The Eye of God

Illustration by Alan Giana

The coral-reeds’ agitation alerted her. Etienne came out onto the porch of her cottage to watch three Rethe wade through the thick blue-green stems. From this distance, they could have been three tall women, as human as herself. The coral-reeds stirred at their passage, the anxious rasp of their stems like distant whispering—words at the bare edge of comprehension.

She had never expected to see Rethe here. Etienne swallowed, fighting back memories that she had banished years ago. For a moment she entertained the hope that this visit was a mistake, or some kind of minor bureaucratic ritual.

She knew better.

Abruptly, she turned on her heel, and went inside to make tea. The Rethe would drink tea. That much at least humanity knew about them.

Etienne filled the teapot and arranged fruit-flavored gels on a plate. She had bought them in the shabby squatter village that had grown up around the Gate. Vat-grown in someone’s back yard as masses of amorphous cells, the orange and ruby cubes bore no resemblance to apricot or cherries except taste. The plants on this world—or sessile animals that photosynthesized—did not bear fruit. She missed apples the most—crisp and tart after a frost. Vilya had bought her a miniature apple tree in a pot. For their balcony. It was a winesap—a true genetic antique. She had never gone back for it.

Etienne realized that she was arranging and rearranging the gels on their plate, and took her hand away. Outside, the reeds rustled softly. The squatters ate them—cracked their silicaceous stems and sucked out the flesh inside. They turned your urine orange, but they didn’t make you sick.

She had never eaten one. Sometimes Etienne entertained the fantasy that that was the reason for the whispering meadow of the creatures that had formed around her cottage. Anthropomorphism, she thought. A seductive danger, in her profession as interpreter of aliens.

Her former profession.

Angry at herself for this lapse into yesterday, Etienne picked up the tray of tea, gels, and utensils. The Rethe were waiting for her on the shaded porch. Politely. Patiently. They nodded in unison as she came through the door, and Etienne froze. Memory was optional. Life went on for a long time, and yesterdays gathered like dust in the cramped vault of the human skull. You could go to a reputable body shop and have a well-trained tech in sterile greens sweep it all away. Or, for more money, you could have them sweep out only selected bits. Memory could be tucked, tightened, and tailored, as easily as any other part of the body.

She had never chosen to excise Vilya from her memory. Etienne set the tray down on the small table so hard that tea slopped over beneath the pot’s lid. Staring at the smallest of the Rethe—the one who stood at the rear, right on the boundary between shade and searing sun—Etienne wished suddenly that she had done so.

First real contact with an alien species, the Rethe disturbed humanity. Not because they were creepy nightmares or incomprehensible monsters. That might have been easier to take. But they looked utterly human. And utterly female, although each individual possessed three X and three Y chromosomes. Gender was one of the many things about themselves that the Rethe refused to discuss. All humans and Rethe were referred to as “it” in translated conversation.

The small Rethe whose wide face was slashed by sun and shadow looked utterly like Vilya.

Etienne looked down at the amber puddle soaking into the napkins she had laid out on the tray. “Would you care for tea?”

The oldest of the Rethe—at least her… his?… face looked oldest—extended a hand, palm up. A small iridescent vial lay on her… his?… palm.

She, Etienne decided as she scowled at the vial. They were all she, and to hell with their chromosomal makeup. The vial contained a fungus that would infiltrate her ear canal, growing mycocelia through her skull within minutes to interface directly with her brain. A translator, it was a bit of Rethe bio-tech, and as yet incomprehensible. But necessary. Because the Rethe weren’t about to share their language, or waste their time learning humanity’s dialects. The Rethe was waiting silently, her eyes on Etienne’s face, smiling.

Impatient behind that smile. “No need.” Etienne arched an eyebrow. “I was infected nearly two decades ago. As you must surely know, if you checked me out at all.”

The eldest Rethe bowed, still smiling. Dropped the vial into a pocket in her loose robe. “I hope you will pardon our intrusion.”

“You’re pardoned.” Etienne began to fill mugs. “So why are you here?”

“Retirement from public service must provide many benefits.” The Rethe lifted her steaming mug in a small salute. “Not the least of which is the privilege to be rude.”

“I didn’t retire. I quit. Yes, I’m rude.” Etienne sat down in the only chair and smiled up at the Rethe. Waiting.

For several minutes the Rethe sipped their tea, their expressions relaxed and appreciative, as if they had come all this way in the hot sun to savor her cheap tea, bought from the squatters. But their impatience hummed in the air and made the nearest coral-reeds shiver.

At last, the eldest Rethe sank gracefully to the fabbed-wood planks of the porch and folded her legs into lotus position. “I am Grik.” She nodded at the two Rethe behind her. “Rnn and Zynth.”

Zynth was the one who might have been Vilya’s twin. Etienne turned her eyes away as that one sat down. The loose garments that the Rethe wore hinted at solid bone and sleek, thickly muscled bodies. Peasant body, Vilya used to say of her stocky form. Etienne clenched her teeth and made a show of arranging her caftan. “Since I am entitled to be rude, why are you here?”

“To hire you.” Grik reached for a cherry gel. “It is a matter of rescue.”

“I… am no longer a registered empath. As you obviously know. And I retired from Search and Rescue last year.” Etienne offered the plate of gels to the other two Rethe. The one called Rynn declined with a smile and nod. Zynth gave her boss a quick apprehensive look and took an orange cube.

“And I’m not for hire in any case.” Etienne put the plate down on the table with a decisive thump. The girl’s diffident air annoyed her. “I’m sorry you wasted your time coming here.”

Grik lifted her left hand, palm up, tilted it in a pouring gesture.

Etienne interpreted a shrug from the emotional context. As she reached for her mug of tea, she noticed that Zynth had closed her hand into a fist. Orange gel leaked between her white-knuckled fingers, and the reeds rustled at her anguish.

Basic emotion seemed to be such a universal language, Etienne thought bitterly. Pleasure, anger, pain, and fear. Reeds, and humans, and Rethe. Etienne looked at Grik, who was smiling gently.

“Your superior at the Interface Center referred us to you,” she said. “It told us that you were the best empath it had worked with.”

“That was long ago.” It jolted her that he would remember. He had been angry when she had quit to work for Search and Rescue.

“It said it was time someone reminded you.” She shrugged. “I do not understand what it meant.”

