the train. “I swear I will.”

“You’re not going to kill me.” He’s lying. I know and he knows that I know. “No more, Todd, okay? No more.”

By the time I close the distance he’s lowered the gun. He drops it and I kick it away, take him calmly by the shoulder and clap him into the cuffs and turn him around, push him against the bricks of the hardware store. The last rattling car of the commuter train goes past, revealing a scrum of strangers on the far side of the tracks, watching me gently place this poor young liar in cuffs. Catching my breath, I tug out my radio and get a line in to the regular police, and by the time the sirens start to sing their way closer, a crowd has gathered and Ms. Tarjin and the other boy are out here too, pushing through the front of the jostling semicircle of lookers-on.

“Oh Lord,” she says, wringing her hands. “Oh Lord. Todd, honey.”

Todd is silent. His eyes are locked on the wall. His head is hanging down.

“So?” she says to me, tearful, defiant. “Well? What happens now?”

“Well, there’s a whole process,” I say. “But, uh—but it’s going to be bad.”

“Oh no,” she says, her face crumbling. But what am I going to do—lie?

“I will tell the regular police what I know, and your sons will be charged with their respective crimes.”

“Crimes,” she says quietly.

Eddie, the other son, the one who stole his mother’s drugs, now puts a hand on her shoulder, but Ms. Tarjin shakes it off. Todd keeps staring stoically at the alley wall. Ms. Tarjin has got one hand on her brow, massaging her temple—a mother’s pose of grief. One more grief that the world has given her, a new pain to be etched into the sad lines on her face.

“The thing is,” I say, and then: “Oh good—hey fellas.” I help the regular police make their way through the crowd, two young officers I don’t know. They move Todd away from the wall, and I keep explaining to Ms. Tarjin: “Way it works is, you could decline to press charges on the stolen pills, if you wanted to. The kid’s not looking at more than six months.”

I glance at Eddie, who has the decency not to look relieved. It’s his brother, after all—the one now in handcuffs, the one now being led to a black-and-white parked slantwise, halfway up on the Pico curb—who, in trying to cover up for him, trying to protect their mother from knowing about his perfidy, has committed the more serious crime.

“What about him?” asks Ms. Tarjin quietly.

“That’s going to be a matter for the adjudication division, ma’am. I can’t tell you for sure.”

“A ballpark, though. Can you—” Her voice catches on tears. I cough forcefully into my fist, wipe at my watery eyes, though the dissonance that jammed me up has largely cleared by now. Now the air is clean. “You can give me a ballpark,” she says.

“Well. It was a forceful and purposeful distortion of the truth.” I grit my teeth. I hate this part. “Six years? Nine?”

She starts crying about that, the poor lady, and I take a step away from her. Just then it turns nine o’clock, I hear the tower at Pico and Robertson start to toll it, and people on the street all start saying it to each other—“It’s nine o’clock now”; “It’s just turned nine”; “Hey, how are you? It’s nine a.m.”—and by the time the bell has struck nine times, the regular police have led the boy away, and Ms. Tarjin is tearfully writing down the address of the Mid-City precinct where they’re taking him, and I don’t like it but I do like it, because we have to defend the world, because the world is all we have. We have to keep things good and true because the good and true world is all we have.

2.

By the time I make it from the scene of the morning’s drama all the way downtown to the offices of the Speculative Service and finish with the paperwork, I’m a half hour late getting to my own desk on the thirtieth floor.

“Hey, Mr. Alvaro,” I say in passing, palming my beard and scowling. “Ten is half of twenty.”

“But it’s twice five.”

“So it’s ever been.”

“So it ever shall be.” Mr. Alvaro is the boss man, standing at the big board like always, endlessly updating the list of cases in progress, today’s assignments: anomalous facts to be sorted through, questionable statements to be followed up on. Accidental infelicities to be sorted out from purposeful misrepresentations.

“Sorry I’m late,” I say. “I had an incident report to file on the fourth.”

“So I heard. Chasing a bald-faced out of a breakfast joint on Pico, right? I got the whole story from dispatch. Explains why you didn’t answer your radio.”

“What?”

“Not a big deal. You’re next on the rotation, and we had an incoming. Car crash outside Grand Central, wildly deviant accounts of the moments preceding.”

“You radioed?” I look down at my unit, fiddle with the buttons. It might be a matter of someone’s honest mistake, it might be a mere misalignment of perceptions, or it might be something worse—someone trying to paint a fake picture for the regular police, escape consequences by bending what is So. Those tend to be fun. I don’t like to miss those.

“Arlo radioed. You musta missed it. No big deal, like I said. You’re too busy chasing petty liars down Pico Boulevard. Which, no kidding, is excellent work and will be reported up to Ms. Petras. If I remember, which I hopefully will.”

He probably won’t, but I say “Thanks” anyway. Laura Petras is the Golden State’s Acknowledged Expert on the Enforcement of the Laws—officially, Alvaro’s boss and my own. There’s a picture of her framed near the elevator, an older blonde woman with a careful smile and a tan blouse.

“And let that—excuse me a moment, Laszlo.” Alvaro makes his hands into a bullhorn to address the room. “Let that be a lesson to the rest of you mopes! Mr. Ratesic over here is collaring flagrant liars during his breakfast.”

This testament to my supposed virtues earns a smattering of sarcastic applause and a vigorous middle finger from Burlington with his big mustache. The gang’s all here this morning: Mr. Cullers, leaning back with a hot towel over his forehead, and Ms. Bright, and Mr. Markham—the small-ball Specs, pure ID checkers and paper-trail combers. But Ms. Carson is here too, with her pencil skirt and serene expression, her hair shellacked into a hard helmet under her pinhole.

I look around the room for Arlo Vasouvian, the senior-most Speculator on the floor, and there he is—at my desk with an individual I do not recognize, a young female standing at nervous attention. She’s wearing a pinhole, which means she is Service, but she’s also all in gray, not black, which means she’s junior. She’s in training. This I don’t like at all.

“Arlo?” I go over there. Put down my bag and the cup of coffee I got downstairs. “What’s going on?”

“Ah, good. Mr. Ratesic. Hydrogen is the lightest element.”

“And Osmium is the heaviest. What’s going on?”

He smiles slowly, peers at me from behind his thick glasses. “There’s someone I would like you to meet. A new member of our service. Mr. Ratesic, this is Ms. Paige.”

“Okay,” I say flatly, extending my hand. “Twelve times twelve is one hundred forty-four.”

“And, inversely, the square root of one hundred forty-four is twelve,” replies Paige, sharp as a paper cut, and then, while we’re still shaking hands, she rolls right on: “It’s Aysa, sir, Aysa Paige, and it is an honor to meet you, and I look forward to our working closely together.”

I let go of her hand.

“Arlo? Why did she just say that?”

“Well, you can ask Ms. Paige, but I imagine she said it because it’s an honor for her to meet you. And because she is looking forward to working closely with you.”

Arlo’s smile is knowing and roguish; Ms. Paige’s is earnest and guileless. She is young and upright, dark-skinned, well turned out, with the brim of her pinhole turned sharply to center, her thick curly hair carefully tucked away and bobby-pinned. Her shoes are shined and every button is in place. The keen care she’s taken with her appearance goes beyond the dress code and says something exacting about her character—exacting or eager to impress. Either way, her looking like that, with me in my poorly fitting blacks and battered pinhole, makes me feel like I just climbed out of a duffel bag.

I turn to Arlo, who looks back at me mildly. No longer a field officer, Arlo wears no pinhole, no hat of any kind. and his thin white hair drifts in several directions.

“Yes,” I say. “I wasn’t calling the woman a liar. I was wondering why she has the impression that we are working together.”

“Well, that is my hope,” says Arlo. “If it’s all right with you. I had mentioned it to Mr. Alvaro”—he nods at Alvaro, over by the board, and Alvaro grunts—“and I did hope you would find the arrangement amenable.”

“I do not.”

Arlo’s wrinkled brow furrows, very slightly. “Oh, now. Laszlo, my boy. Can we discuss it?”

“You can.”

“Oh, now, Laszlo.” He speaks the heavy syllables of my name with paternal disappointment.

Arlo Vasouvian is serene and equanimous, seventy-seven years old, with gigantic ears, with small eyes behind thick glasses, with hair so thin and white it is close to transparent. He is emeritus now, semiretired, but once upon a time, Arlo had Alvaro’s job—he did when I started, and he did when my father started, thirty years before that. Now he occupies a rickety desk toward the back of the room, slowly odd-jobbing his way through each day—helping new Specs get adjusted, putting the finishing touches on other people’s paperwork, sipping endlessly at a mug of hot tea. He could, if he wanted, be at home, puttering and humming to himself through an easy retirement in his little Ballona Creek cottage, but Arlo never married; the Ballona Creek cottage is essentially unfurnished. Arlo’s home is here. Every once in a while, someone teasingly asks Arlo when he plans on retiring, and he always has the same answer: “Maybe you’ll get lucky—maybe someone will shoot me!” This retort never entirely manages to hide the shadow of truth behind it, which is that the Speculative Service is his life, it is his soul’s strong purpose, and he fears that if the crutch of it is kicked away he will fall right over and never get up again.

I feel comfortable averring as to how he feels, because I feel more or less the same. I’m fifty-four now, but soon enough I’ll be making the same excuses, finding the same reasons to keep coming in here every morning.

I’m using my chair, so Arlo settles himself onto the edge of my desk, tilts his small body toward me, gathering his sport coat around his narrow chest.

“I had only hoped, Laszlo, that you would find it in your heart—”

“Nope.”

“—to offer Ms. Paige the benefit—”

“No thank you.”

“—of your many years’ experience, and mentor her as she—”

“Listen, Arlo.” I push back from the desk, look him in his owl’s eyes. “I’m going to say no just one more time, but I’m going to say it nice and loud in case, because you are old, you are having trouble hearing me. Because you are very old.” I lean back toward the desk and my office chair squeaks beneath me. “No.”

I start fussing with the stack of papers on the desk so I can be doing something, anything, other than look at Arlo. I’ve got a court appearance coming up, testimony I’m supposed to give in the Court of Small Infelicities, one of these knucklehead kerfuffles where an automobile dealership advertises “the lowest rates around” and a competitor hauls them in, challenging the veracity of “lowest” and the generality of “around,” and the courts insist on having someone from the Service in to weigh the litigants’ relative sincerity. So now I’m here, aggressively shuffling the papers, reviewing my prep materials, ignoring Arlo and the young woman, but I can feel them—this Paige character looking anxiously at Arlo, Arlo giving her a reassuring look: Don’t worry, I’ll handle this. Meaning handle me.

The last thing I need is an apprentice; the last thing I need is a shadow, dogging my heels.

“Listen. Laszlo.” I glance up in time to see Arlo give Ms. Paige a meaningful look, and watch her step discreetly away. I recognize this is an imposition.”

“That is one thing it is, Arlo.”

“I do not come to you lightly, Laszlo. I know how you are.”

“Do you?”

“I do. However. I consider the opportunity to mentor a high honor.” Arlo looks at me solemnly, his thin white hair pointing in all directions.

“Okay,” I tell him, “so why not give it to Burlington? Come on, Arlo. Or give it to Cullers.”

I point across the room, and, as if to neatly undermine my attempt to evade this high honor, Cullers groans, adjusts the hot compress he’s holding to his forehead. Maybe Cullers was up early too, chasing fugitive truth-benders down city blocks. Or maybe he was out late getting drunk. With Cullers, either possibility has an equal chance of proving out.

I shouldn’t have to explain to Arlo why this won’t work. Whatever skill at this job I have amassed after doing it for nineteen years and counting, I am skeptical of my own ability to implant them elsewhere. And certainly Arlo in his semiretirement has no power to make me do it either, and neither does Mr. Alvaro, not really. That’s just not how the Service is organized.

Arlo is my colleague but he’s also my friend, and I have known him for many years—he knew my brother. He knew my father. Which means that in a way he is like a brother to me, and he is like a father too, and what he is doing right now, with a charming shamelessness, is employing all of those associations to bend me to his will.

“There is no one like you, Laszlo,” he says, imperturbable, flattering, shameless. “You know that. The Service needs you. Your State needs you. I need you.”

“Why me?”

“Because you’re the best.”

“That’s subjective.”

“Stipulated. But listen.” He leans in closer. He lowers his voice. “This young lady is very special, Laszlo. I would like to see her mentored carefully. I need your help.”

I look over at Paige. She waits at full attention, her hands behind her back, her mouth a tight line, adopting what she must believe to be the expected stance of the law enforcement officer. But we’re not law enforcement officers, not exactly. Soon she will gather up the regular rhythm of the Speculative Service. The idiosyncrasy, the casual atmosphere. We don’t stand in line, we don’t salute, we do our own thing.

She’ll learn it all.

“Okay, look,” I say, and Arlo catches the answer in my voice and leans back, clasps his hands together in a restrained triumphant gesture. “When we catch a case, Ms. Paige, you can go ahead and ride along beside me. Okay? And you can… I guess you’ll just pay attention and everything, but try not to get in the way. Okay?”

“Yes, sir.”

“Is that what you’re after, Mr. Vasouvian?”

“I want you to do whatever you feel comfortable with, Laszlo.”

Paige begins, “And can I just say, sir—” I hold up a hand.

“You don’t have to call me ‘sir,’ okay?”

“Okay, sir. If you don’t mind, though, I would like to. It’s a sign of respect, sir. You’ve earned it.”

“Stipulated,” I say. “But I’m just as happy for you to call me Mr. Ratesic.”

“Yes, sir.”

“Hey Laz,” Alvaro hollers from the board. “Got something for you. Maybe a good one to break in the new kid. If you’re taking her on. Are you taking her on or not?”

I look at Paige. I hiss through my teeth, “Yeah,” and I extend my hand and Alvaro puts the piece of paper in it. “I’m taking her.”

Arlo slides off my desk, pats me gently on the shoulder, satisfied, as well he should be, having gotten exactly what he wanted.

We head up Vermont Avenue from downtown toward the scene, a simple scene of death on a lawn in Los Feliz.

It’s not clear from the report, but what it sounds like is that there is no specific anomaly, just the regular police requesting the presence of the Service, just to be certain. You get that a lot. When there’s a body, they want to be double sure all the facts are in good clean alignment.

I could take the 5, of course, a nice straight northbound shot, if I wanted to, and it might have bought us five minutes, but the stress of the highway isn’t worth it right now, not when I can give myself the pleasure of the surface streets, the pleasure of looking out the windshield at the various and beautiful Golden State rolling by. You get the streets and sidewalks of downtown, all the usual crowded midmorning bustle, the stop and start at the downtown intersections when you’re moving north and west around the administrative buildings and State services buildings that fan out from the Plaza. And then you escape the hive, pass under the highway and into the borderland, where you see the acres of industry, the factories and warehouses with their solar panel roofs winking back at the sun. And then, just north of that, the miles of farmland, lettuce and avocados, olives and all the rest of it, and then, just like that, you’re whipped back into the neighborhoods, the hip urban districts that line Vermont Avenue like a series of colorful beads: Echo Park, Los Feliz, Silver Lake.

There’s a place in Echo Park, actually, a quarter mile off Vermont, that sells some very solid crullers, some of the best in the State, but there’s no time for a cruller just now, not with a scene of death waiting for us uptown.

“Sir? Mr. Ratesic?”

“Yeah?”

Ms. Paige is looking at me avidly from the shotgun seat, but I am definitely not looking at her; I’m looking at the road. But I can feel her emotions in the shotgun seat, feel her anxiety and excitement, young Paige’s first-day jitters a living thing in the car with us.

“So should I just, like, jump right in?”

I scowl. “Jump right into what?”

“What?”

I feel her deflate. I feel it emanating from the shotgun seat, the crestfallen silence of someone who had a whole speech ready to roll out.

“Jump into my—oh, I mean—just, like, my life story. When I first knew that I had the sense and everything. How I decided to go into the Service. The whole… I just meant… I don’t know. Sorry.”

She wants to tell me about when she was nineteen years old, or fourteen, or twenty-two, whenever it was that she first saw something in the air, first realized what it was that she was feeling. She wants to tell me how she ignored it at first, because acknowledging and indulging this dangerous feeling would mean abandoning her desire to be a doctor, or a lawyer, or an architect, or whatever, but how she eventually realized that she had a calling, a responsibility, that she could cultivate this new facility, this instinct, bring it up and bring it out, because then she could serve the State and it would be selfish not to, and it was, after all, the least she could do…

And then I would tell her my own version of the story, so similar, I’m sure, to hers, with the only additional complication being my father, and then my brother, Charlie, him having done it all first, sensed it first and followed it first, his brilliance like a sun casting a shadow over my own career.

My mood, which has already been spoiled by the encounter at Terry’s, by the unexpected burden of taking on a junior, is further clouded by this unexpected memory of Charlie, both welcome and unwelcome, a sudden flood of feeling: Charlie and what happened to Charlie. I can feel the smile slide off my face. Just then we pass the House of Pies, another favorite diner of mine, on the northern edge of Los Feliz; I am tempted to pull over, tell Ms. Paige to wait in the car, and get myself a piece of blueberry pie or something to take the edge off the day.

But I don’t. I keep going. We’re almost there.

“Listen, Paige.” I glance at her. “It’s Paige, right?”

“Yes, sir. Aysa Violet Paige.”

“I don’t want to hear your story. I don’t need it. Okay?”

“Okay.”

“I don’t need yours, and you don’t need mine.”

“Oh. Right. I mean—sure.”

Paige fidgets self-consciously in the shotgun seat, casting occasional nervous glances my way, otherwise staring out the window.

This girl is my opposite, and I darkly wonder if Arlo put her in my car purely for the physical comedy. She is short, neat, black, and fully earnest in her countenance. And here I am, this too-big creature, my pale face and my black pinhole, my thick fingers gripping the steering wheel, thick red beard like a bristling animal over the wool of the suit, and my irritation with the world—which is really an irritation with myself—like armor, a chain mail layer rattling across my broad chest. And I don’t know what it is, I can’t tell you, but this kid’s face, everything in her face is different from everything I feel: she’s excited, almost agitated with her own excitement, as if all the great days of her life still ahead of her are jostling inside, creating a field of energy. And she believes that I am someone worth looking up to, someone worth learning from. And if you want to hear something true—big true, deep true—that does not feel terrible. It doesn’t feel terrible at all.

“What matters is what happens now. In the field. What matters is how you marshal the abilities you’ve been granted, and how you harness them to real investigative skill. Okay?”

“Okay. Yeah.”

I drive a minute more. Dope shops and banks, coffee shops and dry cleaners.

“I’m sorry,” she says.

“Don’t be sorry.”

“I just—”

“I mean it, Paige. All of this?” I point at me, and then at her, meaning all of the interpersonal, all of the getting to know each other, all of the teamwork, the senior-junior BS, all of it. “It doesn’t matter. What matters is what happens in the world. Okay?”

“Okay.”

I think that might be it for conversation—I hope it is—but no.

“So can you maybe tell me how it works?”

“How what works?”

“Oh, I just mean… where we’re going. Our interaction with the regular police, the different protocols. I mean, I know how it works, obviously. I’ve done plenty of simulations, and I’ve done all the reading and training and stuff. I just mean… in real life. In the field. Is there anything you think I maybe don’t know?”

“I am sure, Ms. Paige, there are many things you don’t know.”

And then I just keep driving; I just leave that flat piece of truth unadorned, add no further context. I’m being a prig, I am aware of that, I am being a special kind of asshole. Indulging in rigorous literalism, answering questions to the letter, ignoring the spirit in which they were asked is a nasty and childish trick. But I can’t help it—I’m already regretting agreeing to this. I should have held firm with Arlo, told him to pin this particular ribbon on someone else’s chest. I value my time alone. I like driving by myself; I like working by myself. I like knowing that if I’m on the way to a scene of crime, and I feel like taking forty-five seconds to run into House of Pies and pick up a slice of blueberry I can then eat in the car, I can do that without anyone judging me or asking questions.

Too late. We drive on. We’re almost there.

3.

I slouch across the lawn, bent forward, moving slow but with big intent, the heavy man’s hurry, with Ms. Paige trotting along at my heels. I see the body and I move right to it, ignoring the crowds, ignoring the regular police, the capture crews, the gawkers—the shifting crowd that appears in the wake of a death, like insects coming up out of the ground after rain.

I push through the crowd, sighing. Growling, maybe. I’m making some kind of noise and all the regular cops and microphone operators and AV knuckleheads step back, wary. There’s sweat gathering at the back of my collar, sweat beading under my beard. The early-day cool has burned away and it’s hot as a mother out here—I’m roasting in my blacks. I’ve never minded the discomfort of the uniform, to be honest with you, full true; I always feel like the discomfort is part of the job. The discomfort is the job. It marks you out, sets you apart. You get to a scene and you’re already scowling, and everybody knows you’re there on business. Everybody is watching the boundaries.

“Sir?” says Ms. Paige, and I raise one hand—Gimme a second.

This is nothing. This is an empty dumb nothing.

The dead man was a roofer, and he died falling off a roof. Those are the facts, and they’re clear from the get-go, clear and plain. As Arlo would say, it’s true as daylight, true as doors on houses. The mansion is one of these expansive but unassuming old places, with the poured concrete and the Spanish tile, with the wide white patio and the rambling lawn. A modest two stories but turreted with balconies and pilasters and stone-carved cherubs peeking out from the corners of the porch. I shield my eyes and look up to the spot on the red tile roof, where the man scrambled before he fell, and I note the patch of loose and broken tiles. A single piece of fractured gutter juts out like a broken bone.

I turn from the house to the body of the man, and all the angles are adding up. He fell from the high pitch of the roof, scrabbled in vain to catch himself on the downspout, and died when he hit the ground. I get out my Day Book, pin down this first set of flat facts in black ink, pressing hard so the carbons catch it.

“Sir?”

“Let’s just do this, Ms. Paige,” I say. “Let’s get out of here.”

The man’s body lies facing the sun, half on and half off the patio, eyes staring up at the golden blue of the morning. “A roofer,” I write, “with wiry black hair and a wiry black mustache on a deeply tanned face. On the breast pocket of his green work shirt there’s a logo of a hand holding a hammer. Here are his limbs, all four splayed out against the manicured lawn in ugly incongruous angles; here was a slick of blood expanded out from underneath him, slowly seeping into the manicured lawn, spreading dark red onto the bone-white patio stone. Here was the wild mosaic of broken roof tiles surrounding him—the armload he’d been holding when he tumbled, the explosive shatter pattern around him testament to the force of the fall. Here was the trowel, flung out on the lawn, a crust of dried caulk along its lip.”

I get it all down, organizing the flats in neat columns on the pages of my Day Book, and then—I don’t know why exactly, but I do—I stay in my investigative crouch, a bear down low to the ground, paws planted to keep myself from toppling, roving my careful eyes over the man’s dead face. His skull has split and spilled but the weathered face is intact, unharmed. The eyes above the black mustache are open wide, very wide, and he’s got this expression—and this is a subjective determination, this is hard to measure on the scale of what is and what is not so—but he looks terrified.

“Mr. Ratesic?” Paige is trying again, eager to learn, her own Day Book out and open. “What are you seeing?”

“Nothing,” I say, and stand up, heaving my body straight. “Not a thing.” I take one more look up at the house, shake my head. “You wanna tell me what we’re doing here?”

“What?”

“What was the impetus for the presence of the Service? Why were we called?”

“Oh. Um—should we ask?”

She gestures to the knot of regular police who are hanging around close to the house, pretending to do things, stealing glances at the two of us over here by the body. So, too, are the dead man’s coworkers, all in the same green shirts he’s wearing, all milling uncertainly in the shadow of the house, murmuring together, looking warily at their fallen comrade.

And then there’s a team from the Record, circling Paige and me, capturing reality as it unfolds. The capture operator and his backup. The microphone operator, hovering at the prescribed distance, professional headphones bulky over her ears. The archivist and the archivist’s assistant.

“No,” I tell Paige. “I don’t want to ask them. I’m asking you. You looked at the call report, right? From Alvaro?”

“Yes. It just said they called it in. It said the Service was requested to discover the full and final truth. He said they said—”

“Who said?”

“The regular police.”

“What did they say?”

“They said there was something anomalous in it.”

“Anomalous?”

“Yes, that’s—” She takes a step back from me. I’ve got my hands jammed in my pockets. I am scowling, bent forward. “That’s what they said.”

“Meaning what?”

“What?”

“What does that word mean?”

“Meaning… you mean what does ‘anomalous’ mean?”

“Yes, Ms. Paige. Shared understanding is a bulwark. Clear and agreed upon definitions of common terms are defenses against infelicity. Words mean what they mean. So, what is the meaning of the word ‘anomalous’?”

My tone is not pleasant, I recognize that. If Arlo wants me to train this girl, well, then I’m going to train her. It is miserably hot out here—deadly hot. The sun is carving a rash into the skin above my collar.

“‘Anomalous’ means”—Paige takes a breath and stands erect, spits it out, word for word from the Basic Law—“a mismatch of facts possibly indicative of the presence of a falsehood or falsehoods obscuring the full and final truth of a given situation. Sir.”

“Okay.” I nod, maybe a little disappointed to be deprived of the opportunity to further chastise. “Good.” Paige’s nervous face shows a quick shimmering smile.

“So what do you think? Where’s the anomaly?”

“I—” She looks at me, uncertain. Then she looks back up at the house, back at the guy. “I don’t see it. I think he fell off the roof.”

“Yes,” I say. “Me too.”

“So maybe if we just—” She angles her head over to the crowd of officers again. “Maybe we ask?”

“Nope.”

“But—”

“If we can’t spot it ourselves, we don’t keep digging. They put the body in the ambulance and they drive him away. The regular police do their thing, and our part is over. We get back in our car.”

“But—wait.”

I’ve started walking away, and Ms. Paige puts a hand on my shoulder, and then shrinks back when I stop and turn to glare at her. A pause. A mourning dove makes its low coo from somewhere in the high trees. Along the lawn are the embedded captures, forever adding to the documented bulk of reality.

“Why would they call it in if there isn’t anything?”

“For the free show.” I gesture over at them, the workaday police in their blue hats and khaki pants, proving my point, the whole herd of them staring back at us gape-mouthed. “Because being an ordinary precinct policeman is boring, Ms. Paige, and rubbing up against the great and mysterious Speculative Service is not. So they call us and they don’t lie, careful not to lie, but they say, ‘Oh, well, we wonder if there is something weird going on here, we just really want you guys to put eyes on it,’ but really it’s them wanting to put eyes on us. There’s not much we can do about it, it’s the way of the world, but we don’t have to indulge it by turning every tragic accident into the lie of the century.”

“I see,” she says. “Sure. I get it. But maybe…”

“What? Maybe what?” I feel anger boiling up in me, I hear my voice rising, but I can’t stop. I didn’t want to have a partner anyway. Hadn’t I told Arlo that? Didn’t I say so? “Do you have something to add, Ms. Paige?”

“No, just—” She looks longingly at the dead man. “Maybe if we just speculated—”

“Are you fucking kidding me?” I say it loud. I practically shout it. Somewhere, a rough cut officer is turning down the monitor at a transcription station, grimacing at the burst of distorted output.

“No, sir. I just thought—”

“I already said there’s no reason. You said it too, didn’t you? No cause for spec. You fucking said it!”

I step closer to her, bellowing now, and she’s smart enough to keep her mouth shut.

“There’s a corpse on the lawn, a broken roof. It’s a clear story, told by the flat facts. So you want to, what, start speculating, conjuring possibilities, right here at the scene? Maybe a low-flying plane knocked him off the roof. Maybe he was pushed by his evil twin!”

The boom mic dangles her pole as close as she dares; the capture op inches in.

“Listen to me, Paige: We start conjuring up alternate versions of realities, just for fun? Just so you can practice? Then guess what? We’re committing our own assault on the Objectively So. Then we have become the liars.”

Paige’s chin has stiffened; she has crossed her arms. “I wasn’t proposing that we lie, sir.”

“Unwarranted speculation is no better than lying, Ms. Paige. It is worse. You want to see how it’s done, here’s how it’s done: it’s better when it’s not done at all. Our job is to reinforce the Objectively So. Not stand around conjuring realities, alternate realities, every one of which might extend, evolve, metastasize.” I am barking now, hollering, furious at the idea that she might not hear and understand what I’m telling her. “And none of those realities can be collected back once released. Our job is to find the facts and travel between them, to walk carefully along lines of what’s true. And when we do speculate? When we do hypothesize? We do it carefully, conscientiously, in a controlled environment, and we don’t do it at all unless and until the facts support it. The Speculative Service is a bulwark. What is the Speculative Service?”

“It’s a bulwark.”

“Fucking right it is.”

“Okay.”

“Okay?”

“Okay.”

“Now just—” I take a deep breath. Plant my hands on my hips, feel my feet beneath me. Try to get steady again. “Would you give me a second to do the stupid job?”

I regret my outburst right away, of course.

That’s me all over. Big and brave Mr. Laszlo Ratesic of the Service, dedicated officer of what is true, and a petty and short-tempered and thickheaded brute. Fully conscious of all his faults, wholly unable to correct them.

“Idiot,” I call myself, and “asshole,” as I prowl around to the rear of the house, to where the pool stretches out in a perfect pristine rectangle, its even blue surface shimmering with the shadow of the house itself. I’ve come around to the back to make sure there aren’t any contraindicating facts, but really, just to have a second alone, alone with my lumbering thoughts, with my anger and self-recrimination—and with the capture op, lone representative of the Record. He has trailed me and stands now at a respectful ten-foot distance, his handheld trained on me, standing heavily on the lawn. Reality in progress.

I think I’ve seen this op before—a shaggy-headed dude named Morgan or Marcus, something like that. Convention dictates that you ignore the Record’s representatives, but a lot of people will say hello, give a nod or a smile. Not me. I keep my hands deep in my pockets, stare by turns at the roof, the lawn, the pool.

The sun scatters its golden light across the moment, glittering on the rooftop, glinting on the blue of the pool, dappling the deep green of the lawn. The damn roofer should have had the good sense to fall off this side of the house. He might have saved himself a broken neck. Might have drowned instead.

There’s a back door, coming off the pool patio, a pair of elegant French doors that allow no clear view of whatever choices are made inside the house. I look up at that house, debating whether to take the extra five minutes to haul myself up there, push a ladder against the stuccoed white walls, and have a closer look at the spot where the roofing tiles gave way. Make sure. Make double and triple sure.

But I’d only be doing it by way of apology to Ms. Paige, a half-assed dumb show of contrition: Look, maybe you were right. Maybe there’s one more flat fact to be found, another tile for us to lay into the mosaic. Only I know there’s not. What happened is what happened. It was a tragedy, maybe, but there is no anomaly, no lie hidden, obscured, and in wait beneath the surface, like a snake under the soil. All the facts are flat and simple. All the lines between them are clean and direct.

I am not the monster that I sometimes appear to be. Not at the core, not down at the bone. I understand young Paige’s eagerness, her fervency, the fundamental truth of her, coming off the kid in waves. She wants to speculate because that’s what Speculators do. We are the ones with the power, and the license, to truck with lies—we can sense them, we can handle them, and we are empowered to emit them our own damn selves. To construct different versions of the truth so each can be tested, so all might fall away until only the real one remains.

Ms. Paige just wants to do the damn work.

And here I come to explode at her for committing the crime of caring too much? Of hoping to find something lurking beneath the surface?

The question is, what kind of fundamental truth is coming off me?

Back in front of the house, the ambulance has maneuvered onto the lawn and parked among the other emergency vehicles under the meager shade of the very tall palms, and now I shade my eyes and watch the men with their stretchers trot across the lawn to bear away the victim. The ambulance crew is trailed by its own capture team: more capture operators, more microphone bearers, more archivists. I watch them watching as the paramedics lift the body and arrange it on the stretcher.

“Sir?”

It’s her again. Tapping on my shoulder. Chin set, eyes clear, bowed but unbent. She has some nerve, this one; she has some fight in her for sure.

And now the sunlight of good feeling fills me up, and I smile for what feels like the first time today. For what feels, indeed, like the first time in a good long time.

“What is it, kid?”

“I decided to speak to some of the witnesses, sir. As long as I was waiting.”

She winces, waiting for me to holler at her, but I don’t.

“And?”

“And there’s someone I think you should speak to.”

“It’s Buddy Renner. Like, ah, like ‘runner,’ person who runs, but with an e where the u goes—Renner. I’m thirty-six years old. I’m a manager. I was born in Pasadena, but I live down in South Beach now. These guys are my crew. I’m their manager. Not of the… not the whole company. I’m a field manager. I run this crew. Company manager is Lexie Herrimann. Two rs, two ns. Herrimann.”

I put it all down in my Day Book, my stubby fat hundred-pager. I write in my book even though Renner’s rambling testimony is being captured by my pinhole and by the captures along the gutters of the house and in the trees, and by the roving team too. There are plenty of Speculators who don’t bother with the Day Book unless it’s a matter of clear and immediate importance, something that’ll surefire need to be on the Record. But I’m old-school. I like to do it right.

“I was the one that found him, actually,” says Renner. “I got here at, ah, boy, I guess about—” He pauses, squeezes shut his eyes with the effort of recollection. “Six oh nine. That’ll… That’s… You can check the stretches on that, right? But so, okay, the crew was called for six thirty. So he was—Crane was—he was early, and I was early but not as early as him.”

“You don’t all arrive together?” I ask, pointing to the three pickups along the driveway. “In the trucks?”

“No. Ah—no, sir. You can. Some of the guys will come into the office, and—but, no. You can get to the work site, you get to the work site.”

I nod for him to continue, and he swallows, takes a deep breath. He keeps glancing at the pinhole, same nervous little glance Ms. Tarjin kept doing. There are plenty of ground and air captures around, so people don’t understand why we have to have ’em, too, the point of view, and maybe it’s just psychological. Or maybe you can never have too much truth.

“And so I found him—on the ground there. Just—that’s just how I found him.”

The man is sputtering out facts, scattershotting every squib of truth that occurs to him. It’s irritating, but useful for investigative purpose.

“Okay,” I tell him, battling my impatience. “We got that.”

Renner’s a sweaty mess, in the same dark green shirt and dark green pants of the dead man and the rest of his crew: day laborers in heavy work clothes and sturdy boots, roofers and tar pourers and layers of tile, all of whom are still milling about in the unaccustomed state of having nothing to do, waiting in the shade of the single broad-branched aspen under which they have been corralled. They’re smoking, murmuring to one another, casting occasional nervous glances at all the cops and capture teams.

I reconfirm all the flat facts that Renner has already provided to Ms. Paige, who now stands beside me, reading along from her notes. Her Day Book, I notice, is gold, with gold-lined pages. I roll my eyes. There are no regulations on it—nothing in the Basic Law says the Service has to have dark-colored everything. But gold?

Renner and his crew—among them the dead man, Mose Crane—have been working the roofing job here at 3737 North Vermont for nineteen days, doing a series of patches and small repairs above the master bedroom suite.

“Officer Paige stated to me that you stated to her that Mr. Crane has a clean work record, as far as you know, with no previous reported accidents.” I watch him, stone-faced. “Is that true?”

Renner blinks. “Is it true that I stated it to her?”

“No. Not—” I take a deep breath, in and then out again. Come on. “It’s a two-step verification, Mr. Renner. Can you confirm that the information that you previously provided to Officer Paige was true and complete?”

“Oh yeah. Yes. T and c. Yes, sir. Uh-huh.”

