June 17, 1974,
Fountain Valley, California
“ANDY WAKE UP.”
Her son slept calmly, brown curls lying on the pillow. His breathing was deep and even.
She reached down and shook him gently by the shoulders. “Andy! Wake up!”
“Wha…” He groaned. He didn’t even open his eyes. He went back to sleep almost immediately.
“Andy!” Maggie Swanson shook her son’s shoulders harder, more roughly, but not hard enough to hurt him. “Wake up!”
This brought him up. Andy opened his eyes, the deep rhythm of sleep broken. “What!” He sputtered. “What happened? What?”
“Get up and put some clothes on.” She was already pushing the covers off, ushering him out of bed. “Come on.”
“Why?” He yawned, sitting up. He looked at his mother, his eyes still heavy with sleep.
“Because we have to go,” she said. She moved to his dresser and opened the top drawer. She pulled out a pair of blue Levis and a striped polo shirt. She laid these items on the foot of the bed, went back to the same dresser and from another drawer brought out a clean pair of underwear and socks. She dropped these at the foot of the bed. “Get dressed. Come on! Let’s go!”
Andy yawned again. Maggie was so into the moment of flight that she almost breezed out of his room right then to begin the rounds of making sure she had everything necessary: papers, money, driver’s license. But Andy was obviously tired; his eyelids fluttered, and his head drooped forward as if it were weighted. He was drifting into sleep again.
“Andy,” Maggie muttered under her breath. She went to him and gently pulled him out of bed. He moaned, already falling back into a light sleep, and she ended up taking his PJ’s off. She dressed him as fast as she could. When she had him in his jeans and polo shirt, she took his PJ’s into her room where she had a small bag already packed. They were his favorites. They were his Dr. Denton’s.
She checked the bag to make sure she had everything: two changes of clothes for the both of them—she had packed his earlier in the day when he’d been out playing with Jimmy Smitts and Neil Lacher. She also had her make-up, her brushes and hair dryer. She’d looted through Andy’s comic book stash when he’d been out playing yesterday and looted a Superman and a Swamp Thing and stuck those in. Aside from those items and her wallet, which contained her driver’s license and credit cards, she didn’t have anything.
Except for the briefcase.
She rested her hand on it. She’d set it on her dresser top a few hours ago when she started packing. She looked down at it, her reflection in the mirror creating a double image. She opened the clasps and lifted the lid.
When she’d withdrawn her and Tom’s savings account, she asked the bank clerk to give her the fifty thousand dollars in twenties. They now lay in the briefcase in neat bundles.
She looked at them, their very presence seeming to bring her confidence back up. Fifty thousand dollars. It wasn’t a lot—surely not enough to keep her and Andy away from them for a very long time. But with what she had in mind, she was sure it would be more than enough to float them for a while. Maybe a year, possibly more if they settled in a place where the cost of living was cheap. Hopefully there would be a substantial amount left over for her to invest if her plan worked out right. Either way, this money was their only chance in making the escape go as smooth as possible.
She closed the briefcase and locked it. She put it on the bed next to the small duffel bag with their belongings and checked her purse. Everything was in order. She turned to the mirror and gave herself one last look before she set the wheels in motion. Her reflection stared back at her; thirty years old, chestnut brown hair that fell straight to her shoulders, small but ample breasts that hadn’t lost an inch of their firmness. Her figure was now hourglass shaped; no matter how loose fitting her jeans were, they hugged every inch of her hips. She’d gained some weight within the last year, but she was by no means overweight. She’d been skinny two years ago; very unhealthy. She’d been smoking far too much pot, dropping far too much acid, and doing God knew what else—sometimes coke, more often heroin, which she’d gotten hooked on. Thank God she’d been able to reel herself back into sanity. If it weren’t for that she wouldn’t have been able to see reality.
She wouldn’t have been able to see them for what they really were.
With everything in order, she slung her purse over her shoulder, picked up the duffel bag and briefcase, and headed out of the bedroom toward the garage. She had to maneuver down the hall and through the living room into the laundry room to get there, but she made it. She didn’t even turn on the garage light; she put the bag and the briefcase on the floor, fished for the keys, and opened the driver’s passenger side by feeling around for the familiar door. When she got the door open the dome light was enough to work by.