Anton. Colonel Xyrus Anton, chief of the Interface Team—the euphemism for the human negotiators with the aloof Rethe. Etienne looked out at the reeds bathing and feeding in the planet’s young hot sun. We need you, he had yelled at her when she had turned in her resignation. We need every edge we can get against the Rethe. We never really believed that we’d meet a species more advanced than us. Not in our gut. Look what it’s doing to us. Our morale as a race is eroding all over the planet. This is a war, and we need to win. “I don’t understand either,” she murmured. “But it doesn’t matter.”

“One of your… creators of art became a friend to one of our people.” Grik went on as if Etienne hadn’t spoken. “Its sincerity was apparently impressive. So that one offered it access to a world we have not opened to your species.”

“You haven’t opened many worlds to us.”

The Rethe did the pouring-gesture again. “The art-creator was lost there in a tragic accident.”

“There are several registered empaths working for Search and Rescue.” Etienne watched the Rethe narrowly. “Why me? We are back to that question.”

“According to your datafile, you are a very intelligent human.” Grik placed her hands palm up on her thighs, her eyes shifting very slightly toward the young Zynth. “Do I truly need to answer this question for you?”

Zynth sat with her head bowed, pale, her anguish an almost palpable mist. The reeds had inched away from her, leaving a semicircle of clear soil beyond her. Etienne knew suddenly who had invited the artist onto a forbidden world.

“You closely control the Gates—allow us onto only a few poor planets. Like this one. Only the culls for us humans, eh? And you won’t transport extraction technology for us—in the name of environmental concern.” Etienne turned back to Grik, teeth bared. “We accept that limitation because you awed us. And because we can’t operate the Gates without you.” She smiled. “If you go to a registered empath, the media will surely find out about this… art-creator. And interview him or her. The grass is always greener in someone else’s pasture, and now you’ve let one of us through the fence. We’re quite an envious bunch, and we don’t stay awed very long.” She grinned and reached for a cherry gel. “A species trait, I’m afraid. People will begin to clamor for admittance to these wonderful forbidden worlds and there will be friction. Since our treaty with you is up for renewal this year, friction could be… a problem. Thus, you come to an unregistered empath, hoping to keep the media out of it.”

The Rethe turned her hands palm down. “We will pay you well,” she said. “Ending a life—even accidentally—is no trivial matter to us.”

Etienne stole a glance at Zynth. She was looking at Etienne now, fear and desperate hope like a violin note humming on the hot, dusty air. The reeds quivered to its song, and Etienne sighed. “I will not take any money,” she said, and wondered how much she was going to regret this.

A synskin habitat had been anchored to a wide terrace cut into a cliff. Below, dark water lapped at the roots of worn ancient mountains. They were capped and streaked with a white deposit that looked more like guano than snow. But it wasn’t the severely beautiful landscape that held Etienne’s attention. It was the moon. Huge, bloated, haloed by a pink mist, it floated above the horizon. An irregular brown blotch in the center of the blue and white orb gave it the appearance of a giant, unwinking eye. Beautiful, she thought. Unforgiving. And she shivered, although her light thermal suit kept her warm enough. The habitat shivered too, straining against its anchors.

Behind her, invisible and undetectable to any human tech, lay a Rethe Gateway. Zynth had brought them through. A dozen steps could take Etienne back to summer heat and whispering coral-reeds. But only if Zynth escorted her. The bio-engineering of the Gates didn’t work for humans.

This was humanity’s humiliation. That the Rethe could walk across the galaxy unhindered and in moments. Human technology didn’t so much lag behind—it was as extinct as the dinosaurs. And it left humanity obedient to the Rethe—for the price of the Gateways that the Rethe opened for them. Once, she had been one of the negotiators. They had staffed the Interface Team with empaths, hoping for an edge, a clue as to how the Rethe could be met as equals. It hadn’t yet happened. With each renewed Treaty, humanity lost a little more ground, granted a few more concessions. Eventually, they’ll own us, Etienne thought cynically. For the price of a few mediocre planets.

Vilya had been fascinated by the Rethe. She had understood them far better than Etienne ever would.

A sudden gust of wind shoved Etienne so that she staggered. That invisible doorway behind her seemed less than real beneath the inhuman scrutiny of that planetary eye. I do not want to be here, she thought.

“The Eye of God.” Zynth’s voice was clear and high.

She would sing mezzo. Like Vilya. “I wish it would close.” Etienne tensed as Zynth laid a gentle hand on her arm. “Please don’t touch me.” She shook her off.

“Are you well?” Zynth’s dark eyes were full of concern.

“Yes, yes, I’m fine.” Etienne let her breath out in a rush. “Why couldn’t we have come here at the beginning of the day?” She glowered at the girl, needing to be angry at her, because no emotion except anger was safe. “It’s too dark to search. Why spend the night here?”

“I… am required to be here.” Zynth’s eyes evaded hers. “Until the artist is found. All life is sacred, and I permitted it to be put at risk. This is a place of truth. Beneath the Eye of God, I must face my failure. Can you understand?’ She spread her fingers wide. “But I can open the Gateway for you. You may go back to your home and return in fifteen hours. It will be dawn then. I am thoughtless.” She raised her face to the bloated moon. “There is no need for you to be here.”

“I’ll stay.” Etienne turned her back on that unsettling orb, realizing that she had offered to stay because Zynth was afraid. “Who named that thing, anyway? I’d call it the Dead Eye, myself.” Etienne stomped over to their habitat, ignoring Zynth’s shocked silence. “Why don’t you tell me how this person got lost—and where?” She knelt and shoved her way into the sphinctered opening. The transparent smart-plastic squeezed her body gently as she crawled through, blocking out the wind, but not the judgmental stare of the Eye. It’s a moon, she told herself. A planetoid with weird coloring. But she couldn’t deny her relief as she touched the light strip and warm yellow fight subdued its glare. “We need to plan our search for the morning,” she said as Zynth crawled through the sphincter after her.

As the Rethe began to take off her thermal suit, Etienne pulled a sleeping bag over against the wall and wrapped it around her. Like armor. The sculpted curves of Zynth’s muscled arms and shoulders showed through her undershirt. It was warm in here. Thermal fibers were woven into the shell, and Etienne was sweating in her own suit. But she was damned if she’d strip, too.

“I will tell you,” Zynth said in a low voice. “It is my shame.” She flung herself onto her own bag with a grace so much like Vilya’s that Etienne’s throat closed.

