End of an Era

Boundary Layer

I came in the front door of our house, pulled off my Totes, and placed them on the Rubbermaid mat. When I was a child in the 1970s, February in Toronto had been a month full of snow. But recent Februarys had been quite mild, with the spring rains starting before Valentine’s Day. I hung my trench coat and umbrella in the closet and made my way through the front hall and up the five steps to the living room. Tess was sitting on the couch, reading a magazine on her datapad.

“Hi, honey.” I sat down next to her, brushed aside her red hair, and gave her a kiss on the cheek.

“Howdy, stranger.” Her husky voice, so unlikely given her tiny frame, carried no hint of sarcasm, so I ignored the little dig about the long hours I’d been keeping.

“How was work?” I said.

“Okay.” Tess was a pension and benefits counselor for Deloitte Touche. She made more money than I did. “I think we’re going to get that contract with the provincial government.”

“Good,” I said. “That’s good.”

The left window on her datapad was showing an article about mergers amongst American advertising firms. The other window was filled with an ad from the Franklin Mint for a collectible chess set, with pieces shaped like classic sitcom stars from the twentieth century. I read the ad.

“Tess,” I said at last, “I’m going out of town for a few days.”

“Again?” She pouted slightly, her full lips curving downward, her green eyes studying the carpet. It was an expression I always loved. “I thought you were through traveling for a while, now that the Chinese thing is over.” The Second Canada-China Dinosaur Project had taken me away from her—something neither of us enjoyed—for four months last year.

“I’m sorry, Lambchop. This is important.”

Sarcasm did tinge the throaty tones this time. “It always is. Where are you going?”

“To Vancouver.”

“What’s happening out there?”

“Nothing, really. I—I just have to do some research at one of the university libraries.”

“Can’t they E-mail you what you need?” She indicated her datapad, the ubiquitous window on the world.

“Nobody seems to be able to find the information I want,” I said. “I’m afraid I’m going to have to do some digging for it.” I paused for a moment. “Say, do you want to come along?”

Tess laughed her throaty laugh. “Vancouver in February? No, thank you. I can get all the freezing rain I want right here.” She touched the bookmark button on her datapad. Her freckled arm reached out to slip around my neck. “Can’t you do your research in Orlando? Or Freeport?” Her eyes danced, twin emerald flames. “It’s been years since we had a proper vacation.”

“I wish I could.”

She ran her fingers through what was left of my hair. “Maybe I shouldn’t let you go. There are a lot of lovely Japanese ladies out in British Columbia. I’ve seen the way you glue your eyes to Canada a.m. every morning. You’ve got the hots for Kelly Hamasaki.”

Was it that obvious? Kelly, queen of the radiant smile, was the most gorgeous newscaster North American television had ever seen. “Very funny.”

“Seriously,” she said, with a tone that made clear that her intention was anything but, “how do I know I can trust you with all those west-coast beauties?”

I felt something snap deep in my chest. “Christ, Tess, I’m the one who’s leaving you here alone. How do I know I can trust you? How do I know you won’t jump in the sack with—with God knows who while I’m gone?”

She pulled away from me. “What’s gotten into you?”

“Nothing.” I looked at her, her narrow face, the high cheekbones, the mane of orange hair. God, I didn’t want to lose her. She was my whole life. But if what the diary said was true, I was nothing to her. I knew I should apologize, recant before it was too late, before the words became part of the immutable past, the foundation for a wall between us, but I couldn’t bring myself to take them back. I was hurt by—by what? By what she might do? By what she might have done if things had been different? Finally I looked away from her astonished green eyes and got up from the couch. “I’m going upstairs to pack for my trip,” I said.

I arrived in Vancouver on a Tuesday. Dr. Huang ignored my calls until late Wednesday afternoon, when I managed to get her to answer at her office. She was all set to hang up on me again, when I broke into Chinese. That shocked the hell out of her, but I’d learned more than enough to get by while participating in the Canada-China Dinosaur Project. She finally agreed to see me but insisted it be during the day, not the evening, and at her office, not her home. That meant running up an extra night’s stay at the Holiday Inn, but given that I didn’t have much of a bargaining position, I agreed.

Driving up to TRIUMF, at the edge of a beautiful pine forest on the outskirts of the University of British Columbia campus, I was greeted by two signs. The one on the right, made of seven three-meter-long boards of prime B.C. lumber, told me in both English and French that I’d arrived at Canada’s national meson center, operated by four universities under a contribution from the National Research Council. The one on the left, in government-issue red and white, reminded me that my tax dollars were hard at work here.

There were dozens of buildings spread around the grounds, including a bunch of temporary structures, and it took me a while to find the main entrance. None of the brochures I picked up at the desk wanted to tell me what TRIUMF stood for, but I had a vague memory from a trivia game I’d played once that it was “Tri-University Meson Facility.” That meant, I guessed, that one of the four institutions sponsoring it had been a Johnny-come-lately, and the acronym had been deemed too clever to change. I knew next to nothing about physics, but apparently this place boasted the world’s largest cyclotron. Although I wasn’t exactly sure what a cyclotron did, it certainly sounded like the kind of thing one might find quite handy while trying to invent a time machine.