She stowed the duffel bag and briefcase on the front passenger seat. She put her purse on top of them, and then opened the back door. She went back through the house to Andy’s bedroom. He was conked out, his body lying sideways across the bed. She gently slid her right arm beneath his shoulders, her left beneath his legs behind the knees and lifted him up. He wasn’t as heavy as she thought he’d be. With continued sobriety comes strength, she thought, as she carried Andy out of the bedroom and into the garage. He stirred once, when she tried to gently slide him into the backseat. His eyes fluttered briefly. “Mommy, where are we going?” he mumbled sleepily.
“We’re just going on a little trip,” she whispered. She laid him down across the backseat, and then pulled the Afghan that Gladys Robles had knitted for her two years ago and covered him up with it. He was asleep again instantly.
How does he just fall asleep like that? She managed a slight smile at her sleeping son, and headed back into the house to make sure everything was okay. She ran through everything in her mind again like clockwork, ticking everything off; she had clothes, traveling essentials, car keys, and the money. The house was securely locked. Tom wasn’t due back from Chicago until Thursday night, one week from today. She couldn’t take the chance that she and Andy would be discovered missing when he returned home. Countless other possibilities could take place; Gladys and Henry could drop by for an unexpected visit; Meg Carr could call for another one of her monotonous gossip chats; one of Tom’s bosses could call. What was more likely to happen was that Tom would call tomorrow night, and by the following day would become alarmed when his calls were not answered. He would send somebody to the house. That’s when the manhunt would begin.
That gave her and Andy thirty-six hours to get as far away as possible.
She headed back into the garage and closed the door behind her. The dome light illuminated the way to the car, and she slid into the driver’s seat and closed the door. She sat behind the wheel for a moment, a nervous flutter beginning to rise in her belly. Come on, let’s get going! If you sit here any longer you really are going to lose your nerve and then you’ll never leave!
She inserted the key in the ignition and started the car. Then she pressed the button on the garage door opener that was clipped to the visor and winced as the mechanism groaned and stuttered. She looked out the rearview mirror at the dark silence of her neighborhood and slowly backed out of the garage. When the car was out she stopped briefly to check her surroundings; at three a.m., Puffin Avenue in Fountain Valley, California was deserted. A middle-class suburb chiseled between Huntington Beach and Garden Grove, it perched at the beginning of acres of orange groves and strawberry fields. The cul-de-sac she and Tom lived on lay on the outskirts of about a dozen similar cul-de-sacs. With the exception of the nearby San Diego freeway and the suburbs to the north, to the east was nothing but fields.
Satisfied that all was quiet, she closed the garage door. It rumbled down the track and she didn’t back down the driveway until it was closed. Only then did she feel safe enough to leave.
The Vega Hatchback was the only car out on Talbert Avenue that early morning when Maggie Swanson finally escaped from her husband Tom and the reign of terror that had been her life for the past ten years.
THEY’D BEEN ON the road for five hours when Andy finally woke up. The early morning sunlight was streaming through the windshield from the east as Maggie headed down Interstate 10. “Mom, where are we?”
She glanced into the rearview mirror at him. He’d raised himself on his elbows and was looking sleepy-eyed at her from the backseat. His hair was in disarray. He began looking around the car and out the window, as if unsure if he was really awake or still dreaming in sleep.
“We’re almost in Blythe,” Maggie said. Her hands gripped the steering wheel. She’d been mentally preparing herself for when Andy woke up and for the inevitable questions that were sure to follow.
“We’re out in the desert!” Andy’s voice was more awake sounding now.
“Yes, we’re out in the desert.”
“Where are we going?”
“On a little trip.”
“To where?”
“To wherever you want to go.”
She stole another glance at him in the rearview mirror. He was looking out at the rolling tumbleweed and cacti. “But… why?”
“Because we need to get away for awhile.”
Andy looked at her. She tried to meet his gaze. “But what about Daddy?”
“Daddy’s in Chicago, honey.”
“I know, but is he going to meet us?”
“No, he’s not.”
Andy appeared to think about this. His remarkable gray eyes were dark in concentration as his little forehead wrinkled in thought about this sudden predicament. He didn’t look at all like Tom, who wasn’t Andy’s natural father. From what Maggie remembered, Andy’s father had been tall with dark hair and equally dark, piercing eyes. She’d been blasted out of her mind the night he was conceived, in some row house on Haight and Ashbury in San Francisco. Three months later, Maggie and the rest of the Children had made a pilgrimage to the Middle East for a spiritual awakening, and that’s when she’d found out she was pregnant. The commune had been incredibly supportive and loving and had nurtured her through the remaining months of her pregnancy. Andy had been born in a little village in Iraq, and the commune had returned to the US a month later.
