Fall of Angels

XCVI

AFTER THE LONG afternoon of cleaning up carnage and wounds, and building a cairn for Ryllya, the guard he’d never known, and an evening meal filled with quiet and exhaustion, Nylan sat in the rocking chair, holding Dyliess. Ryba lay in the darkness, silent on her separate couch.

For whatever reason, rocking his daughter in the gloom of the tower helped his throbbing head, more than the darkness or the hot and welcome meal prepared by Blynnal.

.. and who will rock you to sleep?

Your daddy will rock and sing you a song,

There’s only a cradle and nothing is wrong.

When the sun has set and the stars are so high,

I’ll rock you and hold you’til morning is nigh …

By the time Dyliess dropped off and he had slipped into his separate couch bed, the throbbing inside his skull had subsided to a dull echo of the former hammering.

After a quick flash of light through the window, the evening breeze brought the rumble of distant thunder over the western peaks and then the dampness of air that had held rain. Perhaps the rain would wash the sense and stench ofkilling off the Roof of the World. Perhaps sleep would help.

Again, not for the first time, nor for the last, Nylan wondered why so many people respected only force. He tried not to sigh.

“The killing is hard on you,” Ryba observed.

“You’ve noticed.” He tried to keep the bitterness from his voice, knowing he failed.

“You’re good for about one killing a battle, aren’t you?” asked Ryba quietly. “That makes it hard when people are riding around with blades.”

“Very hard, especially when you’re on a horse and can’t see.” Nylan stretched. His legs and arms were sore, from some combination of riding and smithing, neither of which he did terribly efficiently, he feared.

“Why?”

“With every killing, there’s a whiteness that fills the field, or the local net, or whatever you want to call it. It goes through me like an invisible but very sharp dagger.”

“This place …” said Ryba heavily. “The more we succeed, the more everyone wants to destroy us.”

“That’s true everywhere.” Nylan yawned. “It’s just more obvious here.”

“We’re going to get more women, and that means we’ll need more weapons.”

“More arrowheads,” groaned Nylan, trying to put aside the thought of more deaths.

“Can’t you make any more blades? We need both. I’d really like each guard to have two blades. That way they could throw one if they had to. The more standoff capability we have …”

Nylan wanted to laugh at the thought of a throwing blade being a standoff capability. How far they’d fallen from lasers and de-energizer beams, although the weapons laser still remained mostly intact. “We’re having enough trouble with arrowheads.”

“We need something.”

“I told you. I’ll try to rework some of the capturedblades-the terrible ones,” said the engineer-smith, “that’s if you don’t mind losing some coins.”

“After today, we have enough coins and blades that you can have a few of them to work with. I’m sure you can figure out something.”

Nylan yawned again, wishing he were that certain.