Besides the brochures, the ancient man at the desk also gave me a clip-on dosimeter which looked like an old-fashioned car fuse. I told him I was there to see Dr. Huang but before he got around to phoning to ask her to come and get me, a nerdy-looking fellow in a navy-blue lab coat said, “I’ll take him back, Sam.” He led me through a warren of corridors to an unmarked door. I took a moment to gather my thoughts, then knocked.

I was glad to see that physicists enjoyed no more glamour than did paleontologists. Ching-Mei Huang’s office wasn’t much more than an oversized closet. Still, it provided plenty of room for its diminutive occupant. Huang looked to be about sixty, with a small amount of gray streaking her close-cropped black hair. Her clothes were plain, almost frumpy. She wore no makeup or jewelry. Her eyes were darting, haunted; her movements quick and nervous.

“Dr. Huang, I presume.”

“Mr. Thackeray.”

“It’s ‘Doctor,’ Doctor, but please call me Brandy.”

She made no move to invite me into her office. Indeed, she seemed to be blocking the doorway as best she could with her small body. “We can’t talk in here,” she said. “Come with me to the cafeteria.”

“What I have to say is private, Dr. Huang. Can’t we use your office?”

“No.” She looked up at me and, for a brief moment, her eyes stopped darting long enough to hold mine. “Please.”

I shrugged. Hell, I’m never going to see any of the potential eavesdroppers again. So what if they think I’m a loon?

It was early enough in the morning that the cafeteria was mostly empty. I caught snatches of conversation as we moved to a table at the far end of the room: a knot of people discussing something to do with Higgs bosons, whatever they were; two guys arguing about the Thunderbirds, which I gathered were the campus football team; and three women discussing in locker-room detail the physique of a new male coworker.

We found a table and sat down. I looked at the person seated opposite me, nervous and small. “Did you ever teach at Dalhousie?” I asked.

“Yes,” she said, looking surprised at the question, “but I lost my job there—what?—sixteen years ago.” She smiled for the first time, one academic to another sharing the universal lament. “Budget cuts.”

She’d broken a police officer’s shin there, the Canadian Press story had said. She looked too timid to do anything like that now. I wondered what had happened in the interim to take the fight out of her. “I’m sorry,” I said.

Her voice was wistful. “So was I, Dr. Thackeray. Now, whal can I do for you?”

Well, if she was uncomfortable with the intimacy of first names, I wasn’t going to push it. “I’ve got a manuscript I’d like you to read. It’s—it’s my diary. Except I didn’t write it. I—I don’t know where it came from. I found it in my computer.” I swallowed hard, then said it all in one breath. “It describes a journey back to the end of the Mesozoic Era, made possible by a device called a Huang temporal phase-shift habitat module.” I saw her eyes widen, just for an instant. “The creator of that device is specifically referred to as Ching-Mei Huang.” I pulled a sheaf of papers out of my briefcase. For a moment, I hesitated about handing the printout to her. There was so much in there that was personal to me—things about Tess, about Klicks, about myself. It was my diary, for Christ’s sake! This was the first time I’d ever made a printout of anything from that memory wafer. I placed the papers on the tablecloth, laser-printed sheets in eleven-point Optima, the Royal Ontario Museum’s official correspondence font. “Please keep this confidential.”

She began reading. “Fred, who lives down the street from me, has a cottage on Georgian Bay. One weekend he went up there alone and left his tabby cat back home with his wife and kids. The damned tabby—”

“Not out loud, please.”

“Sorry.” She read in silence for a few minutes, then looked up, her face puzzled. “How did you know I’m an atheist?”

I thought back to what the diary said. I was sure that little reference to God was for the sake of the network cameras. Ching-Mei was an atheist. She only had faith in empirical data, in experimental results.

“I didn’t know it, until I read it there.”

She went back to reading, her brow furrowed. I occasionally looked over, reading upside down to see what part she was at. How I wished I had a technical document from—from whatever place this came from—instead of something that, almost incidentally, laid my soul bare.

I got up, crossed the room, and fed a five-dollar coin into a vending machine, which in return dispensed a couple of prepackaged donuts. When I returned, Ching-Mei was still reading, engrossed. At last, when she got to the end of the part about the twilight visit by the goose-stepping tyrannosaurs, she looked up, scanned the cafeteria, and saw that we were now alone in it, all the others having trickled out while she was reading. “I can’t stay here any longer,” she said, her voice nervous again.

“What about the diary?”

“I’ll finish reading it tonight.”

“Can I come by your house, then?”

“No. Meet me here tomorrow.” And, before I knew what was happening, she had scurried out of the cafeteria like a frightened animal.