“So I guessed,” she managed, felt immediately guilty as Zynth flinched.

“I met him at our embassy in New Amsterdam.” Propped on her elbows, she kept her eyes on the floor. “He had been hired to create several visual environments for the conference center there. The environments… moved me. We talked a lot. And one evening I told him about the Eye of Truth, and the song of this place. He… asked me to bring him here. The seeing mattered to his soul, so I did.” She clenched one fist slowly. “I returned to find this camp empty. Duran was gone. I do not know… “Shit!” Etienne slammed her fist down on the synskin floor.

Zynth’s eyes widened. “I… I am sorry,” she stammered, her cheeks flaming. “Grik said that you were… friends.”

This was Duran’s bloody camp! He had slept here, breathed the air in here. Etienne got abruptly to her feet, afraid she might catch his scent, some trace of his physical presence. I hope he fell over the damn cliff, she thought savagely. She lifted her head to face the bloated eye staring at her through the shuddering walls of the habitat. That’s the truth, she told it silently.

“Etienne, please. I apologize.” The anguish in Zynth’s voice pierced her.

“Apologize?’ Etienne laughed, winced at the cracked sound, and stared down at the kneeling Rethe. “What for?”

Tears streaked Zynth’s face and she looked frightened. “For referring to its… status,” she whispered. “He… it… told me that it had been the giver for a child. And I thought that because you were its friend, you must know.” She bowed from the waist until her forehead rested on the floor at Etienne’s feet. “I was wrong to be so familiar.”

“Sit up. I knew he… fathered a child.” Tight-lipped, Etienne turned away, met the Eye’s stare. “I knew very well, thank you. You can call him he, or it, or whatever you want. It was his name that startled me. That’s all.”

“But he is a friend?” Zynth asked eagerly. “That will make it easier for you to find him, perhaps?”

The Eye’s stare prodded her and Etienne licked her lips. “I didn’t expect to run into him again,” she said shortly. Not if she could help it anyway. Interesting that Grik hadn’t mentioned his name, since she obviously knew of Etienne’s connection to Duran. “So Duran talked you into bringing him here, and you got in trouble for it. That sounds like Duran. Always the opportunist.”

“It wasn’t… like that.” Zynth stared at the floor between her knees, her face stricken.

Almost without volition, Etienne reached across the space between them to brush wisps of dark hair from her face. “I’m not angry at you.” She let her breath out in a slow sigh. “Really.”

“I should never have told it about… the Eye.”

“Him.” Etienne’s lips were tight. “Say him.”

“Him.” Head bowed, Zynth spoke so softly that Etienne could barely make out her words. “He… said that he would translate the Eye into sound and vision… so that you might know it, too. And… I could see the light of the Eye shining in his face as he spoke. So I… opened the door for him, even though it is forbidden. And then I came back for him and… he was no longer here.” She raised her head at last, and her face was composed now. “He could not have passed the Gateway, so he must have fallen. I told Grik.”

“Because the Eye was watching?”

“Because life is sacred.” Zynth drew herself up straight, then hesitated. “And yes.” She bowed her head. “Because the Eye watches.”

Etienne sighed. “Will you be punished?”

“This is my punishment.”

She was afraid. Fear was such a universal. Even the coral-reeds felt fear. “It’s just a moon.” Etienne put her arm around Zynth’s shoulders. “Duran is careless.” Careless enough to have cost Vilya her life. “If he fell, it’s his own fault.”

Zynth flinched at her tone. “I just… I have never been… in danger.” She began to tremble. “That is one of the things I like most about your race. There are so many of you,” she said in a nearly inaudible voice. “Is that why you can all walk down the street, have jobs, do things? It… he… Duran told me how he climbed up the sides of mountains. He risked himself!”

“Huh?” I should have a recorder, Etienne thought dizzily. We don’t know any of this. “I don’t understand,” she said.

“He is a… giver.” She blushed. “A breeder? Is that your word? Grik said that because so many of you can create life, none of you really matter to each other.” She eyed Etienne apprehensively. “But you can go with anyone you wish, do anything you want, even risk yourself—just like any it of our people. True?”

“We matter to each other. Some of us matter a lot.” Was love a universal, like fear? Etienne touched Zynth’s cheek lightly. “Can’t your people go with anyone they wish?”

“The ones who are it can.” She hunched her shoulders. “The… few who are he or she…” She blushed. “…We love. But we can love only one of the cooperative expression. It can be no other way. We… are the jewels of our people, treasured by all. We are tomorrow.”

We. Etienne was beginning to understand. “What you’re saying is that very few of you can breed?” Secretive as they were about their culture, the Rethe were more than open about their physical attributes. They seemed to be potentially hermaphroditic for all their feminine form. Which troubled humanity even more than their female appearance, Etienne thought cynically. Zynth’s blush had deepened. Obviously, reproduction was not a topic of casual conversation.

“I’m sorry. I don’t mean to embarrass you.” Etienne ruffled her hair lightly, then took her hand quickly away. That was how she had touched Vilya when she needed to be teased from one of her dark moods. Beyond the flimsy wall, the Eye glared, reminding her that Duran was here and that this was not Vilya. Did she know that he was lost? Etienne wondered suddenly. Duran’s daughter?

Vilya’s daughter, too.

As if that thought had conjured Duran, she felt him. Or someone. The jagged note of human pain and despair pierced her briefly, then faded, dissipating like smoke in a breeze. Etienne turned, automatically groping to pinpoint the source, responding with years of search and rescue practice. But it had been too brief, too weak, for her to be sure of more than a vague direction.

“What is it? Do you sense him?” Zynth’s hands came up, fingers stiffly together. “He is alive? Oh please, he is still alive?”

“Yes.” Etienne looked up to meet the Eye’s stark gaze. “He’s alive. And injured. I don’t know how badly.”

“He must live.” Zynth leaned forward to clutch Etienne’s hand. ‘Your biotechnology is quite good, really. We will find him, and your people will heal him. Where is he?”

“Out there.” Etienne nodded at the cliff edge. “I couldn’t get an accurate position,” she said stifily. Zynth smelled of cinnamon, with a musky undertone that was unfamiliar, but not repulsive. Not like Vilya at all.

“We will climb down, and then you can hear him better.” Zynth began to rummage urgently in the pack she had brought through the Gateway. “Here.” She handed Etienne a tangle of neon blue webbing. “You know how to put this on, yes?”