Paige writes in her book. Renner wipes his forehead with a handkerchief, the same deep green as his work clothes.

All the unspoken truths of this conversation are clear to me, the invisible beams undergirding the surface truths we are constructing together. Renner is frightened of me, of me and my big ugly face and also of the Service itself. He is afraid not of being caught lying, because he knows he’s not lying, but of being thought to be lying. He’s afraid that out of his anxiety about being thought to be lying he will stumble into blurting out some small untruth and I’ll catch it on the air and accuse him and he’ll have confirmed his own worst fear.

I could put him at ease, if I wanted to. I know very well he’s hewing to the line, as best he’s able. I’ve seen plenty of liars in my day. I’ve seen their distorted asseverations feathering the air as they emerge from the false shapes of their mouths. I’ve stared into their furtive eyes; I’ve smelled the stink of bullshit rising off them in waves. And this man Renner is nervous because he’s afraid we’ll think that he’s lying, not because he is. He looks away from me while he’s talking, finds the more sympathetic eyes of Officer Paige.

She’s dying to be like me, a pillar of the law, a servant of the good and true, but she’s got enough of the civilian still in her bones that when meeting a stranger she wants to hold his hand and tell him, “It’s okay, it’s okay, there’s nothing to be afraid of.”

All of these structural underpinnings are clear to me, as visible as underwater architecture, but irrelevant. I have my Day Book out. I have work to do.

I coax from Renner the information that Crane worked six of the last seven days.

“And actually,” he adds suddenly, “he wasn’t on the schedule for today. Did I already say that?”

“No,” I say. I stop writing. I hold him with my gaze. “You didn’t already say that.”

“I’m sorry.” He winces. “I’m really sorry.”

“So wait, Mr. Renner,” Paige says. “He wasn’t supposed to be here?”

“No, miss. Ma’am.” Renner shakes his head urgently. “He wasn’t. Do you want me—” He stops, tilts his head forward. “Should I show you the schedule?”

“Yeah.” I hold out my hand. “You should.”

He digs it out of his backpack, a thin sheaf notebook with a crinkled yellow cover, bent at all four corners, and I aim my pinhole at the book, take a capture of the relevant page, and hand it to Paige so she can take her own.

“I’ve already got it, sir.”

I look at her and say, “Get it again.”

“Yes, sir. Of course, sir.” She gets it again.

“Had this man, Crane, given you any indication that he was intending to come in today?”

“No, sir,” says Renner.

“And is there any reason you can think of that he would have done so?”

“You mean… any reason he would have given me—”

“No.” I sigh. People. “Any reason he would have come in today?”

“No, sir. No.”

Paige is looking back and forth between me and the witness, her brown eyes wide, absorbing, watching, learning.

“What about coming in early?”

“What—do you mean—”

“Any reason to explain why he would do such a thing?”

“No.”

“Did any of your guys usually start early?”

“No. I mean—” He pauses, canvasses his mind for stray facts. “Not that I know of.”

“Any reason why Crane might have?”

Renner shrugs.

Paige looks at me, and I shrug too. Whatever the reason that Crane was at work unscheduled, it is almost certain that he never put it on the Record. Never wrote it down, never mentioned it to a coworker, never muttered it to himself, meaning it never got captured, transcribed, and preserved. Which means that this small piece of reality, this flat fact—the reason Mose Crane came to work even though he wasn’t supposed to—died when his head hit the ground and the neurons in his brain stopped firing. A subsidiary victim of the larger tragedy.

It catches me in the gut, a quick surge of mourning for a piece of truth that has been and is gone.

“No, actually, if anything, now that I think of it, Crane was usually late.”

“Oh yeah?”

“He was always working a bunch of jobs is the thing. Like, he worked for us, we worked for other folks. Freelance gigs. A lot of times he’d be coming right to us from another thing.”

“Roofing?”

“Or—yeah, I think. Or other kinds of construction, contracting. I remember him coming in late one morning, bunch of months ago, already half dead from working all night. Working under the table on some mansion in the Hills, something. Nobody likes cheap labor more than rich people, you know?”

I nod. Deep truth, that right there. “And was that unusual?”

“Um,” he says cautiously. “I don’t know what you mean by ‘unusual.’”

“Do other guys do that?”

“Oh. Sometimes.”

“Was he working another job at the present time?”

“I don’t think so. I don’t know. No? I’m sorry. I’ll have to check.”

Renner is going to have to check on a lot of things. I write down all that he has told us, pushing each flat fact hard into the paper so the thin carbon layer can do its magic and transfer it to the dupe page underneath. The tip of the pen is like a needle, and each fact is a butterfly, and what we do is we pin it to the board, collect it and catalog it for later consideration. Paige is in the corner of my eye with a small smile at the corners of her lips, because she has discovered more facts, proved to herself, if not to me, that there is indeed more here than meets the eye, and maybe she’s right and maybe she’s not.

The man was named Crane, and he worked more jobs than this one.

And this man Crane was at work today though not scheduled, for reasons no one can say.

He started work early today, for reasons that no one knows.

Each is an interesting fact, and each fact, each piece of truth, is valuable and precious in and of itself, every fact beloved in our good and golden world, and Paige can smile all she wants to, but I’m still not seeing any way to arrange these new facts in a shape that contradicts the base, brutal, powerful truth of the morning: He was a roofer and he fell off the roof. Still, I write them all down. Still, I transfer each new piece of truth to my Day Book, pushing down hard, and when the conversation is over Renner stamps my pad and I stamp his, and he stamps Paige’s pad and she stamps his too, and all of us have officially had this conversation and this conversation will always have occurred. It is on the Record.

Paige closes her Day Book, and I’m about to say something—maybe challenge her to tell me what she thinks might matter in all that we have found—when I hear the distinct sound of a door closing. Someone is emerging from the house. The capture ops swivel to catch the new arrival, and so does Paige, and so do I.

4.

“A cow has four stomachs.”

“A person has one.”

“These are facts.”

“These things are so.”

“What are you doing here, Mr. Speculator?”

“Oh, you know,” I say. “Working.” I point to the patch of broken grass, splotched with blood and boot prints. “A guy fell off the roof.”

“So I heard.”

I shake hands with Captain Elena Tester and then, after a pause, we hug, very briefly. A small capture crew, two guys, has peeled off from the main scene to get us from additional angles. There’s a bank of audios out here too, planted along the edge where the lawn meets the driveway, pure-audio captures angling their motion-sensing bulbs toward us, silent observers in the grass.

“It’s nice to see you, Laszlo.”

“Yeah. You too.”

And it is nice to see her—of course it is. I mean, what am I going to do, lie? It’s nice to see her, and it also stings; it’s nice to see her, and it also brings me right back close to a whole bank of memories I spend a lot of time trying to look away from.

“So, what? Falls off the roof, right?” says Tester. “Dies on the ground?”

“That’s certainly what the flat facts suggest.”

She glances at the spot on the lawn, the bent green stalks, patches of red blood. The body is long gone, en route to the morgue, where the doctors will do their thing, gathering up any final facts from inside the dead man’s body before they put it underground.

“So who called you people?” she asks.

I adjust my pinhole. “You don’t know?”

“Why would I know?”

“What?”

We peer at each other, mutually bemused, and then we both start laughing at the same time. I like Elena well enough—not a lot, but I don’t really like anybody a lot. Elena Tester is a colleague, in that loose definition of the word that includes all law enforcement officers in the Golden State, or might even take in the whole government, depending on your definition of “colleague.” The Speculative Service and the regular police operate in different but frequently overlapping realms, and Elena and I have worked together a couple dozen times over the years. Mainly I know her personally.

“It’s been a while,” says Elena softly, and I nod, start to say “Yup,” and because I’m a hollow version of the sturdy old bear I think I am, my throat catches on the small flat word, so I just swallow it back and don’t say anything. Because of course I mainly know Elena through Silvie, and in the long declining curve of my marriage, I haven’t seen much of Silvie’s friends. Not lately.

It takes me a second to fight out of that little prison of a moment, and Tester allows me to take the time I need. She’s a pretty decent soul, Captain Tester, not that she shows it off too often. Short-haired and tight-featured and direct, she’s a tough nut, professional and severe, droll when she wants to be. Like all regular police, she wears an octagonal blue cap with a short brim and a pinhole capture in the center of it to gather up reality; right now it’s pointed at me as mine is pointed at her, our respective points of view entering simultaneously into the Record.

“You were going to tell me who called it in,” she says.

“It’s not clear,” I say. “Old Vasouvian got it as a tip from one of yours, some overeager officer of the law, and instead of tossing it in the junk heap as was most likely merited, Alvaro sent us along.”

“‘Us’? I thought you folks worked alone. You especially.”

“Oh, I do, Elena. Believe me, I prefer to.”

I tilt my head toward Ms. Paige. “I’m supervising someone. The, uh—” For some reason it’s embarrassing. I jut my big chin toward the trees. “Young lady over there.”

Officer Paige is diligently reinterviewing her way through the crowd of Crane’s coworkers, scribbling furiously in her gilded Day Book.

“Laszlo the teacher. Wise mentor. How’s that playing out?”

“Oh, you know. Fine. Although I did shout at her for no reason.”

“Laz.”

“Not no reason.” I cross my arms. “She tried to get ahead of the facts. Unwarranted speculation.” I scratch the heat on the back of my neck, feeling a fresh wave of self-recrimination. “It wasn’t a big deal, really. I guess I took a bit of a tone with her over it.”

“You did?” says Tester, wide-eyed. “I’m shocked.”

“Ha ha.”

She was not actually shocked, obviously. It was a joke, a fact clear from the context—not a lie but a distortion of truth for intentionally comedic effect, understood as false on its face by everyone present, not to mention anyone listening in the provisional office right now, or listening later for the Record. You know all this already; you know the rules. You are familiar with the Basic Law. Humor causes no oscillation in the So, any more than any other form of small social falsehood: comic generalizations, inoffensive teasing, plain flattery—the whole constellation of innocuous and lubricating half-truths.

“Okay. Well.” Elena shrugs. “Let me know, will you, if there’s anything to it.”

“To what?”

“To this. The—” She points at the lawn. “The matter at hand.”

“Sure.”

“Hey. Are you okay, Laszlo?”

I sigh. “No.”

“Is it Silvie?”

“For the most part.”

“You miss her?”

“Yes. Yes. I do.”

Tester nods. That’s all she’ll get out of me, and she knows it. No deeper forms of truth will reveal themselves upon further inquiry, and she knows well enough not to dig. A question is a cup you hold out to be filled, and there are those who will always fill it to the brim, pour in all the truth they can think of, until it overflows and spills out and spreads across the table. That’s not me. Me, I’ll give you what’s precisely true and no more; I’ll answer your question and move right along.

“Captain Tester? What about you?”

“What?”

“What are you doing here?”

She furrows her brow, just for an instant, as if surprised by the question, and I don’t know if it’s my own state—exhausted, stuck in my own damn head, thinking suddenly and painfully of Silvie, frustrated by the limits of my own stubborn soul—but for whatever reason my attention goes keen around that momentary pause of hers. Suddenly the clean sunlit air is alive with drifting particles, flickers and flecks. I don’t know what.

“I caught it on the scanner,” Captain Tester tells me. “I live near here, you know? On Talmadge.” I’m watching her face. I don’t know what I look like to her, I don’t know if she can tell what I’m thinking, but she keeps talking. “Sometimes I like to stop by a scene. Sometimes these…” Another half second pause. “Anyway. As long as I was in the area, I thought I’d babysit the homeowner while the scene officers did their thing. Take something off their plate. You know the figure?”

“Of course.”

“Just procedure,” she says with a final nod, and I’m wondering at her words, wondering at myself for wondering. Is Captain Tester reminding me of the division between our respective domains, between the world of police business and that of speculative affairs? Is she brushing me back? Does she know she’s doing it? The wind teases at the tops of the fat-trunked aspens and the skinny palms that shade the yard. The lenses of the captures hum unseen in the greenery.

“Anyway.” Captain Tester smiles, gives me a reassuring pat on the shoulder, colleague to colleague, and heads back to her car.

Officer Paige is over on the far side of the lawn. She has finished with the workmen and she’s watching me—she has been watching the whole time; I can tell from here that she has never lost track of me for a second. Ardent young seeker, wanting so badly to enter this beguiling and suspicious world I inhabit.

All right, then.

“Hey,” I say. “Paige.” I crook a finger and she comes springing across the lawn like a deer.

“Yes, sir. What is it?”

I refocus my attention on Tester, who’s climbing into her unmarked car. She raises a hand to me, and I raise one back. A captain of the regular police.

“Do we know whose house this is?”

5.

People see us—people like Renner, I mean, and even people like Elena Tester, people who ought to know better—and get weird. Wary. They talk slow or fast, fidget from side to side or stand statue still, arms crossed, protecting the midsection as if from a blow. Afraid of lying, but also afraid of being thought to be lying, afraid of the rules we enforce and the punishments we are empowered to dole out.

But what you should be afraid of, and what I think most people really are afraid of, deep underneath—buried truth, truth of the soul—is what would happen if we were gone.

What they ought to be afraid of is the truth of the world beyond the Golden State, the truth of the wilderness, which is no truth at all.

I’m talking about what happened to the rest of it, to the world beyond our world of bright blue skies and ocean breezes and crystalline epistemology.

We are the world that is left, and the future of the Golden State depends on the fierce defense of what is Objectively So. It depends on the transcriptionists and archivists and librarians of the Permanent Record and the collectors and checkers and double-checkers of the Trusted Authority; it depends on the Acknowledged Experts, up on Melrose Avenue, scurrying from committee room to committee room; and it depends somehow on us, on me, me in my rumpled suit, clinging to the steering wheel like a ship’s captain, looking longingly at the House of Pies as it sails by on Vermont Avenue. Aysa Paige riding shotgun upright and at attention, her intensity dimmed not a bit by her first foray into the field.

It’s already eleven. I know that to be a true fact because the bells are ringing from the high tower of the old movie palace at Vermont and El Segundo, and strangers are stopping on the street to tell each other it’s eleven, agreeing that it’s true, shaking hands and reinforcing what is Objectively So.

I wonder fleetingly what Silvie is doing right at this exact minute; this is something I used to do all the time, before we went our separate ways. I would pause somewhere in the middle of my day and wonder what she was doing, right at this exact minute. It would be the thought of her, out there in the city, maybe filing forms in her orderly sub-basement office, maybe meeting her friend Lily for silken tofu soup on Beverly Boulevard, just Silvie out there doing her thing—the thought of her out enjoying the universe would reliably buoy my own thick, dull spirits. That’s love, as best as I can figure it: love isn’t how you feel when you’re together, it’s how you feel, how often you feel it, when you’re apart.

“All right, so look,” I say abruptly. “I gotta say something.” And Ms. Paige immediately says “Yes, sir,” and I immediately stop.

“Yes? Mr. Ratesic?”

I sigh. I hate this conversation. I hate conversations, just in general. I wish I was alone. I wish I could stop, alone, at Donut Sam’s or one of the other greasy anonymous places with the laminated posters in the windows, with the cheap tin napkin dispensers on the grimy plastic tables, with the rows of colorful fluorescent doughnuts under glass like costume jewelry.

“So,” I say to Paige. “You were right.”

“Yes, sir.”

“About this event. This incident.”

“Yes, sir.”

“Stop calling me ‘sir.’ We are both officers of the same service, Ms. Paige.”

“Okay.”

“Okay?”

“Okay. So—but—” She clears her throat. She looks at me. “Do we do it now?”

“No.” I sigh, shake my head. “And don’t ask again because I will fucking tell you. Okay?”

“Okay.”

“I will tell you when it’s time to speculate.”

We’ve come all the way downtown on Vermont Avenue by now. We’re passing the blocks of factories, long, low smokestack buildings pumping out textiles and tin cans and small electronics, we’re passing the wheat fields and cotton fields and dope fields, all the architecture of our self-sufficiency. Through downtown and out again into University City.

“First we need a few more facts.”

“You people friends of his?”

The woman who’s appeared a few steps down from the landing wears a long loose-fitting black garment, some kind of sweater, apparently, although it’s almost like a cape, the way it drapes around her thin shoulders, hanging down with ragged majesty onto the unswept concrete landing.

The apartment block where Crane lived is organized around a flat stone courtyard, gray steps leading up to each individual unit, cement catwalks between the doors, like a motel. A poky little capture observes from above the doorway, green light blinking. After two minutes of knocking and trying to see in through the small smudged window, Ms. Paige and I have just about satisfied ourselves that there is no one home, and I have concluded it’s time to force my way in. I’ve been in the Service for nineteen years, but I was regular police once upon a time. I know how to get in when I need to.

But here instead is this funny old lady, grinning up at us impishly in her black caul of a sweater, wearing a lot of clunky jewelry, with her skinny arms crossed over her chest.

“Nope,” I tell her. “Not friends. I’m Mr. Ratesic, and I’m with the Speculative Service, and this is Ms. Paige. A dolphin is a mammal.”

“So’s a bat but not so is a bee. I’m Dolly Aster. I live downstairs.” I tip my pinhole and she smiles impishly, interest flashing in her milky eyes. Her hair is wild, curly and gray. “Don’t know that I’ve seen a pair of you before. I thought you people traveled alone. Like wolves.”

“No, ma’am,” I say. “Not wolves.”

“I said like wolves, young man. It’s a figure of speech. Do you people do figures of speech, or is an idiom considered a species of lie?”

“Idioms don’t register as falsehoods, ma’am,” says Paige, quickly and authoritatively, giving out the Basic Law like she’s one of the recordings made for schoolchildren. “Given that their intention and literal meaning can be gleaned from context and familiarity. They’re like humorous remarks in that regard.”

“Well aren’t you sharp,” says Aster, her devilish grin broadening. “Sharp as a box of tacks.”

Unlike Renner, back at the mansion, unlike most people, Ms. Aster seems to show no sign of intimidation or nervousness in the presence of the Speculative Service. To the contrary, she’s fascinated, inching up the stairwell with one old hand clutching the banister, licking her lips. “The Speculative Service on my humble stairwell in a fearsome little pack.” Her small features narrow to a fascinated point, savoring the mysterious syllables of the occupation. “And to what do I owe the pleasure?”

“We’re here about your tenant, Mose Crane.”

“What did he do?” she says. “He murder someone?”

“No,” I say, thinking, Interesting assumption. “No, ma’am. He’s dead.”

“Murdered?”

I’m about to say no, and I find that I can’t do it. My throat refuses to form the word, my instinct refuses to certify it as part of what’s So. So I merely smile, dance sideways around the question. “We are hoping to take a look at his apartment. Hoping you can help us out with that.”

I’m digging her, this old lady—she has a tough sinewy look about her, like an old snake, not dangerous but built to navigate danger. She hands me her Day Book and I hand her mine, and I stamp hers and she stamps mine, and then she does the same with Paige.

“So. What’s it like,” she asks Paige, “enforcing a world of absolute truth?”

“I don’t know,” says Paige, deadpan. “It’s my first day.”

Ms. Aster likes that a lot. She laughs, loud and cackling, hands on her hips, and gives me a wink. “You better watch out for this one, young man. Watch out!”

I raise my eyebrows, give her a tight smile, indulging the joke, but Aster’s joke has got it wrong—dead wrong, 180 degrees in the wrong—which she’s old enough to know. I do not believe and have never believed that our mission is to enforce a world of absolute truth. If such a world could be built we would have long ago built it already.

People are going to lie: they want to—they need to. Lying is born into the species. You know this is true as well as I do. There is something perfect in a lie, something seductive, addictive; telling a lie is like licking sugar off a spoon. I mean, think of children, think of how children lie all the time. We have imaginary friends, we blame our misbehavior on our playmates or our siblings, we claim not yet to have had dessert so we can cadge a second cookie. Me and Charlie used to have contests, as a matter of fact, two brothers each trying to slip a fake fact under the other one’s radar: “I beat up a kid at school”; “I saw that dog, the neighbor’s dog, jump over a fence”; “I’m the fastest runner in my class—”

You go back far enough in history, ancient history, and you find a time when people were never taught to grow out of it, when every adult lied all the time, when people lied for no reason or for the most selfish possible reasons, for political effect or personal gain. They lied and they didn’t just lie; they built around themselves whole carapaces of alternate truth in which to live like beetles. They built realities and sheltered inside them. This is how it was, this is how it is known to have been, and all the details of that old dead world are known to us in our bones but hidden from view, true and permanent but not accessible, not part of our vernacular.

It was the world. It was this world but it was another world and it’s gone. We are what’s left. The calamity of the past is not true because it is unknown: we do not know what happened or how it happened or why it happened—and therefore it is by definition not true. There could only be hypotheses, and hypotheses are not the truth. So we leave it blank. Nothing happened. Something happened. It is gone.

What we know of the past is enough to be afraid, enough to build our world, this world, our good and golden world, around preventing a repeat of the mistakes that destroyed the world before.

The contrary situation is untenable. If we did not exist, “we” meaning the Service, meaning the State and its many mechanisms. If we eased off, as some argue we should, if people were allowed to experiment, to push at the boundaries. If we unplugged the captures and burned down the Record, closed the doors of the Service and ushered its officers gently into retirement. We know what would happen. We know. What happened out there would happen here; what happened back then would happen now. And just saying that, just imagining it, just speculating, you get a shiver of what that would mean, what it would feel like. You can see the shimmer of that terrible prospect on the horizon.

And so the preservation of reality’s integrity is the paramount duty of the good citizenry and of this government alike. Imagine what kind of mad society would be organized otherwise.

I shake my head a little, out here on Crane’s landing, and blink myself back into the moment. Into reality unfolding. “So listen, Ms. Aster. Do you have a way of getting into the apartment?”

“How about a key? Will a key do?”

There is something grimly tragic about a Golden State apartment with no outdoor space: no balcony, no patio, nowhere to go and feel the blessing of sunshine on your cheeks. Crane’s U City apartment is grim and dark, a second-story bat’s nest, three narrow rooms connected by a carpeted hallway. Out the two small windows there’s a sorry view of Ellendale Place, stray sheets of Authority and hamburger wrappers tumbling down the street, the roots of aspen trees warping the sidewalk stones into strange shapes, like children hiding under a rug.

I wander through Crane’s apartment slowly, following no particular rhythm or route, developing a picture of the man’s life from the dull shapes and muted colors of his habitat: from the pair of beat-up shoes at the door, apparently the only pair he owned besides the pair he died in; from the three faded family photographs, tacked up unframed, brother and sister and mom faintly smiling, squinting into the sun on the pier; from the tiny kitchen table with the one chair, the coffee maker with two-day-old grounds still thick and gritty in the filter. The fridge is mostly beer, the garbage mostly takeout containers.

No speculation required. This was the home of a bachelor who worked long days at hard, sunburnt labor, who came home to piss and sleep and shower and get ready to go back to work.

Paige is pursuing her own slow perusal of the apartment, and she has her Day Book out to take down in carbon all these lonely details I’m absorbing: she’s taking inventory, creating a list of flat facts to refer to later. One armchair, one floor lamp, one cup at the kitchen table. One bookshelf, squat and brown.

I take a closer look at the books and find all the usual stuff: a volume of Maps and Legends, a copy of Recent Reference and one of What Things Are Made Of, this year’s edition of Flat Facts for Everyday Use. All of the various State-issued volumes produced by the Publishing Arm, the constant effort to ensure that we all know the same things, that we all know everything; Common knowledge is a bulwark. All of the books look basically brand new, as pristine as when the State published them; Crane, I figure, was lacking in either the time or the inclination to do a lot of reading. Probably both.

Not surprisingly, the man has hardly got any novels at all—although there is, prominently displayed on the top shelf, a copy of Past Is Prologue. I lay two fingers reverently on the wide scarlet spine. I’ve read it—you’ve read it—everybody’s read the big book, most of us many more times than once. But I slip Crane’s copy off the shelf nevertheless and flip through it slowly, feeling its words under my fingertips, giving myself the gift of its serenity. I fight an urge to just sink down to the floor and read the thing, pick a spot at random in the long and beautiful history of the first days and years of the Golden State, of our seven heroic founders and the obstacles they overcame and the gifts they left in their passing. Before I put it back I find one of its many black pages and place my hand down on it flat, feeling that power. Black pages; invisible truths; redacted facts about the time before, unknown and unknowable.

Man, this novel, I think, as I slide it reluctantly back into place on Crane’s top shelf. So fucking good.

“Anything?” Ms. Paige says, from the other side of the room, and I say, “Nope,” and then, “Wait. Yes.”

Because the thing is, all of the man’s books are like his copy of Past Is Prologue, showing little evidence of ever having been read, except for one, and when I bend down with a grunt and slip it off the shelf, I’m surprised to learn what it is: the fucking dictionary.

I turn it over in my hand. The Everyday Citizen’s Dictionary, one of the little hardback jobbers with the cheap paper sleeve.

I tilt back the brim of my pinhole and look closer. The Everyday Citizen’s Dictionary is what it sounds like, a quick and dirty lexicon for basic use, and judging by the wear on the spine there’s no question that Crane has used it heavily. I feel like I know Mose Crane just a little bit better than I did a second ago, and I like him a little bit more too, because this book has been read, and it’s great, it’s fucking terrific, because who reads the dictionary? It makes me wish for a sideways moment that I was at home, right now, in my own small gloomy lair, sitting in a heavy chair and reading the dictionary. Adding small facts, bits of truth, the meanings of words, like stray twigs to my nest.

Everybody has a dictionary; you’ve got to have one. Common knowledge is a bulwark. But—I smile, holding the dictionary in my palm—but nobody sits around reading the damn thing.

“Hey. Mr. Speculator.” Ms. Aster is pointing at the sofa. “Is she all right?”

“What?”

It’s Paige, standing by the sofa, frozen in place with one hand in the air, the other hand on her hip, her mouth slightly open like she was about to say something and then just stopped.

“Hey,” I say. “Paige?”

I snap my fingers.

“Goodness. What is going on?” Aster snaps her fingers too.

“Paige,” I say, a little louder, and she blinks, straightens up.

“Yeah. Sorry. But—are you—are you getting that?”

“Getting—” I look around. Now I recognize what I am seeing in her eyes, even though I’ve never worked with her before, never seen the way she reacts, because we all do it differently. But it’s happening to her like it did to me two hours ago at Terry’s, when I found myself unable to continue with the simple act of living because the air had been bent by the Tarjin boy’s insistent lie. Now, though, I’m clean. I’m undisturbed. I’m not catching anything. The only person in the room besides us two Specs is frank old Ms. Aster, and Aster isn’t even talking, she’s just staring back, grinning, just loving this new wrinkle, the unaccustomed excitement, the witchy strangeness, Speculators on her property—and now this, whatever this is.

But what is this?

It’s not a deceitful utterance that Paige has got on to, but something deeper, something in the bones of the moment, and I am seized by a sudden understanding of what Aysa Paige is all about, of what this is all about—she is standing there in clear reception of some dissonance, and I am not, and this is why Arlo wanted her in my car in the first place. She’s like Charlie, is what I’m thinking, and the thought is so clear and complete it is like snapping awake from a long and dreamless sleep.

She is like Charlie.

“What are you catching, Ms. Paige?” I say, and she doesn’t answer, just stands there uncertainly.

“Tell me where it’s coming from.”

“I’m not sure.”

“Aysa. Where is it?”

“I—” She shrugs. She looks around. She takes one step toward the kitchen, then one step back toward the door. She can’t figure it. It’s like we’re kids and we’re playing a game—it’s hotter… colder—with Ms. Aster an intent observer.

Then I get it, it rushes up in me, solution to problem, because maybe I don’t have what Paige has, maybe I’m no Charlie, but I’ve been doing this a long fucking time, okay? I’m slow but I ain’t stupid.

“Ms. Aster,” I say. “Are Crane’s boxes on-site?”

“Of course they are,” she replies, with a proud thrusted chin. “What kind of place do you think I’m running here?”

6.

The Permanent Record is downtown, right across the Plaza from the Speculative Service, but the Provisional Record is everywhere—in storerooms and spare rooms and sheds, in crawl spaces underneath homes and attics atop them.

Aster’s, she tells us, is in a basement, so off we go in a small parade, marching in single file back onto the exterior landing. It’s one flight down to the courtyard, through a narrow entrance between apartment doors and one more flight down to the basement, then through a bleak unswept hallway to the morgue. Ms. Aster leads the way with her flashlight, me just behind her, and Paige bringing up the rear, tuned in, keen.

The basement is still and cold and full of boxes, lit by three banks of flickering fluorescents. A record room like other record rooms all over the State, in every residential building and private home, climate-controlled and easily accessible.

Everybody keeps everything. You know it; I know it. Archiving is a bulwark.

At age seventeen you’re issued your first package from the Preservation Office, a full set of boxes and bags accompanied by four small-type pages of instructions and warnings, making detailed reference to the relevant text of the Basic Law. It’s thrilling at the outset, to come out of your parents’ boxes and assume this solemn responsibility borne by all good and golden citizens: taking the time every evening, before it gets to be midnight or before you go to sleep, whichever comes first, to curate the day that has passed. To compile all interaction stamps, all recorded observations, all receipts and paperwork from the day that was, gather it all up into a Mylar bag, seal it and mark it and file it amongst all the other days of your life. We carry our individual archives, our Provisional Records, moving through the present with our past enturtled on our backs.

Otherwise how would everybody know, for sure and forever, that the things that have happened have actually happened? How would the law know for sure? How would the future?

Of course, most daily bags remain sealed for the rest of your life, because most truth never needs to be unsealed. But if the State should need it, there it is: every day can reviewed if necessary, every flat fact can be exhumed, held up to the light, double-checked and reverified, compared and contrasted with other relevant archives. And then one day death comes, and a team from the Record comes in afterward, bears your papers away, and your Provisional becomes a part of the Permanent, one more tributary flowing into the main trunk.

They’ll be here by the end of the day for Crane’s records, I don’t doubt, and I’m glad to miss ’em. Strange people, the death collectors. I’ve known a few.

Aster has her tenants’ respective archives organized into different areas of the room, and she finds Crane’s section with no trouble. I step around her and hover my flashlight over the topmost box and nudge it with my toe.

“Is this the first pallet?” I ask her.

“First and last.”

I look at her in the dim light, and then back at the pallet. A single pallet. Six boxes.

“Are you sure?”

“Yes.”

“Absolutely sure?”

“What am I going to do?” she says. “Lie?”

The room feels colder than it was. Colder and darker. I glance at Ms. Paige, and she looks uneasy, standing behind me with her hands on her hips.

“Ms. Aster.” My voice is in neutral. My mind is going ten different ways at once. “How old was this man again? If that’s a fact you’re—”

“Fifty-four,” says Aster, busybody, knowledge collector. She knows.

I grunt. I crouch to the pallet. Fifty-four years. Same as me. I shift my weight to talk over my shoulder to Paige.

“Hey. What’s your gut?”

“What?”

She looks caught out, confused. But this is how it works: you are confronted with something and you make a decision. Anomaly, whispers of anomaly. What do you do?

“Come on, Ms. Paige. Come on. Your gut.”

“Dig,” she says quietly. “My gut is we dig.”

“Okay.” I shrug. “So? Dig.”

She crouches down beside me and we open our satchels. I keep all the special small tools for this kind of investigation in a zippered inner pocket: the slicing tool for clean-cutting dailies, the highly specialized adhesive tape for officially and properly sealing them back up and stamping them opened/examined next to today’s date. We pry off the lid of the first box and start digging.

Crane has got everything in order, just like he’s supposed to, just like everybody: each day’s pocket flotsam is gathered together in its own Mylar bag, each week of days is gathered together in a durable hard-paper sack and sealed. We paw through Mose Crane’s days, and we are both thinking the same thing: they are thin. Some days only have one or two pieces of paper in them, one or two conversations, or just a couple of receipts, or none. Aster watches Paige and me, unsealing thin bag after thin bag—days without incident, nothing worth recording, no transactions, no conversations at all. There’s one Saturday, three weeks old, with a parking ticket, an unlucky lotto ticket, and a note to himself, torn from the corner of his Day Book, scrawled in pencil, indecipherable.

But most days are even thinner. Employer-stamp slips and nothing else: Crane worked and went home, worked and went home. The combined Record of his life adds up to just six boxes, and six boxes is nothing. I’ve got nineteen boxes, personally. Same number of years, thirteen more boxes of days. Receipts for beers with friends from work, carbons of wedding invitations, of my wedding invitation, pictures and postcards and memories.

And listen, I’m fucking nobody. I’m no social butterfly. I don’t like people, I don’t talk to strangers, I don’t have hobbies. Fifty-four years wandering around our good and golden land, some people have got dozens of boxes, hundreds.

But our man Crane is sitting on six. Six.

And listen, there’s a part of me processing this as a trained Speculator, a law enforcement official with a wealth of institutional experience on which to draw. Six boxes isn’t much, but it’s not off the charts. Some people are just lonely, that’s all. Some people don’t get out. It’s just more evidence of the kind of life that Crane led, like the dumpy apartment, like the single ratty pair of shoes: introverted, dull, absent of incident. A bachelor, a day worker, working and eating and sleeping.

“You doing all right, Ms. Paige?” I am bending to the second to last of the boxes.

“No,” she says, a strangled single syllable, and I turn. I didn’t notice, but Paige at some point has stopped digging. She’s come up out of her crouch halfway and is frozen like that, legs bent, one hand over her mouth. Aster has lapsed into expectant, curious silence, her lips pursed and her eyes caught and held.

“Paige?”

Nothing. Here we go again. “Ms. Paige?”

“There’s—” She shuts her eyes, longer than a blink, tries again. “There’s—”

“Ms. Paige?”

“There’s—look—” She swallows hard, and I swear I can feel it, the pulse of pain that jams her up a second, before she manages to explain, sticking her hand into the one box I haven’t gotten to yet, the most recent one. “Look.”

“What am I looking at?”

“There are two weeks missing.”

-

And so the novel begins!

After several episodes of raw investigation, in which our curiosity is piqued and our appetite whetted, our attention now returns to the majestic glass-walled downtown office complex that houses the Speculative Service, in company with our hero, the most remarkable representative of that selfsame agency!

Our readers will not need to be reminded of the various mechanisms, extraordinary and subtle, that work together to protect the Golden State from the ever-present danger of falsehood in its variegated forms. These mechanisms include, for example, the Trusted Authority, daily beacon of new and accurate information; the Gazetteer and Book of What Is So and all the other volumes of reference, regularly issued and updated by the Publishing Arm to disseminate good and golden facts so that we all may operate, in all places and at all times, with the benefit of common understanding; and the “comprehensive capture mechanisms,” or simply “captures,” those ubiquitous small recording devices, some carefully hidden and some purposefully visible, capturing what happens, at all times and in all places, so that reality can be preserved for later reference. So there may be one reality, true and permanent and universal.

And of course the Record itself, where the events which occur are forever housed, so that no one may say one thing and subsequently claim not to have said it; so that no controversy may go unresolved; so that no disruption of fact can long go uncorrected.

Preeminent among the variety of truth-defending mechanisms, though, is the Speculative Service, that elite corps of law enforcement officials who are solely empowered, and uniquely qualified, to detect and destroy the stuff of lies. A created member of our Service has cultivated that superior discernment necessary to catch falsehoods as they emerge, and the skill to conjure falsehoods of his or her own. Confronted with a “mystery,” a blank space on the canvas of reality, the Speculator concocts potential truths, in order to test the plausibility of each until he or she deduces what really happened. Like the poison control man, like the radiologist, like the firefighter, Speculators are licensed to deal in danger, and they do so bravely, for the preservation of what is real, and for the protection of us all.