Maggie kept her eyes on the road, but stole occasional glances at her son in the rearview mirror. She was getting hungry. Blythe was another thirty miles ahead. Perhaps a quick breakfast, and then a trip to the nearest used car trade-in dealership, and then she and Andy could be hitting the road again by ten. That would give them all day.
“How come Daddy isn’t going to meet us?”
She glanced back at Andy in the rearview mirror. He was looking at her intently, sitting up now. He’d thrown the Afghan off and sat in the backseat impassively. Waiting for an answer.
“Daddy isn’t coming on this trip because this trip is just for you and Mommy.”
“Oh.” That appeared to throw him for a loop, but it didn’t last long. He looked at her uncertainly, slow realization dawning on his features. God, but the kid was sharp. “Did you and Daddy have a fight again?”
Maggie sighed. She’d hoped this would be the questioning he would take. She felt relieved. “Yes,” she said, glancing at Andy every now and then as she talked to him. “I’m sorry about… what happened last week. You know your Daddy’s been working hard at the office and is always on those business trips. But the fact of the matter is… well… you saw how he was treating us…”
Andy nodded. His features solemn.
“And you saw how… well… it hurt me, Andy. Your father and I have talked about it over and over again, he’s always told me that he was going to get help but he never has. And he never will. He just buries himself in his work, and I know it’s important to him. I know he’s just working so hard so we can have such a nice house and live in a nice neighborhood.” She sought her son’s gaze in the rearview mirror. He looked at her. “But he’s in so deep he doesn’t know what’s real anymore. And the more I try to bring him out, the more I try to get him to… pay attention to the fact that he has a family, he gets angry. And sometimes he… blows up.” She chose her words carefully, treading softly for the full effect. “Like what he did last month.”
“That was the only time he got mad and hit you, though,” Andy said.
“No, it wasn’t,” Maggie said. They were approaching a sign that read BLYTHE, POPULATION 15,355; FIFTEEN MILES. Traffic on Interstate 10 was relatively light. “He’s hit me on more than one occasion. He used to do it when you weren’t around. So you wouldn’t see. When he did it that last time… when you saw it…” She looked in the rearview mirror and met his gaze. He looked like he was ready to cry. “…that was the last straw. I told myself that I would never allow him to do that to me in front of you ever again. But I think what I wanted most of all was to pull us out of… that world he created for us. One in which I wasn’t happy, you weren’t happy, and Daddy and me were always fighting and making you sad. I didn’t want that for you any more.” She glanced at him in the rearview. Tears were streaming down his cheeks. “Do you understand, honey?”
He nodded, cheeks red, bottom lip quivering. His chest hitched with a sob. “I’m sorry Daddy hit you Mommy!”
“I’m sorry too, Andy,” Maggie said softly. She turned her attention to the road. They were approaching the outskirts of Blythe. She began keeping a watch for a McDonald’s or a Denny’s somewhere off the Interstate.
“I don’t want us to make Daddy feel bad if we leave him!” Andy sobbed.
“We won’t make him feel bad, honey.” Now she faced the simultaneous task of calming Andy down and finding a suitable eatery for their morning breakfast.
“Yes we will!” Andy cried. He sat in the back seat and cried while Maggie kept her eyes peeled for somewhere to pull off. She was already beginning to get tired.
Golden arches loomed ahead, towering over a Ford and Chevrolet sign dotting the highway. She pulled off the Interstate and looked at Andy in the rearview mirror. “You hungry, sport?”
Andy’s cries had turned to sniffles, but he nodded nonetheless. He rubbed his red-rimmed eyes.
“How’s McDonald’s grab you?”
He nodded again, the waterworks evaporating. McDonald’s had the strangest effect on kids nowadays. The place hadn’t even existed when she was his age, and even when she was in high school they were no more than roadside hamburger stands. Now they had clown mascots. What was the world coming to?
“Great!” She pulled off the road and the McDonald’s loomed ahead. She pulled into the fast food outlet’s parking lot and killed the engine. Then she turned to the backseat with a smile. “I could go for some of those pancakes and sausages. How ’bout you?”
“And a chocolate shake!”