A climbing harness. “You’ve pried into my entire damn life, haven’t you?” Etienne clenched her fingers around the supple webbing, wanting to throw it across the chamber. “I don’t climb any more,” she said between clenched teeth.

“Grik did the research.” Zynth put on her thermal suit, and began to don a second harness. She moved clumsily. “You know how. I do not. We cannot use a floater because of the wind.”

“If you don’t know how to climb, then no way you go over that edge.” Etienne crossed her arms.

“It will be safe.” Zynth reached for the pack. “We will anchor the line to the top of the cliff. And you will be with me. So I am not afraid at all.” Her smile filled her face with beauty. Vilya’s face had been filled with the same beauty on that long ago morning when she had propped herself on one elbow in Etienne’s bed and whispered I think I love you. They had both been so young. So sure.

“No.” Etienne swallowed, fighting the images. “Open the Gate for me. I’m leaving. I won’t be responsible for your death. Life is sacred to me, too, damn it!”

For a moment, Zynth faced her, head thrown back, face burning with defiance and Vilya’s beauty. Then her shoulders slumped, and she turned away. “All right, I’ll stay,” she whispered, and her hands quivered with defeat. “I am afraid to go without you. Will you go down?”

Etienne nodded and crawled out of the habitat, with Zynth on her heels. Bending into the gusty wind, she snapped the clasps on her harness. Her fingers were trembling. I will get you for this night, she promised Grik silently. Somehow, some day, I will pay you back for doing this to me. Lips tight, she took the anchor drill that Zynth handed her.

“Can you hear him?’ Zynth peered over her shoulder as Etienne drilled the anchor into the gray stone well back from the cliff edge.

The rock wanted to fracture. Bad stone for an anchor point, but there wasn’t anything better. “I’ll listen when I can concentrate.” Satisfied at last that the anchor would hold, she threaded the tough thin rope through it and tied it off to her harness.

It moved in her hands and she almost dropped it. Bio-fibers, she realized. Another bit of Rethe biotechnology. The rope was woven of thousands of living fibers that could heal minor injuries and responded to direct stimuli such as stress. She tugged once on the rope, then stepped deliberately to the lip of the chasm. For a heartbeat she hesitated, reluctant to trust herself to this ahen rope. Then the wind gusted fiercely, and she swayed with it, leaning outward, with her feet planted firmly on the lip of stone. The rope tensed in her fingers. And held her.

Your small-act-of-defiance ritual, Vilya had dubbed this preliminary testing. Couldn’t she have found a better climbing partner? Etienne asked the staring orb of the Eye. Why Duran? Just because he had provided chromosomes for her daughter? Or had she been trying to wound Etienne—replacing the expert partner with the novice?

It had cost her her life.

There are a hundred labs that can put a kid together for you, she had yelled during their last fight. They could recombine your own gametes. They could use my DNA and… fix what’s wrong. Her voice hadn’t given her away when she had said that. Wrong, because that was how Vilya thought of her empathic talent. As a burden—too much for a child to have to bear.

Vilya had refused to get angry. If we create her, she had said implacably, if some technician snips out sections of your code and replaces them, then what is she? Not you—not me—but our construct. I don’t want that. I want her to be her own person—not our creation.

You’re in love with this Duran, aren’t you? Etienne’s angry words had scalded her throat. Don’t give me that artificial insemination song again either. Maybe I’m a failure, a genetic mutation, but that’s not really the issue, is it? You just want to fuck him!

Vilya had walked out of their condo and closed the door gently behind her. That had hurt the worst—that she hadn’t even slammed the damn door. Etienne had packed and left that afternoon. She didn’t know if Vilya had ever come back to the apartment.

Far below, still water filled the fiord-like channel between this cliff and the rounded mountains beyond. Their blue-white images reflected in water that gleamed purple beneath the baleful glare of the Eye. No wind down there? Maybe the Eye was just trying to blow them off the cliff, she thought bitterly.

She turned around in time to see Zynth lift her face to the Eye, hands weaving a graceful pattern in the air.

Acceptance? Reverence? Worship?

A human empath could read only a few universal emotions. Beyond that, you guessed what the Rethe were really feeling. Zynth’s head was bowed now, and Etienne caught the gleam of tears on her face, within the shadow of her thermal suit’s hood. Her grief she could be sure of. Without another word, Etienne began to rappel cautiously down the cliff. When you trust your rope, your life seeps into it and it becomes part of you. You feel the solid mass of the anchoring stone, feel the quivering strain in the rope as if it is your own tendon and ligament straining, your fingers wrapped around that ring of steel far above. The biofiber rope tensed like muscle in her gloved hands.

The wind snatched at her, tiying to smash her against the wall. Teeth clenched, Etienne fought it. The cliff face was sheer, polished to a smoothness that was eerie. It made her wonder if the damned wind blew forever up here. Grit stung her face and she regretted that she hadn’t asked for goggles. The only holds were tiny cracks and uneven protrusions. It would be a bad climb back up.

And he was down there. Duran. She had picked the wrong place to go over—he was off to the right. She wondered if he had tried to climb down—if he was that stupid. From above, Zynth’s flash beam probed the darkness, a weak finger of light that didn’t penetrate much below Etienne’s position.

An eye for an eye. The words shivered through her and Etienne paused for a moment, looked up to meet the Eye’s stare. She remembered those words most clearly from her childhood brush with religion: An eye for an eye. A life for a life.

Duran’s consciousness was like a whisper in the darkness. His lack of skill had cost Vilya her life. It had cost Vilya’s infant daughter a mother. Etienne’s groping foot came down hard on a ledge and the shock jarred up through the top of her skull. Standing on the bare meter of polished stone, Etienne listened to the wind and the faint murmur of Duran’s dying. Maybe Zynth’s flash beam would find him. Maybe not. He wouldn’t live much longer. Until daylight?

“Zynth?” She raised her voice. “I hear only wind.” Only truth beneath the Eye’s stare. She met it, cold inside, maybe cold forever—but everything has a price. “I’m coming back up.”

“No.” The determination in Zynth’s voice pierced Etienne with memory.

You can’t quit the team, Vilya had said, again and again, when Etienne got tired of the endless meetings, the familiar boring dance of diplomat circling diplomat. We need to understand the Rethe, we need to learn that we are their equals. If we don’t, our spirit will die.