Three cheers for the Service!

And three cheers for Mr. Ratesic, a leading light among them, who even now—“now” in the sense of “at the time he emerges in the telling of the tale, at the time you, dear reader, are given the pleasure of joining his company”—even now Mr. Ratesic is confronted with a set of flat facts which, though each taken individually is true, piled together like a cairn, arranged with fiendish purpose to cover over a yawning darkness…

7.

“Cigarette?”

“No thank you, sir.”

“Come on.”

I am digging through my pockets one at a time, scowling and huffing. You might think that after all these years of stalking the world in this damn coat I’d have decided where the cigarettes go, but no such luck. At last I find the pack, yank out two smokes together, and poke one at Paige.

“No thank you.”

I feel myself bristle, I don’t know why. I light my cigarette, inhale deeply, and then exhale slowly. We’re still on Ellendale, standing beside the car, across the street from the courtyard building, looking up at Crane’s window, the same window we were looking out of a half hour ago. What if we could see ourselves? Look out on us from the window, while looking up at ourselves from out here?

“All right, look. Ms. Paige.”

“Yes?”

She looks up. Something is different in my voice. Or I hope it is. I’m trying to put it there. I’m trying to give her a softer surface. For the time being, anyway.

“Ms. Paige. First of all, you don’t have to call me ‘sir,’ okay? I’m just like you. All of this, the junior-senior Speculator stuff, it’s just what they do.” I take a second drag. I feel smoldering, cratered, like a volcano. Like a fire creature breathing smoke. “But rank within the Service is not important, okay? Not to people who matter. So you can call me Mr. Ratesic, or”—I’ve come this far, right?—“Laszlo.”

“Okay.”

“Or Laz. I don’t fucking care.”

“Okay.”

I glare at her.

“Okay, Mr. Ratesic.”

I laugh, just a little, a quiet rasp. “I’ll take it.” I indulge another drag, studying Crane’s windows, wondering if he ever stood there and took a long moment like this, contemplating the street. I’m guessing not. I hold smoke in my mouth, enjoy the way it feels on the back of my throat.

“What I’m saying is, you might find that it helps. The smoking, I mean. When your throat hurts.”

“It doesn’t.” I look at her. She shrugs. “I don’t actually get that.”

I scratch my neck, take another drag. “You don’t get what?”

“The throat. The eyes. Uh, coughing. And so on.”

“You don’t get any of it?”

“No.”

“No symptoms of any kind?”

“No.”

“When you’re seeing lies, when you’re feeling them? You don’t feel any physical—any reactionary effects at all?”

“I don’t, Mr. Ratesic.” She gives me a small apologetic smile. “I really don’t.”

“No shit?” I murmur, the words coming out soft with the smoke, like the memory of old words.

“No, sir.” She winces. “Sorry. No, Laszlo.”

I’m catching a chill off that information, as crazy as that sounds. It’s ninety degrees out here, I’m in my long black coat, and still the chill shudders up my spine like a ghost on feet. The chill of Charlie’s presence, out here leaning against the car with us, Charlie making himself known. She really is just like him.

She’s looking at me, curious. “I know that you do—that a lot of people, a lot of Specs, do get sort of a… how would you describe it?”

I shrug. “It’s like an allergy. A sensitivity. Not every time, and not always bad. Not usually bad at all. But most of the time, after exposure, you feel it a little bit, that’s all. Your body feels the work.” I finish the cigarette and consider starting a second one. “And especially after speculating.”

“Right. Yeah. I don’t get that.”

I smoke in silence, contemplating my new partner. I don’t get that, she says, like it’s not a big deal. But that’s how it works. The gift and the burden. You do the work, you feel it, that’s all. We all get it—all of us, apparently, except for Aysa. She is at another level. She is in another place.

The lack of symptomatology is one thing, but for some reason this revelation about my young charge registers in me as a kind of grief. I don’t know much about her yet, and I don’t like her because I don’t like anybody, but I can see that she is good. She’s kind and attentive and just fucking dying to do well in the world, to do good and do well. She’s too good to be carrying all of this: the gifts of discernment, of speculation—the “gift”—the burden of it, the responsibility to her fellow citizens, all of it.

“Ms. Paige, are you—”

“Yes?”

“Involved with anyone?”

Her eyes widen as she realizes what I’m asking. “You mean—like—”

“Yeah.” I gesture vaguely with one thick hand, searching the air for appropriate terminology. “Like a—sweetheart.”

Ms. Paige looks genuinely confused. “Why are you asking me that?”

“Because—I don’t know.”

Because I want to protect her, all of a sudden. I want to point her away from all of this work, from the dullness and the danger, from me in my dark clothes and dark spirit, point her away from the danger and the dullness of the whole preposterous enterprise and out toward the rest of our good and golden world, toward the Venice Beach skate park and the clear blue sky, toward her sweetheart and her future.

I say none of that. I just say, “We’re partners, right? We need to know each other.”

She is looking at me, confused, no doubt recalling the Laszlo of an hour and a half ago, in the car on the way to the scene of death, abruptly shutting down her earnest efforts to spill her whole history. She’s trying to make sense of me, and I should tell her she’s not the first person, and it’s not worth it.

“Alison,” she says softly, with the happy wisp of a smile. “I do have a sweetheart. Her name is Alison.”

“Oh.”

“So—should we head back to the office?”

The moment is already passing—it has passed—and I let it go.

Arlo gave me to Charlie for a shadow, and he was none too excited about it.

“Are you fucking kidding me, old man?” is what Charlie said, as a matter of Record—Charlie outraged and incredulous, never mind that I was standing right there. “I’m a solo operator. Lone wolf. You know that.”

“I think for a brief period you might open your heart to show what you know to Mr. Ratesic the younger.”

Me standing there in gray, hands stuffed in my pockets, examining the floor. Charlie wasn’t worried about hurting my feelings; of all the half-hidden facts he could discern without trying, one was surely that I would worship him under any circumstance.

And I did worship him. By the end of that first day’s training I worshipped him more than I ever had before, although my worship was tinged with the dawning realization that though I had followed him into Service, I would never in a million years live up to his reputation or abilities.

It was a slow day, my first day of speculation. Watching Charlie, standing back while he reconciled petty anomalies, testified in the Small Infelicities, helped a pair of impossibly dense regular policemen make sense of a bicycle theft.

But then, we’re on the way home, we’re turning right onto Westwood Boulevard, and he jumps the car up onto the curb, slams into park, and yells, “Come on! Come on!”

I run behind him into this little gas station convenience store, and the shopkeeper and the customer spin around at the sight of us: two big men in black and gray, tromping in together, me thinking with a burst of wild pride, We’re here! The Service has arrived!

Not that I knew what the fuck we were doing there. But Charlie does—Charlie has a hunch and Charlie is right. Charlie is always right.

“Hands up, friends,” he says, speaking to the room, smiling and moving slowly across the crowded aisles, grabbing a bag of chips for later. He puts out his hand for the customer’s wallet, and the guy tries to make a break for it, and Charlie snags him quick, slams him down, yanks it from his pocket, and riffles the cash till he finds it.

“Well, what do you know?” he says, still straddling the dude, winking at me. Charlie in his black leather jacket and high black boots.

It was a counterfeit bill. One fake, in a wallet in a man’s back pocket, us driving past on Westwood Boulevard.

That was Charlie, floating above us mere mortals, the jacket and the boots and the big stand-back grin, throwing out his hands wide so the world could witness his miracles. He offered to pay for the chips but the shopkeeper wouldn’t hear of it.

We park on the Plaza and walk together through the glass lobby of the Service, and I’m just getting used to how it feels, to not be walking alone.

But then Paige presses nine in the elevator, and I say, “What are you doing?”

“What do you mean, what am I doing?”

“Why are you pressing the button for the ninth floor?”

“Isn’t that where the Liaison is?”

“Yeah. So?”

“So don’t we need to talk to him?”

“Nope.”

I cross my arms and she crosses hers too. I stare at her and she stares back at me. The elevator door opens on nine and I wait like that, daring her to get off. It slides back closed and we resume our ascent.

“Mr. Ratesic.”

“What?”

“What ‘What?’? Look. We’ve obviously got something going on here, right?”

“I wouldn’t go so far as to say ‘obviously.’ I’m not a fan of the word ‘obviously,’ just in general.”

“But you don’t think it’s time to at least requisition the stretch?”

“No. I don’t think.”

“Okay, okay.”

I’m guessing the soft edge has come out of my voice again. I’m trying to be neutral, just a nice, calm, skeptical expression, but Paige is looking at me like I’m about to take a bite out of her neck.

“And what stretch of reality is it you think we need to see?”

“Just—the roof.”

“What roof?”

I’m playing devil’s advocate. I’m being an asshole. I’m somewhere in the charming middle ground between those two. This kid, she wants to jump in, both feet, jump in and grab on to something. But if she can’t make a case, build an argument, I don’t care how sensitive she is. I don’t care if she’s a thousand Charlies.

“On Vermont Avenue. The roof at the moment Crane falls. I think we can both agree, at this point, that there is something anomalous about it.”

“Oh? I recall you agreeing with me that there was nothing anomalous about the death. Should we requisition that stretch? Of us having that conversation?”

“No.” She flushes. “I just mean—the whole incident.”

“There’s no incident.”

“Well, there’s something.”

“Yeah, but is there?”

The elevator stops and settles and the door sweeps open.

“Holy cow,” says Paige, in a different voice, and I sigh, smile very slightly.

“I know.”

It’s the view. She must not have noticed it when Arlo brought her in this morning, or maybe she’s just seeing it again as if for the first time, just like I do every time, even though I’ve been coming off that elevator into this room—just one big room, totally wrapped in glass—for much of my life. We linger at the glass, held by the majesty of the sprawling city: the bright glass towers of downtown, the upright cones and rectangles, the low gray hulks of the garment district. It goes on for miles from here: north to the fields, west to the water. The desalination plants that line the water’s edge north of the pier. The acres of avocados, of wheat and corn, the rice and lettuce, the marijuana plants and the grapes for wine. The electric automobile plants that make the trucks that bring the wheat from the fields and the fish from the harbors to all corners of the State.

Way out to the west is the water; to the east and to the north are the rolling tops of the distant hills, with pockets of clouds clustered across their peaks, their contours crisply outlined by the backlight of the sun.

Aysa says “Sir,” and I give her a warning look, but the edge has come off my sternness now. That view gets me—it gets me every time.

“Laszlo.”

“Yup.”

“You’ve been doing this longer than me.”

“Well noted, Ms. Paige. You’ve been doing it for, what, three hours?”

I am walking to my desk, raising a hand to Cullers, who barely moves, and Paige tails me all the way, talking nonstop, piling point upon point. Burlington is here, at his desk, grunting, typing out what looks like a long crime scene report, but other than that it’s pretty quiet.

“There are anomalies in Renner’s statement.”

“Renner?”

“The boss. Manager. And there are anomalies in the dead man’s home. In his Provisional. Two weeks of missing days.”

“Which so far as we know have zero connection to his death.”

“Well, sure, but how can we know what we don’t know?”

I sigh. It’s a fair point. I’m just hesitant, that’s all, about going down to nine, engaging with the Liaison Office, jumping through the thousand hoops required to review stretches of reality.

For what? A man is dead but men die all the time. Here’s one thing that’s true as it gets: people are dying all day long.I look over at Arlo’s desk, in search of wise counsel, but Arlo’s desk is empty.

“I don’t mean to be contumacious. But—”

“You don’t mean to be what?”

“Contumacious. It means stubborn.”

“No it doesn’t.”

“Respectfully, Laz, it does.”

“I think I know what words mean.”

Cullers, from his desk, from under the hand towel draped over the top half of his face, makes a snort of amusement. The whole thing is ridiculous two stubborn people arguing over whether a word means stubborn or not, two dogs tearing at a bone of truth. This kid, buttons polished, eyes shining, barely out of police academy diapers, pushing back on her immediate supervisor over a minor and irrelevant fact. She is all readiness and upright zeal; she is dying to show me what she’s made of.

“Okay, you know what? Be my guest.”

Aysa’s eyes widen. Her spine straightens perceptibly. “Really?”

I shrug. “Sure. Go down to nine, tell Woody you want to pull a stretch from the Record. You would like to fill out all of the ten thousand forms necessary, for the pleasure of watching a roofer fall off a roof. You know what, kid? Knock yourself out.”

“Really?”

“Yes.”

“Great.”

I’m being hyperbolic about the forms, but just barely. Reviewing material from the Record is a massive pain, even for us, one of the few institutional bodies with license to do so in any circumstance. If reviewing stretches of reality were easy, everybody would be doing it all day long: to settle petty arguments, satisfy prurient curiosity, win bets. Forget all that. Access even to fleeting instants of reality requires multiple levels of bureaucratic review and regulatory rigmarole, and that’s not even counting having to reckon with the miserable personality of Woodrow Stone, the Speculative Service’s Chief Liaison Officer to the Permanent Record.

Aysa Paige, undaunted, is heading back to the elevator. I watch her walk, the sun-sparkled heights of downtown like a dream vision behind her, through the windows.

“Hey, actually—Paige.”

“Yeah?”

I tug at my beard a second, think it over. Can’t hurt, right?

“As long as you’re going. One more thing I want you to put in for.”

“Oh?” She takes out her Day Book, clicks her pen open, eager pupil.

“Tell Woody I want stakeout stretches on Mose Crane’s front door.”

“On his… door.”

“Yup. You have the address?”

“Yes. What’re stakeout stretches?”

“Woody will know.”

“But can you just tell me?”

“It’s just, like, you know, all the stretches caught by the same capture over a sustained time period. Like, for example, somebody’s front door, all hours, for the week leading up to today.” I think for a moment. “Let’s do two weeks. I want to see if anybody strange was poking around. Besides us, I mean.”

“Yup. Front door. Stakeout stretch. Two weeks leading up to today.” She finishes writing and frowns. “That sounds like it might be a big ask.”

“It is. Which is why I’m glad I’m not the one asking. Good luck, Ms. Paige.”

She gives me a smart salute and holds it, and I wait until the door closes before I laugh out loud.

“Contumacious,” I say to myself, shaking my head. “This kid.”

But then the word sort of sticks with me. An awkward set of syllables, jangling and mysterious. Like a magician’s invocation. I say it piece by piece, measuring the word in my mouth: “con,” “tu,” “ma,” “cious.” Well, let’s just see, Officer Aysa Paige, I think. Let’s just damn well see.

I’ve got plenty of dictionaries, of course, a ton of ’em, along with all the other reference books that crowd the office of our division like they crowd all the other offices in the Service, all the other offices in the Golden State. Gazetteers and Almanacs, encyclopedias and timelines, Notable Individuals and The Book of Weights and Measures. I have my own dictionary, of course. Right up there on the shelf with all my other books; my own Everyday Citizen’s Dictionary; my own Gazetteer and Almanac; my own well-loved copy of Past Is Prologue, the big book, close to hand so I can take it down when I want and dip into the glorious early history of the State, so I can lay my hands on the black pages and feel their mystery.

At the present moment, though, I just need a dictionary. Along the inner wall of our office is The Full Dictionary of the Golden State, all seventeen volumes, with the bold main entries and the word histories in tiny type, with all the illustrations and charts and diagrams, the latest updates in a series of stapled inserts in the back of each volume.

I’ve got The Speculator’s Field Dictionary, leather-bound and portable; I’ve got The Everyday Citizen’s Dictionary.

And then, of course, closest to hand, I have Mose Crane’s copy of that same Everyday Citizen’s, the universally issued handheld lexicon.

I like a man who likes his dictionary. I open it up, about a third of the way in, where the Gs or Hs would be, and I feel all of my blood freeze and stop, and I snap it closed again.

It’s not a dictionary.

There has been, since we left Dolly Aster’s building, a quiet burble of speculation chugging along in the back of my brain, a faint gurgling ever-presence like a creek on the far side of a campground, and now, all of a sudden, it becomes a rush, a crashing wall of water that staggers me up and out of my chair. I push the book off the desk and it slams on the floor and I stare at it lying there, like a feral animal, motionless but radiating menace. Cullers looks up at the sound and then down again, shifts his position, and lets himself drift back to sleep.

I bend warily to pick it up, slide it back on my desk, keeping my face a good foot from the object itself.

The cover looks like the cover of the dictionary, there’s no question about it. The Everyday Citizen’s Dictionary, the font and typesetting so familiar I could have drawn it myself. Beneath it, in smaller type: A Product of the Golden State Publishing Arm.

But only the paper jacket is real; the cover has been removed from a real dictionary and wrapped around this book instead, and carefully trimmed, I now realize, cut at top and bottom to fit precisely. Beneath the paper cover of the dictionary, the book has a real cover, pale yellow with stark red letters: “The Prisoner.” And then, underneath it, in smaller type, “A Novel,” and then, in smaller letters still, “By Benjamin Wish.”

A stolen cover or a counterfeited cover hiding a real one. Like snakeskin, like a skein, a shadow truth drawn across the object’s reality like a curtain. A big lie, a forgery, an act of material pretense. I wrap my fingers around the edges of my desk. By instinct, just to feel something real, to grip on to it. With both hands I clutch the desk’s edge like a window ledge and hold on tight.

And then—a deep breath—I open the book again, look down and then up again, just long enough to read a sentence, grab the words without feeling them:

I close the book.

Close it and press my hands down on top, one hand flat and then the other hand flat on top of the first, press both hands down as if on the lid of a chest to keep it from springing open again.

It’s fiction. For fuck’s sake. It’s fiction.

“Hey. Cullers. Hey.”

“Yup?” He says it with forcefulness, the feigned alert tone people use when they’ve just been woken up.

“Do you know where Mr. Vasouvian is?”

“What?”

“Arlo? Where is he? Where is Arlo?”

8.

I find him in the first place I look, in his favorite place, just across the Plaza, on the broad majestic steps of the Permanent Record, working his way with stoic determination through a very large sandwich. He’s got his tie tucked punctiliously between the buttons of his shirt, and a paper napkin tucked into his collar, and even in my agitated state of mind I spare a moment to love Arlo Vasouvian, my mentor and my oldest friend in the Service. Probably my oldest friend alive, if you don’t count Silvie, and I can’t count Silvie anymore.

“Ah,” says Arlo, looking up. “Laszlo. Six sixes is thirty-six.”

“And always will be,” I say. I’m holding the book close to my chest, tight at my heart like a breastplate.

“You all right there, Mr. Ratesic?” Arlo lowers his sandwich to his lap, dabs at his lips with the napkin. A wilt of thin white hair falls across his forehead. “You will forgive, I hope, an old man’s lapse into cliché, but you look like you’ve seen a ghost.”

That’s it exactly, of course. The thing in my hand, the dictionary that is not a dictionary, novel that is not a novel, is a ghost: phantasmagoric, alarming, inexplicable. I drop down onto the bench beside Arlo, still catching my breath.

“Take time,” says Arlo, and he smiles his faraway smile. “Take time. Gather your thoughts.”

The Plaza is a wide parallelogram of cement and fountains, of tall palms and statuary, of meandering paths and kiosks whose cheerful merchants hawk gum and marijuana cigarettes and the day’s Trusted Authority. The broad and sun-drenched Plaza is the heart of the State, and at the heart of the Plaza is the pond, a narrow, kidney-shaped duck pool surrounded by benches. Food trucks shark around the outskirts of the Plaza at all hours, a constantly rotating array of food trucks representing all the dizzying variety of cuisines that flavor the State: sumptuous pork dumplings and crisp savory crepes and spicy beef empanadas, tacos and tortas and tostadas, fish sandwiches and pâté sandwiches and overstuffed chicken salad sandwiches like the one Arlo is now enjoying. Ringing the Plaza are the three main buildings of the State government: the Service, my own home away from home; the Trusted Authority building, including not only the fact-gathering operations but the rattling enormity of the printing plant, not to mention the studios from which the broadcast arm transmits its hourly and quarter-hourly bulletins; and—last and never least, fundamental and foundational—the Record itself, a modest construction of archways and stone, with its famous approaching staircase and humble brickwork walls. The Record, of course, appears small but is much larger on the inside, underneath, with its endless basements and subbasements.

People approach the Record’s walls, as they are constantly approaching the Record’s walls, to perform the small ecstatic ritual for which it is famous. One guy comes up quickly now, a shaggy Caucasian in sandals and aviator glasses, who, as I watch, hunches over and scribbles madly in his Day Book, scribbling some intimate truth; then he tears off whatever he’s been writing, folds the scrap up small and then smaller, and jams it into a crack in the wall of the Record before he steps back, satisfied, and eruns two fingers along the wall, tracing a slow reverential path across its pitted surface.

Others come and go, they are always, always, coming and going, up and down the stone steps, each to perform his or her own version of the old ritual: a lady in a sundress, striding purposefully, grinning ear to ear; a man with his son up on his shoulders; a girl of fifteen, sixteen, maybe, with a skateboard she tucks under her arm while digging out her Day Book. They’re tearing small pieces from their interior lives, ripping pieces from their Day Books and jamming them like sealant into the cracks in the walls of the Record, good and golden citizens adding their private truths to the greater store, a literal enactment of our figurative truth: everybody builds reality together.

There is one truth, and here it is. One truth, and I too am a part of it.

I watch the kid with the skateboard as she presses her palm against the wall, trots back down the steps, and hops back on her board. It’s funny, how much I dislike people in general but then I see one particular person, one good citizen doing her thing, or his thing, and I feel love like a concavity in my chest—the fearsome love that drove me to join the Service in the first place. The need to protect everybody I see.

“So are we talking about the case, Laz? This business up on Vermont Avenue.”

“Yes,” I say. “In a way.”

“Oh?” Arlo untucks his napkin, crumples it into a ball that then expands out into a nest. “And what way is that?”

His voice, as ever and as always, has a calming effect on me. I find that despite the unease of what I have found, I am able in Arlo’s steady presence, warm and worn, to speak clearly. I give the old man a rapid brief on the morning’s adventures, on the dead roofer, how we had enough anomalies to justify going down to his place of residence, and how, once there, we found—

“This.”

I hold it up. “It’s a novel. A work of fiction.”

“Pardon me,” he says, and frowns. “But a novel is not a work of fiction.”

“I know that, sir. I know what a novel is supposed to be.”

“A novel is a true story about an event or events from the distant or recent history of our State—”

“Arlo, I know.”

That’s the point. That’s why I’ve sought him out. But Vasouvian can’t stop now that he’s started. The old man has got few faults, but among them is a love of reciting, of casually demonstrating how comprehensive is his knowledge of the Basic Law, every bulwark and provision. What I am now witnessing may indeed be Arlo’s favorite state: eyelids drifted down to half shut, head tilted slightly back, glasses perched on the tip of his nose, precisely unspooling a line of text.

“A true story, that is, organized into chapters or incidents, featuring a historical character or characters, building to a conclusion, suggesting or implying an inspirational message about the nature of the Golden State.”

“Thank you. Yes. I know all that.”

“It’s true, it’s true,” he says, singsong, with a pleased sigh. “It’s all true.”

“Right, but that’s the point, Arlo.” I hold up the book again, with its plain yellow cover, oversized red letters. “But this thing is not that. It says ‘novel’ on the cover, under the title, but it’s something different.”

“You’ve… read it?” he asks, giving me a look I’ve never seen from him before.

“No, sir.” I shake my head. “I haven’t read it.”

There’s an accusation in his question, a rising sharpness at the end of it that I don’t like. As if I decided to stumble into an alternate reality, to discover a work of make-believe and carry it around. “I only opened it, sir. I looked inside.”

Arlo contemplates me for a moment; another. Behind us, a woman stands very close to the wall, her head bent forward and pressed against the concrete of the building, her hands pressed flat against it. A load-bearing citizen, using the strength of her body to hold up the State.

“And if you only opened it, how do you know that, though it says ‘novel,’ it is not a novel?”

“Well, here.”

I flip it open to the passage on which my eyes landed, I open this fat fraudulent document right there on the steps of the Plaza, right out in the shadow of the Record itself, and I show to Arlo the sentences that scythed into me, the business about the injured boy and the dizzying whirl of activity around his hospital bed, the intimation of some alien intelligence. Clear fabrication, unsupported and unsupportable by any provable fact or facts.

“It’s fiction,” I say flatly, and Arlo murmurs, “So it is,” and closes it, softly but firmly, like a man putting the top back on a box. He thinks and I watch him think, the sunlight glinting off his round glasses, the soft splash of the ducks in the fountain and the bustle of footsteps on the stone all around us.

It strikes me—as it occasionally strikes me—how wondrous are Arlo Vasouvian’s old eyes: deep set and luminous, flickering with the light of careful attention, but always with shadows forming and moving beneath the surface. No matter what the subject under discussion, Arlo has always got some other thing he’s mulling over, somewhere the rest of us can’t see.

He holds up the book, turns it over delicately in his hands. “It’s an artifact.”

“An artifact.” I knew that, I guess. I didn’t want to know it. “From what was.”

“Yes. World that was.”

We are silent, then, silent on the steps of the Record, silent at the center of the State. There is a world there used to be and is gone. We live on it and in it, but we don’t know what it was. Its absence surrounds us.

Arlo turns the book over and over in his worn hands. “A novel,” he says softly. “Quote unquote. Who was this fellow again? The possessor. The man who is dead.”

“A roofer. A construction worker. Crane.”

“Crane.”

“Just a guy.”

“And why would he have a book like this?”

“I don’t know.”

“And do you think this object is something he happened to have, just as he happened to die this morning. Or do you suppose there is a line, a bridge, as yet unseen, which connects those two flat facts together?”

No,” I say, but then I taste it—I feel it. A half-truth. I catch it, correct it. “I don’t know, Arlo. There might be.”

“Well. You better find out.”

“I will,” I say. “That’s what I’ll do.”

He holds out the book so I might take it back, and I find my hands are unwilling to do so. I see now what I wanted, I wanted him to tell me the mystery of the novel is above my pay grade, that the appearance of such an artifact on my trail—a novel that is not a novel, a dangerous relic—means the trail is shut off to me. I want Arlo to relieve me of the burden of this case, which seemed so open-and-shut, so simple—the flat fact of the broken roof, the flat fact of the broken roofer, a simple and clean connection—but which now seems full of wrinkles, a welter of anomalies, a patchwork of unseen connections.

I’m sure Arlo can see it too, that I wish I didn’t have to keep going. That I am—for all of my experience, my gruff exterior, my size and strength—a tiny little man. Not at all like Charlie. He would have seized on the book, the roofer, the mystery, and leapt into whatever danger it all represented, leapt in grinning and torn out the truth. Torn out the truth by the roots or died trying.

Arlo, deep and decent, sets the book down on the bench between us. Captures turn up on the rooftops of the Plaza, panoramic, a slow-spinning capture on the top of every building, recording my insufficiency. My shame.

Arlo chews his sandwich and allows his eyes to linger on the pond in the center of the Plaza. Looks anywhere but at me for a moment, and then clears his throat and changes the subject.

“And how is it going,” he asks, “with young Ms. Paige?”

“Oh. Fine.” I catch it, correct it. “More than fine. She’s… she’s extremely gifted.” I shake my head in wonder, feeling a glad rush of relief to be talking about something other than the book. “Her sensitivity is off the charts—sorry, idiom, lazy—but it is. Man, is it. And not just locutions either. She’s catching targets from three floors up. She’s, uh—” I look at him, and he’s not looking at me. He’s leaning back, considering, gazing up toward the clouds. “She’s like Charlie. Which—by the way—is why you gave her to me.”

I am teasing him. Lovingly, yes, but definitely chiding him for having hidden the full truth of his motivations. But he responds thoughtfully, nodding. “Yes. Yes… although it is true, as I told you, that I assigned Ms. Paige to your mentorship because you are in my estimation—and Alvaro agrees, though he may not… anyway. In the collective estimation, you are the most capable member of the service. However—” Now he pauses, dabs at one corner of his lips with his big wad of napkins. “Yes. I thought… given your history. Your familiar connection…” He shrugs. I wait. “She is as good as he was, Laszlo,” he says finally. “Indeed, she…” And then, softly, as if reluctant to blaspheme. “She may indeed be better.”

I shake my big woolly head and start to deny it, but if there is any fair judge of such matters, it’s Arlo.

“I can’t attest to it, of course, because no one can. But yes, indeed. She might be better.” He nods slightly, as if ticking off a list in his mind, considering things he’s seen. And me too: I’m remembering Aysa, sitting next to me in the car after we went through Aster’s basement, politely declining a cigarette, humble about her remarkable catch, unaffected by exposure.

“Do you recall that I used to give these talks?” Arlo says. “These… these lectures at some of the high schools, as part of the… you know. To gently acclimate young people to their new responsibilities to truth telling, as they aged out of the years of exemption. I met her at one such talk. Nine years ago. It was just after… after Charlie was lost to us, actually. I remember it. She was clearly gifted, clearly registering, you know, and just leaping with excitement. It was truly just… radiating off of her. An eagerness. To join the Service. To do her part, she kept saying. Charming phrase. Do her part. Although her enthusiasm, I must say, was…” He sighs. “Sorry. It’s sad, you know. Her enthusiasm was contrary to the will of her parents.”

Arlo sighs, a long exhalation, weary but pleased. The lunchtime crowd is dying down, but a handful of the faithful straggle still along the wall. A middle-aged man in a wheelchair angles up, just a few feet from us, takes out his Day Book, writes down his small truth, and tears it free and folds it small. Reality is ongoing.

“I know, Laszlo, that you do not relish the company. But there is no one else who can offer this young lady what you can. Do you know what that is?”

“No,” I say.

“Ballast.”

And then he just smiles, the wide and watery smile. And I know exactly what he means. I can picture Aysa Paige, dying to get to the crime scene, dying to ask a thousand questions, dying to speculate, leaping ahead. Bounding, heedless, reckless. Where my qualities tend in the other direction. I am the earthbound man, heavy and stolid. Ballast. That’s me.

Charlie was eager too. Not with Aysa’s wide-eyed acolyte eagerness, but with the swaggering keenness of a big-game hunter, the man who catches a scent and cannot and will not stop, never mind the dangers. Fuck the dangers of exposure, the dangers of living in proximity to dissonance, the dangers of speculation. Sometimes Charlie almost—not quite, but almost—refused to believe there even was any danger.

And Arlo knows as well as I do what happened to Charlie.

I stood beside Arlo at the funeral while the bells were ringing, one ring for each year of his life.

Mr. Vasouvian and Mr. Ratesic, the younger Mr. Ratesic, on the outskirts of the thronging crowd, watching Charlie’s coffin be delivered to the earth, committed to the ground for all time, like a sealed box of files being added to the Permanent Record.

Arlo with his hand on my elbow, holding me gently back from whatever drastic action he was afraid I’d take. As if there was any danger of that: of Laszlo Ratesic flying off the handle, gnashing his teeth, enacting violent revenge. That’s never been my style. I just stood there, hands in pockets, head lowered, listening in silence while my brother’s wild courage was eulogized.

I’d never before seen my father in public without his pinhole on. Never in all of my life.

I’m thinking about him, like I’m always thinking about him, and now I’m thinking about Aysa too, young Ms. Aysa Paige of the Speculative Service, with her whole golden life ahead of her.

“And you didn’t think it was better to simply discourage her from entering the Service entirely? You didn’t think that would be the better course for her?”

“Perhaps.” Arlo turns then, at last, and looks me full in the eye. “But not the better course for the Service.”

Modest as he is, Arlo will not apologize for choosing the integrity of the truth, and the safety and welfare of the State, ahead of the safety and welfare of any single individual. And I’m too sour and inward to express what I am already feeling, which is that I am grateful to Arlo for the opportunity to work with Aysa Paige. To take her under wing, lead her into greatness.

I scan the edges of the Plaza, but lunchtime is over, and the food trucks are going or gone. I see the Dirty Dog, a black truck with pink piping, a hot dog truck I’ve been wanting to try for years, but it’s just now driving away, turning down Alameda Street in a cloud of exhaust. In the wake of this disappointment I register another truth about Aysa Paige, the other way I am feeling and have felt since Crane’s apartment, which is a burning envy—I could die of jealousy, I swear to it, that is big true, I could die of jealousy, but because I love the State, I love the work, I will raise her up. Show her the works. Take her along.

“So we are set then?” Arlo says quietly, reading my mind. “I can entrust young Ms. Paige with confidence to your care?”

“Requires subjectivity to answer,” I say. In the pond, the ducks execute a U-turn, still in their flotilla. “Requires an assessment of future events.”

“But you’ll try.”

“I’m trying already.”

“Well, then keep it up.”

The man in the wheelchair has gone, and for once the wall is deserted, this stretch closest to us, and I almost stand up and go over there myself. I’ve never gone in for it myself, the displays of faith. I’d be embarrassed to do it, to put my private devotion on public display, but right now I want to put both of my hands against the Record, press my forehead against the stones of its wall, and whisper, “Thank you. Thank you… for the world we have built, in which everything is known and can be known, in which everything that is so is known to be so, and has been known and will be known tomorrow.” Because just imagine—just imagine the alternative, the world in which a man encounters some scrap of information, about the murder rate in his neighborhood, or about the presence of troops on the northern border, or what time the bus is supposed to come—any of the small and large pieces of information a person encounters in the course of a day or a lifetime, personal or political, substantive or trivial—and then the next hour or the next day he hears something different, and it is impossible, literally impossible, to know which version is the real one.

Madness creeps in very quickly at the edges of such speculation. Not just madness but a kind of horror, a flickering red field closing in. Just the thought of it.

The bell begins to ring from the Grand Hall of the Record, and everybody on the Plaza stops moving and turns to a nearby stranger. “It’s one o’clock,” say a dozen different voices, loud and confident, affirming general truth.

“It’s just turning one.”

“In one hour exactly it will be two.”

I never did pick up the book. It is lying still where Arlo left it, and now he picks it up again, holds it in his lap while he slides his glasses slightly down his nose. “The Prisoner,” he murmurs when the bells have stopped. “By Benjamin Wish. I think perhaps—” He weighs it in his hands. “Perhaps our best move after all, as far as this goes, is to bring it to Ms. Petras.”

“Oh.” I should feel relief. This is what I wanted. This is exactly what I wanted only moments ago. “Oh yeah?”

“Yes, yes.” He sets the book down again, gazes at the jacket, taps it with two fingers. “Bring it to Ms. Petras’s office and let them do their thing.”

Laura Petras is Our Acknowledged Expert on the Enforcement of the Laws and thus the ultimate supervisor of both the Speculators and the regular police, one of twenty committee members who oversee the administration of the Basic Law. I’ve only met her once, seen her maybe five times in my life, a bland-smiling blonde woman in a tan suit and sensible shoes who, along with her fellow committee members—Our Acknowledged Expert on Trade and Commerce, Our Acknowledged Expert on Transportation, and all the rest of them—administers the fine points of State governance. The various committees and their staffs are not headquartered down here, among the majestic showpiece buildings of the State, but at the Melrose Avenue facility, a sprawling administrative campus of one- and two-story sandstone bungalows, with venetian blinds in the windows and conference tables in every room.

Among its many other responsibilities, the committees have ultimate jurisdiction over facts and artifacts that can be proved neither true nor untrue, and which therefore must be consigned to oblivion. Put out of mind. Not to be thought of again. What Arlo is proposing is to take my artifact and spirit it away, drive up to Melrose and hand it to Petras or Petras’s people, to be referred in due time to the assembled committees, to be declared a part of the unknowable past, either known nor unknown, neither true nor false, forever.