“Two chocolate shakes!” She reached out and began playfully tickling him. That got him laughing and squirming in the backseat. Brought him back to being a normal eight-year old boy.
“Last one out’s a rotten egg!” she cried.
He squealed and fumbled for the door handle. She opened the car door and got out just as he flew out of the car, slammed the door and began running toward the entrance to the fast food restaurant. She closed her door, smiling as she trotted after him.
That McDonald’s breakfast of pancakes, sausages, and chocolate shakes was the best one they had had in a long time.
IT WASN’T UNTIL they were a good two hours past the New Mexico border that Maggie Swanson had a chance to collect her thoughts. Interstate 10 rolled in front of her like a black, lolling tongue. The desert plains were sunburned; red and glowing in the early evening sunset. She yawned. Behind her in the back seat, Andy lay stretched out napping. With the exception of one stop at a roadside rest stop two hours outside of Phoenix to pee and gas up, they had been driving ever since.
Almost ten hours.
She’d been lucky to get a car with air conditioning. It was scorching hot outside, and when they pulled into Blythe earlier that morning she could tell it was going to be a brutally hot day. She figured she could get at least five hundred dollars credit as a trade-in on the Vega, but she had plenty of cash in the briefcase. Before they left the McDonald’s she opened the briefcase, took out a couple of bundles of twenties, and put them in her purse. It was from this bundle that she paid for the car—a 1970 model Oldsmobile Cutlass. It was bigger than the Vega, but it had power steering, brakes, and air conditioning. And it had an AM/FM radio system, too. The dealer had gladly taken Maggie’s Vega as trade-in with the four thousand dollars cash, and after she signed the paperwork over they’d left. Her next plan was to hit El Paso by the next evening, cross over into Juarez, Mexico the next day and trade the Cutlass in for another vehicle—one that would be untraceable. The Oldsmobile dealership in Blythe would have the transfer paperwork at their office should Tom track her and Andy there despite her efforts to not alert the DMV to the sale of the car. She didn’t have the luxury of a fake identification. Mexico would solve that, she hoped.
So far the first day of the drive had gone fairly well. After leaving Blythe, Andy had sat in the front seat for a while reading his comic books, fiddling with the radio. She was glad he’d grown sleepy and retired to the back seat for a nap. If she had to hear Terry Jacks’ “Seasons in the Sun” one more time she was going to scream.
If all went well by this time tomorrow they’d be in the Texas heartland. They’d be in an untraceable car, and with the cash she had they wouldn’t have to rely on the use of her driver’s license to check into motel rooms. She wouldn’t need the credit cards. Besides, she only intended to check into the most out-of-the-way motels in the most remote towns they drove through. The group may be powerful, but they surely couldn’t stretch their tentacles that far. Once Tom discovered she and Andy were gone, Sam Garrison would be notified immediately. He would most likely alert what representatives they had in the major cities; Chicago, Las Vegas, Seattle, New York, Washington D.C., Boston, Miami. They were still spreading, and their numbers could very well spread within the next few years. Until then, she and Andy had to stay clear of the big cities.
It was a combination of her continuing sobriety and her realization of what she had gotten herself into when she sold her soul to them that caused her to take Andy and flee. But what really clinched it was what they intended to do with Andy. Tom had brought it up to her three weeks ago. She’d been appalled, but she couldn’t let Tom see it. She’d been making dinner when he mentioned it to her. Andy had been outside with Neil Lacher playing Dinosaurs. Maggie’s back had been turned to her husband as she mixed the casserole, so he didn’t see the expression on her face. Instead, she’d quickly composed herself and said, “I think you’re right. When do you think would be a good time?”
“I was thinking we could bring him in when he reaches thirteen,” he’d said, matter-of-factly. The Wall Street Journal had been opened in front of him on the kitchen table. “He’s eight now and we’ve already done the necessary preparations before we entered him in kindergarten. Let’s give him a chance to be a kid for awhile.”
Maggie grimaced as she remembered that conversation. She wondered if the boy would be scarred from before, from when she was so deep into the drugs and the counter-culture scene when they were living in the Bay Area. All kinds of strange people had walked in and out of their lives, and they’d had one close call back then that she didn’t like to think about now. Of course, he’d been young when that happened, barely a toddler. But he’d been exposed nonetheless. It certainly appeared that those times hadn’t affected him. By all means he was a normal eight-year old boy. He had no bad dreams, no violent mood swings. And with the exception of the occasional temper tantrum, he rarely flew into a rage over the most trivial things the way she heard victims of psychological abuse often did. She was certain Andy was a victim of psychological abuse; it was the only term she could think of to explain what he’d been exposed to.