Throat tight, she threaded the loose end of the rope through the autobrake, and searched the rock face in front of her for a toehold. The living rope quivered and she looked upward. “Stop!” she cried as the dark shape of Zynth backed out over the cliff edge. “Zynth, go back up!”

“I cannot.” Zynth’s voice was calm. “This is my punishment—that I should risk my life.”

“That anchor won’t hold us both!” Etienne’s fingers clenched uselessly around her own rope. “Zynth! Stop!”

Zynth’s foot slipped on the polished stone face. Etienne sucked in a gasping breath as the Rethe skidded downward, but the rope jerked her to a bouncing stop before she had fallen more than three meters. Either she had managed to use the auto-brake but not properly, or this living rope had the ability to stop a fall. “Climb back up,” she croaked. “Before the anchor goes, if you have to come down here, I’ll put in another anchor. Do it now.”

Too late. A gust of wind slammed along the cliff face, striking Etienne like a giant fist. Staggering, gasping for breath, Etienne skidded across the narrow ledge. The rope was stretching, thinning as it took up the strain. Then stone crumbled beneath her, and she dangled briefly over the void. The rope gave. Etienne threw her weight forward, clawing her way onto the ledge.

The anchor was breaking loose. “Climb up!” she screamed into the howling wind. “Damn it, Zynth, climb up.”

Another hammering fist struck them. A vague shape flapped along the edge of the cliff, stooping like an alien bird of prey. The habitat had torn loose from its anchors. For a moment Zynth was obscured by the twisting folds of plastic. Then the rope convulsed in Etienne’s hands and went slack. Zynth’s scream echoed from the walls as Etienne flung herself against the face of the cliff. Zynth’s falling body was directly above her—seeming to drift downward in slow motion. In another moment, she would hit, would smash her downward and outward, and they would both fall into that dark void beneath the Eye’s mocking stare.

Because I lied, Etienne thought.

Zynth’s wide eyes met hers for a second, sharing fear, sharing death. Then her body twisted convulsively, and she hit the wall, rebounding as she clawed for a hold.

She missed Etienne, hit the widest part of the narrow ledge. Etienne threw herself on top of her, knowing that it was a stupid thing to do, that they would both go over. Her toes dug into the slippery stone as Zynth’s momentum torqued them both toward the lip of darkness.

They stopped, poised on the brink, still alive. Etienne inched her way backward, arms around Zynth, pulling her away from that dark drop. “Zynth?” she breathed, her heart pounding in her chest. “Are you hurt?” Zynth sobbed once deep in her throat, burrowed her face against Etienne’s shoulder. “Yes,” the whisper was a breath of terror. “It hurts so bad. Inside.” Her body tensed convulsively within Etienne’s arms. “What if I’m damaged? Etienne? I… I can’t be damaged.”

She was so young—perhaps too young yet to have learned she was mortal. It could come as such a shock to you to realize that you could really die. “It’s all right. It’s going to be all right.” She stroked Zynth’s hair, holding her close, smothering her own fear. “I’m going to climb up,” she murmured. “I’ll get Grik. She’ll bring help.” Oh God. The Gateway. The Rethe could come and go, but not humans. Not without a Rethe.

“I’m afraid,” Zynth whispered. “Don’t leave me?”

Don’t leave me. The words echoed through the black tunnel of the past, and Etienne raised her face to the Eye, remembering the image of Vilya’s pale face on her e-mail screen. Don’t leave me, Etienne. I love you. Why can’t you understand? When Etienne hadn’t answered, she had sent no more mail. “I may not be able to leave you.” The words caught in her throat, choking her. “The Gate…”

“It’s all right.” Zynth drew back a little, her face clearing, pain lines smoothing into an expression of peace. “Etienne… I need to tell you…” She lifted her hand, fingers opening like the petals of a flower. Gently she touched Etienne’s face. “I wish… you could have been… other than what you are.” She closed her eyes, her fingers exploring the planes of Etienne’s face as if to commit it to memory. “You can go and I won’t be afraid.” She opened her eyes, her smile making her beautiful. “You will need to take the key. It’s just below my collarbone. On the left.”

“Key?”

“To the Gate. You will have to take it out.” She shuddered. “But it is just beneath the skin, so it should not hurt much.”

So, the Rethe’s ability to manipulate the Gateways was not an inborn psychic ability, as they had claimed! They used tech after all! Even as these thoughts were running through her head, Etienne had clicked on her flash and was opening the neck of Zynth’s suit, feeling beneath her shirt. Her skin was clammy and her skin had gone pale. Shock? Internal bleeding? Her pain was seeping shrilly into Etienne’s head, as she found a tiny subdermal lump just below the knob of Zynth’s left collarbone. She looked into Zynth’s wide eyes, brushed sweaty hair back from her forehead. “I’ll be quick,” she said softly.

“Thank you.” Zynth swallowed. Her eyes followed Etienne’s hand as it slid into the pocket of her suit to retrieve her laser blade. As Etienne thumbed it on, Zynth shuddered and closed her eyes.

Etienne placed a restraining hand on her shoulder, but Zynth lay utterly still as the tiny beam of energy sliced neatly through the skin just above the sphere. She caught her breath as Etienne pinched the embedded sphere free of the surrounding tissue, but made no other sound. “Press.” Etienne placed Zynth’s fingers over the gash. “It’s not bleeding much.” Fingers red with Zynth’s blood, she studied the sphere. It was made of a matte black material, was about the size of a garden pea. Carefully, Etienne slipped it into an inside pocket on her suit, sealed the pocket closed. “I’m going to climb up. It shouldn’t take me too long. We’ll be back soon.” She leaned down to kiss Zynth gently on the forehead. “I promise.”

Zynth’s eyes opened and she reached up to cup Etienne’s face between her palms. “I know you’ll come back.” She kissed Etienne slowly, sensuously, on the lips. “Be careful.”

“I will.” Etienne got stiffly to her feet. The damned wind had died, as if the Eye had accomplished what it had wanted to accomplish. Or maybe it thought that they were trapped. You’ve never watched me climb, Etienne told it silently. When I come back, I will come back for them both. She bowed slowly, formally to the Eye, then turned and searched for the first holds.

You never look down. You look up, to the sides, focus on that next crevice or ledge where you might jam fingers or toes. You don’t think about wind or the seconds ticking by as a girl dies.

And a man, too. She caught a whisper of Duran’s delirium, pressed her lips together, and eased her weight upward.