After that, it probably gets thrown in a box or set on fire. Who knows?

I pick up the book from the bench between us, feeling suddenly protective of it. The prospect of it being declared unknown and unknowable seems—I don’t know. Wrong. Unfair, somehow. Must Crane’s prized secret possession be consigned to oblivion, just because he was?

“No, you know what?” I say. “I think I’ll hang on to it for now. Just in case it becomes relevant to the investigation.”

“Very well,” says Arlo, sounding less than entirely convinced. But I nod—good. I’ve convinced myself. It’s my investigation, my strange artifact, my responsibility. There is something else too, isn’t there? I hold the book tightly, gripping its corners with my fingers. It wants me to read it—it wants to be read.

I drop the book back in my bag and zip it up.

“And how is your novel coming, by the way?”

“Oh, it’s coming,” Arlo answers with a long happy sigh. “It’s coming along. You’ll be the first to see it when I’m done.”

“I can’t wait.”

An old joke between Arlo and me, one of thousands, part of the private language of old friends. He’s been working on his novel, supposedly, for eleven years; it is an achievement, he likes to say, to which he has long aspired, to produce a novel of his own: a true story organized into chapters or incidents, featuring a historical character… implying an inspirational message about the nature of the Golden State. Every time I ask whether I can get a look at the damn thing, he says it’s not quite finished, he’s still tinkering at the edges, smoothing the transitions, fine-tuning the ending, but I’ll be the first to see it when he’s done.

Which is only right, after all. It’s about my brother.

-

“This makes no sense,” spat Ratesic. “This makes no sense at all.”

“You wanna tell me what you’re talking about?” hissed Mr. Alvaro at his tough-talking colleague, hiding his admiration and envy behind a sneer. Mr. Ratesic was universally admired. That was a true fact, solid as steel, permanent and unbending. Among his fellow Speculators, among those who had worked with him, among dirty liars who’d had the bad luck to cross his path, he was considered a force of nature. Broad-shouldered and barrel-chested, with a strong jawline and intense, brooding eyes, Ratesic lifted a match to his cigarette and stared out the wide glass windows of the thirtieth floor of the Service.

“What do you mean, it makes no sense?” Mr. Alvaro was incensed. “This good-for-nothing punk was hustling fake IDs, and I caught his dumb ass. End of story.”

Mr. Alvaro was filling out the paperwork on an arrest he had made, a twenty-three-year-old street kid named Bert Pepper, sunglasses and a skateboard and ragged jeans, a shoulder bag filled with forged identifications. A serious crime, an out and out perversion of the truth and Alvaro was working his way through the charging documents.

But he should have waited. He should have known. When Charlie Ratesic sensed a discrepancy, when he caught wind of an anomaly, it was because there was an anomaly on the wind. He was brash and he was headstrong, but Mr. Charles Ratesic did not make mistakes.

“I want to talk a run at this kid.”

“He’s my arrest,” Alvaro protested.

“A kid like that needs a source for that kind of paper. I wanna ask him about the source.”

“Why don’t you worry about your own arrests, Ratesic?”

The rest of the gang watched as the two men butted heads. Carson raised her eyebrows to Burlington, who sighed. There was no question who was in the right, though: Ratesic was always right.

He’d come from a family of Speculators. His father, Nelson, had served with distinction, and Charles’s brother, Laszlo, had followed both of them into the Service. Laszlo Ratesic was there too, watching quietly, eyebrows raised, while his older brother persuaded Alvaro to let him have five minutes alone with Bert Pepper. There was no one like Mr. Ratesic.

He was always right and he was right this time. There was more to the case of Bert Pepper than he knew.

Pepper and his bag full of fake paper was just the beginning.

Ratesic went in to talk to the kid, and the five minutes grew into ten, and the ten into twenty. Alvaro paced outside the interrogation room, watching the live feed stitched from the room’s four-corner captures, smoking and pacing, more and more angry, until at last Ratesic emerged, grinning ear to ear.

He was right. He was always right.

Pepper did indeed have a conspirator. His name was Armond Kessler, and he ran a small Mid-City print shop whose clients included the Publishing Arm of the Golden State itself. This Kessler sonofabitch was using the State’s own templates to press fake identifications.

“Well done, Mr. Ratesic,” I told him. “Let’s go pick up this Kessler and see what he has to say.”

“You know what?” Charlie said, grinning. “There’s something else I wanna try.”

9.

“I hope you don’t mind, Mr. Ratesic. I thought it would be okay for me to use your desk.”

“I do mind, actually. As a matter of fact.”

I mind very much. I like my desk the way I like it, with my takeout menus in the pile where I keep them, arranged not alphabetically or by cuisine but in the order of the days in which I use them. I like my phone in the spot where I like it to be, and I especially like my chair without somebody else’s ass in it. And now here is Ms. Paige, pulled right up to the desk, staring at my screen, biting her lower lip in concentration, holding a pen angled to her Day Book, ready for action. She doesn’t turn around, even with me looming behind her. She keeps her eyes glued to what she’s watching.

“What are you looking at, anyway?”

“The stretches.”

“What stretches?”

Now she turns, and while she’s turning she says “Stop” and the playback stops.

“The stakeout stretches you asked me to retrieve. From Crane’s door?”

“You’re kidding me.”

“No. Why? They couldn’t put together the death scene yet, but they’re working on it. It’s a—what did he call it?”

“A tapestry.”

“Right. Yes. But these—” She gestures to the stretches, the neat stack she’s made of them on my desk, beside the screen. “He said these were easy. Static shot, front door. He pulled them for me, right away.”

“Who did? Stone?”

“Right. Mr. Stone. Woody—he said to call him Woody. He said—why—what? Why are you looking at me like that?”

“Because…”

I trail off, examining the image frozen on the screen, as if I’m misunderstanding somehow, as if she were lying. But no, there it is, the drab gray courtyard at Ellendale Place where we were just walking three hours ago, that sad little fountain, the wilted chrysanthemums in their cracked clay pots. Crane’s front door. She’s gotten all angles on the doorway of Crane’s residence, exactly what I asked her to ask for, although never in a million years would I have suspected she’d get it so quickly.

“So you just—asked?”

“Well. I asked nicely.” Ms. Paige gives me a tentative smile. “I explained how it was important.”

I laugh. I actually laugh. Everybody who goes to the ninth tells Woody it’s important. It’s practically tautological: if you are going to the ninth floor, if you are asking for a piece of reality to be cued for review, then what you’re working on is important.

“You asked Woody to release two weeks of reality and he just said ‘Okay.’”

“Well, no.” She checks her Day Book. “He said ‘No problem.’”

“He said ‘No problem.’”

I mean, I am fucking flabbergasted here. Doesn’t matter how many capture feeds we’re talking about, or how few. When I ask, when most people ask, what happens is that Woody Stone with his big gut rises slowly, sighs heavily, makes a big show of searching his office for the right forms—as if it’s a serious and unwelcome imposition on his valuable time, as if responding to capture requests from the thirtieth floor isn’t 95% of the man’s job description. But Ms. Aysa Paige has got the first stretch already cued and the rest of them stacked up beside the screen, ready to go. No problem.

I’m feeling it strong now, feeling it despite myself, staring at Aysa where she sits at my desk, clearly anxious to reengage with the stretch. Envy. Red spirit. Unwelcome friend. I am conscious of the brittleness it puts in my voice.

“All right, Ms. Paige. Did you find anything?”

“Not yet, no. I’m going frame by frame.”

“As you should.”

“So it’s going to take some time.”

“Okay.”

She turns back to the work, says “Play” and then “Fast,” and I stand awkwardly behind her, arms crossed, watching her watch. On the screen, in the courtyard, minutes pass in speeded-up motion, a blur of minutes in which nothing happens: water sputters in the fountain, summer breeze riffles the glossy leaves of the potted plants. Aysa’s attention is steady on the screen, her whole body hunched at attention, her eyes narrowed like a bird’s, watching for prey, watching for any movement.

“Listen, Ms. Paige,” I say finally. “Aysa.”

She says “Stop” and turns around.

My voice is a bit different now; I’m speaking in a different key. “I spoke to Mr. Vasouvian about you. Just now. And he mentioned to me about—he gave me a bit of background. About your parents.”

“Yeah?” Her voice, too, is in a different key, and it’s not the same as mine. Her words are cold, hard, and flat. “What about them?”

“That they have been gone. Since you were young. I only wanted to say I was sorry to hear that. That can’t have been easy.”

“Respectfully, Mr. Ratesic? Fuck my parents.”

And she goes right back to it, sliding one stretch out of the slot on the side of the screen and replacing it with the next. “Play,” she says, and I watch her watching, not sure what to say, not sure what a good mentor does with Fuck my parents. What I’m thinking, though, is that we gather impressions of other people very quickly, and they harden and fasten in our minds, and it is very hard after that to imagine that there is more, but there is always more, deeper truths, lower levels, and most people don’t even know what all is down there.

“All right, kid,” I say softly. “You ready?”

“Ready for what?”

I raise my eyebrows and she grins. She knows what I mean. We’ve got enough. More than enough. The anomaly of the missing days. The anomaly of the schedule. And that’s all before we even get to that damn novel, wrapped in its fake jacket, hiding in plain sight. The sort of thing a man like Crane has no business owning, the sort of thing that shouldn’t rightly exist in the first place. Ms. Paige, pain in the ass though she may be, has been right from the beginning, has been right all along: there is something in this, a crosshatch of anomalies that needs to be reconciled. Truth that needs to be found, and there is only one way to do it.

“Stop,” she tells the screen, and then turns fully to face me. “We’re going to speculate?”

“Well, I am,” I say, and I snag an extra chair from next to Bright’s desk and drag it over. “I don’t know what you’re going to do.”

I sit down. I close my eyes. I can’t see Ms. Paige but I know what she does: she settles back and closes her eyes beside me.

I shift in my chair, arch my back slightly, clench my teeth. This is the part I hate, the moment of descent, how it’s like a trap door opening, the world giving away beneath you, a lurch and a drop, down into dark below. I jerk and twitch. One forearm shoots out rigid, fingers clutching, my body instinctively seeking to keep a grip on the world, and then I let go but I hate how it feels: something grabbing at me, speculation clutching a foot and a leg and dragging me into its darkness—

Which is just what it is for me—a darkness: a cold room, cold and dark, a cave or a cavern, filled with shadow. I can’t see the edges of it, don’t know how far it goes. It’s only a dark room, lit by a single candle, a small, fierce orange glow, and now they float forward—stray postulates like tiny, shifting, orbiting stars, glinting in the hazy penumbra cast by the single light.

Crane was a burglar.

Simple. The closest fire.

“A burglar,” I say out loud, twitching in my chair, and Aysa says it back.

“A burglar.” And then, “A Peeping Tom.”

“A Peeping Tom,” I say, sending that spark out into my own darkness, watching it take up orbit.

“A burglar—a ring of burglars,” says Aysa beside me.

That’s what it is, that’s all we do, trading back and forth, dancing together toward and then away from possibilities, scattered sparks, the void pinpricked by glitters of speculation, the mind glowing and dimming, glowing and dimming, and you sit there with head turned, the body just a body, a hollow thing grimacing in a chair while inside—

A burglar—

One of a group of burglars—conspiracy—cabal—

Or… but…

Crane the pervert—monster—madman—

—a man of no family or station, a drifter, itinerant, man of missing days—

Or, or…

—depressive, isolated, lonesome, and alone—seeing the height of the house as a chance, a weapon—up on the precipice, wanting to do it, dying to die—

So, so…

It’s the house, the house, the house that wants him, not he that wants the house—

That’s Ms. Paige bringing the house into it, not just the man but the house itself, the place and the meaning of the place, sending a new bright spark into my field of vision, burning me awake and out of it.

I fly from the darkness, eyes wide open.

“Shit,” I say, standing up unsteady. “Shit.”

“What?” says Ms. Paige. “What is it? You have something?”

“No. Yes. I don’t fucking know.” I rub my knuckles into my eyes, clearing away stars. “I have something that I know I don’t have.”

Aysa studies me avidly, and I should take the time to explain, but I don’t feel like it. I get up, sighing, and smash my pinhole down onto my head. Damn it. The house. The stupid house.

“You watch your way through the relevant stretches, Ms. Paige. Okay? It’s gonna be boring, but that’s what you do. Go from stretch to stretch, and don’t skip the ins and outs. Anyone comes in, catch a still of the face. Anyone even comes into the frame.”

“Yes, sir. Where are you going?”

“Someone I gotta talk to.” And then, off her look—eager, curious—“Someone I gotta talk to alone.”

10.

“The past is a dangerous country.”

“Unknown and unknowable.”

“This is true.”

“And always shall be.”

“Well, well, Mr. Speculator. Twice in the same day.”

“Lucky you, right?”

“Yes, yes. Lucky me.”

Captain Elena Tester beckons me into her cluttered office, and we’re both smiling as she shakes my hand, but there’s displeasure in her smile, right behind the teeth. She doesn’t like me being here in her office this morning; she doesn’t like that I didn’t call first, doesn’t like what any of this implies. It’s one thing to run into each other at a crime scene, two law enforcement professionals crossing paths on the job; it’s another thing entirely for me to be darkening her doorway less than twenty-four hours later, unannounced but clearly on official business.

Nobody stopped me from coming in, by the way. Not outside, under the fluttering flag of the Bear and Stars. Not in the elevator or coming down the hall. The regular police and the Speculative Service have divergent jurisdictions, discrete but coterminous, but nobody’s going to stop a Spec on his rounds. The black clothes and the pinhole function like a passport, offering free movement within the Golden State. Stand back, stay clear.

So Captain Tester is surprised to see me, and she’s not happy, but this shouldn’t take long. I just need to clear this up.

I point to one of the three straight-backed chairs that form a semicircle around her desk. “Any one of these?”

“Of course.”

I sit. I pull papers out of my briefcase.

“So. Elena. I have to ask you a few questions.”

“Okay, Laszlo.”

“Four or five questions. Possibly more, depending on your answers.”

She gives out a little impatient puff of air. “Okay, Laszlo. I’m ready. Let’s go.”

I nod and smile. My pinhole is capturing. Her pinhole is capturing. The room is capturing. Captures on the doorframe, captures in the corners. A capture on her desk rotating slow, taking a sweep.

“I am going to read back to you the statement you gave to me yesterday, in Los Feliz. At 3737 Vermont Avenue.”

“Statement?”

“The—what? The statement you gave me this morning, at—”

“We were having a conversation, Laz.”

“Yes.” I clear my throat. “But you did state it. It was a statement.”

“Well, definitionally…” She stops, takes a deep breath. I notice that her hands are tight on the edge of her desk. Holding fast to reality, her reality. “No, it’s okay. You’re right. Of course you are right, Laszlo.” She hops up abruptly. “Hey, do you want coffee?”

“I’ve had some. Thank you.”

“I’ll make myself one, if you don’t mind.”

“I don’t.”

I wait. She drums her fingers on the corner of the little sink along a wall of her office, beneath the wide southerly window, while her machine burbles and brews. We are in two different places at the same time. We are a Speculator and a police captain working together to establish facts, and also simultaneously we are two friends, two people just talking. There are words and there is context; there are declarations and there is the ground in which those declarations are planted.

The coffee maker issues a final small-motor exclamation and hisses out its mud-brown stream. Now that I can smell the coffee I want some after all. Too late now.

“So,” says Elena. “My statement.”

“Yes. I asked you what you were doing at 3737 Vermont Avenue this morning, and you said, ‘I caught it on the scanner.’ You said, ‘I live near here. On Talmadge.’ You said, ‘As long as I was in the area, I thought I’d babysit the homeowner.’” I look up from my Day Book and she’s waiting expectantly. “That was your statement.”

“Okay,” she says flatly, which of course is not an answer.

“Elena. Captain Tester. I’m asking if those are true statements.”

Elena’s astonishment spreads through her body, a tightening fury: her back straightens, her hand curls tightly around the coffee cup, denting the paper sides. The pupils of her eyes narrow to knife ends. “You’re asking me if I’m lying.”

“Yes, Elena. Captain. Yes.”

“And wouldn’t you know?”

I nod, conceding the point. “If you had dissembled outright, Captain, yes. I would have caught it.”

“Smelled it,” she says, giving the words a tight contemptuous spin. “Or—sensed it? Isn’t that it?”

“Well—no. Not exactly. But yes. If you were lying outright, yes, I would have known. If there was important context that was left to the side, I would need you to tell me that.” I have a file in my lap. A manila folder, plain cover, unmarked tab. Elena is looking at it closely. “I would need you to tell me that now.”

She sets down the coffee and sits in her chair, glaring at me, and she can be angry if she wants to be, but the woman stood there and made a small proffer that was true but incomplete, and we both know it—at least, I thought I knew it before, but only now, looking at her eyes, feeling the cold fury my questions have inspired, do I know it for sure. She didn’t lie, but she did something just as bad, arguably worse, especially for someone in her position, high on the org chart of the regular police, a pillar of law enforcement just like me: she has not lied, but she has found a way not to have to. She dug herself a rabbit hole of conversational cleverness and leapt inside it. Arlo Vasouvian, the expert, the guru, could tilt his head back, half shut his eyes, and recite the entire statute, the complete philosophical and legislative history of context and omission: If someone says X instead of Y, that is a lie; if someone says X but not Y, we have then a case of relative relevance. Context is everything. Context is infinite.

There is some violation here, but I don’t know yet what it is.

“Was there, possibly, some further information that you might not, in the moment, have thought relevant?”

“Yes,” says Tester immediately. “Possibly there was.”

Her eyes remain on mine. Her body has not relaxed. Captain Tester has conducted many interrogations of her own over the years—I am not the only experienced investigator in the room. I feel conscious of my own bulk, my shape inside the tight space of the chair, the room, the moment. I feel myself in the small wood chair, bent toward Elena, hunched and ursine. We stare at each other like two animals in a forest clearing. There are pictures on her desk: her kids. Her husband, Al, who died in the line a few years back. Her friends. I wonder if there are any pictures of Silvie. I want to look. I won’t look. I don’t.

“The house on Vermont is deeded to a woman named Karen Sampson.”

“Stipulated,” says Tester immediately, but I’m not accepting stipulations. She has to know I won’t be. I open the file I’m holding and take out three pieces of paper, material evidence, and I spread them out on the desk in front of her like a gambler laying down cards. The mortgage deed to the house. The certificate of occupancy. A carbon of the purchase from the previous owner. I ask the question again.

“Karen Sampson owns that house? And she lives there?”

“Yes.”

The next page is a one-sheet backgrounder on Sampson. These documents I didn’t need to pull from the identity office. I simply went downstairs to the twenty-ninth floor, on my way from my office to here. I simply spent half an hour doing public Record searches. Karen Sampson is a notable individual—a lot of this information I’m now producing came right out of the most recent edition of Notable Individuals.

“Ms. Sampson is a producer of recorded music.”

“Yes.”

“And she has a criminal history. She’s spent time in jail. Various drug offenses. A driving-while-drunk, nine months ago.”

Elena’s answers have started to come less readily. “Yes. That’s—correct. She’s—Karen—has struggled. As we all have.”

I am quite aware of Sampson’s troubled past. I have the arrest records. I reviewed them back in my office, half expecting to find Tester’s signature on the arrest reports. But they weren’t there. I was surprised by that.

“What else, Mr. Ratesic?”

“Do you need more coffee, Elena? Do you need to take a break?”

“No.”

“Okay.”

I turn to the final sheaf of papers in my slim file.

“Ms. Sampson is one of your oldest friends.”

“Yes.”

More papers come out of my file, and I can fan them on her desk. Photocopies of pictures of the two old friends together, arm in arm on the beach, a windy day, a much younger and more carefree Elena Tester holding her hat down so it won’t blow away. I array the pictures, six of them, fan them out flat in an order of my devising. A picture of Elena Tester, out of uniform in a peach dress, beaming behind Karen Sampson (née Ambrose) on her wedding day. Elena looks upward, at the ceiling, looking like she wants to fly up through it and escape into the air.

“Elena, listen to me. I don’t think that you killed anyone. I don’t think you had anything to do with any of this. But I have an obligation, now that a case has begun, to dispel any possible anomalies. And your withholding yesterday is one of those. Okay?”

She says something very softly, a sound with no motion of the mouth, as if her lips are refusing to move.

“What?”

“I said go ahead, Laszlo. Ask your fucking questions.”

I sigh. I find the right page in my Day Book and ask my next question. “When you heard the address on the scanner, were you concerned about the potential consequences of a death and subsequent investigation on this property?”

“Yes.”

“Yes what?”

“Yes,” she says, and gives me my words back to me, my words in my voice, like she’s a deck replaying the cued stretch. “When I heard the address on the scanner, I was concerned about the potential consequences of a death and subsequent investigation on this property.”

“So you rushed to the scene to protect your friend Karen.”

That’s it, I think. I’ve arrived at the heart of it, and I will collect my flat fact, gather up the small piece of the truth I’ve come for, and go back to the roofer and his missing boxes.

But she’s not answering. She is staring at me again, the cold fury back in her eyes.

“No,” Tester says flatly, and I blink. “No?”

“No. I did not rush there.”

“So ‘rush’ is imprecise,” I concede, irritated by the quibble, especially now, when she’s in such a hurry to wrap this up, for me to get out of her hair. “I withdraw the ambiguous verb. You went there, with more than typical speed. Okay? To do what? To—”

“I didn’t go there,” says Tester. “Truth. Truth and then context: I was there already.”

“You were… there already?”

I’ve never been a big fan of that figure: the mind races. Minds do not race. At least, mine doesn’t. Thoughts don’t whip in wild circles like small storms, chasing themselves around in pointless frenzies. When I visualize my thoughts I see them emerging half formed from some unseen basal station, bubbling up as if from a seafloor, rising and cohering, gaining mass as they combine. The mind does not race; it conjures, it swells.

“You were already at your friend’s home at six twenty-nine in the morning?”

“Yes,” she says. “I was there.”

“Was Karen in the house?”

“No.”

“Were you alone in the house?”

“No.”

I feel it—I feel it all at once and all over my body, in the palms of my hands and the soles of my feet. Not the distinct atmospheric warp of a lie entering the near air, but something more elemental, something plain: the sick shock of understanding, rushing through me like the world tilting. It’s an astonishing feeling, keen clarity like sunlight. I lean closer, lower my voice, as if there’s any privacy possible. As if the room isn’t capturing every word so each can be transcribed later on, the truth forever bubbling out from itself, the Objectively So endlessly accreting upon itself and growing like life, growing like life grows.

“Do you…” I say slowly. “Do you, in addition to your relationship with Ms. Sampson, have a relationship with Ms. Sampson’s husband?”

Elena gives her head a small tight nod, but that’s not enough and she knows it’s not enough. I could get up right now, stuff my papers back in my bag, make some apologetic noises, and go. If this is all it is, it’s nothing. A scrap, a tatter of incidental truth, something that slid off the roof along with the roofer, like a dead leaf that tumbled from the gutter as it tore free. And maybe if I didn’t already find the dictionary that was not—maybe if Mose Crane didn’t have days missing from his Record—maybe I’d even do it. Let Elena off the hook and shuffle backward out of her office.

But I can’t do it now. Now it’s too late.

So I make her confirm it for the Record. I make her say it louder, which she does, too loud, pointedly loud. “I have a relationship with Karen’s husband.”

“And what is his name?”

“Barney Sampson,” she says, and in her voice I can hear that it’s all gone, any trace of residual affection between Elena Tester and myself is gone now, never to return. Extramarital affairs aren’t illegal, of course; lying about them is illegal, as all lies are illegal, but Elena didn’t do that either. She was simply doing something in secret, hidden from everyone but not from the Record, because nothing is hidden from the Record. She hoped that her friend Karen would never find out, and she certainly hoped that no Speculator would ever lope into her office with an investigative agenda that happened to intersect with her infidelity.

Everything is on the Record, just waiting to be discovered: the whispered confession, the stolen kiss. This is not the goal of our good and golden systems; the goal is simply the maintenance of reality as it occurs, so that all can live together within the same sheltering truth, safe within the strong high walls of the Objectively So. We may keep secrets from one another, but not from the Record, and if life is therefore made more difficult for the adulterer or the petty-cash-box pilferer, for the student with his eye on his deskmate’s paper or the worker who clocks in late, well surely that’s a price worth paying—or even, looked at differently, not a price at all, but a benefice. A gift we are given by the ever-presence of truth.

Captain Elena Tester, right about now, isn’t quite seeing it that way. Her face has colored. She stares at me, eyes lit with anger, as I press on.

“How long have you had a relationship with Mr. Sampson?”

“Judge,” she says.

“What?”

“Judge Sampson.”

He is a judge in the Court of Aberrant Natural Phenomena. His courtroom is on Grand Street, in one of the old slate-gray justice buildings. Those who come before the ANP are most often referred from the Social Services divisions, but it certainly would not be unusual for the regular police, including officers under Tester’s jurisdiction, to be called to offer testimony before him. These facts paint a certain picture, and I record its outline in my Day Book, keeping my face neutral. Not just an intimate problem but a professional problem, a conflict of interest problem. A conflagration of problems for Elena Tester. I have walked in here today and lit a fire on her desk.

“And now here is my question for you, Mr. Speculator.”

Elena stands up, places her palms flat on the desk. Whatever this question is, I am supposed to answer it and then go. Our interview is over. “Are you quite comfortable, destroying my life offhandedly? Destroying Barney’s life? Because a man happened to fall off of his roof? Is that a decision that you feel happy about?”

“No,” I say. “Not happy.”

“But content.”

I think that over for a moment, judging the true, full meaning of the word “content.”

“My professional responsibility is to follow this incident until its truth is full and final,” I say quietly. “My personal hope is that it causes you no unnecessary grief.”

“Oh,” she says. “Great. My personal hope is that you can go fuck yourself. Do you have any more questions for me, Mr. Ratesic?”

“No, ma’am,” I say. “Not at this time.”

She glares at me, the rims of her eyes gone red, as I rise to go. I’m at the door with all my papers gathered up, and when I look back, Tester stares at me coldly, with hatred but as if from a great distance.

“You weren’t good enough for her, Laszlo.”

“I know.”

Truth, a sliver of weaponized truth.

“That’s what happened to you and Silvie. In case you didn’t know. You were never, ever good enough.”

I stop at the charmingly gritty Asian market just down the road from my house, near where Bundy turns into Centinela. Tucked inside is a brightly lit food court where you can get seven different kinds of ramen, including the kind I love, miso broth swimming with thick-cut slabs of pork and sprinkled with sliced green onions. In line for the soup, I’m thinking never good enough. Digging out a handful of crumpled bills, muttering “Thanks,” driving home with the bag balanced precariously on the shotgun seat, and I’m thinking Never, ever good enough.

I get home from the market and there’s no chance she’ll be waiting for me on the porch as I would have found her six months ago, sipping wine on the green glider we bought together at a Palms yard sale, awaiting me in the waxy moonlight, raising her glass in an ironic toast as I trudge toward her up our steps.

And yet my heart fills with dumb hope as I shut the car door. The Moon is in fact waxy in the sky, and the green glider is on the porch, and the breeze is easing it gently back and forth, but Silvie isn’t on it.

I put my dinner down in the living room and tell the wall-mounted to turn on. The wall-mounted is just like the screen at work, except it’s bigger and flatter and you don’t control it—it’s more like you’re at its mercy. In the office you can requisition reality in the official capacity, get the stretches you want and slide them into your screen and say “Go.” But with the wall-mounted, you just pick from among whatever happens to be on. It’s all slices of life, culled from captures all over the city, arranged by the entertainment professionals into themed streams: “Arguments in Restaurants,” “Surprise Proposals,” “Searching for Small Lost Things.”

I flip around for a while in search of something suitably nontaxing, maybe one of the unpopulated streams, “Traffic Lights Cycling” or something like that. I settle for “Mildly Comical Misunderstandings.” I unpack my soup and eat it slowly, trying not to get too much on my coat because I know I’ll be wearing it tomorrow. I say “Play” to the wall-mounted and watch some poor asshole waiting at the Superior Java on Finley Avenue, checking his watch, while his date on split screen waits at the Echo Park location, checking her’s.

When I’m done I turn off the screen, chuck the empty containers in the trash, and head downstairs to do my archiving.

My own Provisional Record is in a crawl space underneath the house, dimly lit, thick with dust and spiderwebs no matter how often I clean it out, which is not nearly often enough. I tear from my Day Book the duplicate copies of the six pages I’ve gone through today, fold them neatly, and put them in a fresh Mylar bag. I add all the purchase receipts from my meals, the conversation stamps from everyone I talked to, all the detritus from the day that has been. I seal the bag and mark the date and time and open the box and put the bag in and close the box again.

And there, at the very bottom of my bag, resting and pulsing with menace like unexploded ordnance, is the book.

The Prisoner.

Forged material. A piece of Not So. The air dissonant around it.

I turn it over in my hands. Take it away with me, back upstairs, back upstairs to the kitchen. And there, in the kitchen, in the silence of my house, it occurs to me for the first time that it might have been the book and not the missing days that caught the attention of Aysa Paige’s remarkable discernment in Mose Crane’s own empty home. The book and the missing days. Regardless, neither aberration caught me.

I put the book on the kitchen table and look at it. The day, my day, is over. It’s on the Record. There is darkness at every window. But here I am, awake and alive in the nighttime silence, contemplating this strange novel.

Still wrapped in its pretend jacket, the Everyday Citizens Dictionary. I wish to read it. I want to. I want to know what Mose Crane was doing with this otherworldly artifact, and aside from that—more than that—I am overcome with a desire to do what we don’t do, what the world will not allow, what is prevented by the Basic Law and common sense and conscience, which is to immerse myself in an alternate reality and luxuriate in it, feel it rise up and over me and bear me away.

The book wants me to read it, but I don’t. I put it away in my bureau, its true face hidden behind the pretend jacket and I go to bed.

11.

I rise with effort from my bed and dress with deliberate movements, force my body to move. I feel like a creature of the forest, draggled, wild-eyed, and sullen. I did not sleep well. I suspect that I dreamt, a suspicion I do not like. I piss and I brush my teeth while in the corners of my eyes I see unknown faces, alien landscapes, splintered pieces of foreign facts.

When I’m dressed I give myself a warning glare in the mirror, turn on my heel, and face the dresser, where, in the top drawer, I have deposited Mose Crane’s quote-unquote novel like a dead bird among my socks and underwear.

“You can fuck off,” I tell The Prisoner by Benjamin Wish through the thin wood face of the drawer. “Fuck off and leave me alone.”

I wrestle my body into the civilizing structure of my suit. Push my hair down flat, rake through the tangles of my beard. Get in the car, hiss at my reflection in the rearview, and drive to work.

There’s a cluster of activity on the thirtieth floor this morning, everybody gathered around my desk and murmuring, like my day decided to get started without me, like I’ve shown up late for my own life. Aysa is at my desk already, and so is Arlo and also a woman—middle-aged, thick-haired, looking agitated and restless, and I know her right away. Damn it. I stop just beyond the elevator door, with the wide vista of the city glimmering through the glass walls all around me, and I wish the elevator would come back and take me down again.

“You,” says the lady, pointing at me, leaping up from my chair, where Arlo has sat her. “You.”

“Ms. Tarjin.” From the diner. With the boys. The liar and the thief. Great. This is great. “There are twenty-four hours in the day.”

“Please help me,” she says, blowing past the truth I’ve handed her, tears standing in her eyes, tears staining her cheeks. “You have to help.”

The son Eddie, the younger one—the one who is not in jail—is standing just behind her, looking miserable, embarrassed, a reluctant second on her fool’s errand. “And seven days in the week,” he mumbles, completing the circuit on her behalf, and Arlo nods at him approvingly.

“Good man,” he murmurs. “Good man.” Eddie studies us both for a second and looks back down.

I sit down heavily in my chair, set down my sad man’s breakfast. “Ms. Tarjin, look—”

“No, please, just listen,” she says, and wipes at her eyes with the back of her wrist. Her son, the one who stole the drugs, shifts on his feet behind her, digs a ratty tissue out of the pocket of his jeans and pressing it on his mother. “Let me talk,” she says, “because they’re saying Todd could go to jail for ten years.”

“Ten?” That doesn’t sound right. The coffee I am holding, a medium with two sugars from the Donut Star that feels like the only thing tethering me to civilization, is growing cold before my very eyes.

“Yes, ten, because he told the same lie, they say, they said he told the same lie twice, to two different people. To me and then to you.”

Of course. The same false utterance made to multiple parties means multiple counts. But I don’t know why this lady is here—I don’t know what I’m supposed to do about it.

Arlo gives Eddie a sympathetic smile and shuffles over to his desk. Aysa hangs on the outskirts of the conversation, making the moment a part of her training, studying the way I handle this particular law-enforcement situation: the human refuse of a successful arrest, washed up miserable on my shore. She stands against the side wall, beneath portraits of famous dead Speculators, including Charlie, of course, Charlie captured in his customary pose: smiling cocky, chin jutted out, arms confidently crossed.

“The rules are the rules,” I tell Ms. Tarjin.

“Yeah, well, and what if the rules are wrong?” she says, looking back at me defiantly. “What if they’re not fair?”

“You are very much entitled to that opinion,” is my answer. “That is an expression of opinion, and opinions are subjective, and as long as your expressed opinion reflects your honest interior position…” I trail off. I don’t know how to say this without sounding like a prick, so I just go ahead and sound like a prick. “Then it doesn’t matter what you think. Your son lied. He broke the law. And he has to face punishment, and the punishment is prescribed by the State. You should understand that the punishment could be worse.”

“He’s right, ma’am. He knows.”

Aysa speaks gently, all the “Yes, sir,” “No, sir” sharpness replaced by a gentle reassurance. Ms. Tarjin turns her pained eyes toward her. “What do you mean?”

“Well—it just—” Aysa clears her throat. “It could really have been a lot worse.” She’s too kind to make it explicit, what she knows, what we all know: liars are subject to exile. Had Todd Tarjin’s misrepresentations been judged inflammatory, or intended to disrupt the business of the State, or in any way outrageous to the common good, he could have been sent away entirely. Forget about Folsom, San Quentin, or Pelican Bay, forget about ten years. There is a version of this story that ends with Todd in the desert—beyond the desert. Beyond whatever is beyond that.

It happens. It doesn’t happen often, but it does happen.

Eddie, meanwhile, stands diffident, trying to figure out how to feel. This is all because of him, and he is bearing the weight of that knowledge while still glad not to be facing the terror of prison. Guilt, relief, and anger—a welter of emotion moves crosswise on his face.

“Okay, but—I mean.” Ms. Tarjin crouches before me, her voice ragged with need. “There has to be something you can do. Anything.”

She is looking at me with tearful eyes, sadness and need coming off her in waves, her hands pushing into her hair. Eddie is behind her, twisting a torn tissue, miserable with helplessness. Aysa is watching too, and old Arlo, and Charlie from the wall, from behind the shield of his crossed arms, from the distant past.

“Ms. Tarjin, the rules are very clear, and as it happens, they are quite specific. Punishment for falsehood is a bulwark. It’s—”

She snorts at the word “bulwark,” as if I were speaking a curse, an insult. Invoking some demon, instead of the whole system of good works that protect the Objectively So.

“It’s part of what keeps us safe, ma’am.”

“It’s not keeping Todd safe. It’s not keeping my family safe.”

“Respectfully, Ms. Tarjin, your son chose to tell a lie.”