Depravities.
But it had been at least four years since he’d been exposed to anything. The bigger the group got, the more they relied on secrecy. Plus, as Sam explained, those early years of exposing Andy to their activities were crucial. He ordered the boy to be watched by a sitter whenever the group got together now, but he must have still suffered some form of psychological tampering. After all, from the time he was four until just recently she had been a functioning heroin addict, despite the fact that she and Gladys Robles had cut themselves off from the hippies they’d hung out with. As Tom had explained, they were quickly moving out of the underground to the mainstream. The seeds had been sown and they needed to bear fruit. Between then and now, they had to assume the mask of normalcy. With that came a promotion for Tom at General Computer Systems. Maggie had gotten a job as a secretary at a law firm.
But she still retained the lifestyle she and Tom had led. Only she’d gotten deeper. Pot and LSD had been frequent indulgences when they lived in San Francisco and were ingrained with the hippie scene, and even though they got out of that social circle she couldn’t stop doing the drugs. Despite her change of appearance—trading in her bell-bottom jeans, paisley shirts and free flowing dresses for a business suit and skirts—she couldn’t go a day without a hit of something. And with her discovery of heroin it had only gotten worse. She’d still managed to get up every day and maintain some semblance of a normal working woman, but the people she interacted with could tell something was amiss. And when she’d gone through withdrawals six hours into her self-induced cold turkey kick of the habit three years ago, she realized she was in deeper than she would have thought. It had taken her another year and a half to finally kick her habit for good. But she did it herself. And she did it slowly, so as not to alert Tom and the others. Because even though narcotics use wasn’t promoted within the group, it wasn’t discouraged either. And because she felt that others thought of her as lesser than them, the “breeder,” her drug abuse wasn’t intercepted. In fact, she had the feeling they supplied her with the smack to keep her in a permanent state of denial. Nobody would believe a drug addict.
She had to be careful when she finally weaned herself off drugs. By the time she was fully clean, they were living in Fountain Valley. Gloria and Henry Robles lived in a nice neighborhood a mile away, near Huntington Beach, with Gloria’s son Frank. A few other members were scattered around Orange County, some near the Santa Ana Mountains, but others were still situated in the Los Angeles area. Many more were still in the Bay Area. Samuel Garrison was headquartered there. Not to mention the close to one thousand members scattered across the country. But with their own local group she fared pretty well. She continued the meetings, handled some of the affairs, and worked a lot of behind-the-scenes administrative work. Tom usually worked that angle. After all, she had Andy to take care of.
That was her most important job.
The sun was almost gone now, the New Mexico sky dark and sullen. It would be dark in fifteen minutes. She looked at the map spread out next to her on the seat and noted that the next town was only ten miles away. She looked up at the road ahead of her, passing a FOOD, GAS, LODGING sign on her right. A motel. They could stay there for the night.
When she finally pulled into the parking lot of the motel—a small, weathered building consisting of a dozen cabins placed in a horseshoe around the main office—she was already beginning to feel that, despite the wrath she was sure to face from the group, she was certain she and Andy would escape. They had to. For his sake, for her sake, they had to escape undetected.
Because if they didn’t they would kill her. They’d never kill Andy, but they’d surely kill her. Without hesitation.
She sat in the car for a moment after killing the engine, listening to the ticking of the engine as it cooled down. The sound of traffic from Interstate 10 rose to her ears. If it weren’t for her getting sober, she wouldn’t have gathered her senses. Wouldn’t have suddenly found herself in the real world. Seen the insane theories and beliefs for what they were. She looked into the back seat at Andy, who was slowly beginning to stir. A normal boy by all accounts, no matter what they believed. Andrew Swanson was normal, not what they said he was, what they claimed he was. And it was because of the insanity of their assertions as to what Andy was, their hideous plans for him that caused Maggie to finally bolt from them in the first place. God help him if she hadn’t.
Andy sat up in the back seat and groggily rubbed his eyes. “Where are we?”
“We’re stopping for the night,” Maggie said. “We’re in New Mexico.”
“Oh.”
And as they walked to the motel lobby with their meager belongings to get a room for the night, Maggie began to look at the future for the first time with a sense of hope.