You don’t look at the top, either. Not after your muscles start to shake and your fingers are numb and you know that you can’t do this a whole lot longer. So when she reached up, groping blindly, and her hand slapped down on level ground, she almost lost her grip and fell. With a final spasm of exhausted muscles, she shoved herself upward, lunging over the edge to flop belly-down onto the blessed stone. For awhile she simply lay there, panting and shaking. Then she forced herself to her feet.

It was still dark—didn’t dawn ever come here?—and the habitat was gone, of course. Etienne staggered to her feet and stumbled away from the cliff edge. Clutching the tiny key, she headed for the place where the Gate had been. For a moment she thought that it wasn’t going to work—there was still nothing to see. Then, in an eyeblink of time, she stepped through into the dusty square near the squatter village. The shacks and pre-fab cottages drowsed in the hot afternoon sun, and Grik sat beneath a tower of branching turquoise silicate that housed a native hive creature.

Asleep, her head leaning back against the stem of the structure, Grik’s face was carved into gaunt lines of worry, or exhaustion. She jerked awake as Etienne approached.

“Where is… it.” She bolted to her feet.

“Hurt.” Etienne took a single step toward her, fists clenching. “Are you satisfied? Has she been punished enough, or does she have to die there?”

“You mean… injured?” Grik’s face had gone pinched and white. “She needed to risk herself, yes… but to be injured…” Outrage filled her voice. “How could you let that happen? Impossible!”

“I was right,” Etienne said coldly. “About why you hired me.”

“Enough.” Grik was already striding toward the gate. “How badly is she injured?”

“I don’t know.” Etienne had to trot to keep pace with her. “She said it hurt inside.”

Grik made a short ugly chopping gesture with both hands. “Remain here.”

She took a single long stride into the air and vanished.

How the hell did they know where the damn Gates were? Etienne wondered. More buried hardware? She wasn’t buying the “higher evolution” explanation any more. She looked toward the cottages. A girl peeped at her from the sparse reed bed that grew along the south side of the square. She ducked out of sight when she saw Etienne looking. Her excited curiosity came to Etienne like the bright smell of rain on summer dust. Etienne smiled at her, closed her fist around the black sphere, and stepped through the Gateway.

A dozen Rethe clustered at the top of the cliff. Light globes mounted on long poles flooded the area with blue-white radiance and four of the Rethe lowered a stretcher. Another Rethe was just clipping herself to an anchor. Fast response time, Etienne thought cynically. They must have been waiting at another Gate for just such an emergency. This whole escapade felt more and more orchestrated. She didn’t see Grik, but another anchor and rope suggested that she might be below. Etienne walked over to the small red-haired Rethe who was about to climb over the edge and put a hand on her shoulder. The Rethe recoiled with a sharp clap of her cupped palms, but Etienne ignored her as she unclipped the rope from her harness.

They had researched her well enough to give Zynth a rope without a clip, knowing that Etienne always tied off. With an angry snap, she secured the clip to the harness she still wore. The Rethe was saying something, but Etienne ignored her. Grabbing the ropes, she stepped over the edge. No time for small defiances now. She was going for a big one. The Eye stared down impassively as she bounced fast down the wall, ignoring caution, eyes fixed on the single figure crouched beside Zynth’s curled body.

“What are you doing here?” Grik barely looked up as Etienne knelt beside her.

Zynth’s eyes were closed. Fine blue veins webbed the pale skin of her eyelids, and for a terrible instant, Etienne thought she wasn’t breathing. She touched her throat, felt the reassuring twitch of a pulse before Grik shoved her hand away.

“Don’t touch me again,” Etienne said carefully. “Or I will throw you off this ledge.” Only truth beneath the Eye of God. She smiled thinly as Grik recoiled. “You have used me very thoroughly.” She kept her eyes on Grik’s face. “What did you do? Review the personal profiles of every empath on the planet? Until you found someone who would be highly motivated to keep your breeder safe? She is fertile, isn’t she? One of your national treasures?” Her lips drew back from her teeth. “And you needed to punish her properly so as to satisfy your evolved sense of ethics.” She spat the word. “But you didn’t really want to risk her, eh? An eye for an eye? You haven’t really evolved beyond us, have you? You’ve just learned how to cheat.” She looked down at Zynth. “Well, I took care of her—for her own sake,” she said softly.

“I thank you for the risk you assumed.” Grik’s nostrils flared slightly, but whatever her emotions were, they were too complex for Etienne to read. “That is a difficult climb.” She inclined her head at the sheer cliff face behind her.

“Why did you make her do this?’ Etienne asked softly.

“Your race is sated with fertility. The creation of new life has little value to you.” Her face looked as smooth and hard as marble in the Eye’s cold glare. “For us… there are very few who can rightfully claim the pronouns you so casually toss around. We have avoided the internal strife that has weakened you as a race, but everything has its price. Continuation of our species is a privilege and an obligation that involves the species—above and beyond the individual. You cannot comprehend.” She made a chopping gesture. “The rule that Zynth broke was not a minor infraction. In our society, the failure of the individual is the failure of us all. The punishment—the risk of her loss—was inflicted upon us all.” She stood and looked beyond Etienne. Two more Rethe were descending, guiding the stretcher downward. In a moment, it was going to get very crowded on the ledge.

“The creation of new life isn’t always a casual thing for us, either.” Etienne looked down at Zynth, remembering the trust in her voice. She didn’t look so much like Vilya now. “I care about her,” she said softly. “For herself, not for her face.”

“Do not fantasize, Empath.” Grik’s tone was icy. “Love is only possible with another… appropriate Rethe. That is the way it is.”

Etienne smiled at her. “What is the penalty for lying beneath the Eye?” Grik turned abruptly away to speak to the descending Rethe. Etienne moved back as far as she could along the diminishing ledge. Duran’s dying whispered in her mind. It strengthened suddenly, and a murky image formed in her head—a girl with dark hair, pale, with a spare, elegant face. Etienne felt a piercing grief. Duran’s vision, Duran’s grief. For a rending moment, she thought he was remembering Vilya, but he hadn’t known Vilya when she was that young. And then she realized…

His daughter. Terane.

His daughter. That was how she had thought of the child. She had been a baby when Vilya had died, and Duran had laid legal claim to her. So Etienne had never seen her. Not because Duran had forbidden it. She herself had forbidden it. His daughter. She closed her eyes, but his love and grief beat in her head, filling her brain with the merciless image of the girl who was Vilya’s daughter, too.