“He was desperate! He was trying to help his brother. He—”

“I am aware of the context. I understand the nuances. I was there, remember? But I’m telling you: strip away the context and the foundational truth is that he lied. In a public place, purposefully and specifically, he told a purposeful and specific untruth.”

I get up, and she can’t help but recoil, step back from my height, my weight, just the breadth of me. “Imagine if everyone did it. Imagine if each person was allowed the luxury of claiming their own truth, building a reality of their own in which they can live. Imagine the danger that would pose, how quickly those lies would metastasize, and the extraordinary threat that would pose to the world. To our world. To the good, golden, safe world we have built and in which we all live together.”

I am conscious as I make this statement that it is true and it is also simultaneously a kind of performance of truth. I am performing for Arlo, my mentor and friend; I am performing for Aysa Paige, who stands deferentially listening, absorbing. I am performing for Charlie, hung up there on the wall. But even as I deliver my pronouncement, chapter and verse of the Basic Law, and of the reasons behind the law, I am confronted with the fact that this is not a case study, this is not a training module for the edification of Ms. Aysa Paige, this is a real human person whose life is in the balance, whose heart right now is a bubble I hold in my hand. Ms. Tarjin with her gray-streaked hair and determined chin is a professional problem, and she is an unanswerable conundrum and she is at the same time a person. A person clutching the arm of her unstrung son, her dark eyes alive with emotion, a person in low heels and a green blouse, frantic, desperate, trying to exist in the world, trying, like we all are, all the time, to bend the world into a shape in which we can fit.

Ms. Paige stands patiently, her hands behind her back, looking down at the floor. She is too respectful a junior partner to let me see how she feels about the matter, but she’s also too decent a person for me not to be able to tell.

“Okay, well, then,” says Ms. Tarjin with soft bitterness. “I guess I’ve wasted my time.”

“No. You’ve registered your opinion on the matter,” I say quietly. “You have told your truth, and that cannot be counted as wasted time.”

“Yeah,” she says. “Okay.”

There is a crimp in the air, a mild bend, as my own half-truth, cynical and self-protecting, rolls through. Ms. Tarjin nods tightly, a single tear running down her cheek, and then Eddie breaks his silence, speaking suddenly in a rapid burst. “Yeah but what if—what if, you know—what if we change places?”

I look at him. “What?”

Arlo looks up from his desk, shakes his head, looks down again.

“Is there some sort of—I don’t know. Is there, like, a mechanism, or… I don’t know.” He looks at me, then over at Aysa, perhaps having sensed that she’s the one with a foot in the world as it exists thirty floors down from here, outside the Service, out in the world.

Eddie must know on some level that his suggestion is preposterous. He is making a performance of his own; it is for his mother’s benefit. It is something he can do.

Paige does me the small mercy of answering in my stead. “No, Eddie,” she says softly. “The law does not allow for anything like that.” She gives me a quick look, and I take a breath, look up at the ceiling, keep my eyes there while I go on.

“All right, Ms. Tarjin. Listen.”

“Yes?” I look at her. The excitement of possibility shivers across her face. “Yes?”

“The one thing I can do is, I can call the prosecuting attorney.”

“You can?”

“Yes. Just about—”

“Oh—oh! Will you do that?”

“Just as far as—”

“Can you promise me?”

She clutches my shoulders. I wriggle in her grasp. “Yeah. I mean—sure. I promise. I can say—not as an official, but as a person—I can formally absolve Todd of that one lie, the one he told me.”

“Is that like—” This is Eddie now, trying on an adult voice, a formal persona. “Like not pressing charges?”

“Not exactly,” I say. “Not really. The PA is under zero obligation to listen to me.”

“But they will. They will, though. Right? They will.”

Ms. Tarjin is hugging me. Kelly is her name, I remember that now, Kelly Elizabeth Tarjin. She is pressing her face tightly against my wide chest. My eyes are still on the ceiling. I close my arms around her, just for a second. “It means his sentence, and I mean if the prosecutor agrees—”

“Could be half,” says Eddie.

“Uh, yes. Could be. Yeah.”

Ms. Tarjin lets go. She steps back. Musters a smile, just a hint of one, and I nod, hoping now I can sit down, drink my coffee.

“Okay,” I say, and then Ms. Tarjin reaches up and grabs a small tuft of my thick red beard and tugs it, just enough so I can feel it. I blink, and she lets go, and pats the side of my face. It’s like I’m a wayward animal, and she is—sweetly but firmly—bringing me to heel. I don’t know if I blush or not, but anyway, I feel like I’m blushing.

“And you promise?”

“I do.”

“Okay.”

And then they’re gone. I am aware of Paige looking at me, and of Arlo over at his desk looking at me also, and Mr. Cullers maybe even stirring from his stupor, but I just focus on my white paper bag, taking out the first of the doughnuts and taking a greasy bite.

“That was nice,” says Paige quietly.

I chew. I shrug. “I don’t want to talk about it.”

“Okay. I just wondered what the circumstances are that allow for that kind of decision.”

“We’re not talking about it,” I tell her.

“Okay.”

Arlo is smiling at his desk. I can feel him smiling. I scowl, turn to Aysa, press the point: “Okay?”

“Okay.”

I take a sip of my coffee at last. Sweet and lukewarm. “How’s the review going? Of the courtyard stretches.”

“Slowly.”

“All right, then.” I point at my chair, at my desk, at the monitor. “Better get back to it, then.”

“It’s just—”

“What?”

By now I know the look: keen, attentive, hesitant to just burst out with whatever realization she’s locked into, but determined not to let me move on with my life before she’s enlightened me. “Go on, Paige. What is it?”

“I had a bit of a speculation. This morning. I woke up and I just—because of what you found out yesterday, about the homeowner, his affair with the… the policewoman…” She is slowing down, waiting for me to interrupt, to tell her to sit down like I said and watch the damn stretches. Which I should do. I should lean on her with the full weight of my authority, tell her we will speculate further on this matter when I have decided that it has ripened anew for speculation. I’m supposed to be the ballast, after all. The problem is, so far she’s always been right.

“Go on, Ms. Paige. I’m waiting.”

“So we have Crane, right? We have this roofer—this mysterious roofer.”

“Adjectives,” I say, scowling, waving a hand, and she says, “We have this roofer. He’s there early, he’s there off schedule, right? Flat facts. Anomalous.”

I nod, sip the shitty coffee, while she barrels on: he’s early, he’s off schedule, he’s got these missing days, and then, meanwhile, we have the judge conducting an affair with a captain of the police, a big no-no for both of them. Aysa gives all of this to me, ramrod straight and rattling it all off, her whole chain of speculation.

And then the punch line: “I am speculating that Crane was up there on the roof to collect evidence of the affair, in order to blackmail the judge.”

“Or the captain,” I add quietly, and Aysa blinks. She was waiting for me to tell her she is wrong or crazy, but she is neither wrong nor crazy. She’s on to something. Of course she is.

“Yes, right,” she says, surprised. “Or the captain.”

“Okay,” I say. “Good.”

Since the Tarjins left, the room has returned to its usual bustle. Alvaro has taken up his position by the big board, a cigar stub jammed into the corner of his mouth, furiously updating the chart of ongoing investigations. Specs are coming off the elevator and getting on it, slamming drawers, slinging on their shoulder bags to head out into the field, files clutched under their arms. Arlo is a still point in the chaotic universe, hunched at his small desk, making his small notations. “So, Ms. Paige? What do we do now?”

“Are you—asking me?”

“I am indeed.”

I wait. I am trying to hitch her tremendous powers of discernment to operational effectiveness. If she is going to be Charlie, that’s what she needs to do.

“We need to get the reality. The stretches showing his death. That’s key. That’s—right?”

Just at the last moment does her confidence waver; only the little word “right?” comes out uncertain, high-pitched, girlish. I stare back at her evenly, playing the heavy. As if I am one step ahead of her, guiding her along; when in reality I am standing back, letting her go, hustling to stay alongside her.

“Why is it so important? We know how the man died, Ms. Paige.”

“Yes, but—” Her eyes narrow. She won’t be thrown. “We don’t need to see how he died, Mr. Ratesic. We need to see what he was doing when it happened. Was he trying to get in? Was he trying to see in?”

“Yes. Correct,” I say. “Anything else?”

“We need to reconstruct those missing days. Find out when or if Mose Crane crossed paths with the judge.”

“Or the captain,” I say again, and she nods, pleased, at the end of her presentation.

“Right. Yeah. Or the captain. Thank you, sir—thank you, Laszlo.”

I move to put my coat on and realize I never got a chance to take it off. One of these days, I think, I will have a day with hot coffee, a day that’s quiet and peaceful. And I will float through that day, carrying no worries in my pockets. Someday soon, perhaps. Some good day. But not today.

“Go back down to nine, tell Woody that we need to see the stretch of Mose Crane falling off that roof. Whatever you did to hustle him out of the stakeout stretch from Crane’s front door, do it again. And tell him no shortcuts. I want thirty second margins on either end. Make it clear. And tell him we need to see it today. He’s going to yell at you. Let him. I’m going to work on getting a Contingent Reassembly of those missing days.”

“Don’t we just file a request for that?”

“We could,” I say. “But it’ll be a lot quicker if I go over. I know someone over there.” I sigh. “Unfortunately.”

“Oh. Wait—why unfortunately?”

I knew this was coming. Somehow from the minute this case started I knew it would happen.

“It’s my wife,” I say, and then I catch it. Correct it. “My ex-wife.”

12.

Whenever I want to, I can hear the bells ringing for Charlie. Shit—there are plenty of times I don’t want to hear them, and I hear them anyway. Hear the bells, and feel the unseasonable chill the air bore that day, and feel the uneven ground of the cemetery, how it was to stand among the throngs of mourners at Forest Lawn, the crowd spread out in all directions. The clouds spitting drizzle, the sky as flat and toneless as a coffin lid.

My father, hatless, is staring at the ground. Arlo slips among the mourners, holding himself together and everyone else besides. Taking all hands, murmuring condolence into all ears. A kind word for every devastated member of our service.

I stand alone. Apart from the crowd. A woman is beside me, a substantial woman wearing a black dress and red shoes. She asks me if I have an umbrella, which I don’t.

“You’re a Speculator,” she says, and I nod. “Did you work with Mr. Ratesic?”

“He was my brother.”

Her face changes. The hero of the day. The extraordinary Charlie. All of the exploits were related in Trusted Authority. He was already famous for what he did.

“Your brother. Oh, wow. I’m so sorry—so sorry for you. For all of us.”

It takes no great speculation to tell what is happening: abstract adoration for a public hero transmogrified by grief into concrete interest in the bulky sad sack standing in the rain at the hero’s grave, the hero’s only surviving relation. She tugs at the sleeve of her dress, shows me her face, and smiles sadly. Her lips are red. A member of the regular populace discovering herself in the company of the man of the hour, or the next best thing.

That’s me: the next best thing. Truer words never spoken.

Me and Silvie stuck it out for ten years, ten years moving together through time and ten years standing together at that open pit, watching the box lowered into the ground, the bells ringing out his years. He was with us the whole time—he was never in the box. For ten years Charlie was at my shoulder, pointing out the ways I was never good enough. Reminding me I was never her first choice.

“If you could put your hands in the air, sir.”

“Yes.”

“If you could turn around for me, sir.”

“Yes.”

“A little slower, if you wouldn’t mind.”

I follow all the instructions. I am being patted down, up along the thick lines of my legs, the torso and the arms.

Here in the Grand Entrance Hall of the Permanent Record, during the long, careful examination required for entry, there is no exchange of asseverations, no small talk. The attendants remove every item from my bag—my Day Book, tattered copy of yesterday’s Authority, the limp remains of a three-day-old sandwich—and lay it all out on a table and document the contents in a series of photographs. There are four of them doing the work, efficiently checking me in: four matching, neatly creased brown uniforms; four perfectly inexpressive faces. I’ve seen all of these faces before. The Librarians work in teams that rotate in and out in undisclosed schedules, and they surely remember me too. I’ve been in and out of here enough, and part of their job is to remember. But they don’t smile in recognition, they don’t ask me how I’m doing. They are unfailingly polite, but they’re on duty. They’re efficient and rigorous. They’re doing their thing.

“If you could open your mouth, sir.”

“Okay.”

I open my mouth and they shine in a light. Then they shine the beam into my eyes, one at a time, one of them making notes in her Day Book while the other works the light. Another member of the team acts as an in-house capture team, circling us with a handheld, getting it all down. Reality being forged, the Record being made, even here at the threshold of the Record itself.

“Each of your fingers, sir. Thumbs first.”

I do as they say, pressing my fingers one by one—thumbs first—into the ink, rolling them onto the pad, affirming my presence in this place and at this time, ten times over. I am here. I am going to be here. I will have been here.

These are the custodians of the Record itself. They are Librarians, and they do not fuck around.

“If you could bear your head for a moment.”

I grimace. This is the part I fucking hate. But I take off the pinhole and bow my head, submissive, silent. Push back my hair.

“Thank you, sir,” murmurs the Librarian and she takes out her wand.

It’s weird because the damn thing is nothing. It’s just a stick, really, a slim metal tube, 14.5 inches long, black metal with a silver cap at either end. And all she does, quiet unsmiling efficient Librarian, is bring it very close to my head, as close as she can without touching, and then move it slowly across my forehead. Not looking at me, not looking at the wand, holding her eyes half shut in concentration, feeling for the minute reverberations in her palm she’ll get or not get as she hovers the wand slowly, very slowly, along the curve of my skull.

I do, though, I fucking hate it, and I know I’m not alone: everybody hates it. Cullers won’t even go to the Record anymore. He flat out refuses, and just because of the wanding. You can’t even feel it; nothing happens. It’s just so unsettling—no other word for it—the creeping movement of that thing from one side of your head to the other. The abstract sense of invasion, of the mind being opened like a cabinet.

“Okay, sir.” She puts the wand away. “Enjoy your visit.”

From the outside, the Record is a two-story building, just the Grand Entrance Hall on the first floor and the modest museum, free to the public, upstairs. It’s only when you begin your descent, down in one of the majestic elevator cars or down the spiral staircase at the precise center of the Hall, that you can begin to understand the size of the place, its dimension, its astonishing shape. Substory after substory, basement upon basement, stacked one beneath the other like the drawers in a dresser, cataloged and cross-cataloged, an ever-expanding library and permanent archive of all that is part of what is So. Rooms full of tapes in rolling bins, cataloged by date and cross-cataloged by event; rooms full of manila file folders hung in narrow metal cabinets, cataloged and cross-cataloged, by person, by location, referenced and cross-referenced into Significant Individuals, Significant Places, Collated Significant Events.

Each floor is dotted with organizational kiosks, octagonal stations with keyboards and screens on each of their sides, from which the Librarians can perform system scours of the complete collection, summoning forth individual stretches or files or notebooks or boxes for review. Each basement is built on a hub-and-spoke design, a spiderweb of hallways radiating out from the central pole of the staircase, and each could theoretically be expanded out forever.

And eventually, of course, it will, the Record will be expanded out forever. Because new material is always being added, new reality is always happening, new truth is entering the world every moment, and so new hallways will have to be dug, further excavations undertaken, the bedrock forged of our past to undergird our future.

I skip the elevator today. I’m not going that far. My boot heels clang melodically on every step as I descend, around and around the spiral, deeper into the sacred heart of the Objectively So, with the metal staircase shivering slightly under my weight.

Man oh man, whenever I come down here, I get weird. The stairwell is encased in heavy glass, and through each door off each landing I glimpse the dim corridors that bend off into darkness. It is intense and disquieting to be surrounded by so much information, so much truth, everything we know, all of it gathered together. It is oppressive, actually, in a way. In a way, it is terrifying. Down here in the heart of the State, the deep hidden heart of the world.

Silvie is on Basement Four. I pass the department doors, one after another, along the corridor: the Office of the Permanent Census, the Office of Weights and Measures, the offices of Data Sets and of Facial Recognition and of Element Stability Across Time. And here—the Department of Contingent Reality Reassembly. She’s in there. She’s working.

You have to press a small glowing button to ring the bell, and it takes me a second to get my shit together enough to ring, and whether that’s because I’m nervous about seeing Silvie or I’m just a little worked up like I always get a little worked up down here in the solemn silence of the Record, I don’t know. But at last I press the stupid buzzer, and a moment later Mr. Willis opens it, scowling.

“You have no appointment,” he says.

“Yeah, I know.”

Mr. Willis hates me. Silvie isn’t going to be happy to see me either. What the fuck am I doing?

Contingent Reassembly is a humble and underdecorated office, ugly gray carpeting and dull yellow lights. It has never been good enough for Silvie, but then again neither was I.

The furniture is shabby and chipped and dented, and the walls are lined with framed black-and-white nature prints from around the State: rushing waterfalls and towering redwoods, windmills and freight trains, coffee plantations in Santa Barbara and marijuana fields in Sacramento, the majestic smelters that ring the banks of the Salton Sea. But the pictures are washed out, laid indifferently in chintzy frames. All subjects made much less beautiful than they are in reality.

Willis instructs me curtly to wait. He is the CRR’s pale and tiny office manager, who, with the divorce, has at last been given license to bring his distaste for me out into the open. So I sit in the waiting room, half reading this morning’s Trusted Authority, leafing through the latest economic indicators, the comprehensive lists of the dead and the born. There’s the latest photograph of the committee of experts, and my eyes as they always do scan the plain, unsmiling faces until I find the one I’ve met in person: Laura Petras, Our Acknowledged Expert on the Enforcement of the Laws. A plain woman, barely smiling, in a gray suit and tan shoes, surrounded by her similarly dressed staff. Professional and dull and inoffensive. I’m—

“What are you doing here, Laszlo?”

My heart delivers a single smacking thump, a big mule kick, just at the sight of her: Silvie, my Silvie, mine no more, hands on hips, ruddy and skeptical. My former wife is not as tall as me, but she’s damn tall. The average woman is five foot five and a half, and Silvie is six foot one, buxom and broad-chested, blonde-headed and red-cheeked. I want to gather her up, press her to my body, which is most of what I ever wanted to do for the last ten years: hold her and tell her about all the shit the world was doing to drive me crazy, and listen to her laugh and remind me how lucky I was to be alive in the first place—how lucky we all are to be alive, to be in the Golden State, the two of us especially because we get to serve it.

For ten years that was all I wanted, until we split up six months ago because I’m a moron.

“What do you want, Laz?”

“That’s how we’re going to start? We can’t start nice?”

“Laszlo. Come on. What is it?”

Mr. Willis scrutinizes this exchange from his small desk, his allegiance clear. I edge closer to Silvie, trying to screen Willis out of the conversation, and Silvie draws back, as if I’m a predator, a snake in the forest coming in to strike. Her instinctive withdrawal stabs me in the heart. Silvie in her gold earrings, with her masses of thick hair piled up and curled, always almost but not quite corralled, some of it always drifting down to tease her neck. She purses her lips and crosses her arms.

“The last time we talked you said we weren’t going to talk for a while.”

“I know. But it’s not a law. It’s not a bulwark. We’re not exiled from each other.”

“Stipulated.”

“Do you think we can talk in your office?”

“I’d rather not.”

“Sil.”

“Is this a personal matter or a professional matter?”

“Professional, Silvie. Okay? I need your help with a case.” I hold up my hands, like a man surrendering, like a magician proving there’s nothing up his sleeve. “Okay?”

“All right,” says Silvie after an extended pause. “Come on back.”

“Are you quite sure?” Mr. Willis puts in, and I can tell Silvie isn’t sure. She’s too smart not to know that me saying I’m here on business is at best the top layer in a complicated multilayered truth. But there is no question that she blames herself for what’s become of us, and she knows that I, grudging child in my heart, I blame her also, and she feels she owes me and she feels she always will.

It’s what I’m counting on, big clever monster that I am.

“Five minutes,” says Silvie at last. “I’m not busy, but I don’t like seeing you. It makes me sad.”

“Okay,” I say, and follow her through the inner doors and down the hall. “Stipulated.”

Silvie gestures to the chair on the other side of her desk, takes her own seat. Her inner office is a lot more pleasant than the rest of the floor: minimalist and cream-colored, gently lit and full of small cactuses in tidy beige planters. It’s got the cool, understated aesthetic she tried to get going in our home in Mar Vista, an effort forever foiled by my total indifference to my surroundings. There is a small coffee table, with exactly one book on it: Past Is Prologue, of course, the novel of the founding of the Golden State. I kiss my forefinger and brush it across the cover of the book, while Silvie waits, not softening, her eyes watchful and withholding. Clearly determined to play the surface truth of the situation: two professionals settling in to discuss a professional matter.

“So what is it?” Silvie says warily. “It’s a case?”

“Yes.”

“What kind of case?”

I smile, lay my heavy arms down on the desk, and swallow the wild urge to confess that I set up the whole thing—I broke into a man’s house and burned two weeks of his days, I clambered up behind him on a roof and pushed him to his death, all to contrive a reason to be here now, sitting across from you, Silvie, with our arms almost touching on your desk.

Come on, Laszlo. Get it together. Take a fucking breath.

“I have two weeks of missing days that I need reconstructed.”

“Whose days?”

“A man named Mose Crane. A roofer. Construction guy. Recently deceased.”

Silvie twists her lips to one side, the kind of small unconscious gesture that I watched her make a thousand times, and which I now force myself to ignore. When you have been in love with someone in the past, there are a million small trapdoors you can fall through that would take you right back.

“Mose Crane. A bad guy?”

“No. Well, I don’t know what kind of guy he is yet. That’s why I need the days built.”

“And you said two weeks? Two weeks in aggregate?”

“No. A two-week period.”

“Empty bags or no bags?”

“No bags. Clean.”

“No kidding.” Silvie shakes her head at me and puckers her lips. Silvie, with her plain, cheerful face, is an expert at the art of smiling disapproval. “Rather an extensive project you’re dumping in my lap, wouldn’t you say?”

I shift in my chair. “Is it?”

“Question with a question is pretty weak, Mr. Ratesic,” she says. “Even for you.”

But Silvie is interested. Her curiosity adds an intensity to the light in her eyes. She is biting at her lower lip, leaning forward. This is part of what I was counting on, coming to her directly like this: that despite it all she’s intrigued—as curious as I am about how a day laborer, about how anyone, would come to have a precise two-week bite taken out of his Provisional Record. There are many things we never had in common—almost everything—but Silvie, bless her, was ever as interested as her man in the byzantine business of reality maintenance.

“What happened to those weeks?” she wants to know.

“That’s part of what I’m trying to find out.”

“How long ago are they?”

“Not long. Six months back.”

“The subject is dead, though, you said?”

“Dead.”

“Well, that does make it easier.” Silvie leans back a bit, takes a look at her watch. She told me I had five minutes, and five minutes I shall get. “Talk to Mr. Willis,” she says, “and he’ll take the information, fill out a ninety-four B.”

“Silvie. I could have done a ninety-four from my desk.”

“Perhaps you should have.”

“Silvie.”

“Laszlo.” A smile flickers at her lips at this old game, batting back and forth, but she stops it up, remembers to glare at me. “When days are lost, there is a process, and the Office of Contingent Reality Reassembly is happy to execute our duties. Fill out the form and we will get to work on it.”

“I don’t want help from the office in general,” I tell her. “I want help from you.”

“And you didn’t think it would be uncomfortable, to come to me of all the people in this Department?”

“I knew it would be uncomfortable,” I say. “But you’re the best.”

“You are trying to flatter me.”

“Well, yeah.” I smile, trying to smile with my whole face, put the smile into my eyes, my fat cheeks. “But also, it’s true.”

Silvie rolls her eyes, but I’ve got her, just a little bit I’ve got her. There’s small measure of happiness blooming on her face. The bells are ringing—coming from somewhere, from below and around us—and we are at Forest Lawn, turning to notice each other, standing with no umbrellas while the bells ring for Charlie. She is saying “Oh, wow” when I tell her who I am. Who I’m related to. Every time she smiles I am thrown back to the beginning.

Now a moment has passed into a different moment, we have reverted to an old way of being, and it’s almost worse. It is: it’s worse. We were in love for a long time, or whatever it was we were in, and for a second, another second, it feels like it would be the easiest thing in the world to pick up right where we left off.

Except all the rest of it would pick up too: the shadows that never left us alone for long, the pressure of the past on all our present moments. The ghost of a question that was in the room with us every time we were alone.

The ghost of my dead fucking brother, whose heavy bootsteps I can hear even now—even now—descending the spiral staircase, as he comes and finds us, who even now I can see slipping into Silvie’s neat clean office and making himself at home. In his blacks, grinning on Silvie’s clean white sofa, his confident feet kicked up on her coffee table, to remind me why it would never work. Why it never worked and could never work in the future.

The same miserable trick he pulled the whole time we were together.

Silvie writes in her Day Book as I tell her what I have. Mose Crane. The address on Ellendale. The most recent employer and the place and manner of death. This is a big project I’m dumping in her lap, and we both know it. She’s going to have to seek out people who crossed paths with him and take doubles off their pads, find the roads he drove and the paths he walked and dub off the stretches, find the stores where he shopped and pull receipt copies. Build a picture from scratch, off whatever scraps of starting and ending evidence I can give her.

“I’ll need to know what proportion of his totals the missing days represent,” she says.

“Okay.”

“So—how many boxes did he have? Total, I mean.”

“Six.”

“Six?” She looks up. “Six and what?”

“Six. Five and a quarter, actually.”

She leans back. “No shit.”

“No shit, sister.”

“And there’s no documentation of some kind of destructive incident? A fire, or—”

“Nope. No fire. I don’t think there was one, Sil. I don’t. I think…”

“What, Laz?”

I leave it there. I don’t know what I think, I don’t know what I’ve been thinking, but a truth has seized me, a truth I can’t see but I can feel, a forearm wrapped around my throat from behind, like a kidnapper’s. Something shy of speculation: a suspicion. An instinct. A fear.

Silvie sets down her pen. Looks up at the capture in the right-hand corner of her office, then back at me. She can see inside my head, has always been able to see inside my head.

“Mr. Ratesic,” she says. “I am going to formally suggest once again that you pursue this matter through the appropriate channels.”

“Mrs. Ratesic. I am going to formally decline. Respectfully. I am after a speedy resolution of this matter.”

“Our work takes time for a good reason. The whole point of this department is to provide accuracy.” Like she needs to tell me that: the whole point of the whole world is to provide accuracy. All our departments, all our endeavors. All our work together and as one. “What is the deal with this case, Laszlo?”

“I am trying to resolve an anomaly, that’s all,” I say. “And it’s not even mine. My partner.”

“A partner?” An amused glimmer in her eyes. “You have a partner?”

“It was Arlo’s idea,” I say, and leave it there. “But this partner, she thinks that the owner of the house maybe had crossed paths with this roofer at some point in the past, and that his presence on the roof that day was not coincidental.”

I don’t need to mention who owns that house, and I definitely don’t need to mention who he was sleeping with when his wife wasn’t around. Maybe Silvie knows about Elena and the judge, and maybe she doesn’t. Everybody squirreling away their small scraps of truth. Just because everything said must be truthful does not mean that everything truthful needs to be said. I have promised Captain Elena Tester that I will do my best to minimize the appearance on the Record of the flat facts I have discovered about her, and that’s what I do now. I keep quiet, let Silvie think this over for a second.

“She sounds like a smart cookie, this partner of yours.”

“Well.” I raise my palms in a helpless gesture, I am what I am. “I’ll cure her of that in a hurry.”

Silvie laughs, and I do too, and it is the old laughter we are sharing: laughter of the green glider, laughter of the late-night last glass of wine. Laughter under the low-hanging moon.

“I can’t promise anything,” she says now, and I say “I know,” and she says “I will work as fast as I can, but,” and I say “I know” again, and then “Thank you,” when what I should really be saying is “I forgive you,” because I think it would be true.

She smiles and puts her hand on my hand and squeezes, and I carry it out—that moment of tenderness I carry up four flights of stairs and back out into the lobby, where I doff my pinhole and suffer myself to be wanded again. Whatever is the state of my mind, it reconciles sufficiently with how it was on my way in.

“Okay, sir.” The Librarian holsters her wand with a polite half smile. “You have a pleasant day.”

13.

Ms. Paige is back at my desk, right at home, hunched forward with her sleeves rolled up and her eyes keen on the screen, as Arlo would say, her vision clear and true, and as I slump into the office she moves no muscle other than to say “Oh good, you’re back” and point with one finger toward a cup of coffee she got me. I lift it like a holy chalice, hold its miraculous heat between my hands, taking what pleasure I can from the warmth burning through its paper sides.

“How did it go?”

“Fine. You got the rooftop stretch?”

“I did,” says Paige, and I don’t even ask about Woody, about how she wheedled this new stretch free of him, because of what is in her eyes, the high focus with which she is fixed on screen, fixed on Crane—Crane on the high pitch of the roof, a cigarette dangling from the corner of his mouth. Blue sky morning. “Sit. I’ve got something that I think you ought to see.”

And then she waits, impatiently, for me to arrange my bulk beside her. It occurs to me I might be done training Ms. Paige.

I take a look at the frozen cut. Woody’s office was able to knit together stretches from six or seven captures to build a nice clean multi-view, what the pros call a tapestry: Crane from all angles up on the Sampson roof. Views from below him, pointing upward from the eaves; from the telephone poles along the driveway; from the hoods of the trucks parked along in the driveway.

Aysa looks to make sure I’m looking and then she says “Play” and the screen jumps to life.

Crane is alone on the roof. He is smoking, holding a hand-rolled cigarette in his left hand. A roofing tool, an oblong metal plane with a wood handle, is in his right hand.

The sky is blue behind him.

He stands and stretches, surefooted on the pitch of the roof, and takes a long drag of the cigarette.

Specs return in little flecks and flares, my mind overlaying the image on the screen with dancing stars of possibility: Crane the pervert—Crane the thief—Crane the helpless dupe of fate…

I blink them away, focus on the image as the image is. It’s unsettling to see the man alive, watching him move and breathe and take drags of the butt and be a person. For all this time he has been, in my mind, “the dead roofer.” The entirety of his identity was bound up in the fact that he was no longer living, and now here he is on the roof, his eyes moving, feet planted steady as a billy goat’s on the slant.

Crane flicks the butt over the side. He turns, watching it fall over the side, and—

“Stop,” says Aysa, and then, to me, “Do you see?”

“See what?”

Ms. Paige is leaned very close to the screen, bent forward to take in every granulated detail. She herself is a capture, pulsing with interest, collecting all reality around her.

And it’s funny, because though she looks not a damn thing like my brother—Charlie was a big, tough, fit white man, heavily muscled and brimming with macho confidence, and Aysa is black and a female and five three in her heavy Speculator’s boots—but her face, the set of her face, the birdlike avidity of her eyes right now—it’s like Charlie’s there, like he is here, living in her, present underneath.

“Here,” she tells me, “look.”

Crane returns to his work, bending with his wood-handled planar tool, and then—there, 6:11:19 exactly, as he crouches to return to his labors—Crane’s foot snags on a lip of tile, and he shifts his weight—and now Aysa says “Slow” and the frames click by at a revelatory crawl, each giving way to the next—

One foot slips out from under his tensed weight—one leg comes kicking out from behind the other—

—his face registers the sliding confusion of weightlessness as his ass slams into the roof—

—trying to right himself, he catches his heel on the gutter, which tears free, further jumbles the order of his limbs. He tips forward—over—

—down—

It is a hard thing to watch, that tumbling moment, the instant of unloosing. His eyes in that moment, wide with realization. It’s private. There is nothing as intimate as terror.

Paige says “Back ten,” and the section backs up. Crane, again, standing and stretching; Crane, again, drags on the cigarette, flicking it, watching it fall. Crouching, and—

“Stop,” commands Paige, and the image stands still, hung between frames, Crane’s eyes half open, his body half up and half down, his last puff of smoke half-dissipated in the air around him, again caught in the instant before the instant that will undo him.

“So what I’m wondering,” she says, leaning back, “is what’s he even doing there.”

“What do you mean? On the roof?”

“No—as high as he is. Isn’t he higher than he ought to be?”

“What?”

“Well, the job is down here. Here. See? The job is closer to the eaves. They’re peeling off the tiles here to prepare the roof over the master bedroom for a second story.”

“So what’s he doing way up there?”

“That’s the question. There’s no reason.”

A thought lurches into my head, a rising bubble of speculation, and I murmur it, trying it out: “There is a reason.”

Paige says “Go” and we watch the man die another time: watch him toss his arms out, watch his legs trip each other, watch him lurch and tumble over the side like a drunken sailor. There is something cruel in this, in playing and replaying it like we are making the puppet of his body dance down to its destruction, watching it happen again and again. A kind of retrospective torture of the dead man.

Something catches my eye: a smear—a kind of stain—high up on the screen. “Freeze,” I say.

“Laszlo?”

“There.”

“What?”

“Do you see that?”

Paige blinks, leans closer. I point to the screen.

Aysa nods, three times, quickly. “Yes. I see it. Or—is that—”

“No.” I rub at the screen with a corner of my coat, because it almost looks as if a bug has landed on it, but no, it’s there. A shadow. A shape. The misshapen darkness is not in the room with us, it’s in the image of the earlier reality.

“There’s a shadow.”

“What?”

“I think it’s…”

Now we’re both leaning in, squinting. It’s hard to see. It’s nearly impossible. The shadow is the shadow of something we can’t see because it is off-frame, just outside the capture’s view, the kind of mottled wavering shadow that is refracted back by a pane of glass.

“It’s a skylight,” says Aysa, and I feel a child’s pang of envy that I didn’t say it first.

Why Mose Crane was crouching. What he was trying to see. Why he was there. A way to look in, or a way to get in.

The room grows dim at the corners, the dimness like dread, and it’s pulling at me, I feel it pulling. I see the candle inside the darkness, the tiny glow at the center of a vast room, but I’m not ready, not now, I’m not going, not now—Fuck off, I’m not going now…

I keep my eyes open. Stand up, shake it off. I turn off the screen, leave Mose Crane frozen in his fall.

“Very fine work on this, Ms. Paige.”

“Thank you.”

“Are you okay?”

“I’m fine.”

“Are you sure?”

“Yes, Laszlo!” She looks at me, spreads her arms, laughing off my overprotection. “I’m fine! Are you fine?”

I’m not, not really. My throat is racked; my eyes are burning. I am feeling the familiar toll of our labors. Our gift that does not come free. The discernment of falsehood, the pull of speculation. My chest is tight, wrung, but I’ll just need a breath of air, that’s all, I need the cigarette I’m already digging out of my pocket, tugging from its pack. I’ll be fine. It’s Aysa I’m worried about, Aysa the unaffected, scrawling notes in her Day Book, no sign of any strain or symptom.

I’m worried about her because she’s like Charlie who didn’t feel a thing until it was too late, and he felt it all at once.

And maybe it is like Charlie, maybe she doesn’t feel it and so she doesn’t understand, but let her see it in me. Let me be a map of the dangers.

“All right, little sister,” I tell her. “Grab your coat. We gotta go talk to that judge.”

14.

“Ms. Wells?” says the honorable Judge Barney Sampson of the Court of Aberrant Neural Phenomena. “Ms. Wells, I will need you to settle down and pay close attention when the court is speaking.”

The owner of the house at 3737 Vermont Avenue sits high on his bench, exercising the solemn duty of his office. His stone-faced bailiff stands beneath him and to the right.