Grik believed that Zynth could not love anyone who couldn’t father a child for her. Etienne looked up into the Eye, met its cold stare. “So did I,” she murmured. “Grik!” She raised her voice and the Rethe paused as she was about to begin her climb to the top of the cliff. “Send the stretcher back down,” she called.

“Why?”

“For Duran,” she said shortly. “You sent me here to find him, didn’t you?”

The two Rethe with the stretcher paused and looked down, too, and for a moment there was only the sound of wind across the ledge. “You are correct.” Grik sounded reluctant. “I will… send the stretcher down.”

“How is she doing?’ Etienne forced out the question. Brown and green blobs like fat slugs clung to Zynth’s forehead, chest, arms, and belly. More Rethe biotech? “Grik?”

“She may live.” Grik shrugged and began to climb. After a second, the two other Rethe continued to ease the stretcher up the cliff face.

Go to hell, Etienne thought, but she was too weary to say it aloud. Taking a deep breath, she leaned out over the void. One more small defiance. The living rope quivered in her hands as she turned around, found a toe hold, and began to follow Duran’s grief for his daughter, crevice by crevice, across the face of polished stone.

He lay on another ledge, similar to the one Zynth had landed on. It occurred to Etienne, as she pulled some slack into the rope and knelt beside his huddled body, that they were remarkably regular. Perhaps too regular to be natural, but she was too exhausted to worry about it. In the light of her flash, she saw that Duran’s hair was beginning to go gray, and his face had thinned a bit in twenty years. He was no youth any more, but he looked pretty much as she remembered him. Blood stained the fabric of his thermal suit, red and fresh in one place. That arm was crooked, and a touch confirmed her diagnosis. Compound fracture, and he had bled a lot. Broken leg, too, and probably more damage that wasn’t so obvious. There was no sign of a climbing harness.

His eyelids fluttered as she started to get up. “Wh… who?” he mumbled, squinting up at her. “E… tienne?” Dried blood crusted his lips, and one side of his face was scraped and bruised from the fall. “You?”

She was surprised that he recognized her. She had been older than Duran, when he and Vilya had first been friends. Older, verging on old. Twenty years of search and rescue work had changed her a lot. “It’s me, Duran. Help is on the way.” Maybe. She looked up at the cliff top, yanked on the rope. A part of her half expected it to come loose and fall around her in writhing living coils. Who would know if the Rethe left both of them to die here?

“Hang on,” she said to him. Conscious, his pain beat at her, bad enough to get in past her barriers. She fumbled in her belt pack, took out a couple of pain patches. Two would put him out, or nearly so. She peeled the protective backing from the first patch, smoothed it onto his throat.

She didn’t want any more of his grieving images. But he fumbled a hand up to stop her before she could apply the second patch. “Etienne?”

“Yes, it’s me. Help is on the way.”

“Can you hear it?” His eyes were ringed with white, mundane gray turned to a clear blue by the Eye’s glare. “The voice of God, of their God. It shaped them, hear it? The wind is its breath. It sings to them, Etienne. This is their soul. Zynth told me, and it’s true. This is where they… were born.”

Their soul? Their God? Etienne remembered Zynth, her hands weaving worship on the lip of the cliff. The Eye of God. Not just a casual name dubbed onto an alien landmark then. Their God. Their… homeworld. She looked out into the purple darkness and shivered. No wonder Grik had spoken of Zynth’s transgression as a sin. And it occurred to her suddenly that perhaps Grik hadn’t been searching for an empath who would protect a precious breeder.

Perhaps she had been searching for an empath who would kill.

“I wanted… to tell you… how she died.” Duran was losing consciousness as the drugs hit him. “It was my fault. I… tried to stop her fall, but she… had too much rope. She… cut it. So I wouldn’t fall, too. I… tried to tell you. I’m… so sorry, Etienne. I should have stopped her fall. So… sorry… His eyes closed and his hand fell away from her wrist.

So Vilya had fallen, not he. And she had relinquished her last chance of life, in order to save Duran. So that her daughter would have a parent?

And if you had been there, Etienne? To be a parent? That was what Vilya wanted.

The whisper in her head was in her own voice, but she looked up at the Eye. Slowly, she got to her feet. The accident report was public record. She could have looked it up any time in the last twenty years. If she had wanted to know.

Only truth beneath the Eye of God?

Something scraped loudly behind her and she started. It was the stretcher bumping down the face, followed closely by the two Rethe. “He has a broken arm and leg,” she called up to them. “Maybe internal injuries. I’ll help you move him.”

She wasn’t sure how flexible Rethe ethics might be, after all.

But the team was efficient and careful. They helped her strap Duran into the stretcher, and guided him silently up the face of the cliff. The wind eased off again, as if this god was willing to let them depart in peace now. At the top of the cliff, the remaining two Rethe unhooked the stretcher from the ropes, and carried it silently through the Gateway. Grik and Zynth had disappeared. Etienne trudged after them, exhaustion dragging at her. The two Rethe who had climbed with her flanked her. Oh yeah. Operating the Gateway, because she was a mere human. They didn’t realize yet that she had a key. Etienne blinked as they emerged from night into bright day. The same girl was still at the edge of the plaza, playing some game with a ball and bits of empty reed shell.

The girl leaped to her feet as the Rethe set the stretcher down in the dust and went running barefoot across the dusty ground, her shift flapping around her thighs. She was heading for the small medical clinic.

Etienne sighed as her Rethe escort made identical wiping motions with their left hands. Good riddance? Farewell? Still silent, they walked back through the Gateway and vanished. Wanting only to drag herself home and climb into bed, Etienne squatted beside the stretcher. She was already sweating in her thermal suit, and she unsealed it. Duran was still alive. She held his wrist, his pulse faltering beneath her fingertips. “I don’t like you,” she said softly. “I don’t think I can change that.” Three of the squatters came running toward her, dust rising from their feet. “But I don’t blame you anymore,” Etienne said. And she looked up automatically, as if the Eye would be there in the off-blue sky.

It wasn’t, of course. The squatters—two men and a woman in cut-offs and grimy shirts—arrived. “I’m the med-tech,” said one of the women. “Pick up an end and give us a hand,” she snapped at Etienne. “Then you can tell me what’s going on here.”