The subject of the hearing, despite Judge Sampson’s repeated admonitions, will not look up at him and will not stay still, shifting restlessly from side to side and flicking her fingers in weird patterns. I’m settled in my last-row pew, beneath the row of drooping flags that jut from the back wall of the courtroom: the Bear and Stars of the Golden State, the three bars of the city, the bright yellow circle of the Objectively So. There is a dull, airless quality to the courtroom, a tired dinginess, as if the very physical space has been worn down by the grim sameness of the daily proceedings. Watching Judge Sampson work, watching him gravely evaluate this poor lady, I wonder if the man isn’t jealous of his colleagues on the State’s higher benches—the Court of Grave Misrepresentations, the Court of Deliberate Falsity.

No, I think. He’s happy. Not smiling, of course, but engagedand brightly curious, eyes fixed on the defendant while he toys lightly with his gavel, while the courtroom’s overhead lights gleam off the dome of his scalp and glint off the big gold ring he wears on one pinky. He’s a short man, mostly bald, with tufts of hair ringing the smooth bulge of his scalp like high clouds around a mountain top.

Aysa and I have been here for five minutes. This docket item was supposed to be cleared ten minutes ago, and my plan was to be waiting for the judge in his chambers when it was done. Instead we’re sitting here in the back of the courtroom, a hard room for anyone to be in, but especially for me. Because the unfortunate Ms. Wells, aside from the shifting and the dancing, aside from the flicking of her fingers, is letting out a steady stream of preposterous and untrue statements, and it is increasingly hard for me to bear.

“I was dragged here,” she claims, hisses, growls, wagging an accusing finger at the stolid bailiff. “Dragged by dragons, dragons in wagons, wagons in wheels.”

It is babble she is talking, a cackle of words, but the sounds are statements and the statements aren’t true. I feel her nonsense in the air, gathering in slight wispy clouds. This is why she’s here. Madness is an assault on the Objectively So, and the State has a responsibility to contain and control it. The defendant certainly looks the part, in layers of long unkempt skirts, a cascade of dirty and tattered fabrics. Her eyes are pale and milky, and as she talks—declaims; chants, really—her eyes roll and dance inside their sockets. She wanders in a small circuit, her radius limited only by the length of chain with which she is tethered to the floor. She jerks her head in little circles, too, wrenching herself to look behind her, again and again, to the rows of us watching. Her hair is wild, stiff with sea grit and sand; her face and arms are streaked with dirt.

“A demon was dreaming and dreaming.” Raising her hands up, shaking her head from side to side. “Dreaming of dragons and dreaming of me. Dreamed of me and here I be.”

I turn to the side and cough as all this non-truth fills the room, floor to ceiling, window to wall, leadening the air, thickening it up, like smoke off a wildfire. I am starting to think I may have to get up and get out of here, go and wait on the benches that line the hallway outside the room. Ms. Paige, of course, is unaffected. She watches the proceedings with her usual ardency, eyes darting back and forth between the bench and the defendant as Judge Sampson taps his gavel, trying to corral the madwoman’s wild attention.

“Ms. Wells,” he says. “We need to speak calmly.”

She is not able. “Calm,” she barks, her hands high above her head, her dirty hair swept lionlike behind her. “Calm as a bomb.”

“Ms. Wells,” says Judge Sampson. “Eyes up here, please.”

“My eyes,” says Ms. Wells. “My eyes, my eyes.”

Judge Sampson nods, as if her answers are perfectly reasonable, and writes something on a small pad beside him. His desk is absent any extraneous ornament: just the pad, the gavel, a glass of water. It is just him and Ms. Wells, examining each other, staring across the gulf of reality.

I’ve spent time in these courts before, of course, as little time as I can get away with. I had a drug abuser once, a man whose mind became so addled that he could no longer distinguish what was from what was not; I have seen not only madness but amnesia, schizophrenics, and the mentally retarded. And all the old-timers’ diseases, of course, the whole range of senility and infirmity. Any assault on reality, any infusion of falsehood in the air can’t be countenanced, no matter the source.

“Have you ever in your life,” asks the judge, “been administered the dream-controlling medication Clarify?”

“No. Yes. No.” She squints, moves her cheeks, scratches at her neck. Judge Sampson’s manner is mild, but his eyes miss nothing. “I am not a doctor, sir. I am not a dream.”

I cough hard, into my hand. A bearded man in a suit turns around and glares at me. I don’t want to be drawing attention to myself but it’s getting harder to tamp down. A little more of this and I’ll have no choice but to duck out into the hallway. My chest feels tired. My hands are shaking, just a little bit.

“Have you been evaluated by a mental health professional?” asks the judge.

This time she doesn’t answer, just hisses like a steam vent and waves her hands.

“Have you ever—” Judge Sampson stops, raises one hand, and snaps his fingers. His fingers are long, the nails manicured. He snaps, snaps again. “Ms. Wells? Right now. Where are you in the present moment?”

“Court,” she says, and there is a palpable sense of relief in the room. She’s not so far gone as that. Ms. Paige glances at me, hopeful. Ms. Wells has one foot, at least, in the world. Everyone knows what happens if this goes the other way.

“I’m in a court. And you are the king. The king of the thing.”

“Ms. Wells?”

“The king is singing, now. Loud and long or low and slow. The king sings and the snakes are dancing.”

Ms. Paige looks at me again. Ms. Wells’s moment of lucidity has passed through her like weather, and now she is off again, babbling with hands raised, caught in her interior dance, her mind fixed within, and another spasm catches me, worse than before. My coughing, I can tell, is drawing the attention of the judge. His attention flickers over me, and he is clocking the blacks, the hat, the coughing. He has known many Speculators, of course. He knows what I am, what we are, but does he know why we’re here?

His attention returns to Ms. Wells—he asks her to look at him directly, and she ignores him again. Not defiant, exactly. Uncomprehending. Disinterested. She twists her head in different directions, like a loose compass searching for north.

Judge Sampson drums his fingers on the bench, and turns to his bailiff, a big man with wide shoulders and a rocky forehead like a dinosaur.

“Do we have a representative here from the department this morning?”

“Yes, sir.” The bailiff points at the bearded man in front of me, the guy who glared at me a minute ago. “Dr. Marvin Ailey.”

The man stands up. “That’s me, sir.”

“Hello, Dr. Ailey. An object in motion tends to stay in motion.”

“Good morning, your honor. An object at rest tends to stay at rest.”

“And so it ever shall be.” The judge sighs. “All right, then. What do we know about Ms. Wells’s relationship with reality?”

“Tenuous, sir. Unfortunately. Lorna Jane Wells on three occasions has been administered the full assessment and on all three occasions her percentile scores were found to be abjectly unsuitable. And”—Dr. Ailey clears his throat, frowns—“and, unfortunately, as I say, she has proven unresponsive to treatment.”

“Tell me about the extent of the treatment?”

“Standard, sir. The standard battery.”

“Beginning at what age, Dr. Ailey?”

“Beginning at age nineteen, your honor.”

“Beginning with Clarify, doctor?”

“Yes, your honor.”

The facts form a pile. The pile grows higher. Dr. Marvin Ailey, referring to his Day Book, to various files he’s brought with him, proceeds through the years of Ms. Wells’s life, her history of neural nonconformity, all of the drugs to which over many years she has proved nonresponsive; while the woman herself proves the point, bobbing her head in small chicken-like motions, making little half dance steps in different directions.

When he is done with Dr. Ailey, the judge stands and hitches up his robes, almost daintily, like a woman in a long dress coming down off a horse. The climax of this event is getting closer now. Whatever else I am to find out about Judge Sampson, I know that he does this many times a day: sits with people’s lives in his hands, weighing their fitness. What does that do to a person, such a burden as carried by the soul?

He crosses his courtroom and pulls up a chair at the defense table, plunks himself down unceremoniously beside Ms. Wells.

“Hi,” he says softly. “Lorna. Lorna, do you have living family that are aware of your condition?”

“What?”

“Are there people that care for you?”

The judge sees her humanity. I see it, and I can see him seeing it, trying to locate the human person within the murky depths of her illness. Seeking a way, if a way can be found, not to do what he is empowered to do; not to exercise the power of his office. But Ms. Wells jerks backward from him in a swift reptilian motion, and claps her hands on his shoulders. “The book cares.”

“The—what?”

“I got it for a song,” she says. “The book. The big one, the old one, the good one, the gold one. The big book with the red spine.” Her voice has built into a singsong rhythm, sweetly childlike. “Past Is Prologue, boys and girls. I have read it close.” She spins around to face the gallery, and she gives us a broad wink. “I’ve seen through the curtain.”

“Ms. Wells,” says Judge Sampson, frowning. “Stop.”

“My eyes are spies. X-ray eyes. Okay? I can see behind the black. The parts behind the parts.”

“Ms. Wells,” says the judge again, his voice dire with warning. “Stop speaking.”

He casts a stern and meaningful look to his bailiff, who does not, as I expected, charge across the room toward the defendant. Instead he steps closer to his own small desk, lifts up a panel built into its top, while Ms. Wells raises her hands high into the air, her two thumbs interlocked and her palms spread wide.

It’s a book. She has made of her hands a book and she is holding it aloft.

“Big book, old story,” she sings, “And you know what’s odd?”

“Ms. Wells!” cries the judge, but she sings on—

“In the scratched-out pages is the face of—”

The judge is looking at the bailiff and the bailiff is pressing a button on the desk that sucks all the sound from the world. In an instant it becomes absolutely silent, a pure, deep silence like the courtroom is encased in glass, as if it is not sound but the very idea of sound that has disappeared. For a moment, wild Ms. Wells keeps talking, moving her mouth, moving her head in confused circles, but then she trails off, looks with bafflement around the impossibly silent room. After a minute of this, when her lips have stopped moving, the judge nods to the bailiff, who taps his desk once more and unmutes the courtroom, and the imposed silence is replaced by the subtler everyday quiet of a room full of people, watching the judge, watching the confused madwoman—who stands now with her hands flapping nervously at her side.

Judge Sampson keeps his eyes focused for a moment on the floor, a man briefly lost in important conversation with himself. And then he stands and returns slowly, solemnly, a one-man procession, to the bench.

“It is the verdict of this court that Ms. Wells has no connection to reality nor prospect of achieving one.”

Paige looks at me, startled, and then back at the judge. Poor thing. Young girl. She grabs my shoulder. Wanting me to—what—to leap to my feet? Object?

Judge Sampson looks at the bailiff, who makes a small gesture with both hands, palms up, like an elevator rising up a floor. Everybody stands. I take off my pinhole and press it to my chest. The judge keeps his eyes on Ms. Wells, who, of course, has no idea what’s going on. She is living in her own reality, and shelled within it, shelled and sheltered, flinging rocks over the top, a danger to us all, but not for long—not for long now.

“The presence of Ms. Wells within the Golden State is therefore deemed to be unsafe and unhealthful for its inhabitants.” The bailiff stands before the bench, a still pillar, hands behind his back. Paige’s grip tightens on my shoulder, as if it’s her on whom sentence is being passed. I feel her fingers through the thickness of my jacket. Trying to understand the judge’s words, though they are not hard to understand. Like a pledge or a curse, like “I do” or “I promise,” the words of a verdict are illocutionary: they do not have an intended effect, they are the intended effect.

The judge has changed reality. The madwoman was of our world and now she is gone from it.

“The remedy to the offense your presence represents is to be effected immediately.” And Judge Sampson brings down the gavel, three short chops, bap bap bap, and the bailiff steps forward to unshackle Ms. Wells from the ground.

15.

“Now wait a minute.” The judge looks me over, up and down, quizzical, curious, pleased. “I know you. We’ve met—yes? Tell me. Where have we met?”

“I don’t think so. My name is Laszlo Ratesic. I’m a Speculator, your honor.”

“Oh, you needn’t tell me that. That, I can see. And what a rare treat it is, to have one of you mysterious bats come to roost in my courtroom.” He offers Aysa a smile. “One or two. No, but”—the welcoming, slightly puzzled smile returns—“I know I know you, though.” He wags a finger at me. “Well, that’s all right. Let’s talk. It’ll come to me.”Judge Sampson settles back, fully at his ease. His chambers are as shabby as the courtroom, only darker, lined with thick carpeting and heavy curtains that cover the windows onto Grand Avenue, curtains so long the fabric pools along the floor. There are framed photographs, a tacky little Bear and Stars flag in a stand on the desk; there is a portable bar cart now docked snugly at the side of the desk, within the judge’s easy reach. The cart is not his only indulgence; there’s a small wall-mounted on the wall opposite the windows, and I wonder what sorts of themed streams Judge Sampson enjoys, after hours, when the last defendant has been dealt with.

There is something disorienting, something half anomalous, about a judge in chambers— especially a judge of the ANP. A man both small and large at once, still wearing his black robes but with his shirt collar unbuttoned beneath them and his tie loosened. An avatar of the State’s great power sitting with his ass half on and half off of his chintzy little desk, lifting his wry eyebrows, fetching a short glass from his bar cart and filling it with three ice cubes before popping the cork on a crystal decanter.

“Okay. So.” He enjoys a long sip of the drink and sets it down. “What can I do for you?”

I draw breath to speak and find that Ms. Paige, standing behind the chair where I’m sitting, has already begun.

“Why did you do it?”

The judge looks at her, eyebrows raised. “Why did I do what, exactly?”

“Send her away.”

Judge Sampson examines my partner with amusement. “You mean the poor woman in the courtroom? Just now? Today’s defendant?”

“Her name was Ms. Wells.”

“I know her name, young lady. I know all their names. I wonder what you think I am.”

I have craned all the way around, turned my large midsection as far as it will turn, trying to catch Ms. Paige’s eye and stop her from doing whatever it is she thinks she’s doing. What I told her was to wait, to watch and wait. That’s what I told her to do.

“I passed the sentence I did upon that particular defendant because it was what the facts required of me. Based on her history and current presentation, Ms. Wells showed no likelihood of reform. She would continue to commit daily, even hourly, assaults, on the Objectively So. She inhabits her own truth and is unable to step free from it. Such a person can not be allowed to continue inside the Golden State.”

“So you condemned her.”

“Her own mind condemned her. I only acknowledged that reality, on behalf of the State. If you think I enjoy making such decisions, you are incorrect.” But he smiles, and sips contentedly at his drink.

Paige is not satisfied. “You know what will happen to her out there.”

“No, young lady.” The judge sets the glass on the desk with a clink, a sharp and decisive sound like the gavel coming down. “I do not know. And you do not know. The fate of the exiled is unknown and unknowable, and any unconditional expression of that fate, any statement such as, for example, ‘You know what will happen to her out there,’ is by definition not true.”

We are in a moment now. Judge Sampson has just called Ms. Paige a liar, more or less, and he is not smiling any longer, and she for her part stands seething. What she wants to say is, Of course I know. Of course she knows what will happen to Ms. Wells, out there, over the wall, behind the curtain. But she can’t say it and she won’t say it and she wouldn’t and neither would I. She knows and we all know and it’s unknown and unknowable.

I raise one hand from my lap. This is supposed to be my show, after all.

“Hello. Excuse me. We’re going to move on.”

“Yeah,” says Aysa. “But—”

I look at her. “Ms. Paige,” I say. “We’re moving on. Okay?”

But Judge Sampson isn’t done. He tilts his head to one side, smiles with what looks like warmth.

“Have you,” he says to Ms. Paige, “perhaps lost someone to exile?”

“Yes,” she says, and he says “Ah,” and I recall her saying “Fuck my parents,” and the room fills with a brooding silence. I saw a lecture once, delivered by Our Acknowledged Expert on Geology and Geography, explaining how the Golden State, the whole thing, is built on movable plates, vast tracts that move, that push and scrape against other plates. The same is true inside Aysa Paige; the same is true inside me.

The judge takes a sip of his drink, licks his lips, and says, “Now. Please. What can I help you with?”

“We are working on a case, your honor,” I say. “A death.”

“A murder?”

“We don’t know what it is. It is a death. We are seeking the full and final truth of a recent death.”

“The death of whom?”

A mild playful tone accompanies the question, and I ignore it. I take out a picture of the dead man and lay it on the judge’s desk. He peers over the rim of his whiskey glass to inspect it.

“The gentleman’s name,” I say, “was Mose Crane.”

The judge sniffs, draws another sip. “If you’ll excuse an idiom, it rings no bell. Has he been in my courtroom?”

“No, sir. He died at your house. On your lawn.”

“Ah. The roofer. Yes. Tragic.” My interpretation of what he says is informed by the way he looks into his glass, by the tinkling of the ice. A man not moved by tragedy. “I had not understood that the authorities had discovered any anomalies in that situation.”

His tone is very smooth—very cool. I catch a ripple in the air, a minor distension. I look at Paige to see if she catches it too, but she’s looking straight ahead. I have a feeling she is out in the wilderness, with or without Mr. and Mrs. Paige.

“Whether the authorities had discovered one in the situation or not,” I say to Judge Sampson, “I believe you were aware there were anomalies.”

“I know there are anomalies,” he says. “I know, more than most, that such things exist.”

“I fear, sir, that your statement contains omissions,” I say, picking my words carefully.

“Well, let’s be serious, son,” he says. “All statements contain omissions.”

This is more or less the same thing that Captain Tester said to me, more or less the kind of thing people say all the time, as we slide through our lives like roller skaters, skirting and dodging around the hills and valleys of the truth, ducking under it at the last minute.

But Aysa isn’t having it. “No they don’t,” she says, her voice still hot.

“Ms. Paige?” I turn toward her again, twisting uncomfortably in the small wooden chair. “Do me a favor, would you?” But Judge Sampson isn’t ready to move on.

“This is interesting, now, isn’t it? Very interesting. What do you mean, exactly, young lady? Do you object to the statement that all statements contain omissions?”

“That’s not what I said.”

“Oh, I think it is, Ms. Speculator,” he says. “Should we requisition the stretch? Ask for a playback?”

As ever when someone mentions the Record, I become conscious of it, of the captures glittering in the light fixtures, of the captures on the doorframe, all the truth of this moment entering history as it goes. Even so, I know what the judge is doing: he is moving sideways, away from the conversation, using my partner’s righteousness to duck away from my questions.

“Go ahead,” says Paige. “Requisition the stretch. We’ll watch it together. All I meant was, don’t try to pretend that you don’t know what we’re asking about.”

I sigh. I shake my head. She’s still too young to know what I knew coming in: that of course he would try to pretend. Of course he would go to any legal length not to answer questions. One day she will know what I have known for years: the extraordinary lengths people will go not to let certain truths pass their lips.

“We are trying to find out how a man died,” Paige says. “The truth is the most important thing. You have a piece of it, and you are going to hand it over. Now.”

“Young lady,” the judge says. “Imagine a stone.”

She blinks. “What?”

“A stone, dear.” He stands up. He goes so far as to reach into his pocket and come out with a closed fist, pretending, really pretending to be holding a stone. He then places it gently, the fake stone, at the center of his desk. “We place it here. And now we draw a ring around it. Okay? Like so.”

He does it, with one bony finger, turns his finger into a pen and traces a perfect circumference around his imaginary stone.

“And now the stone is a flat fact, and everything inside the circle is a relevant supporting fact. And when we are asked to provide context, to say everything we know about the stone, these are the things we say. Are you with me?”

She doesn’t answer. She stares at him.

“But now these facts have been introduced. All around this ring, these are relevancies. They support the foregoing; they are part of it. Seen another way, we have one truth. But if you now take this spot, here along the ring, and put a stone here—another ring can be drawn. You see? New relevancies, new relevant facts all along the new outskirts. And each of these spots could, in turn, be made into the center of the circle. And so the truth blossoms outward endlessly, and it is always—always—ultimately the speaker of truth who decides which pieces of it to label, in this case, relevant.”

I sigh. Enough of this.

“Your honor—”

But he’s not finished, and we’re in his house. His chambers. He speaks like a man in full control: of this room, of the State, of the whole universe. “Of course it’s easy for you all,” he continues.

Aysa’s expression sharpens. “Easy for—women?”

He smiles. “No. Speculators. You with your vaunted discernment. To simply see a lie, to know one when one is there. Black-and-white. You feel it. But for the rest of us? Who must make our own sorry way? We must make judgment calls.”

“Your honor,” I say. “We are here to ask you about Captain Elena Tester.”

He scowls, and his face clouds over. All of his charm, all of his wit, it was all dodging around this moment, which he knew was coming all along.

“What about her?”

“You know her?”

“I do.”

“How well do you know her?”

He sighs. The cloud passes; his insouciance recovers itself. “If you are here to ask if I am fucking Captain Elena Tester, then please. Please. Ask me if I am fucking Elena Tester.”

I wait. Raise my eyebrows. Well?

“Yes.” He raises both hands in slow synchronicity with the smile on his face. “I am fucking Elena Tester.”

He then arrives at the next step before Aysa can beat him there, and the calm of his voice now possesses something else. “And before you ask, I opted not to volunteer this information to you, for the same reason, I imagine, that Elena—that Captain Tester—chose not to volunteer it. Because it is private. Because all statements contain omissions.” He gestures to his imaginary ring of stones. “It is better for both Captain Tester and me that the flat fact of our connection not be splattered all over the Record like muddy paw prints by conversations like this one.”

“Well—” Aysa starts, but the judge marches on.

“And it is not relevant to your investigation.”

“And you made that judgment.”

“Yes, I did. I made a judgment.” He turns to me and winks. “I’m a judge.”

“Did anyone else know?” asks Ms. Paige, Day Book out, pen ready to press into the carbon. “About this affair? Anyone who might have been interested in extorting you, or the captain? Anyone—”

“I’ve got it.”

“What?”

He shuts his eyes tightly for a moment, and then pops them open, wags his finger at me. “Your wife is that girl, the one with the big personality. Yes? Captain Tester’s old buddy. Yes?”

“Silvie.”

He pats his hands on his lap in triumph, exultant. “Silvie! That’s your wife?”

Heat. Heat behind my eyes and on my cheeks. “Ex-wife.”

“Ex. Ah. Relationships, right? Very sad. The ex-husband. Doleful, cast out, carrying faded memories like old files. Always something of a tragic figure. Although so, too, can husbands be. A husband, too, can be tragic.”

Paige, whether out of fealty to me or desire to stay on target, presses on. “Your honor, we need to know who, if anyone, might have known about this affair. Your honor?”

He keeps his eyes just on me. “Let’s not do this,” says the judge. His face changes for a moment, the eyes fraternal, downturned, and then back to their focus. And he says—just softly, just calmly, just to me—“Listen. This is not worth it. Do you understand?”

I want to take his offer.

It feels as if I am on a cliff’s edge, toddling toward the side, and this man is holding out a hand to keep me from tumbling, and I want to reach out to accept his hand but I can’t. I won’t.

Because Ms. Paige is doing as I have told her, she is hitching her natural powers to her hunches, making decisions on the fly, swimming in the powerful wake of her instincts.

And because the powerful have no more right than the powerless to hoard their share of the truth. Because the Basic Law guarantees us all the same access to what is real, and the same protection from what is not.

So I cross my arms over my chest, lean back in the wooden chair, and stare flatly back. “Answer the question, your honor.”

“Very well,” he says, and turns his gaze slowly from me to her. “Nobody else knew.”

“Nobody knew, or nobody knew that you know of?”

“Why, Ms. Speculator,” he says. “If there was someone who knew of it, and I didn’t know if they knew or not, then how would I know?”

He laughs without humor, and Paige blinks—no, more than blinks. Squeezes her eyes shut for half a second, and then opens them again, and they are altered—seeing more clearly, keenly, the way I saw them seeing at Crane’s apartment. She’s got something. She’s caught something.

I stare at her in astonishment for a second and then I look to the floor, hiding the sting of envy. It costs her nothing. Her body does not rack and her eyes do not water. It costs her nothing.

“Your honor,” she says sharply, eyes open now, trained dead on the judge. “Is there physical evidence of this affair?”

I watch the judge. His mouth becomes small. A button. “Yes.”

“Is there physical evidence of this affair in this room with us right now?”

He does not answer. Paige’s eyes open, and we both watch him rise slowly, turn his back on us, and retreat to his bar cart.

When he speaks it is again to me only. “Mr. Speculator?” he says quietly, the same between-us-men appeal that he must know by now will not work. I offer him no help. I wait for Paige.

“Your honor,” she says, boring in, unflinching, unrelenting. “Do you keep a Night Book?”

He does not answer. The room gets quiet and stays that way, one moment of silence and then another, Judge Sampson looking up at a point behind our heads, and it is so quiet that it’s as if the judge has got some version of the courtroom’s noise canceling device in his chambers. But no. It’s just silence, and it ends when Sampson rises and makes himself busy at his bar cart, uncorking a new bottle, selecting the right size crystal tumbler. He needs something stronger, I guess. He pours but does not yet drink.

“Yes,” he says at last. “I do.”

“Precision, sir.”

“I keep one.”

“For the Record, sir. You keep one what?”

“I keep a Night Book.”

Before he can say anything else, before he can dodge or duck any further, I say, “We are going to need to see that.”

Judge Sampson raises the glass, but still doesn’t drink from it, sets it right back down and then grins, a cold and crocodile grin.

“I’ll tell you what,” he says, and then again, “I’ll tell you what. I’ll read it to you.”

I look at Paige and she at me. “No, sir,” I say. “We will take it with us, and return it to you at the completion of our inquiries.”

“Don’t be ridiculous, Mr. Speculator,” he says. “Allow me.” His eyes shine, his grin widens, and I don’t know what to make of his sudden shift in attitude. Anxiety flutters to life in my guts like a wind-ruffled banner.

I’ve never understood what it is that makes a certain kind of person keep a Night Book. Catch that. Correct it: I understand it, but I would never fucking do it.

On the surface, of course, the impulse is a good and golden one, doctrinaire and State-minded, a laudable individual service provided to our great collective effort. The Night Book writer commits himself to recording not only the flat facts and surface realities of life, the kinds of visible truths that are collected by captures and recorded all day long in Day Books, but to go further, to go all the way, to put on paper all the underlying truths of life, those that move beneath the skin. The Night Book writer records his thoughts, his dreams, his instincts and urges. He puts his private life on his secret pages.

After all, they’ll tell you, everything that happens belongs to the State, and a thought is just an event that happens in your head.

And unlike a Day Book, a Night Book only reaches the Record when its author is dead and it passes into the Permanent Record with all the rest of life’s artifacts. Or, let’s say, when a pair of Speculators barge into your office, chasing an anomalous death that happens to intersect with your existence, and they sense the presence of your Night Book and reach for it and pull it out like a loose tooth.

The judge’s Book is indeed right here in the office with him, hidden in a wall safe behind his official portrait, and before we can object, he has it open on his desk: a slim volume, handsomely appointed. He pulls out reading glasses and adjusts them on his nose and sets in.

“Sir,” I say, one last time. “We will take the book away with us.”

“Oh, I know,” he says, flipping the book open. “But first I’m going to read.” And his finger falls on a particular page, and he begins.

“‘It was the sort of party one is dying to leave until a moment arrives and one never wants to go home.’” Sampson pauses and looks up. “Oh, that’s rather nice. I had forgotten I wrote that. Very nice, indeed.”

That’s the other thing a Night Book does, of course: it gives a vain person like the judge ample opportunity to indulge that vanity, all under the guise of supreme service to the State.

Judge Sampson licks his lips and finds his place. “‘We had been introduced at the very threshold of the evening, one among the usual roundelay of how-do-you-dos. If I suspected in that moment that she would be added to my collection, I suspected it without suspecting that I suspected it. I suspected it in my heart alone, or in some other, lower precinct.’”

He pauses again, looks up over the rim of his glasses at Paige. “‘Collection’ is rather crass. I apologize.”

Paige is looking at me. She mouths “Tester?” And I do not answer. Knowledge is alive in me; moving; welling up. Sampson with his crocodile mouth carries on: “‘I had promised myself therefore not to leave before she did, and my patience was at last rewarded.’” He pauses, looks up, and sees that he has our attention. I cannot move. I am not moving. “‘We two indeed were among the last to leave, lingering in the doorway between parlor and kitchen, engaged in a very long conversation about nothing at all. Her husband, it seems, had lost patience and retreated, alone.’”

“Husband?” says Ms. Paige. “Hold on. Captain Tester is a widow. Is this—”

“Oh, I’m sorry,” says the judge, looking up, finding my eyes. Looking not at Aysa, who interrupted him, but at me. “Is this not relevant to your ongoing investigation?”

He’s holding the book open with his palm, still looking at me. “Tell you what. I’ll skip ahead.”

“‘S. displayed her body in the doorway as if for my personal delectation, belied any dictums about the highest beauty being the product of the greatest delicacy. Her charm, the charm of S., was in her substance, her attractiveness a matter of superabundance and profusion. Tumbling yellow locks and a full flushed face, full lips parted around a red tongue, an admirable plumpness of breasts and of rear. Her body an inviting expanse, demanding circumnavigation.’”

“That’s enough,” Ms. Paige says, though it cannot be because she has realized what I have realized, that this is Silvie being conjured, Silvie that the judge is recalling with such rich pleasure. S. for Silvie. Silvie laughing at a suggestive joke, Silvie drifting as if by accident into his arms. The description is specific and precise, incontrovertible, slivers of weaponized truth. A husband, too, can be tragic.

“That’s enough,” says my partner again, but the judge does not stop, he reads on, sentences like wires that fall around Silvie and draw her into an empty bedroom. Lascivious, circling sentences that trace the lines of her body like fingertips.

I remember that damn party, somewhere in Silver Lake. Forty minutes in traffic to get there, the two of us sitting in stony silence all the way. I knew no one, wanted to meet no one. I left early, leaving Silvie to find a taxi home.

The judge remembers it too, he has it all written down, and he reads on, word after word: words that carefully unbutton the dress, words that reveal the pale wide flesh of belly and thighs, words that trace the silhouette shape of her waist, words that describe her hips and then clasp at the small of her back, traveling with the gauzy fuzz that climbs upward along her spine as it arches in abandonment.

I try to say something—I try to say “Stop,” I may even manage to say “Stop,” but he does not stop, he will not, his sentences gather steam and rhythm as he approaches the predictable climax of the paragraph, and then he is through, and he has made his monstrous point about the rings of truth, about context and omission: he has illustrated that no matter how much we know, there are parts of the story that are missing.

There are elements unknown and unknowable, whether we know it or not.

“Shall I go on?” he says, softly, daringly, wondering if I will take some dramatic action, smash into him with my fists, crash the crooked smile off his face.

“As I said earlier”—my voice is a coiled wire, my hands clutched into fists at my side—“we will take the book away and return it when we are through.”

“Very good.” He places the book on the desk, slides it toward me. “Enjoy.”

Paige reaches for the book as Judge Sampson drinks at last from the tumbler, grins sheepishly, opens his mouth, and vomits a long stream of blood, staggering forward and collapsing across the desk.

“What…” says Aysa, and I’m up from my chair, up and across the small room and catching him as he tumbles downward, forward, his eyes rolling back while blood is spurting and leaping out of his mouth, dark red mixed with yellow. He flings one hand out, grunting and snorting, and tries to steady himself on the desk, but he misses it entirely and goes toppling, headfirst, banging his forehead on its sharp wood corner. He’s dense in my arms and his front is covered with liquid, with the blood and bile that has exploded from his mouth. He passes, slippery, through my grip, shudders against my legs, and slams into the ground.

“What did you do?” I say to Judge Sampson, who is convulsing, his whole body shaking, his features swiftly going pale. I know what he did. I get down on the ground beside him and try to arrange him so that he’s sitting up, so he can’t choke on his vomit, but he’s dying before I can do anything. A second wash of blood and gore comes channeling up from his guts and rushes from his mouth.

Paige, somewhere in the corner of my vision, has thrown open the door of the chambers and is shouting to the bailiff posted outside.

“Call the regular police,” she tells him, and he shouts, “What did you do? What have you done?”

“Just call them!”

He is craning his neck to see past her, trying to see in, seeing me and the ruined body of the judge, the two of us like drunk lovers on the ground. “Your honor?” the bailiff says.

I’m covered in Judge Sampson’s blood, my tie dangling over his spit-stained chin and cheeks.

“Call them!” shouts Paige.

The rest is a fog of red, of shapes rushing within it. A swell of noise from outside on Grand Avenue, a clatter of footfalls and shouts.

Me and Paige are outside chambers, instructed to wait by a regular policeman with his sleeves rolled up. We are seated on a hard-backed bench, side by side.

In my mind, the judge vomits blood and pinwheels down toward the carpet, and then again, and again. Reality cued and re-cued.

He is dying and he is in the kitchen at a party in Silver Lake, leaning in the doorframe after I have gone, and he’s sharing a joke with my wife. Ex-wife.

The courtroom has been emptied of litigants and lawyers, and they bustle about in the hallway, curious, reluctant to leave such excitement.

Ms. Paige has her Day Book out and she’s organizing her thoughts, trying to piece together what we have learned. I am slumped, hollow, staring straight ahead. There is a pane of frosted glass inset in the dead center of the chamber door, and I stare at the glass, finding abstracted patterns.

This is what the world is, I’m thinking as the busy incident aftermath rushes around me, police and ambulance personnel, archivists, and documentarians. One explosion after another, the Earth opening up again and again, sending out gouts of loose dirt, covering us up.

I am exhausted, but Aysa does not stop. She can’t. Aysa has her Day Book out and she has the judge’s blood-splattered Night Book out too, between us on the bench. Aysa has already apologized for letting herself be distracted by the verdict on Ms. Wells; apologized and then moved swiftly on. Aysa focuses on the work. Aysa carries on, puzzling through her notes undeterred and undeterrable.

This is even though she, like me, is speckled with blood, dark droplets crusting on her forehead and on her neck. Even though we sit but feet from where his body still lies, awaiting the attentions of the regular police, of the medical examiner, the record officers who are angling around with their captures and their mics, forging this remarkable event into history. The coroners who will, when it’s all over, bear him away.

Regular police keep arriving at the scene, and there are now multiple capture teams on-site. We are being filmed even now, in our extremity, both of us smeared in gore.

We’ve already been interviewed, of course, and we’ll be interviewed again.

We are pursuing an anomalous death.

The judge may or may not have had relevant information…

We may never know…

“Okay, so,” says Aysa, flipping through her notes, forward and back, forward and back. “Here is what I don’t get. So the man is married. Okay. So he’s—he’s unfaithful.” She glances at me, a fleeting embarrassed wince. “He has affairs. Multiple affairs. Okay. So—but—”

I finish the thought, my voice empty and toneless. “But so what? Right? So what?”

“Right!” She nods slowly, twice. “Exactly.” A new cluster of cops swoop by, officious, belts jangling with their radios, a couple of boom ops close behind them.

“So what was the big risk here?” says Aysa. “That maybe he would, what? Lose his job, right?”

I shrug. “Perhaps.”

“Maybe she would lose her job? Tester, I mean.”

I shrug again.

“But still, to—” She shakes her head. “To drink poison. Okay, the Specs are here, we’re asking questions. Bad luck, yes. A guy dies on his roof, we start rooting around, find out he’s a bad husband. But it’s kind of—”

“An overreaction.”

“Yes.” She snaps her fingers. “Exactly. It’s just… small.”

“Yeah. Also…” I press my knuckles into my eyes. Trying to wake up. “Also, the man had poison to hand.”

“Right!” says Aysa. “Right! So why? Why? Why is he that worried about his affair with Tester being discovered? Unless that’s not what he was worried about. Maybe that’s what Tester was worried about. Maybe Sampson was worried about something else.”

“Huh,” I say, and I feel her waiting for me to say more, but I don’t.