The reeds swayed and rattled, happy in the morning sun. Etienne kneaded bread dough in her small hands-on kitchen, listening to the familiar susurration. The reed-song soothed her as the dough stretched and flattened beneath her palms. But as she shaped a round loaf, the reeds’ song changed to a scattered rattle. A visitor? Etienne wiped her hands on a towel, scrubbing briefly and vainly at the drying dough on her fingers.

She hoped it wasn’t Duran, come to thank her for saving his life. But it had only been three days since the accident. The med-tech at the squatters’ clinic had told her it would be at least a week before Duran could be released. Medical technology was less than cutting-edge out here.

Tossing the towel onto the counter, she crossed the small living room in three strides and flung the door open. She had tried to hide it from herself—how much she wanted it to he Zynth waiting on the porch. The sight of her actually standing there took Etienne’s breath away, and made her blush, because she felt about as transparent as a teenager in the throes of true love.

“May I come in?” Zynth sounded as uncertain as Etienne felt. Her hand lifted in the direction of her shoulder, and Etienne followed its movement. Ah yes. Grik was hovering. Of course.

“Please do.” Etienne was impressed with the cool graciousness of her tone. What a lie! She backed, held the door open as Zynth walked through, then closed it firmly, before Grik could follow. “Would you care for tea?”

“We began here.” Zynth stood in the middle of the floor, her arms at her sides. “It seems like a long time ago, but it was not.”

“You’re all right,” Etienne said softly.

“Yes.” Zynth’s smile faltered. “If you had not climbed…” She shook her head, her hair sliding forward to hide her expression. “I don’t think Grik believed that… I would climb down. I think it believed that I would be too afraid, that I would humiliate myself in sight of the Eye.”

The Eye. Etienne heard all the nuance now. Maybe you could begin to understand another race once you caught a glimpse of their soul. “Your homeworld,” she said softly.

“Is it such a sin, for you to know?” Her hands lifted in a fragile, pleading gesture. “We hide so much from you. Why?”

“Because I think we are too much alike,” Etienne said softly.

Zynth smiled. “On that ledge, I was not afraid. I knew that you would not let me die.”

The words made her shiver, and Etienne clenched her fists at her sides. She averted her head as Zynth stepped close.

“I will remember you forever.” Her breath tickled Etienne’s throat, warm as summer. “Please realize how much I… care.”

“You’re saying goodbye.” Etienne’s voice was harsh.

“I do not think that we will meet again.” Zynth’s voice trembled. “It is… a tremendous sorrow.”

“Grik won’t let it happen, you mean. Grik is afraid of me.” Etienne clasped her hands behind her back, resisting the urge to grab Zynth by the shoulders and kiss her, or shake her. “I… love you.” And she bit her lip because she hadn’t meant to say those words out loud. Not ever.

“No,” Zynth whispered. She was trembling. “It is my choice, not Grik’s. I am afraid of you. Because I can forget that you are… other.”

“That’s right.” Etienne didn’t try to soften the bitterness in her voice. “You can only love another breeder. I forgot.”

“You do not understand,” Zynth said softly. “Grik says you would not, and I think now, that it is right.” Her fingers were gentle on Etienne’s face.

“I wish you a wonderful life,” Etienne said through clenched teeth. “I hope you find a nice fertile he.”

Zynth’s sigh touched her like the last warm wind of fall. “I am a giver, not the one who nurtures the life within.” She laughed softly, sadly. “A he, as you say.”

Anthropomoiphism, Etienne thought dizzily. Look at a child with the face of a girl you once loved, and what do you see? Not a man. The irony was so wonderful. She laughed.

“I am sorry.” Zynth stepped back, affront in the stiff posture of her body.

“I’m laughing at me, not you.” Etienne held out her hand, didn’t let herself flinch as Zynth took it. “Don’t mind me. I’m old and bitter, and I see ghosts. I really do wish you… love. And children.”

“Thank you.” Zynth’s smile was beautiful, but still tinged with sadness. He paused with his hand on the door, looked back over his shoulder. “I love you, too,” he said. “For all that it is wrong.”

Then the door closed behind him and he was gone. Etienne sat down on a floor cushion and listened to the reeds whisper their contentment to the summer heat. Love was another universal. Like pain, and fear. And grief. She rested her forehead on her knees and didn’t cry. After a time—when the Rethe had had plenty of time to leave—she got up. Her joints still ached from her climb, and she felt suddenly old—as old as she really was.

Outside, the sun was high. The reeds brushed her thighs as she waded through them, touching her like a lover’s fingers. The girl wasn’t at the plaza today. Etienne strode across the open space and stepped onto the unmarked patch of ground that should be a Gate.

Her foot landed on gray stone, and the Eye stared dispassionately down. Slowly, Etienne walked over the broken remains of the habitat’s anchor, and stopped on the lip of the chasm. Far below, blue-white mountains reflected in still water like purple ink. Duran had heard the soul of a people in the song of this world. Is that what you loved about him, Vilya? Braced against the gusts, Etienne lifted her face to the Eye. Duran’s ability to hear—like her empathic sense, but different? Safer?

Truth only, beneath the Eye of God. She bent her head and the first tears spotted the cracked stone where her anchor had pulled loose. Tears for Vilya, because she had never cried for her—no—she had never let herself cry. And for herself, because Terane could have been her daughter, as well as Duran’s and Vilya’s.

And for Zynth who would find someone to love who was as fertile as she… he… was. Because he had to.

Etienne wondered if Terane had inherited Duran’s ability to image a soul in light and music. She turned her back on the cliff and the Eye, trudged slowly back across the gray stone. At the edge of the Gateway, she paused, her fingers curling around the sphere that was the key to this technology. “You want truth?” Etienne looked up at the Eye. “Our awe is wearing thin. It’s time for us to look you in the eye.” Courtesy of Duran. “We’re good at unraveling tech.” As she stepped forward, she wondered if her old boss Anton would be surprised to hear from her. Maybe not.

Her foot landed in sun and dust, and her ears filled with the whisper of reeds. She didn’t turn toward home. Instead, she began to trudge past the squatters’ shacks toward the clinic. She didn’t want to know how much Duran might have loved Vilya, but she needed to talk to him. She needed to ask about… their daughter. She needed an address. Too late to be a mother, maybe she could be a friend, offer another version of Vilya. Maybe not, but she could try.

The reeds sang contentment, and the dust puffed up from beneath her feet to blow away on the wind.