She is dying for it. She wants the two of us to sit here on this cold bench, shoulder to shoulder, and close our eyes and be borne away by speculation. She wants us to sit here in the illuminating darkness and churn through the maybe so’s, fill the courtroom air with possibilities, test each for soundness, jump off from this platform to the next one.

But I’m in no mood for it. I’m in a kitchen doorway in Silver Lake, bearing witness to my own mortification. I’m trapped inside the judge’s cruel crocodile smile, feeling the jaws of his revealed truth snap closed around my neck. His blood and viscera are on my coat.

I am contemplating a thousand things I thought I knew and never did know.

I am watching him pitch around in circles, blood from his mouth like a sudden exclamation. In my head, his hands are on Silvie’s waist, just barely, the first time. Just the backs of his hands.

My personal and professional existence is built on the idea that everything can be known, that everything must be known, and now here I am, on a bench outside judge’s chambers, and I’m on a green glider in Mar Vista pierced by understanding that nothing can be known at all. Something has opened up inside me that never can be closed.

Aysa beside me lifts the judge’s Night Book. The cover is misted with blood, the pages are gummed together. Carefully she begins to unstick them, page by page.

In spite of myself, I am curious. I am interested.

“Is the rest of the Night Book like the part he read?”

She nods. “Yeah. Pretty much it is.”

She scans sections, murmurs a line or two aloud to me. It’s all lust. It’s all sex and the desire for sex, the delicate small observations and sudden fierce movements that are prelude, the altered locutions and idiosyncratic motions that define the event itself. There are Night Books that overflow with sedition, with epistemological heresy or criminal confession, but this, it seems, was the only form of proscribed detail the judge thought worthy of preserving; he took pride in the full truth of his ability as a seducer, and he felt that the Record, the complete archive of the truth of the world, would be incomplete if it did not include them. His personal history of conquest and debauch, organized by name. “Stole away with J after court.” “Brought L back to chambers for a frank discussion, which led down the hoped-for path.”

Aysa carefully peels the blood-gummed pages from each other, until she finds it—

“Here,” she says. She holds it up. “E. E for Elena?”

I shrug. I nod. “E for Elena.”

“Whoa.”

“What?”

She holds out the open book to me. My body is moving on its own, hand opening on its own. She puts the Night Book in my flat palms and I stare at the words, looking through eyes rimmed with blood. “Again I find myself with E,” it says at the top of the page, in the judge’s precise cursive—followed by nothing. Or, rather, followed by nothing that once was something.

After “Again I find myself with E,” there is inky blackness, lines and lines of it. Sentences that have been crossed out, blacked over, comprehensively redacted.

Aysa leans in eagerly, her knees jiggling with excitement, as I turn over pages. Two pages, three pages, four. Whatever happened between the judge and this Ms. E, it has been neatly and comprehensive excised from his Night Book.

What has the man made hidden, even in his book of hidden truths? Too secret to be told, even to himself?

Aysa, meanwhile, has returned to her own Day Book, and she is tapping it, nodding, glancing back and forth between the judge’s book and her own.

“It’s the same days,” she announces.

“What?” I close Sampson’s book, lift my fingers from its tacky hide.

“The date range, sir. Laszlo, the dates are the same.”

She holds up her Day Book, hands it to me so I can read the notes she made in Dolly Aster’s basement, and I two-step verify them in my own. The entry that begins “Again I find myself with E” falls exactly among Mose Crane’s missing days.

I breathe in and then out again. It’s like my blood froze when Sampson did what he did and now it is flowing again—not flowing but racing, rushing.

“Ms. Paige. Do you have your radio?”

“Of course.”

“Do me a favor, will you? Can you raise Alvaro?”

“Why?”

“Just raise him for me. Raise him.”

We’d driven in angry silence all the way to Silver Lake. That night. Silvie and me.

Forty minutes of cold silence because of some offhand idiot remark I’d made in our driveway, on the way to the car.

I’ve made my way outside now and I’m standing on the courthouse steps, blinking in the sunlight like a bear emerged from his cavern. I’m waiting for Aysa to raise Alvaro so our next step can be ratified. Meanwhile I’m smoking a cigarette and staring at the dirty steps and trying to move forward, to beat back the past. Gather my spirit and forge it into something strong.

Silvie was beautiful that night: a gold dress with small pearl buttons; earrings and heels; a ceramic butterfly clip lifting her hair into a crown. Silvie was in an expansive mood. She stopped me in the driveway, seized me by the elbow, and pointed at the sky.

The stars were just coming out, and she told me that they were diamonds.

“And you see those three—those ones there?” She was holding a bottle of red wine by its slender neck. I had the keys. “That’s a necklace. A pretty diamond necklace like the one you’ve never bought me.”

She laughed, making sure I knew she was joking, but I couldn’t even muster a smile.

“The stars are like diamonds,” I said.

Obviously she wasn’t lying; obviously she wasn’t purposefully misrepresenting the nature of the stars. She was enjoying the feeling of the twilight sky, the sturdy feeling of her hand on my arm. She was feeling good, feeling gentle, sharing a plain metaphor with her man. But something in me wasn’t in the mood. I had had a hard day at work, trudging through a world thrumming with lies. I was feeling small, miserable, literal.

“The stars. They’re not diamonds, Sil. They’re masses of hydrogen and helium, millions of miles wide and millions of miles away.”

“Well, yeah,” she said. “I know.”

She took her hand off my arm. We drove across town in silence. I left the party early and on my own.

Now Ms. Paige finds me, out on the street. She is holding up her radio. An archivist trails her, and a capturer trails the archivist, her capture bobbling on her shoulder. Ms. Paige holds up the radio. “I’ve got Alvaro.”

Paige watches me curiously while I talk to our boss.

“Quite a day you’re having, Laszlo.”

“Yeah.” I take the last long drag of my cigarette and stub it out. “I know. Listen. I need you to set something up for me.”

“What is it?”

“You’re not going to like it.”

“I don’t like anything. Might as well ask.”

16.

There are aspects of the physical city that can be seen but not fully understood: visible etherealities, manifestations of a time buried under present time. Like there’s this one building on West Adams, near a hoagie place I like, a soaring construction of heavy gray stone with elaborate stained-glass windows and long, low steps that lead up to wide, tall doors. It’s a State site, accessible only to authorized personnel, in which files damaged by fire or flood or other emergency are carefully reconstructed by experts and archivists. If the building with the stained-glass windows used to be something else, it is nothing else now. It holds its past but holds it in secrecy, unknown and unknowable.

It’s like the sign up in the Hills, up at the crest of Mount Lee. You can just about make it out from where are now, idling at the Gower Street Gate, waiting for the man in the guard house to come over and check us in. Nine tall white letters on the side of a hill, spelling a word that if it meant something to somebody once, means nothing to anyone now. Nothing that can be known.

“Good morning.”

“Good morning, sir. My name is Laszlo Ratesic, age fifty-four, and I’m a nineteen-year veteran of the Speculative Service. The square of the hypotenuse of a right triangle is equal to the sums of the squares of the other two sides.”

“Good morning. Pi represents the ratio of the circumference of a circle to its diameter.”

“My name is Aysa Paige, age twenty-four and a two-day veteran of the Speculative Service.”

“Did she say two days?”

“She did.”

The gate man peers past me at Aysa in the shotgun seat and grunts. “Huh.”

I’m impatient. I’m ready to go. “We need to see Laura Petras, Our Acknowledged Expert on the Enforcement of the Laws.”

“You have an appointment?”

“No,” I say, and add hurriedly, “but I believe my supervising officer called over. Mr. Luis Alvaro?”

The gate-arm man looks skeptical. Like, what? I’m going to lie?

“Give me a moment, sir,” he says, and retreats into his little house and picks up his radio.

While we wait, while the guard checks our identifications, while he checks his call log, while Aysa looks through the windshield at her first view of the vast complex that contains our collected Expertise, I happen to turn my head at just the right moment to see the Dirty Dog food truck as it cruises through the green light at Gower and Waring, the intriguing black hot dog–shaped truck with the pink piping, and I allow myself the fleeting fantasy of leaving Aysa to her own devices for this next phase of our investigation. How pleasant it would be to leap from the driver’s seat, chase the truck down the street, and then, once I have caught it, sit on a bench and eat a works with cheese, watching seagulls circle the sky.

From his little booth, the guard hands us back our identifications and the gate arm goes up.

“Okay.” The guard is squinting at us. “You folks know where you’re going?”

“Not really,” I say, and he hands us a folded-up paper map, which Aysa takes and unfolds.

“When you’re done, you gotta come out by this same gate,” he says finally, and I nod.

“Okay.”

“Did you hear me?” he says, like I didn’t answer. “Same gate.”

The complex is enormous, and I haven’t been here in a long time. Aysa holds the map and calls out directions. We drive past long low buildings with flat tar roofs, painted on their sides with various of the State’s mottos. Pedestrian walkways snake between the buildings, each marked with its department: Expertise in Transportation and Infrastructure, Expertise in Commerce and Trade, in Monetary Policy, in Agriculture. Each of the little bungalows houses the offices of a different Expert.

Dotted across the lawns that separate the buildings are cafés, kiosks, and small fountains, each a miniature version of the one in the Plaza downtown. The whole campus is organized around the water tower, seven stories high, painted brightly with the Bear and Stars, and which can be seen from anywhere on the campus—and which, on a clear day, you can see for blocks all around. It’s almost always a clear day.

It’s all old. From before. This place, its walkways and bungalows, its sprawling open spaces and its water tower—it all is and it is all built on something that was. And if your mind wants to wonder what it was, what was here before this was here, you remember to understand that it is not known and not knowable, and you let the thought drift across your mind and then away and soon enough you turn one last corner and find the building you were looking for.

We pull up outside Building 6892, the Enforcement of the Laws. It’s a modest two-story bungalow, the same as all the others, the same flat sandstone and painted doors, wooden staircases at either end of the building connecting upstairs and down.

Before we get out of the car I put a warning hand on Paige’s arm. “Okay, Ms. Paige. I’m going to do the talking here, okay?”

“Yes, sir.”

“We are going to get the information we need, and we are going to get out of there. These people do not fuck around.”

“Absolutely, sir.”

She smiles. I smile. I don’t believe her for a second. I mean, I do—she’s not lying. She really believes she is capable of playing this situation straight. But she would have said the same thing outside the judge’s chambers, but then she couldn’t do it: she couldn’t hold her tongue. She is what she is. Even now it is rising up in her, and when the moment comes she will be unable to help herself.

I run a hand through my hair, tilt the pinhole down to shade my eyes, and ring the bell.

“It is my understanding that you do not have an appointment?”

“That’s correct. My boss called your office about half an hour ago.”

“Normally we don’t take any visitors who do not have an appointment.”

“I understand that, ma’am.”

Our Acknowledged Expert on the Enforcement of the Laws looks exactly like her photograph. The bland, unlined face and short neat hair, the probing and studious expression. The office is orderly, lined with filing cabinets and bookshelves, a ceiling fan turning mutely overhead. There is one staff member in the corner, a man in a pressed gray suit at a desk covered in notebooks.

“Obviously this office respects the crucial work of the Speculative Service, and we are therefore willing to provide any aspects of our Expertise that might be useful to the reconciliation of any anomaly.”

“Thank you, ma’am.”

“Having said that, and I apologize if there was a miscommunication in this regard, but the appropriate protocol requires you to put any such requests in writing and submit them to your supervisor, who would be—”

She pauses, eyebrows raised.

“Mr. Alvaro,” I say.

“Yes, at which point Mr. Alvaro would file a formal request for discussion, which would then be reviewed by myself or by my staff.” Ms. Petras angles her chin to the corner, where the man in his gray suit sits at his desk. Presumably there are more staff behind the inner-office door to his right. “They will then coordinate with… I do apologize.”

“Mr. Alvaro.”

“Right, to find the appropriate venue and time for us to provide our Expertise.”

“Right. That’s not going to work.”

She blinks. “And why is that?”

“We’re not here to take advantage of your Expertise.”

Petras’s brow furrows. She steeples her manicured fingers on the desk in front of her. I’m standing with my hands behind my back, with Aysa at my side in the same posture. I think I’ve cleaned all the blood off my face. I swapped my jacket for the backup I keep in the trunk of the car, but there wasn’t much I could do about my shirt.

“Oh no?” says Petras finally, tilting her head.

“No. The anomaly we are investigating—anomalies at this point, actually—intersects with this office.” She waits, her expression placid and indecipherable. “You might have relevant information, is what I mean.”

“Me, personally?”

“Yes. You or your office.”

The staffer, in his corner, continues writing. His desk is a slightly smaller version of his boss’s, angled upward like a drafting table. There are four notebooks open on the desk, one at each corner, and he writes constantly, shifting from book to book according to some system known only to him.

“You are here for a point of information,” says Petras.

“Possibly several,” I say.

She looks again to her staffer in his suit and he writes something in one of his notebooks and tears it free and walks it swiftly over to her. The wall behind them is lined with metal cabinets, arranged in stacks from floor to ceiling, an archive of documents and filings and transcripts. The Provisional Record of her department’s work. Directly behind Petras is a tall shelf weighted with volumes of procedure: the protocols of the court systems, the rules regulating the regular police and the Speculative Service. Statistical manuals, sentencing guidelines, treatises on ballistics and recidivism and forensics. All the areas of her Expertise.

Petras unfolds the slip of paper that her assistant has handed her. “Very good,” she says to him, and turns to us. “We are able to grant you three and a half minutes.” There is a clock behind her on the wall, above the filing cabinets, and another clock behind us, on the facing wall. “That time begins right now.”

I nod. “Thank you, ma’am. We’re here to ask about a judge.”

She frowns. “Mr. Speculator, this office is responsible for the conduct and caseloads of just over three hundred and fifty sitting judges, on a wide variety of courts, from the Court of Small Infelicities to Grave Assaults on the Objectively So. That is in addition to our oversight of the regular courts, meaning everything from traffic infractions—”

“Sampson,” says Ms. Paige. I give her a look, which she ignores. “Judge Barney Sampson. Does that sound familiar?”

“It—yes,” says Petras, and a swift-moving cloud of anxiety passes across her brow. I think it does. I watch it come and go, I see it, but as soon as it is gone I cannot be sure I saw it at all. Something has opened up in me that will not close. I shake my head to clear it, clench my teeth, and focus. The staffer in the corner, meanwhile, rises silently and brings the Expert a new scrap of paper, which she unfolds and reads.

“His court is in Aberrant Neural Phenomena, on Grand Avenue? Is that correct?”

“Yeah,” I say.

“Earlier today—” says Ms. Paige, but I hold up my hand and she stops. If Petras has not yet heard about Sampson’s death, we don’t need to be the ones to fill her in. Not yet, anyway.

“Mr. Doonan?” Petras turns her head slightly toward the man in the corner. “Would you draw the judge’s file, please?”

“Of course.” Mr. Doonan rises and moves along the back wall of the office, brisk and efficient.

“Our line of inquiry,” I add warningly, “may touch on very sensitive matters. You may feel most comfortable speaking alone.”

Petras shakes her head tightly. “Mr. Doonan is my executive assistant.” He has found the file, and he hands it to her without looking at us or otherwise acknowledging that he is being discussed. “I cannot imagine there is anything you need to ask me to which he could not or should not be privy. Do you know the idiom ‘He is my right hand’?”

“Yes, ma’am.”

“He is my right hand.”

Mr. Doonan sits again, his expression unchanged. His eyes are gray like his suit, giving him a kind of hazy, indistinctly distinguished look. He resumes writing in his notebooks.

I watch the clock over Petras’s head. I talk as quickly as I can. “In the course of pursuing a seemingly unrelated anomaly, we discovered that Judge Sampson was involved in an extramarital affair. Our speculation led us to believe that an individual had gained knowledge of this affair and was interested in blackmailing the judge regarding this affair. Or—” I stumble, not certain how to frame it. Not certain even of what I know. As Petras’s eyes remain on me, cool and evaluating, I am treading out onto thinner and thinner ice. “Or potentially over other improprieties.”

“You need to know if we know anything.”

“Yes.”

“About any improprieties.”

“That’s right.”

She regards me quietly, weighing my heft with her Expert’s eyes. Doonan, in his corner, stays busy with his papers, clipping and unclipping his binders. Making a performance of not paying attention, making of himself a capture, inconspicuous but active, noiseless in his gray suit, gathering every word.

“Mr. Doonan?” Petras says. “Would you come here for just a moment?” He walks quickly over, waits for the half instant it takes Petras to write something on a piece of paper, reads it and tucks it away in a pocket while he returns to his corner.

Petras looks at me. The clock behind her has swallowed up half our time.

“It strikes me that you’ve done an awful lot of speculation, based on an awfully small number of facts.”

“I’m—excuse me, ma’am?”

Doonan at his desk switches from one notebook to another. I fold my arms.

“I am not here to have my work evaluated, ma’am.”

“And neither will I be instructed in how to entertain your presence. You are here. Here you are.” Her tone is elevated now; she has brought her authority into her voice. “And my position requires me to observe that I am not convinced this investigation is carefully built on the facts as they exist.”

“Listen. Look.” I take a step toward her, feeling a new sheen of sweat at my hairline, a new consciousness of my great bulk in the polished interior of this office. “All I need to know is what that judge was up to.”

“Then you would have to ask him.”

“Well, see, I can’t do that. He’s dead.”

There it is again: a flutter of emotion at her brow, a fleeting grief of awareness. This time I am sure I see it, long enough to know it for what it is, and to wonder what it means. Ms. Petras looks at me accusingly across the desk. “You might have begun with that information.”

I shrug, conceding the point. I’m waiting for the obvious next question, and when she doesn’t ask I tell her anyway.

“He did it himself. Drank poison.”

“When?”

“Today. Earlier today.”

I see it again, like it’s happening now, in front of me. Blood leaping from his throat like a living thing, his arms flailing forward, body spinning. Doonan closes one of his notebooks and slides it off his desk. For an instant I see a red cover on the notebook, an unfamiliar gold logo. He has the book under his arm as he rises.

“Remind me, Mr. Speculator,” says Petras. “What is the inciting anomaly at issue?”

“Pardon me, ma’am?”

“You have come here regarding Judge Sampson. But the original investigation began elsewhere?”

“Yes.”

“And what was that matter?”

Maybe if the day had begun differently. Maybe if I wasn’t standing here with the judge’s blood on my shirtfront, with his memory of Silvie blazoned on my mind.

“I understand your authority, ma’am, but I am here to ask you questions and not the other way around.”

She holds my gaze for a moment, another one, and then directs herself to my partner.

“What is your name, young lady?”

“Ms. Aysa Paige, ma’am.”

“Ms. Paige, two and four are even numbers.”

“One and three are not.”

“What is the original anomaly you and your partner are after?”

“Ma’am? I—I would have to—to respect Mr. Ratesic’s authority, as far as discussing our investigation.”

Our Acknowledged Expert does not rise from her desk. She barely moves, in fact. her head. She speaks very carefully, putting each new word precisely in its place.

“Ms. Paige, my office would be happy to make available to you a laminated copy of the chain of command of the law enforcement divisions of the Golden State, including the position of the Speculative Service, in which you serve, relative to this office, and at the head of which I sit. I am asking you a direct question with a simple answer.”

Paige looks at me. I look at the ground.

“We are investigating anomalous circumstances relating to a death,” she says.

“Death of whom?”

“Crane, ma’am. A man named Mose Crane.”

“Foul play?”

“No.”

“Merely anomalous? Potentially?”

“That is—right. Correct.”

“Where?”

Aysa’s answers are coming quickly now, either out of deference or fear or some combination of the two.

“On Vermont Avenue. At Judge Sampson’s home, ma’am.”

“Ah,” says Petras, and she tilts her head up and thinks. “Ah.”

Mr. Doonan softly shuts the door, returning from the inner office. I don’t recall seeing him leave. He passes a note to Petras, who writes on it and passes it back.

“Madam Expert,” I begin, and Doonan stops me, pointing at the clock.

“Mr. and Ms. Speculator,” he says blandly, “your time has elapsed.” I don’t move. Aysa doesn’t move. Doonan steps between us and Ms. Petras, drawing his suit coat together and buttoning it like he’s closing a door. “The Expert is a busy woman, as you know, and your allotted time has long since elapsed.”

“Sit down,” Ms. Paige tells him.

“Respectfully, miss,” Doonan begins, and Paige says, “I said sit the fuck down,” and I hope she knows I love her—not with some goony-eyed romantic love but with the fierce, true love of respect. One Speculator to another. I love Ms. Paige fierce and true and I will love her forever.

“Have a seat, Mr. Doonan,” says Petras, and he does. She places her hands over her eyes, and when she removes them all of the tension is gone from her face. She smiles pleasantly, robotically, as if we are here after all to seek her wise counsel, to ask about appropriate strategies for sentencing or community policing.

“As you may be aware, Mr. Speculator,” Petras begins, “we on the committee have certain prerogatives regarding matters of epistemological certainty.”

“What?”

This is off topic. I don’t know what this is, but I don’t like it.

“That is, the State has vested in me the power to determine, under certain circumstances, when matters can be deemed inscrutable. Impossible to be weighed as true or not true, and therefore dangerous.”

She gives me her bland smile. I know what she means, the ultimate power of the State, the authority to designate things as unknown and unknowable, beyond the reach of speculation. But I don’t see what that has to do with this—until I do.

“Wait.”

“Mr. Doonan would be happy to provide you with documentation of the statutory authority to which I refer.”

I see it now—the danger that has entered the room in the slipstream of her murmuring tone.

“Ms. Petras, hold on.”

“Upon review of the case currently under discussion—”

“You haven’t reviewed it. You—”

“—my office is taking the official step of declaring the matter of the death of Mose Crane—”

She is just reeling it off, chapter and verse, reciting it like Arlo would, except not to flaunt her knowledge of the Basic Law but to build it as a wall.

“Hold on.”

The trap was not clear until it was too late—the ground did not shift until I stepped onto it. Oh. Oh shit.

“—as unknown and unknowable.”

“Laszlo?” says Aysa, confused, uncertain. Mr. Doonan is still writing. There are three notebooks on his desk now, just the three. Outside the window of the bungalow, carts putter past, important people going from one important place to another, clutching folders bulging with important papers.

I have been carrying around the small light of my investigation, like a man cupping a candle under his palms, hoping for it to stay lit, and instead I’ve brought it to the one person with the power to snuff it out between two fingers. I don’t even look at Ms. Paige right now. I can’t. I can’t bear to watch her realize what I’ve done. What an idiot I am.

“I declare the truth of the death of Mose Crane, and all matters flowing therefrom, to be unknowable.” She nods at Doonan, who nods back at her. He is writing in his Day Book, a big silver number with silver-edged pages. The captures are rolling. It’s all being lost, before my eyes. “All relevant truth that can be collected has been collected,” she says.

“No,” I say. “It hasn’t.”

“Well.” She stands, and holds out her hand. “It has been, though. And let me add, finally, also, on behalf of the Golden State: thank you for your efforts in this matter.”

It is the end of the conversation. She holds out her pad for me to stamp, and I stamp it, and Paige stamps it too. Too late I have figured it out, too late to draw the line that I should have drawn already.

E is not for Elena at all. E is for Expert.

“Okay,” says Petras brightly, as if we’ve just come in. “Was there anything else I can help you folks with today?”

17.

Everybody keeps everything. Archiving is a bulwark. You do it. I do it. We have to do it.

I do it now, down in the crawl space beneath my small house, I unpack all of the flat facts I’ve collected, my whole paper trail of the day that was, a day’s worth of living. Conversation stamps and stamps of presence, the receipt from passing through the gate arm at the administrative campus, the receipt for every cup of coffee and donut consumed, the record of my interrogation by the regular police in the hallway outside Judge Sampson’s chambers. The slip of stamped paper I was handed on the seventh floor of the Service building, when we turned over Sampson’s Night Book to evidence processing.

I tear today’s pages of notes clean from my Day Book, one at a time, careful to leave the carbons in place.

My motions are deliberate, slow, careful. I have performed this ritual many times. Once for every day of my adulthood. Those notes relating to the death I was investigating and am not investigating any longer I fold in half, and then fold in half again, make of them a small hard square, a stiff packet with four sharp corners, and this I slide last into the bag and seal it. Mose Crane is dead, but his death is not an event for me. It is gone from my mind.

When I’m done, I don’t get up. I stare at my boxes, tempted to start opening things up. I could just sit here for a while, rummaging through years gone by, digging up scraps of the past for consideration. People do it. I have done it. Sort through the past, seek out certain incidents, key days, fragments of memory, spread them out on the ground and then sweep them all together and put them all back, stamp the bags “Unsealed and resealed,” waste hours in reflection, self-abasement, and recrimination. There are people who fall down that rabbit hole and never come up.

Not me. Not tonight.

I rise stiffly, keeping my body very still, wriggle back out of the crawl space, and walk slowly back up the stairs.

“Fuck.”

I find my face in the mirror, in the darkness of my empty house. Silvie took a lot of the furniture when she left, but this standing mirror is still here, by the front door, leaning against the wall. “It might be fun to look at yourself in the morning sometimes,” she used to say. “Before you leave the house.”

There is blood still on my forehead, up by my hairline, at the level of the roots. Blood still in my eyebrows, small flecks like red dust.

I pass through the kitchen into the bedroom, peeling off the rest of my clothes as I go. Coat and pants, shirt and tie.

I knew a one-legged policeman once. When I was still on the regular force, before I followed my brother’s lead and drifted into Service. His name was Rafael, and we used to drink together, after shift, at a bar on Grand Avenue north of downtown. He lost the leg, he told me, when he was a teenager, but he could still feel it. “Sometimes I swear I could touch it. Sometimes I swear if I look away, and look back—” He was pretty drunk. I was drunk too. He never told anyone, he said, about how he still felt like the leg was there. “Please, Laz, please don’t tell anyone. They’ll jack me up on that shit,” he whispered, beery breath in my ear. It was late at night, just taxis on the street outside. “On that Clarify. They’ll kick me the fuck over the wall.”

He still felt the leg and he liked to feel it. He liked to believe that it was real.

I will miss my case but my case is gone.

I stumble into the bathroom and piss and splash water on my face.

I come out into the bedroom and see a dark shape in the greater darkness of my unmade bed. Nested like a dead animal in the mass of rumpled sheets.

A book. The book. Still in the cover that calls it The Everyday Citizens Dictionary, but I know what it is, I can see its true face through the mask. The Prisoner: A Novel. By Benjamin Wish. It’s on my bed.

What the fuck?

It is open, facedown, spine bent, pages riffled, like a bird shot out of the sky.

It’s impossible, of course. It’s fucking impossible.

Because I jammed the book into the dresser this morning. Didn’t I? I did. I think back, throw my mind out backward, like feeling behind you in the darkness. This morning. To the diner, to the office, Kelly Tarjin begging me for help, Silvie at the Record, the day replaying itself, but I know—I know—I know that book was in the dresser when I left.

It sings to me.

From the bed, it is singing.

I can hear it singing.

I left it in a drawer. Didn’t I? I did. I know that I—

“No,” the voice sings, the visiting voice. “You—”

I clutch at the side of my head. I’m in my T-shirt and underpants, alone in this room except that I’m on the Record. In this room there are three captures: above the door, on the floor lamp, on the ceiling fan. It’s just lucky the jacket is still on the book, but if someone was in here—if someone came in—

No one came in.

I am staring at the book, and I take a step toward it.

I want you. The thought dances to life. Like a stranger, a visitor, a visiting voice.

I turn my back on it.

I take my weapon out of the bedside table and perform a careful circuit, room by room. I am seeking an intruder, but as I move slowly through the house, I begin to feel like I am the intruder myself, stalking through the handful of rooms in my little house and seeing each one anew. I can picture myself, as if from above, a dark figure, moving in shadow.

I don’t find anything. In the kitchen, my juice glass is still on the kitchen counter, lightly stuck in the place where I left it, and my plate is in the sink. The light is on in the bathroom. My pile of last night’s dirty clothes is still in the laundry room. I peer out each of the house’s handful of windows, checking for signs of entry. I crane my head up and down the street. Across the street is a wide field planted with lima beans and lettuces. Down the slope from my backyard is a four-lane road, and across the road is a vast field planted with avocado.

It doesn’t matter how long I look: I won’t find anything. Nobody’s been here. The front door was undisturbed and no one has a key, and who would break in and take nothing, disturb nothing, only take out a book and not even take it—just take it out and leave it open on the bed?

No one. No one would do that.

So I return to the bedroom living in two realities at once—We always are, aren’t we, despite all our efforts we are—believing and not believing that someone was or is in the house with me, knowing and not knowing that I am alone with The Prisoner: A Novel.

I know exactly what it wants. It wants me to read it. That can’t be so, of course, because it is an inanimate object, possessing no impulses or desires of its own. The book does not carry intentionality. It simply is, but there it is, having somehow crawled from my drawer and thrown itself open on the bed, willful and desperate for attention.

I grab my head with both hands, press my flattened palms to my temples like I am trying to keep my head from toppling off, and growl.

What the book wants is for me to read it, and I want that too. I want it very badly.

I should go to the fridge and find a beer and drink it, maybe drink another one. I should turn on my wall-mounted and watch some stream, any stream, fucking “Slipping on Sidewalk Cracks” or “Old Men Walking Dogs.” Anything. I should brush my teeth and wash the blood from my hair, and fall into bed like a tree, get up in the morning, and see what Alvaro has written on the board for me to pursue.

Yes, there was a case at 3737 Vermont Avenue, there was a dead man on the ground at that address, there were certain associated anomalies, but all of that is gone now. That matter is unknown and unknowable, and that is a part of the job—it is part of living in the world. There are certain things that cannot be known and can never be known, and this must be accepted, our safety and our future depend upon it, and I am trying to bear it and depend upon it, and it is like knives, it is like holding the blades of knives.

Charlie could have done it. Charlie would have outsmarted them before he could be outsmarted, Charlie would have sensed the maneuverings of the gray man in the corner, seen the wall the Expert was building and tunneled under it, flown over it. Charlie would have come back laughing with the whole truth and nothing but, dangling from his clenched fist like a monster’s severed head.

Every time I close my eyes my body hums for solace, and every time I open them I see the novel lying on the bed.

I put down my weapon. I pick up the book. I need it.

I start at page one.

That’s how it starts, page one, the page after the title page. A lawyer in his office, morose and deflated, visited by a needful stranger, and already I can feel its claws in me, the claws of its questions: Who is the lawyer and who is the woman, what is their past and future—

I put the fucking thing down. I put it down on the edge of the bed and then I pick it up again and throw it against the wall.

I stand up and grit my teeth and stare out the window at the sleeping city. The tops of palm trees, the distant movement of brake lights. Reality all around me.

I know what is going to happen already, I can feel it happening. I have been warned of this my whole life. We all have—I have and you have. I have spent my whole life protecting against alternate realities, and now this one is like an injection, it is like pushing poison directly into my veins, and I can’t stand it, I can’t allow this to happen, but then I yell “Fuck!” and I storm across the room and grab the book with greedy fingers and find the page I was on and start to read again.

The Prisoner is the story of a boy who becomes gravely ill after a botched surgery, and it’s about his family, which is desperate for his recovery, desperate and scared and sad, and it’s about the lawyer that they hire—that’s the lawyer from the opening passage—his name is Shenk, and he is a sad and furious man when we meet him but then we understand in time that he wasn’t always that way, it was this case, this broken boy who made him so, and it’s about the boy himself, who lies for most of the story in silence, in a vegetative state on a hospital bed with some sort of mysterious alien life moving inside him—that’s the part I saw yesterday, the section I already read, the part I glanced at grudgingly in my office yesterday, the part the book was opened to. I charge on, I read and read. It’s all happening in a city called Los Angeles, within a state called California, which is related somehow to the Golden State, bearing some similarities in the detailing, in weather and geography and here and there in street names, landmarks—which is disquieting and yet mesmerizing and the thing about the book is that none of it is true, nothing is confirmed or certain. The book speaks in the voice of various of its characters, and each of them—the lawyer, the boy’s father and his mother, the doctor—has an opinion about what must have happened, each of them marching around shaking their own version like a fist, and so it is a riot of subjectivities, a violence of truths, and the fuck of it is—is that as I read I am beginning to cry, tears rolling hot down my heavy cheeks and disappearing into my beard because I do not understand this—

And then I feel like I do understand it, what it means, of course I do, but I can’t think about it, it doesn’t bear consideration, it—

The world as I have understood it is slipping out from under me and I ought to stop but I can’t. I can’t stop. I keep reading and as I read the book settles down over me, it becomes reality as I read it, the air becomes fuzzed, to the point that when I look up it is like the reality of my room is less real than the reality inside the book.

I read it for hours, curled forward over the small artifact of the book, sitting on the wood floor of my house, feeling the real world under my ass, leaning against the wall and feeling the real world of drywall and plaster against my back, and this extraordinary struggle plays out inside the boy, but really the novel revolves around the people outside him, who have no idea what’s going on, just as I, reading it, have no idea really what is going on, and I want to know what is real even though I know that none of it is real, that a novel is just a book of lies, a bundle of falsehoods like sticks lashed together with sentences for wires, the boy invaded by alien intelligence and the doctor drinking himself sick over his failure and the father seeking his own truths in this maddening truth-diffusing system of systems called the Internet, and I can feel all of this non-sense, all of this not-true, it’s all watering my eyes and itching my throat, burning me down from the inside, and still I can’t stop—

I am approaching the end of the book, and the father and the doctor and the lawyer are converging in a different city, a vacation city, an impossible city, in hopes of finding a cure. This city, Las Vegas, is described as a place where, as the lawyer keeps saying, “Gambles sometimes pay off.” And as I read, as I travel along with the people who love the boy, Wesley Keener, on their wild-eyed mission, barreling in an old car through the heat of what feels like an endless desert in search of this mirage of hope in this place Las Vegas, which cannot be real, I am as close as I have ever been to understanding what happened—what really happened—what laid us low—what cut the Golden State adrift and cloistered in its own truth at the edge of the world, as close as I have ever been to the old world that left us or we left, and it is like I am driving in a car through the desert toward the inscrutable past—

Toward the truth—

I read to the end, faster and faster, I can’t stop, I keep reading, pushing forward through this dream of something that is Not So and never has been, and by the time I reach the final pages, however many hours later, I am curled up beside my bed as if in hiding from the world outside, hiding from the Moon, my back against the wall and my knees curled up against my chest. I am reading the end pages and not wanting it to end, I am shaking, my body in full revolt against all my manly efforts to hold it still.

Later on—much later, I don’t know how much later—there’s a noise.

I roll over and raise my head, confused and weary. Baffled. I am, it appears, on the ground. I am on the floor, with the book beside me. I don’t know where I am. I don’t know how much later it is.

But then the noise, again. Something crashing against something else. It has a texture to it, a wooden thump.

I moan. I’m in a hospital bed.

I am an unconscious child.

I’m on the floor and the book is nearby, closed and angled away, its spine turned away from mine, like we are lovers who’ve quarreled in the night. False reality is clinging to me like the dust of an old world, gritty at the corners of my mind.

My family is clustered around my bed, consumed with worry.

I shake it away. I stand, slowly, and brush myself off, wiping bits of falsehood off my chest and my arms.

It’s knocking, that’s all. Someone is knocking at the door.

The Moon hangs like a lamp outside the window, giving a grudging half-yellow light. I don’t like the sound of the knocking. I find my gun and chamber a round. I get up, slow and deliberate, and, holding the gun in front of me, I walk to the door.

The pounding continues.

The doctor is at the door, here to lay scorn on my desperation to find a cure for my son, my sad need to pick and choose my own truth.

The boy himself is at the door, Wesley Keener, up and about at last, back from the dead.

Come on, Laszlo. Come on. Get it the fuck together.

“Who is it?” I stand away from the door, gun drawn but not aimed, just like I learned in the academy.

“It’s me. Mr. Ratesic? Laszlo. It’s me.”

I keep my weapon out, but I look through the peephole and there’s my trainee, out of her blacks, in jeans and a T-shirt, no pinhole, hair pulled back and tied, looking up into the door’s eye with raw urgency on her young face.

I glance back into my bedroom, the sliver visible through the door. The novel just out of sight. And I think, what have I done?

18.

“Okay,” says Aysa, breathing heavily, nodding her head, gathering her thoughts. “Okay,” she says. “Okay. So. I went back to the office to finish reviewing it.”

“Reviewing what?”

“The stretches. Can I come in?”

“What stretches, Aysa, did you go back to finish review?”

“On Crane’s apartment. The stakeout stretches from Mose Crane’s apartment.”

She holds up her hand and a shiver cuts through me. She’s got one tight in her fist, a slim rectangle of silver plastic. She’s been back to the office, and not only did she review the stretch, she made an echo of it: she burned it and stuck it in her pocket and brought it here.

“You weren’t supposed to do that,” I say, glancing up at the doorway capture, and I’m trying to be stern but I fear I sound like a child, like a small, scared child. “You can’t have done that.”

Of course I could be talking to myself. The Prisoner is in the bedroom, still quietly singing. Its alternate truth is still glimmering in here, glossing the furniture, fogging my vision. If she’s broken the rules, then I certainly have too. When these stretches are played, when this reality is requisitioned, when this whole story enters the Record, it will be both of us who are found to have strayed.

“We were pulled from that case,” I tell Aysa. “That is not a case.”

“No, I know. Can I just come in? There’s something you need to see.”

“The State has determined this matter unknown and unknowable. We can’t look, Paige. There’s nothing there.”

“Well, Petras said so. But just because she says there’s no anomaly, that doesn’t mean there’s no anomaly.”

I’m stunned. I laugh. “Yes,” I tell Paige. “That’s exactly what it means. That’s literally what it means. Petras was speaking for the State.” The thing is determined. It is done. “We fucked it up.” Catch it. Correct it. “I did. I fucked it up. Investigation complete.”

She is shaking her head, gritting her teeth. She won’t accept it—she can’t. I wonder with a sudden horror whether Paige is sensing the presence of the novel in my house. She must be: with her discernment, her attention to falsehood, she must feel that it’s here. Is she being polite? Deferential to my superior rank? Or can it be that she is she so focused on the mission that brought her here, frantic in the dead of night, that she isn’t catching it?

“Can I just show this to you? Can I just tell you what I’m looking at here?”

“No.”

“Yes,” she says.

“Paige. No.”

“Yes.”

She doesn’t stamp her feet, but she might as well. She is like a defiant child, but somehow serious, more serious than me. She is more of a Spec than I have ever been, has more of whatever it is that puts a person in law enforcement—she has started and she can’t stop. She cannot leave it be and that is her truth, bone truth, deep true, she could not leave the matter of Mose Crane because that’s who she is—and who am I? I’m the one who is told that it is over and just agrees that it’s over, just goes home and gives up. Gets lost in a fake reality, curled under my covers, hiding from what’s real.

And that’s been it the whole time, hasn’t it? Arlo told me to hold this young Speculator back, to ballast her, keep her calm and deliberate and cautious like I am calm and deliberate and cautious, but I never wanted to. I don’t want to make another me—I want another Charlie. The parts of her I’m supposed to tamp down are the parts I like the best.

Paige went back to the office because she’s not like me, she’s like him, she’s like Charlie, she’s Charlie, and she won’t stop. She can’t.

“All right, kid,” I say, and hold out my hand. She puts the stretch into it. “Let’s see what you got.”

Two minutes later we are crouched in front of my wall-mounted, in the center of the living room, staring at the front door of Mose Crane’s apartment.

I glance at Aysa’s somber face, blanketed in the light of the wall-mounted. She has not seemed to notice that I have no furniture. She has not seemed to notice that I am in my underclothes, or that my house is a mess, and she certainly hasn’t looked with curiosity into the bedroom and wondered why there’s a copy of The Everyday Citizen’s Dictionary lying on the floor like a spent shell.

On the screen is the same static shot of Crane’s front door.

Ms. Paige says “Go” and “Fast,” and reality races past, one minute, two minutes, three minutes passing in a rush, and then here he comes. “Slow it down,” she says, and we watch him enter: a man in a gray suit, moving quickly, eyes cast down, holding his hat down on his head as he rushes up the stairs. The stretch does not show his face. I get as close as I can to the monitor but I can’t see it.

“Do you see?” says Aysa.

“See what?”

“That’s him.”

“Who?”

She looks at me, and then back at the screen. I stare.

“Are you—sure?”

“One hundred percent.”

“Stop,” she says, and the image pauses and I recognize him in that instant—a face turned slightly to one side, a high brow, a chin tucked downward. It’s Doonan, all right.

Do you know the idiom, my right hand? Mr. Doonan is my right hand.

“When is this? Is this—is it during the missing two weeks?”

She shakes her head. “Laszlo. This is yesterday. Two hours and nine minutes after Crane falls off the roof.”

“Wait,” I say. “Wait.” My mind is pinwheeling, turning over itself, but I can’t keep up with Aysa Paige. “Go,” she says, and Doonan goes, walks briskly up the steps and stands at Crane’s door, his back to us, his face once again hidden from the capture by his hat, and he knocks, shifts on his heels a moment, and then the door opens.“Wait,” I say again. “You said this was yesterday. Two hours and nine minutes after the fall. But doesn’t that mean—”

“Yes,” she says, snapping her fingers impatiently, pointing at the upper-right corner of the screen. “There’s no one home. Look at the time.” The stamp at the top right shows 10:54. “We’re going to be there at eleven oh one.”

“Who is?”

“You and me. Laszlo. Come on. It’s yesterday. It’s the day he died. It’s ten fifty-four. He’s already dead. He’s at the morgue by now, and we’re going to get to this apartment in a few minutes.”

“And no one was home.”

“That’s correct.”

“Aster comes up the stairs. She lets us in.”

“Yeah, but watch. Back ten.” The stretch backs up ten seconds and then resumes, and Doonan knocks again, and the door opens again. There is someone inside. A shadow of a person, and Doonan is laughing at whatever the person says, a murmur of low happy greeting, and then he steps inside.

“Whoa,” I say. I’m leaning closer in my chair. We slow it down to watch it again, frame by frame.

Paige is good, but I’m good too, and I can see that what Petras’s right hand is enacting here is a kind of dumb show. He is playing for the captures. He puts his hand on the handle, seemingly trying it but really picking the lock, working the cheap lock quickly and expertly with small tools. And then he stands back, makes a big show of checking his watch, and then the door opens, as if from inside, but it’s really Doonan pushing it open, with the tip of one of those brown shoes he pushes the door open and turns his body to block the person at the door, because there is no one at the door. He says hello to nobody, laughs at a pleasant word of welcome that nobody makes, and enters at nobody’s invitation.

“Shit,” I say, and Paige says, “I know,” and then we watch it again slow. I explain to Paige how he does it, how Doonan, the soft unassuming administrator, is traveling with tools, hidden in his coat, secreted up his sleeve. He’s breaking in, and he knows that the stretch will be watched. He’s breaking in and he knows to make it look like he’s not breaking in, and he knows how.

“He’s there to take those days,” I say. I stand. I start to pace, making tight circles in my narrow house, from wall to wall. I have shaken off the last tendrils of my dream, emerged from the world created by The Prisoner. It’s like rising from a pool of water and shaking the droplets free.

“He’s there to go down to that basement and steal days out of Mose Crane’s Record.”

“You think?”

“Yeah.”

I don’t just think. I know. I know. It strikes me with the force of certainty, as clear as daylight, as true as doors on houses. And other things are becoming clearer too.

“This is two hours after Crane dies? They know—Petras knows, Doonan knows—that the Specs are going to go search Crane’s house, and they know what they’re going to find. On those days in particular. If we were to go to the ninth floor and ask Woody Stone for the stretches from the alley outside—between the building and the Chinese place—five minutes after he goes in? We’d see this guy coming out, four minutes from now, putting the door back quick and careful and scurrying off.”

Paige is pacing too; now we’re pacing together, back and forth, making parallel grooves in my small front room. “He’d have to know, right?” she says. “That we would get into the dead man’s boxes and find that days were missing? He’d have to know.”

“So it must be—” I stop. Speculation is here—it’s in the room—I feel it, a swell tide of darkness, speckled with possibility. “Whatever it is they’re hiding. It is worse.”

“Worse than missing days?”

“Yeah. Yes. Because—listen, Aysa—nobody would risk stealing two weeks of someone’s days, swiping them so brazenly, unless the risk of them being found was a thousand times worse than the risk of the theft.”

The stretch is still rolling in the background, the light of the wall-mounted creating the only illumination in my barren house. And suddenly, as we’re talking, we appear on the screen—a few minutes after Petras’s man disappears inside, here we come up the steps. We almost saw him. We were just there. Then we appear on the screen, and Ms. Aster comes out, and we watch ourselves in conversation. The old versions of Ratesic and Paige, from the day before. Another reality. A different world. I stare at my own broad back on the screen with disgust, at the way I hold myself, how I loom over Paige, who after all is so much smarter than me, so much the nimbler mind.

How I comport myself with the contemptuous affect of the senior Spec, moving blithely with undeserved confidence through a world I think I understand.

“Stop,” I say, and the images freeze on the monitor.

“Mr. Ratesic? Laz, are you okay—”

I would say yes, but she knows. It’s already happening. It’s happening and I can’t stop it, it is grabbing me and taking me, speculation rolling me down into itself, into deeper and deeper darkness, and I want it—I let it. I feel it now.

I let my eyes drift close, and a single candle’s light kisses and winks to life in the dark room of my mind, and it burns warmer, sending out a radiance of light in which I can find the whole truth of this. The entirety of truth.

—the right hand—

—Petras’s right hand in Crane’s doorway—

—Crane the blackmailer, Crane the obscure, skull split—

All the things he knew and never said, all the small truths that flamed out and died along the lines of his neurons, died in his brain the moment he died too.

My eyes fly open.

“A construction worker,” I say, three syllables joined in a simple word, I say it just quietly, just to myself, stunned by the suddenness of my understanding, and liberated by it too. Liberated by the knowledge of what I have to do. Because in that moment I know. I know what it is. All of the pieces are flying into place, circling in like birds finding their roost.

“Laszlo?” She is staring at me, her eyes wide and bright in the dim light of my house.

“Do you remember when we talked to Renner?” I ask.

“At the death scene? Crane’s boss?”

“Yes. Do you remember—he told us that Crane worked odd jobs.” Renner, the construction boss in a sweaty panic, struggling to dig from his anxious mind every possible detail, spitting out facts as fast as he remembered them. “He said that Crane frequently did other jobs in his off-hours. That he was always coming from other work.”

Working under the table on some mansion in the Hills…

“You read Petras’s file, right?”

Nobody likes cheap labor more than the rich…

“Yes, sir. Yes, Laszlo.”

“What was her address—the home address?”

“I forget the number. It’s on Mulholland, though. Mulholland Drive. Laszlo—”

And now I’m seeing it in my mind’s eye, a memory as clear as reality: a slim red binder, unmarked. Doonan pulling it from Petras’s shelf, hiding it away as the conversation approached a crisis.

“Laszlo. Where are we going?”

I am scrambling into my clothes. Jeans and a work shirt, whatever’s at hand. Aysa isn’t in her uniform and pinhole, and neither am I. I’ve got my car keys, I’ve got my weapon. I’m halfway out the door.

I ask Paige, as we head to the car: “Did Arlo ever tell you the whole story?”

“What whole story?”

“Of what happened to my brother. To Charlie.”

-

Charlie Ratesic paced restlessly before the glass windows of the Service, glaring out at the State. It was the middle of the night, and the buildings sparkled gloriously below, but all eyes were on Ratesic, rubbing the months of stubble on his chin, smoking cigarette after cigarette.

He had returned to the Service building after months undercover, and his colleagues had gathered to hear his report, to try to understand what it was he had been working on in darkest secrecy for all that time.

“They call themselves… the Golden State,” he said.

We looked at each other in bafflement. Most of the unit was there, gathered around to listen: Carson and Burlington, Cullers, Alvaro. Laszlo, our hero’s younger brother, was leaning by the elevator wall, hands buried deep in his pockets.

“The Golden State?” I said slowly. “I had understood from your earlier reports, Mr. Ratesic, that this was a conspiracy against our good and golden State.”

“Yeah.” He pulled out another cigarette. Cigarette after cigarette. “See, the fuckers—they think it’s funny, okay? To call themselves that.” He sneered. “They think everything is funny.”

He told us what he had learned, and we listened in horror. This criminal conspiracy, this self-styled Golden State, met nearly every night at the warehouse in Glendale, where they had removed all the captures and replaced them with duplicates. “Dummies” was the word Charlie used. Dummies. Machines cleverly styled to look like the recording devices that forge our reality, but are not connected to anything.

The whole building was dead to the eyes of the world so that lies could be told within its walls with impunity. This Golden State, Charlie told us, was meeting off the Record, disconnected from ongoing reality.

“But… why?” asked Carson, her face reflecting the fascinated horror that we were all feeling.

“To lie. Just to lie.”

We could not conceive of it, the willful depravity of this place that Charlie had been inside of: good and golden citizens parading about in full and luxuriant disregard for the truth, announcing themselves to have new names, telling each other that they were pirates, or millionaires, war heroes, thieves. Relating stories from their personal histories, reveling in changing the details every time they told them, making themselves funnier or braver or better looking in retrospect. Making up stories about their friends, about history, about public figures and private friends.

They were spewing out so many and such extravagant lies that every time Charlie approached this warehouse, willing himself back into character as one of the conspirators, he could practically see the effusions of their dishonesty billowing out from behind the doors.

“It’s fucked up,” he told us. “These people are seriously fucked up.”

“So what are we waiting for?” said Alvaro. “Let’s bust in there and shut the place down.”

“No!” shouted Charlie loudly, wheeling on poor Alvaro, who backed away, putting his hands in the air. Charlie’s eyes were wild, red-rimmed. His hair was a mess, sticking out in all directions. “We can’t.”

“But Charlie,” I said softly, trying to calm him. “Why not?”

The answer was simple, at least as he saw it: Charlie didn’t want us to end the conspiracy because he had convinced himself that there was someone else involved he had not yet managed to identify. “Give me more time. A little more time. I have to find the monster.”

We all looked at each other. Laszlo, over by the elevator, stood up straight.

“The monster?”

“That’s right.”

It was increasingly clear, the longer the great Charlie Ratesic stood there, staring at us, staring out the window, that something was wrong with him. Something was very wrong indeed. His lips were flecked with spittle. His eyes were wild.

“They say—” He ground out his cigarette, lit a new one. “These fuckers say that the Golden State—the real one, our one—is all bullshit. They say that the real golden state—like, ‘state’ like ‘state of being,’ ‘state of understanding’—the real golden state is accepting that there is no such thing as truth. They think we’re fooling ourselves to think we can be protected from lies. They say that all of it—the Record, the captures, the Service…” Ratesic was staring out the window again, out at the glittering majesty of the dark city. “They think it’s some kind of fallacy, that we’re, like—what do they say?—playing make-believe.”

We were all looking at each other, looking at Charlie, trying to take the measure of what was happening inside his mind by the wildness in his eyes.

“They’re writing a book,” he said. Lighting a new cigarette with trembling hands. “A Night Book, they call it, because it’s a book of real truth, truth underneath the truth. Just like a real Night Book, but… but it’s a joke. It’s a sick joke.” Charlie took a deep drag of the new cigarette and launched again, a single long sentence curling out with the smoke. “They say the real truth is that there is no such thing as truth at all, there’s only perception, okay, because everything you think is true can only be proved by pointing to some other truth, but that truth rests on another one, too, and so on forever, and they say that what this means is that there is no permanent actual reality, there is no Objectively So, and all that we have built, the good and golden truth that surrounds us, is nothing.” He stopped finally, then, and stood trembling with tears in his eyes. “Not truth but it’s opposite. It’s absence.”

“Okay, Charlie,” I said softly. “Okay.”

“Don’t do that, Vasouvian.” He sprang back to life, snarling, and grabbed my collar. “Don’t condescend to me. These assholes want to take the whole State off the Record. They say that whatever happened”—he let go of me and gestured wildly, gesturing to the ancient inscrutable past, the unknowable calamity that happened to the rest of the world—“that we oughta let it happen here. We oughta make it happen here.”

“But that’s impossible.”

“It’s not. It’s not! There’s a monster. There’s a monster and the monster is going to make it happen. Unless we stop it.”

“A monster?”

“What?” said Ratesic. “You think I’m lying?”

It was, I realized, time to talk to Charlie alone. I took him aside. We sat down at my desk and I poured us both coffee. The man had been undercover for six months, and I told him that in my expert opinion it was time for him to come in from the field. Monster or no monster.

“No,” he said. He did not drink the coffee. “No, Arlo.”

“What I’m afraid of, dear Charlie, is that the work—being so exposed, for so long—that it is affecting you.”

“What? No. The work doesn’t affect me. You know that. I don’t get symptoms. I don’t—”

“On the inside, Charlie. I’m afraid that it is affecting you inside.” I didn’t use the phrase that had occurred to me, as I looked with horror at the sallowness in his cheeks, the wildness in his eyes when he raved about his monster. I was afraid he had begun to rot from the inside out.

“I am worried, Charlie, that there is an alternate reality that has its hooks in you. As your superior—as your friend—”

“Enough,” He slammed down his coffee cup. He grabbed his jacket. “I’m going back in there. I’m going to find the monster.”

He stormed toward the elevator, wrestling himself back into his coat.

“Hey. Charlie?”

Laszlo Ratesic stopped his brother by the elevator door. He was bigger than Charlie by half a head, maybe, but you never really noticed him when Charlie was around. Charlie smiled to see him, though. He had his jacket on now. He was ready to go. “Yeah, buddy?”

“I just wanted to say be careful out there.” He knew his brother too well to try to stop him. “Okay?”

Charlie nodded. “You got it.” He patted his brother on the cheek, and stepped into the elevator. We watched the door close.

The next time we saw him he was in his hospital bed.

19.

“Is that all true?” says Paige.

“Everything is true,” I tell her.

I’ve told her the whole story,

The only part I left out was the distressing exultant feeling I got while I was listening to him that day, raving to old Arlo about this terrifying conspiracy he penetrated, this Golden State that was not the real Golden State, that wanted to make of us our inverse, build a world of pure thin truthlessness with no Record, no captures, everybody walking around with no burden of truth upon them, no prison of truth around them, and how what I felt on hearing all this was a kind of inchoate sideways longing.

Wouldn’t that be fucking great? is what I thought, watching the elevator door close behind Charlie. That’s what I thought, a longing shadowed by the shame of that longing. Shame and fascination and fear.

Wouldn’t that be something…

Same way I felt three hours ago, reading The Prisoner, immersing myself in alternate realities, soaking in them, all the things that could be but aren’t…

Come on, Laz. Come on. Get it together.

You can’t see much of Petras’s house from here. It is a modern structure, a single slab of deep gray, its frontage mostly hidden by hedgerow, its full shape obscured by moonlight. A thing of stone and glass, arrogantly defiant of gravity, built back from the road and cantilevered out over the valley below.

The house radiates. The house holds the monster. The house is a monster, looming, reaching into the darkness.

Paige has questions. One or two more questions formulating in that nonstop mind of hers, I see them bubbling in her, but more than that I can see the energy itself—she has questions but they’re all incidental. Fuel for the fire. She is ready to roll. She is itching to go. This is something, man—that’s what Ms. Paige is thinking.

I remember her on the bench outside the judge’s chambers, my young partner, trying to puzzle out the judge’s act of self-slaughter, her lip curling at the idea of such a radical reaction to something so small.

Whatever else she knows, she knows that this—the story I’ve told her, the story of Charlie, the story we’re part of now—this is not small.

“Your brother went back into that house?”

“He did. There was no way to stop him. He thought—the way he put it—he thought he had to catch a monster.” I look at her. She is looking through the windshield at Petras’s house in the darkness. “He thought there was a monster.”

“Not literally?”

“You know, I don’t know. I was never really sure.”

Using the information Charlie provided, Mr. Vasouvian along with Mr. Alvaro and the rest of us on the thirtieth floor planned a raid on the warehouse in Glendale. We waited for a week, two weeks; waited and hoped that my brother would come to his senses and get out of there. But an Off Record house could not be countenanced, and soon enough, with or without Charlie, it was time to act.

Three units of the Service went in together, along with half a battalion of regular police. We made nine arrests, all of whom were subsequently charged with grave assault on the Objectively So and exiled for their crimes.

“And what about your brother?”

I just shake my head. I’ve reached the end of the story. I can’t tell any more.

I don’t know if he thought there was a literal monster or not, but here we are. Staring at Petras’s house.

You were right, Charlie. You were always right.

For once I have a gut feeling, the kind Charlie got every day his whole life. There are only a handful of people in the State who could arrange the kind of careful unseen sabotage of the Record that Charlie was convinced happened, but Laura Petras is surely one of them. She did it before, and she escaped apprehension, and now she’s doing it again.

Bringing another house off the Record. Her own house.

Mose Crane, itinerant construction man, freelance contractor, must have been among those who worked on the project. Maybe he knew and maybe he didn’t know the nature of the alterations he had been asked to undertake on this property. Maybe he only later realized.

But he did figure it out, I know he did, because six months later he decides to turn his knowledge into easy money, to use this piece of discovered truth like a crowbar, like a lockpick. To blackmail the judge and the Acknowledged Expert with what he knew. And that’s what he’s doing, prowling around the judge’s house, when he dies, drawing the attention of the Speculative Service. Petras and her allies have to work fast, they send Doonan scuttling to Crane’s last known residence, two steps ahead of us, to remove all evidence of his connection to Petras.

Paige is in motion before I’ve finished this last piece of explanation. She’s feeling for her weapon under her coat, opening her door. “All right,” she says. “So let’s go get her.”

“No—wait,” I say. “Stop.”

“Why? We have to go now, don’t we? We have to go right now.”

“We are going to wait until she comes out—tail her to work, pull her over. This is something we gotta do very carefully. As quietly and inconspicuously as possible. This isn’t some kid we’re talking about. This is one of our Acknowledged Experts.”

“Well, so—that’s all the more reason. Right?” Aysa is staring at me, stunned and agitated. Her voice is hot with urgency. “For us to work fast. To go in now. Laszlo. She knows we’re onto her. She has to know.”

“Or she thinks we think it’s about Sampson, about Tester. Something small—”

“She’s smarter than that, Laszlo. Laszlo: we gotta go in. Now.”

“Just a second, Paige. Give it a second.”

“No.” She shakes her head. She hisses, “Why?”

She’s right. I know she’s right. I am sitting here doing what I’m always doing, which is trying to figure out what to do, and she is getting out of the car, patting her holster for her weapon, looking at me evenly through the window.

“Are you sure—in your heart, Laszlo, are you sure that this woman is what you think she is?”

I nod. Monster monster monster. I am sure. For once, I am sure.

“All right, then. Let’s go.”

Paige goes first and I stay close at her heels, matching her stride, directly behind her, an animal pack, a pack of two.

The air changes, you can feel it change, as we pass through the high hedgerow separating Mulholland Drive from the Expert’s house.A short driveway, lined with wide flat pavers. A desert garden, the glistening knifepoints of succulent cactuses in the wan moonlight.

“Here,” I say very quietly as soon as we step across the hedgerow and onto the lawn proper. I whistle softly to draw her attention, and then I crouch and point. “Look.”

The capture is a remarkable forgery, specific in every detail. I snap my fingers in front of it and it moves, minutely, just like a real one. The lens blinks open and closed, open and closed when I move my face; when I snap my fingers, the beak of the microphone jerks up, like a bird’s. I look at Paige and can see that she is feeling what I am feeling, the wavering world, the air rippling and bending with the unacceptable reality: a dead capture. A forgery. A deliberate undermining of the foundation of the State.

It is galling. Horrifying to think of it—so much reality unrecorded, moments racing past. A hundred moments, two hundred. I stand here, counting. If you split each moment then you quickly reach infinity, all the moments in the world going unrecorded—a quantum of moments. A forever of reality, disappearing as soon as it appears. I am standing in the center of a radius of absence. You don’t realize what a comfort reality is until you leave it, what a good strong feeling is the truth under your feet and in the air around you, how nice it is to be surrounded at all times by the truth. To know that everything is being added to the ledger, that everything that happens will be true and will be true forever, that everything that is is, that everything that has happened has happened and will have happened forever.

And it doesn’t feel good. It feels terrifying. I feel like I might float up above the Earth, float away, crash down into the sea somewhere. I look to Paige, staring at the dead captures, the row of dummies, and I can tell she is feeling what I am feeling, the world reeling, the sky becoming suffused with the thick truthless air. We are off the Record

“Hey. Hey,” I say urgently. “Water is made of two hydrogens, one oxygen. Hey.”

She nods. Her eyes regain their focus. She stands up straight, whispers back to me, “Light is faster than sound.”

“A million times faster.”

“Yes indeed it is.”

And we move on together, creeping like soldiers to the front door, muttering facts, good solid facts, the two of us tied to each other by real things, solid true things.

The house is a stone tablet with tall panes of glass for doors and windows. The Moon hangs low; sunrise is close. There is a dog barking somewhere inside, urgent and nervous.

“Wait,” whispers Paige. Holds up one finger. Tilts her head. “Listen.”

Light noise from the back of the house. Barely audible. A murmuring sound, water running or someone laughing.

We look at each other, nod, lift our weapons.

And then, in that quiet moment, there is a minor seismological event somewhere deep inside the topography. The Earth itself rolls slightly, buckles—just a little bit. Just enough so you can feel it. The world adjusting itself to new realities.

It only lasts a second, a half second, and then the world settles again. The State urging us to fix it. Make it right.

We lift our weapons. Paige goes first again, and I follow.

We move silently around to the back of the house, where the sun has just crested the closest hill, the first beams of light, like a Peeping Tom peeking above a fence. The surface of a long pool sparkles, clean and blue, in the new sunlight, and the Expert is a shadow rushing through its depths.

The view from here is extraordinary, unimpeded nearly all the way around: down this way are the glass towers of the distant downtown, this way the sprawl of the Valley, the long arteries of Ventura and Reseda dotted already with morning commuters. The house sits right on the crest, on the very spine of the hilltop, and as the sun glints above the distant range, the day’s first beams of daylight reach over the fence and flare atop the pool.

A diaphanous bathrobe is draped over a deck chair. A simple breakfast is set up at a glass-topped table: a board with cheese and fruit, bread and a knife to cut it. A carafe of tea or coffee.

The bright form of Laura Petras breaks through the surface of light and she sees us, standing like pillars at the water’s edge. Her head bobs at the waterline, her hair invisible under a tight swim cap, and she looks at us in puzzlement, but not in fear.

“Mr. and Ms. Speculator. May I ask what you are doing on my property?”

She flips up her goggles so they form a pair of eyes, inverse and bulging, on her forehead. She squints at us. The look of bafflement and confusion on her face is as carefully forged as the fake captures.

“I think you know,” I say.

“I do not.”

It is disconcerting to see a person dissemble so fluidly, so effortlessly. A shiver of bad feeling rushes up my body. I keep my legs steady on the white pavement.

“Would you get out of the water please, ma’am?”

“I will not. I will do so if you tell me what you’re doing here.”

“No. First you get the fuck out of the water, lady.” That’s Paige. Her gun is pointed directly at the suspect.

“I’m sorry,” says Petras. “I’ve forgotten your name.”

Paige does not move her gun. “Get out.”

“Ms. Paige?” I say, ready with my usual note of caution, but Petras is pulling herself out of the water. Slowly the Expert rises from the pool, flicking her eyes from one of us to the other. I hear the dog barking again, somewhere inside the house, greeting the day.

Petras is in a plain one-piece bathing suit, her hair gathered tightly under the cap. She stands calmly, unafraid, dripping onto the white pool stone.

“If you want to discuss the Crane matter in more detail I am happy to do so, but in my office, at the appropriate time. And certainly not,” she says, to Aysa, “at gunpoint.”

The first full splash of sunlight reaches the house, glinting off the second-story windows, making them momentarily into a wall of fractured shadows.

“We’re not here about Crane,” I tell her.

“What?”

“We’re here because your whole house is off the Record. We’re here because you are in violation of subverting the cornerstone of the Golden State.”

“What?”

Her whole face haes changed. Her whole body. She is caught and she knows it. I step forward, drop into the vox officio. “You are accused, Ms. Petras, of involvement with the Golden State conspiracy. You are accused of taking your home off the Record. You are accused of high crimes against the Objectively So.”

With each iteration of the word “accused” her eyes widen further, and all the steel goes out of her stance. Suddenly she is like a fish hauled from the water, trembling, terrified. I have never seen anyone dissemble so immediately, so naturally.

“Ma’am—” I begin, but Aysa has had enough.

“Hey,” she says. “Hands in the air. Hands in the fucking air!”

“Listen to me,” says Petras, looking at me and then at Aysa, back and forth, trembling now. “Listen, I swear to you—”

Aysa shouts, “No more talking!”

The ground trembles again, a mild follow-up seismic motion, just enough to make me momentarily unsteady. The surface of the pool ripples and trembles.

“I have done nothing.”

“Shut up,” says Paige, and glancing at her I see on her face what I am feeling in my heart, the force of what Petras’s stream of untruths are doing to the air, bending and tearing at it, pulling at its seams like fabric.

“It’s not”—her eyes widen with feigned alarm—“it’s not so. What you are saying, it is simply not so.”

“It is so, ma’am. You were a conspirator in the plot initiated eleven years ago by Armond Kessler. You managed to escape justice, and now you have started again, replacing real captures with fakes, on your own property.”

“This is madness.”

There are captures in the high palms, captures above the sliding doors connecting the poolside to the kitchen. But they’re dummies, all of them. Connected to nothing, leaving no archive, forging no permanent reality. Charlie told me how astonishing it was to realize how easily a capture can be faked, and these are even better than the ones he encountered in Glendale. Their eyes blink like the real eyes of captures. They swivel to follow motion and catch sound. Masterful forgeries, perfect simulacra of the real thing.

“And what comes next, Ms. Petras?”

“Nothing,” she says. “I’ve done nothing.”

Monster, I think. Monster monster monster. I am imagining fake captures planted all over the Hills and the Valley, downtown and Mid-city, by the beaches and on the pier and in the parks. I am imagining the Record being undermined, one capture at a time, the truth going dark, the eyes of the Record blinking closed, one by one. I did it, I think. I stopped her. A powerful feeling floods through me, magic in my arms and legs. In time, just in time, we have saved the State.

“I promise you I have done nothing,” says Petras. “I have executed the duties of my office. I have always been loyal to the State.”

The more she speaks, the more I feel it, the pull and rush of lies, the bending at the edges of the world all around me. My lungs fill up with it, the grit and dust of it, and my eyes are watering from it. The air is bending at all its edges, collapsing around me, cascading down the walls.

“She is lying,” says Aysa, and I know she’s right, I know Petras is lying because the atmosphere is distending, warping, and I am catching it everywhere, I am feeling the sparks and stars of it, Petras saying “Not so” and Aysa saying “Another lie,” and I know it’s true, and I have my weapon out and aimed.

“Stop,” I say, and lunge for her, and she raises one hand, and I jerk back, spin halfway around, and my first thought is that she can control reality itself, of course she can, and she has caused the searing pain in my shoulder with a sharp movement of her hand, but then there is a another explosive sound from the house’s second story and I understand that someone is shooting at us, she has signaled someone on the upper floor who has opened fire. Is it Doonan? I wonder, standing there like an idiot peering up, until Aysa grabs at me, pulls me down as she kicks over the glass-topped table to form a shield.

Petras is bolting back toward the house. A third bullet smashes into the tabletop, shattering it, glass exploding everywhere. The dog is barking wherever it is.

I shout after Petras, over the lip of the inverted table: “Stop! Stop!”

Paige shoots up at the window and misses.

Petras is running, and it occurs to me that I could shoot her. I think madly, I could shoot her, right in the back, shoot her and shoot the man upstairs, shoot the dog, burn the whole house down, and none of it would ever be known. This is the madness of living unrecorded, untethered to time. You can do anything and say it never happened. Anything.

Paige takes a second shot, clear through the window, and I see the shooter go down, spin backward as blood mists from the hole in his head.

“Stop!” I yell, and Petras stops. Paige rises unsteadily from behind the table.

“Turn around,” I say, and Petras obeys. She has the knife that was on the breakfast board that was on the table: a knife, a long serrated blade, the handle clutched in her fist, the blade trembling frantically in the air before her.

She raises the knife’s brutal edge to her throat. Tears form and fall from her eyes.

“I swear in the name of the State and my high position that I have committed no crime. Whatever kind of trick you are playing here, I will not have my life destroyed for it.”

“Drop that knife, please,” I say. The dog has stopped its barking. The sun has risen high enough that I can feel its heat. “Please drop it, Ms. Petras.”

Her right eye flickers and jumps.

“No.”

Aysa has her gun on Petras. I have my gun on her too. This is madness. But the problem is, it’s not madness, because I have given this lady no choice and no chance. I have nothing to use as leverage, no power of mercy. The crimes with which I have just accused her, the crimes I know her to be guilty of, carry the maximum penalty, and she knows it the same as I do. The Golden State does not practice capital punishment, but everybody knows what it does, everybody knows what will happen.

She will be sent into the wilderness, of course. The charges I am leveling carry that penalty. She will not only be toppled from her high position, she will be sent out into the wilderness and die there. So why would she cooperate?

“Drop the knife!” I shout again, but why would she drop the knife?

“Ms. Petras,” says Paige, and she steps forward, and Petras steps forward too, and then jumps, and I shout “No!” but it’s too late, Petras is jumping with the knife. I don’t know what her plan is but she only gets as far as screaming and lunging, and Paige is firing her weapon and so am I, and she misses because Petras has slammed into her, buried the knife in her stomach. Paige misses but I don’t. I catch Petras in her side just at the moment the knife slides in, and now both of them are bleeding—Petras gushing from her side, slumped forward, driving the blade deeper and deeper into Aysa, who is screaming, pushing at the other woman as she sinks down beneath her, the white stone disappearing under an opening curtain of blood.

“No,” I say. I’m running across the slick pavement, slipping on the mingling blood. “No.”

I am down on one knee, scrambling for Paige’s wound, pressing the heels of my palms into it, holding her closed with my hands.

“Don’t worry,” I tell her, “it’s going to be okay.” I scramble for my radio, smash the buttons, raise the alarm, telling her, “It’s going to be okay, it’s going to be okay,” and now it’s my own lie that is rolling in the air, because I have no information to support my asseveration. Aysa’s eyes are clouding. Her cheeks are losing their color. There is blood on my arms where I am holding her, a slick of blood expanding on the stone beneath us, dripping over the edge and expanding out onto the surface of the water, and it is not going to be okay.

“No.” Too little, too late. “No.”

Not good enough. Deep truth—bone true—true as daylight, true as doors on houses. Never good enough.